第1章
立冬，鹅毛大雪。
“era，kaikaimenba！waibianshizhendetailengle，niangkuaibeidongjiangle！”
hanlebanwanshang，lilaotaidesangzizaojiuyale，shenshangdepomianyizaojiububaonuan，pianxuehaijiaohuadewangtayilinglizuan，meiyihuierhuale，dongdetahunshenyiduosuo。
“era......”
‘咯吱~’
damenkaile，daerzizhangzhiweizuanzhegediantongchulai，choumeikuliandao：“nianga，bushigennishuolema？mingtiannidasunzidenvpengyoushangmen，niyishenlaorenwei，renjiahuixianqide，nizheiliangtianjiuhuilaofangziweiquyixia，dawanshanghaizaizheierhan，bushirangnierxifubugaoxingma？”
“laofangzikuaitale，gendamaluyoushaqubie？”
lilaotaiduoduokuaidongjiangdejiao，tanqidao：“era，xuetaidale，nengdongsirende，nijiurangwohuiwuba，dabulemingtianwojiudaizaiwuzilibuchulai，buhuirangsunxifuxianqide。”
“bucheng，nisunzishuole，nvfangyanglezhijinguidemao，mingtiandaizheyikuaishangmen，nineijianwuziderangmaozhu。”zhangzhiweiyaoyaotou，kuankuodeshenziduzaimenkou。
“maozaijingui，bideguowoma？era，wokeshininianga！”
lilaotaishenzizhandou，hunzhuoshuangyangunxialiangchuanyanlei，“nijibujide，dangchunihuanbing，yaobushiwoyisixiangbi，nididinengbashenjuanjinima？jiuyinweizheiyang，tayizouershiduonian，zaimeiyouhuiguojia！haiyounimeimei，yaobushiweileniquxifu......”
“xinglexingle！chenzhimalanguzideshi，niyaoniandaoshenmeshihouqu？niang，niyeshuoguo，dasunzijiushinideming，xianzaiweiletanengjiehun，nizuochuyidianxishengyouzalema？”
zhangzhiweiyibianguanmen，yibiandingzhu，“nikuaiqulaozhaiba，mingtianyizaowoyouyaoshajiyouyaozaiyang，yiduidehuoer，wodequshuile！niang，nikebiezaiqiaomenle，fouzenierxifujiuyaoshengqile。”
tingdaoerxifuyaoshengqi，lilaotaiyouzhandouleyixia，tazheigebo、datuideqingzi，doushierxifuqiachulaide。
zhiqiandedaerxifu......bu，zhiqiandedafangduitazuishixiaoshun，zhengtiantianyanmiyuhongzheta，kezicongtabayanglaoqianquandounachulai，yousangshilaodonglihou，neijiubutongle，daerxifubujiaoniangle，dasunzibuhannaile，jiulianerziyekaishiaishengtanqile。
fanzhuoshangtajiayikuairou，jiuyaobeiyinyangguaiqile，manmande，daergentasukule，shuoshijialiqianbugouhuale，roushijinzhangle。xing，tadongshi，roujiubuchile，kehoulaijiushicai、fan，pangfotachiyikoujiushifanzuile，congquniankaishi，daerxifukaishidongbudongjiudatale......
lilaotaimoyibayanlei，zhuanshenshenyijiaoqianyijiaowanglaofangzizou，wuzishihuibuqule，huilaofangzizhaogebeifengxuedediersuoyiwanshangba，fouzechizaoyaobeidongsi。
kedaodishilaoshenzigule，shuangtuibuzhibandaoleshenme，ta‘peng’yishengzaidaozaidi，jutongxilai，taxiangzhanqilai，keshenshangpangfoyaleyizuoshan，tahuangdedahan，“era！kuailaifuwoyiba，woshuaile！era......”
denglianglesanmiao，youxile。
lilaotaiyikexinchenrugudi，renbuzhuhaotaodaku，tazaimeibanfapianzijile，tazheibeizizuitengaidedaerzi、dasunzi，weilejikouliangshi，weileyigekongwuzi，zaojiuxiangrangtasi！
kushengcongshaya，zhujianbiandexuruo，daozuihoujijingwusheng。
baimangmangdedaxueshang，manyanchuyidapianxuese，meiyihuier，youbeidaxuefugai。
人命，如尘埃渺小。
......
“niang，haishininzheizhaogao！naoyichangzisha，zhiguoguorantongyihuanshenle！”
“niang，wozhidaoninduiwohao，ninfangxin，yihouwoyidinghaohaoxiaoshunnin，dengwohaole，wojiuduozhuanqian，jiningaidafangzizhu！”
“nai，xiaohaozuixihuanderenjiushinai......”
lilaotaiwangzhenianqingdedafangsankou，shenqingyizhenhuanghu。
她不是已经死了吗？
zheinandaoshiyinsidiyubucheng？budui，buguangtamennianqingle，zijiyebiandenianqingle，pifuguanghuale，jiaoxiacaideshihaimeitadelaofangzi！
yigedadandeniantoufuxiannaohai，lilaotaixin‘pengpeng’kuangtiaoqilai，jinzhangdao：“xianzaishijijinian？”
“1978niana，niang，nizale？”zhangzhiweishenchushouzaiqinniangmianqianbihualiangxia。
那就对了！
lilaotaiyeshikanguodianshi、xiaoshuoderen，taqueding，zijishizhongshengle！
“niang，wojuedehaishijinkuaibashoushuzuole，wanyizhiguohoubianfanhuiza......”
‘啪！’
lilaotaifanshouyibazhang，zhengshougengshiliangbazhang，zhidaozijidaleile，zheicaitingxiashou，shuangshouchayaodao：“zheishen，zhiguobujuan！”
lianzhongchengzhutou、kuaiyunguoqudezhangzhiweishuaidaozaidi，erduo‘wengweng’jiao，“niang，zazheimekuaitianjiuheilei？”
“傻子！”
daerxiwangcuianandengyiyanzhangfu，youqinnideshangqianchanfulilaotai，“niang，zhiweizenmereninbugaoxingle，ninjiudatamata，keshiguantashengsideshiqing，ninkeqianwanbunengfanhutua！”
‘啪！’
lilaotaifanshouyoushiyibazhang，yaoyalenglengdao：“jiufeidezhiguojuan？niyiweiwobuzhidao，nideshenzangyepipei，bushima？”
yeshizaihoulai，tacaizhidaoxiaoerziweishabuyuanyijuan，weishahuishangxindaolijiachuzou，yuanlaidangchuyijiazizuopeixing，chulexiaoerzi，wangcuiyepipeishangle，shitabuyuanyijuan，caihongpianziji，shuoshibuheshi，shuoshishaoleyikeshenhainengpaidu，huodehaigenghao......
zijijiuzuo，jiunao，bidexiaoerzimingzhidaodaerxishenzangyepipei，quehaishijuanleyikeshen。houlai，yeyinweishangxinquwaibianhejiushuaiduanletui，tingledaerxijijuyinyanghua，liuxiayifengshuxinjiuzoule，congcizaiyemeihuilai。
yijuhua，rangwangcuiyizhanglianxuesejinshi，taxiayishikanxiangzhangfu，nanbuchengshizheizaowendeshuolouzuile？
tayanzhuziyizhuan，baerzituidaolaotaitaimianqian，paizhedatuikuhaoqilai，“nianga，woyaoshiheshi，wonengbujizhiweijuanma？buheshideshenzangqiangxingfangjinqu，huirangzhiweilimasidiaodea！nirenxinkanzhenisunzimeidielema？”
kuhaowan，tatoutouqialeerzipiguyiba。
zhanghao‘wa’yishengkuchulai，baozhelilaotaibozijiukaishihao，“nai！nai！qiuqiuninle！ninjiujiujiuwodieba！xiaohaobuxiangmeidiea！”
dasunzirouhuhudexiaoshouhuanzaizigebozishang，huanzuopingshi，lilaotaikendingxihandebaozhule，kexianzaitazhishilenglengdekanzhexiaojiahuo，pingjingdao：“xiaohaoa，niwenwennaishenshangyouchouweimeiyou？”