第5章
“哦！我收回。”
shenmedongjingdoumei，laobanhaishipazaidishangtushetou，bieniudehuangdongzhe**。
“sange，bushininzheimeshuode......”
“neishizenmeshuode？laobanninhaiyaojiaowoshuohuabucheng？”
“bushi——bushi——”
kanzhetayiliandekuxiang，dele，qianyenale，xinlizaojiulekailehua，yiqianzaitashoudixiashoudeeqiyexiaole，zhiyuwoshuodehuadaodiyoumeiyouyongwojiubuzhidaole。
“woxianzaiyouqianle，buxuyaolaobanninjiwozuogoule，ninhaishijixuzuonindelaobanba。yiqianzenyangjiuzenyang，wozheixiaolouluojiubudaraoninqingjingle。”
shuowan，wosashoujiuwangwaizou，caimaichuqu，turanganjueshizhishangzhenzhabandeyizhentengtong，taiqishouyikan，shizhiluchuyigehonggu，jiuxiangshineimeijiezhi。
keqiguaideyeshizaizheier，woshouzhitouyitongdeshihou，laobantanruandepazailedishang，haojigetongshizhengyaoqufuta，laobanqueshizijihaoshengshengdezhanleqilai，wozhuanshenkanleguoqu，lazheyizhangliandelaobanganjinjichuxiaolaiweiweinuonuodekanzhewo。
kanjiantahuifulezhengchang，woxinlichulexinjinghehaipa，zaijiushikuangxia。zheicaibudaobantiandeshijianjiudaoshouyibaiwan，neigehongyinvrenhejiezhiwosuiranbuzhidaodaodishishenmedongxi，kezheiqianlaideyetairongyileba。
gaoxingguigaoxing，neigebaomacheshangdenanrenzaizheidangkouzaiyicichuxianzainaozhong，xindishengqiyizhenhanyi，youlvdexingenzheqilaile。
suanle，fanzhengbuzhidaozenmehuishi，nengxiaosayishishiyishiba。
zouchugongsi，wozhanzhuanlehaojigeatmji，chaleyoucha，quexinkalizhendejiuyouyibaiwan，youshanlezijiyierguang，padedazailianshangqueshibushizaizuomeng，henbudezouludouyongtiaode。
愧疚？
愧疚是不存在的。
laobanyizhijiububawomendangren，zijizhuanlebuzhidaoduoshaoqian。zaishuo，wozheiyeshikaobenshizhengdeqianbushima？niyaoshishuohuazheimeyouyong，niyekeyizhenga。
zheituranyouleyibaiwan，xinlitoufanershikongkongde，shengchuleyiduizizhuanqiande“menlu”，yaoshuozheiyuwanghaizhenshijiqikepadedongxi，jiuxiangpanduolamohe。
huanghuangyouyoude，buzhibujuedejiudaoleshizhongxin，zhenghaoganshangduziele，tiaoleyijiabucuodecantingchilegefan，youzaishangchangliguanglehaobantian，ganjueyouxiepiaole。
zheiyizhuanyou，zhuanyanjiudaolewanshang，nihongluoxia，zheichengshiliuguangyicai，jieshanghaochebuduan，duoshaodabanyanlidenvlangdengzhexinzhongde“gaofushuai。”
wozhanzailubianyouxiechushen，turan，wokanjianlechadianbawohechuxinzangbingdeyimu，zuotianneiliangbaomachehengzhedeweizhiyouyigeshuxideshenying，heranjiushineigesuichengyiduidenanren。tahunshenshixue，yizhijiaoguizhe，lingyizhituizhizhidedazaidishang，beitatuozhezou。
zhouweichelaichewang，tadeshenyingruoyinruoxiande，wokantazaidishanghuangmangdesichumosuo，xiangshiyigemangrenzaidishangmosuozijidiaozaidishangdehenzhongyaodedongxiyiyang。
“tahuibuhuishizaizhaojiezhi......keshitabushiyijingsilema？neixiechecongtashenshangnianguo，jiuxiangshinianguokongqiyiyang——tabushiren！”
wohedeshenziyizhen，huangmangwanghoutui，huangranjiancaidaolebieren，shenhouyourenfachuyishengjianjiao，woshishendezhuanguoshendaoleshengqian，zaicihuitoudeshihouneilushangyijingshenmedoumeiyoule，yijiushichelaichewang，queyagenjiumeiyoushenmenanren。
suiranjieshangshenmedoumeiyou，woqueyijingshijingchuleyishenglenghan，xiayishidemozheshizhi，zheiliwoshibugandaile，chenghuangchengkongdedalegechebenjialiqule。
chuzuchetingdaoxiaoqumenkou，yixiachewojiuhuanghuangzhangzhangwangjializou，zongganjueyourengenzhewoyiyang，neizhongganjuehenbushufu。gangzoudaolouxia，hudekanjianloumenkouzhanzheyigeshuxiderenying，shichenying。
kanjianta，youbuyoudexiangdaodangchutagenwofenshoudeliyou，aishangleyigeyoucaihuaderen，tadecaihuashinengdanshoukaibinli。
fachuyishenglengxiao，youxierenbuzhidelianmin。
“nilaiganshenme？buhaohaogennicaihuahengyidelaogongdaizaiyiqi？yihuierzairangtazhidaonilaizhaowo，zhuojianzhuowojialilailekebuhao”wolenglengdeshuodao。
“jiushitarangwolaide，taxiangjianni。”
“meixingqu，qingnirangkai。”
“housan，suanshikanzaiwodemianzishang。”
“meishangliang，woyaohuijia。”
“housan......”
chenyingyouyaoshuohuadeshihouwoyijingqingqingtuikaitajinlelouli，“nidangchushuoxinshangtadecaihua，dangchuwojuedewopeibushangni，he，chenyingachenying。”
womeizuodianti，jinleloudao，zhanzaizhuanjiaobingmeiyoujixuwangshangzou，chenyingyebingmeiyougenshanglai，huoxushitayiweiwoshangloule，yinweiwoqingxidetingjiantafenranshuolewoyiju，“huogaiqiongyibeizi。”
biyeyinianduo，wodiyiciyouleshirandeganjue。
menshangyoutielehaojizhangcuizudeziyang，zheiciwomeiyousi，jingzhidakailemen，jinmendakaidengdeneiyishunjian，xiabachadiandiaodaoledishang，“woca——zheishiwojiama？”
sichukanleyibian，wocaiquexin，meicuo，zheijiushiwojia，zheishifashengleshenme？
zhuozibeixianfan，gezhongdongxidaoleyidi，neigelaojiudebingxiangdaozaidishang，bingxiangmenchangkaizhe，qingqingyipeng，bingxiangmendiaolexialai。chaohoudechuangzibeidasuile，bolizhazisadesichudoushi，yifubeichaolejiadeyangzi，kanzheijiashi，shiyourencongneidasuidechuangzishangcuanlejinlai。
kewozheijialiyiqiongerbaide，sheihuidianjiwoni？
duileyiduzideyiwen，zhuantouyikanmenbeihouxiezheyixingdahongzi，“bieyiweimeirenkanjiannidaizoudedongxi，neidongxibushuyuni，jintiannimeizaisuannizouyun，mingtianwanshangwolaizhaoniqudongxi。”
kanzhemenbeihoudeneixingzi，wolenglelaobantian，shenmedongxi？
戒指？
womobuzhetounao，zheiyiqiejiugenzuomengyiyang，bawoshenghuonongdebianleyifanmoyang。
kejiudiertian，youfashengleyijianguiyixuexingdeshier，zaineizhihouwoduineihongyinvrenhejiezhidaxindishengqileyiguliangyi。