第4章
jingguoyifanwenhua，meiyouzhengju，zuihoubawofangle。
beiwenwanhua，wocaibeibaozikaichesonghuixiaoqu。
huidaoxiaoqushi，tiandoucaheile。
wangri，baozidouhuigenwohuijia，yiqikaiheiwanliangbayouxi，jintiantadexinqinghendiluo。
baozihechenshudeguanxihenyiban，jiushijianguoliangmian，hungelianshueryi。
tananguodezhenzhengyuanyin，yinweilaoshiqianlianlewugudequnzhong，zaolelingdaodepiping，haoxiangbeikoulebanniandejiangjin。
woyinweichenshudequshi，xinqingyehencha，yilushangwohebaozishenmedoumeishuo，daolexiaoqujiufenshougehuigejia。
wojuzhudedifangshixichengchengjiaodexiaoqu，dangchubuzhidaosheidelexiaodaoxiaoxi，shuoxichengchengjiaozheipianyihouhuifazhanweishiqu。
dichanshangjiuzaichengjiaojianfang，dengfangzijianhaohou，shiquguihuawangdongfazhan，xichengzheipianxiaoquyinweidiliweizhipian，zhijiehuangle！
benkeyijuzhuliangbaihudexiaoqu，yejiuzhulewomenlaoshiduideshijihaoren。
womenlaoshiduideren，shiyirenjuzhuyidonglou，yeshixurongxinzuosui，duiwaichuiniubi，doushuozijizuleyidonglou。
xiaoqubaitiankanzhehaihao，kedaolewanshang，yinweimeiduoshaozhuhu，jiumeiduoshaorenqi。
ludengyoufeidian，wuyexiangzhejieyuekaizhi，xiaoqujibenjiushiheiyayade，zhiyoulingxingdehunandeludeng。
pingrilibujuede，kejintian，zongjuedeyinsensende。
qianfangdeshucongheiyayadeyipian，zaihunanyueguangxiashuyingbeiladelaozhang，manyandaolewodejiaoxia。
xiangshiheianzhong，youshenmedongxishenshouyaozhuawodejiaohuai。
wodaleyigejiling，buzijuedijiuwangguangxianchongzudedifangkaoguoqu。
chenshudejiazaisanhaoloudeyilou。
woheshifuzhuzaibahaoloudeyilou，hechenshusuozaidesanhaolouzhenghaoshiaizhede，xiangyaohuijiajiubixuzousanhaolouqianluguo。
yinweijintiandeshi，woxinliyoushinanshou，youshikongju。
此刻天已经全黑了。
zheishihoucongchenshujiamenqianguo，wodexinputongputongdeluantiao，huxiyeshiyufadejicu。
wobenxiangbizheyan，yigemengzizhaguoqu。
kewogangzoudaosanhaoloudebuyuanchu，jiuzailudengxia，jiandaoyigerenying，zheirendunzailudengxia，buzhidaozaiganma！
zheigerenyingbeiduizhewo，kanzhebeiyinghenshuxi，hunshendoushitoule。
zaitatingliudedifang，hainengkandaoyidapiandeshuizi。
wodazhedanziwangqianzouleliangbu，kaojinyixiehou，wofaxian，neirenxiangshigangcongshuililaochulai，yifujiaochu，haiyouzheshuizhubuduandiwangxiadiluo。
doudadeshuizhuzaluozaidimian，fachudidadidadeshengyin，yiguyuxingweishunzhefengpiaolai，wozhiganjueexin。
zoujinhou，wofaxiandunzaidengguangxiadeneiren，chuanzheyijianheisewuxiuduandadehanshan，chenshujintianchuandejiushizheiyishen。
woxinligedengyisheng，zhuanshenjiuyaotaozou。
jiuzaiwoshenzizhuandaoyiban，satuizhunbeitaopaoshi，chenshumengdihuitoukanxianglewo。
chenshuhaishineizhangkushoudelian，zhishiliansefabai，lianshanghaiyoumeigandeshuizi，yanzhongshiquguangcaideta，kanzhexiangshilaoleshijisui。
jiandaozheiyangdechenshu，wonalihaiganduozuotingliu，sayazijiuyaopao。
bucengxiang，huangluanzhizhong，zuojiaoheyoujiaobanzaiyiqi，woshiquzhongxin，zhijieshuaidaozailedishang，laileyigegouchishi。
haihaoshidaozailecaodili，youdianhuanchong，jiuzheiyangyeshuaidewotouyunyanhua，xiongkoutong。
zheixiehaidoushixiaoshi，zaishuaidaozhihou，chenshuzhijiedaolewodeshenbian。
chenshuyongneishuanghaowushengqidiyanjingdingzhewo，wozhiganjuehandonglayuediaorulebingkulong，congtouliangdaolejiao。
陈叔对我道：
“binwazi，nihuanggeshazima！zuoshimaomaozaozaole！haibukuaidianqilai，dengzhelaohanwofunibucheng？”
tingdaochenshuqinqiedekouyin，woxianshiyileng，suihoucaihuanhuanqishen。
qishendeshihou，woyizhidingzhechenshu，fangzhechenshubaoqifanan。
zaiwozhanqilaizhihou，chenshuhaizhanzaiwodeshenbian。
tashayemeizuo，jiuzhigougoudikanzhewo，kandewoxinlimaomaode。
wojinzhangdidao：“chenshu，ni，nibushi，diaoheli......”
houmianneiju‘yansile’，womeigankaikou。
zheikeshiwanshang，chenshuhaizheifumoyang，zaitamianqianti‘si’zi，wozhenpataturanjiubianchengegui。
chenshudehuidarangwosongleyikouqi，tadao：
“zhongridayan，jintianbeidayanzhuoleyan，zheitanianglehuiqi！neijunvshibeixuanwoxizhule，qiangxinglaoshiwozijiyeluoleshui。”
“yejiushilaohanwoshuixinghao，diudiuxiaodexuanwoyexiangxizhuwole，neishizhumeng。”
chenshulianshangdaizheaoqi，youhuifulewangridexiaozhangmoyang。
chenshujiuzheiyang，tidaoyouyong，jiuxiangshibianleyigeren。
shuoshenmezijishiliyujingzhuanshi，nengzaihelidaiqitianqiyebuhuanqi，zaiheliele，jiuzhuahuoyuhuoxiachi。
chenshusuiranaichuiniu，danyouyongdebenshishizhende，zailaoshiduilitadeshuixingjueduidedamuge！
tingzhechenshuchuixu，tabeixuanwoxizhu，yankanjiuyaomeijiudeshihou，tashuangbeiyiyongliputengleliangxia，jiuqingsongdiyouchulexuanwo，worendoushale！
taolixuanwoyouzheimeqingsong？
budengwokaikou，chenshujiuzhuaizhulewodeshou。
chenshudeshouhenliang，henbing，haishihuhudi，jiuxiangshizhuazhuleyitiaonianhuhudeniqiu。
wobeichenshuzhuaidaoleludengxia。
chenshuzhizheludengqiandehuopen，dao：“binzi，bangshubazhiqiandianle！”
congchenshushouzhongjieguogunlundahuoji，kanzheludengxiadezhiqian，woyouxiemihu。
anzhaolaoshirendeguiju，meicilaoshihuijiahou，douxuyaoshayizhidagongji，yongdagongjidexuepixie。
haiyaoshaozhiqian，jibaiheshen，ganxieheshendebaoyou。
dagongjiwomeijiandao，zhijiandaoyidayouyidashiluludezhiqian。
chenshushigeerbadao，pingriliyejiesheng，nengshaozhiqianxieheshenyijingshinandele，zhiwangtashadagongji，haiburuzhiwangguozuchuxian。
dunxiashenzi，womocazhedahuojidegunlun，zheizhonggunlundahuojiyidanshouchaojiutebienanyong。
dahuojibeiwobonongdecicizuoxiang，jiushidaburan。
jiuzaiwobushuangshi，dianhuadingdingdixiangleqilai。
dianhuashibaozidalaide，jieqidianhua，baozijiujiwoleyigezhongbangzhadan。
“binzi，laochendeshitizaixiayouzhaodaole。wozhidaonihelaochenguanxihao！danzheijianshibushinicuo！nibietaizizeshangxinle，zheizhishiyichangyiwai，bushinidecuo！”
自责？伤心？
zheizhongqingxuwoquandoumeiyou。
woxianzaizhiganjueyiguliangqicongwodeweibaguchongdaowodetouding，naozilishihuangzhanghekongju。
chenshudeshitiyijingzaihebianzhaodaole，neiwoshenhoudezheigechenshushigeshenmewanyi？