第3章 带着骨灰博一把

wodaizhewobadeguhuilaidaokunmingdedushiyitiaojie。

ruguozheiciwonengduying,wojiujiwobamaiyikuaimudi,rangtarutuweian。

ruguodubuying,neimewoyejiangrenming。

wohuibawobadeguhuisadaodajinjiangli,rangtasuibozhuliu,zhaodaotazijideguisu。

wobingbuyuanhenwoba,danshi,wobunengrangwogenwomazaishoutatuolei,tahuozhe,womenyaojitahaizhai,tasile,womenyaopinmingjitazhuanqianmaimudi。

我不想我妈太累。

ruguowodubuying,wojiuyaohaohaodegenwomajihuaxinderensheng。

jingxinghuaniaodushishichangshikunmingzuidadedushiyitiaojie,zheilimiandezhubaoyushijiaoyihenduo,yidushiweizhu。

xingzoujiannengtingdaoqiegejideshengyinciqibifu,jiaojiakanjiadeshengyinluoyibujue,changmianshifenhuobao。

dangran,genruilibunengxiangtibinglun,zheilizhinengsuanshigeershoudushishichang。

wozaijiepushangxingzouzhe,xinliyoujihua,danshiyouhenmangran,buzhidaocongshenmedifangzheshou。

wobadiuzaijialideneixiedushideshubenzhishi,wodoukanle,yibianyouyibiandekan,wojuedewodongdushi,keshiconglaimeishijianguo,suoyiduiyunengbunengduying,woxinligenbenjiumeiyoudi。

wokandaoyijiadushidian,limianderentebieduo,dianmingjiaolaoyoudushipu,wojiuzuanjinqule,rendouaicourenaode,youqishidushidian,zhiyouchugaohuofeicuidedushidian,renqicaiduo。

wozoujinquzhihou,tingzheshiqibagerenzaidingzheyikuaifeicuiyilunfenfen,suoyourenduiyuwodedaolai,doumeizenmezhuyi。

wokanzhehuojiashangdeshitou,zheixiejiushishitou,zheiyikuaixiaoxiaodeshitou,nengrangrenyidaobaofu,yenengrangrenyidaoqingjiadangchan。

zaidushixingli,youyidaotiantangyidaodiyudeshuofa。

“xiaoxiongdilaiwana?shoulipengdeshenmeya?zheihezi,kanzhexiangshi……”

wotingdaodianpudexiaoshourenyuanhua,wojiushuo:“guhuihe。”

wodehuashuochulai,suoyourendouhuitoukanzhewo,meigerenlianshangdoudaizheyisijingya。

xiaoshourenyuanlimayaobawotuichuqu,tamadao:“nitamadeshenjingbinga?zanmenzheishidushidian,yingqiandedifang,nidaiyigeguhuihejinlaiganshenme?zhaomeitou?neijiapainilaide?”

wokandaotaxionghandeyangzi,jiuzhidaotawuhuile,tayiweiwoshilaizhaomafande。

wolimashuo:“bushi,woxiangjiwobamaiyikuaimudi,suoyiwolaidushi,ruguoduyingqianle,wojiujiwobamaiyikuaimudi,ruguodushule,wojiubatadeguhuijisadaodajinjiangli。”

tingdaowodehua,suoyourendoudingzhewo,meigerendoujuedebukesiyi。

“yo,zheixiaozi,wozhidaole,shilinyoushengdeerzi,jiushineigeyidaoyingleyibaiwanyidaoyoushuleqingjiadangchandelinyousheng,zheigelinyoushengzhenshisiyouyugu,xianzaihaihaidetaerziyelaidushi,xiaozi,bieluanlai,dushixingbushisuibianjinde,yaominga,nibajiushiqianchezhijian。”

wotingdaoyourenyilunwogenwoba,woxinlibufuqi,danshiwobuxianggentamenlilun,shifeichengbaidoushihuorenshuode,wobasile,tajiuhuogaishourenyilun。

wowen:“zuowoshengyima?”

dianpudelaobanzouguolaile,tashuo:“xiaozi,shengyiwozuo,danshi,biesizaiwomenkou,qianjitianyougerenshulejibaiwan,congloushangtiaoxialaile,jingchajubalaobanjidaizoule,suiranhoulaiyoufangle,keshichumeitoua,keyimainihuo,danshiqianwanbiesizaiwomenkou。”

woxinlihenbufuqi,zenmejiukanbuqiwoni?woyidinghuishuma?

woshuo:“biefeihua,zuoshengyijiuzuoshengyi,fangxin,wobuhuisi,wodehuozhe,haidehuodexianggeyang。”

woshuohuadeshengyindoushichouyede,wohenqi,qitamenkanbuqiwo,qitamenyilunwoba,woxiangzhengzheiyikouqi。

laobanshuo:“xiaozi,tingyouguqia,binibayouguqi,xing,kanninengbunengbinibaminghao,wozheipuzilibadachangkoudeliaozidouyou,younengnaihuochugerenyang,jiushangba。”

wobaguhuihebaizailezhuozishang。

woshouyouxiedou,kanshuxuexijingyanshiyihuishi,qinshoulaidushiyoushilingwaiyihuishi。

erqie,woxinliyalitebieda,ruguowoyingle,wolinchennitiangaiming,woyaoyiluzouxiaqu,woyaobawobameizouwandelu,wojitazouwanle。

woyaoshishule,woqinaidebaba,taweiyiliuxiadeguhuijiudesadaodajinjiangli,wotebieburen。

woshenxiyikouqi,zouguorenqun,suoyourendoujiworangdao,neixierenkanwodebiaoqing,tebiedeburenxin,haoxiangyigehaiziyaozouruqituleyiyang,tamendouxianglayiba,danshimeirennengladedong。

wobuzaihutamenzenmexiang,xianzaiwozhixiangzouwozijixuandelu。

wozhanzaipuzilikanzhepuzilideyuanshi,zheixieshitoulaizimiandiangegechangkou,suoweidechangkoujiushichuchanfeicuidediqu。

meigediquchuchandefeicuidoushibutongde,pinzhidoubuyiyang。

dushixingyouyijuhua,jiaozuodushibushichangkou,suoyidushizhiqian,bixuyaoxuanduichangkou。

dushiyouduzhong、di、wu、shui、xuan、songhua、lieliu、mianhezazhizhifen,danguigendaodizuizhongyaodeshiduse。

有色的翡翠就值钱。

xiangyaodudaoyousedefeicui,shouxianyaoxuanrongyichusedechangkou。

badachangkouzhong,xinshourongyishangshoudechangkouyoudamakan,houjiang,haiyoumuneichangqudeliaozi。

damakanshimiandiandeyigediqumingzi,zheigechangkoudeshitourongyichuhuangjialvdefeicui,danshixingjiabibugao,houjiangdeliaozijibendouyouse,danshiliehenduo,xinshouzuihaobiepeng,yinweigui,erqiebuchuhuo。

muneideliaozishilaochangqudeliaozi,xinshoulaoshoudoushifenkuaizheigechangkoudeliaozi。

“munei”,shifeicuishichangshangyigedangcijiaogaodezhongliao,yixianyanjunyundelvse、toumingqingchedeshuitouzhucheng。

zuizhuyaodeshimuneizhangkudeliewenxiangduijiaoshao,zhiyaochuhuoyibandounengzuochulaidongxi,danshizhongdebianhuajiaoda,congdouzhongdaobolizhongdouyou。

youdiangenquedianbingcun,suoyixinshougenlaoshoudouhenkuaizheigenengchugaohuodechangkou。

wozaihuojiashangzhaoleyiquan,zhaodaolemuneichangqudeliaozi,zheixieliaozidoushixiaoliao,bazhangda,danshihengui,sanbaiduoyigongjin。

wozheiyiqiankuaiqianyezhinengmaisangongjinzuoyou。

laobanzouguolai,youxieweinandiwenwo:“zhidaozenmeduma?”

woshuo:“zhidao,zheishimuneichangqude,muneiyangmeipide,disancengdeliaozi。”

tingdaowodehua,bushaorendoulengleyixia,huoxugenbenmeixiangdaowojurannengkandedongchangkou。

wokanzhelaobanyakouwuyanle,wojiujixuxuanliaozi,kandedongchangkoushiyihuishi,nengbunengdudeyingyoushiyihuishi。

woturankanzhongleyikuailiaozi,zheikuailiaozizhiyoubazhangdaxiao,wonaqilaidianliangleyixia,dagaisangongjinzuoyou。

zhisuoyikanzhongzheikuailiaozi,shiyinweiliaozidepiqiao,keyihenmingxiandikandao,zheiyikuaifeicuiyuanshideshalishihenxinide,kanzhezhengtidejinmiduyebucuo。

suoyishuo,zheiyikuaifeicuiyuanshiqiekaihou,limianderouzhiyinggaiyeshixiangdangxinide。

buguoyeyouquedian,piqiaosuiranshalijiaoxi,danshizhengtijirendeganjuejiushipiqiaobugoujinmi。

suoyi,zhongjiubuhuihenlao,danshiyebuhuitebiedenen。

buguozheikuailiaozizaisuoyoudeliaozili,biaoxianyijingsuanshixiangdanghaodele。

woxiangyaokankandadengzhihoudeyuanshibiaoxian,woshuo:“laoban,nengbashoudiantongjiewoyongyixiama?”

tingdaowodehua,bushaorendouxiaohuaqilai,dushijuranbudaishoudiantong,zhenshiwaixing。

shitouzaidengguangxiadebiaoxiangenpingchangdebiaoxianshiwanquanbuyiyangde,suoyihenduorenweilenengkandaoshitouneibudebiaoxian,douhuiyongqiangguangdengzhaosheyuanshi,zheiyangjiunengpanduanfeicuilimianyoumeiyouyanse。

laobanbunaifandebashoudianjiwo。

wodakaileshoudian,zaiyuanshishangdadeng。

dadengxiaqu,shuitouhenzhang,erqiemingxiankandaoshalishijiaoxide,guangdezhaoshemianjiyekanbudaoxiangcuyanyiyangyiliyilididuijizaiyiqi。

suoyi,zheiyikuaifeicuiyuanshiderouzhishihenxide。

zheixiebiaoxian,rangwoxinlidouyoudile。

woshuo:“laoban,zheikuaiduoshaoqian?”

laobanbawoshoulideyuanshijifangzaidianzichengshang,sangongjinkuaidaosigongjinle。

laobanshuo:“bieshuowoqifunia,qiangshangxiezheni,sanbaiyigongjin,zheikuaisigongjinle,woshouniyiqianer,buguiba。”

wotingzhe,jiuwojinleshou,woshuo:“wojiuyiqiankuai,nengmaima?”

laobanzeleyixia,shuo:“nidaigeguhuihelaiwodianli,woyaoshibumai,wotamadechumeitou,suanlesuanle,suanwodaomei,maijinile,danshi,shulebiesiwomenkou。”

wodianlediantou,ganjindebakoudailideyiqiankuaiqiannajilaoban。

laobanmeijizheshouqian,tashuo:“ai,suanle,wojinitiaoyikuaiba,zheikuaiwokanzhebuxing。”

wolimashuo:“buyong,wojiuduzheikuai,shuyingdoubuguannideshi。”

suoyourendoukanzhewo,juedewotingjueqiangde,laobanyebunaifandishuo:“xing,shengsiyoumingfuguizaitian,yidaoqiongyidaofu,kanniyunqile。”

woganjinnazheshitouquqiegejibianshang,wobashitoujiaojiqieshitoudeshifu,woshuo:“duiqieba。”

shifukanzheshitou,yanjiuleyixia,zhijiefangzaiqiegejishangduiqie。

dushidedufayouhenduozhong,ca,mo,qie,zheilimianyiqieweizhu,yidaoxiaqu,yejiunengjianshengsile。

wokanzheqiegejizhuandongqilai,mocashitoudeshengyin,rangwoshunjianxinjingroutiaoqilai,woconglaimeiyouzheizhongjinzhangdeganjue。

neizhongkanzheshitoubeiyidiandiandeqiekai,jiuxiangshiwodemingyunbeiyidiandiandeqiekaiyiyang。

wobuxiangbeirenkanbuqi,woxiangyouchuxidehuozhe,woxiangjiwosiqudebabamaikuaimudi。

我的愿望很简单。

danshiwoxinliqingchu,yidaoqiongyidaofu,nengbunengduyinggenwoxiangbuxiangshiliangmashi。

我只能听天由命。

wobashinengmaizaimudili。

还是被洒在江河里。

就看这块石头了。