shenglisibieconglaibushizuinanguode，wogengxiwangninengfangxiawo，haohaodehuozhe……wojiaojiangyuan，zhangjiangdejiang，
yuanfendeyuan，wodezhangfujiaoxiayan，wohenaita，danwodeshenghuojiuxiangzhiqiankandeneixiesutaodedianyingyiyang，
wohuobuzhangle，suoyiwoyaopaoxiata，woyaopaoxiawodehaizi，
jializhichengbulezheimedadekaixiao……woyaofangqi，zheiyangwomenjiacaiyouhuoxiaqudezige，
shangtianduomebugongpinga，wolianhuoxiaqudezigedoumeiyou……naoaiwanqi，mingmingjiushiyigexiaoxiaodetijian，
wozenmenengdebingni……yishengshuozuiduohaiyouyigeyue，yigeyuenengyouduozhangni？haibugou，
woduoxiangpeizheningningzhangdaya，keshimama，meineimeduoshijianle……woyeduibuqixiayan，
shuohaoyaopeitaneimezhangshijian，
zhongjiushiwoshiyanle……2021nian7yue6ri“womenlihunba……fenkaiduisheidouhao。haiziwobuyaole，
meigeyuejinida8000fuyangfei，gouleba？”zheihuaxiangcuiledudebingzhui，congwohoulonglijichulai，
yehenhenzhajinzijidexinkou。zheishiwozheibeizishuoguozuijueqingdehua，yeshiwoqinshoutuikaizhiaidekaishi。
xiayanlengzhule，neishuangzongshishengmanwenroudeyanjinglishunjianbumanlekunhuoheshoushang：“weishenme？
xianzaibushitinghaodema？womashangjiuyaoshengzhile，zaizanliangnianzanjiukeyihuandafangzile，ningninghaixiao，
taxuyaomamaa！ayuan，bielihunhaobuhao？shibushiwonalizuodebugou？
”tadeshengyindaizhebuyichajuedezhandou。woqiangpozijiyingqixinchang，
yongzuikebodeyanyuwuzhuangqicuiruo：“wobuxiangheqiongrenguoyibeizile！nizongshizheiyanghuabing，
wodengleniyinianyouyinian，kehuibaoni？5nianle！wojizaizhei60pingmidexiaofangzili，
lianhuxidoujuedebiequ！sheixiangheqiongrenguoyibeizi？niyebieshuowoxianpinaifu，qiongkuriziwoguogoule！
”huayinluoxiadeshunjian，judadekuijiujihujiangwoyanmei。jiuzaizheishi，xiaoxiaodeningningfangfoganyingdaoleshenme，
diediezhuangzhuangpaoguolai，jinjinbaozhuwodetui，xiaolianyangzhe，
leizhudakedakegunluo：“mamashibushixianningningtaibenle？ningninghuihaohaoxuexide，
mamabuyaopaoxianingning……”xin，xiangbeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanzhu，tengdewufahuxi。wodebaobeiningning，
mamazenmehuixianniben？mamashishijieshangzuiainiderena！
keshi……mamazuobudaole……yishengbinglengdehuayuzaierbianhuixiang：“naoaiwanqi，jijizhiliaodehua，
shengcunqi……dagaiyigeyue。”mamazhiyou26tianle。yuanliangmama，ningning。yuanliangwo，ayan。
2021nian7yue7rijutongxiangchaoshuibanxilai，yiboqiangguoyibo。fangfoyouwushuximidegangzhenzailuneichuanci，
youxiangyiwanzhimayizaikenshigusui。lenghanshunjianjintouleyishan，woquansuozaibinglengdedibanshang，
lian**deliqidoujihuhaojin。shoujituwudixiangqi，shiyiyuanwangyishengdedianhua，cuiwoquzuohualiao。
“jiangnvshi，nideqingkuang……bixujinkuaikaishixitongzhiliao！suiran……suirannanduhenda，
danjijizhiliaohaishiyouxiwangde，shengcunlvzai42%zuoyou，buyaofangqia！
”wangyishengdeshengyintouzhezhiyedejiqieheyisibuyichajuedetanxi。xiwang？42%？
neixiangtianbianyaobukejidexingguang。kezheixingguangbeihou，shimeiyici2wan5qianyuandedaijia！
jialidecunkuanbodexiangyizhangzhi，zhigouzhichengsancihualiaodefeiyong。sancizhihouni？nandaoyaorangayanmaifang？
rangningningshiquzhefengdangyudejia？rangzhenggejiazhuiruwudishenyuan？bangwan，woyouyiciduiayantichulelihun。
woyongjinquanshenliqi，souguazhesuoyounengcitongtadecihui，xiangyibadundaofanfuqiegezhewomenzhijiandeniudai。
tachenmolehenjiu，zuihoumengdizhanqishen，menbeitashuaidezhentianxiang，judadehuiyinzaixiaxiaodekongjianlijiujiuhuidang。
ningningjintianzainainaijia……yehao。mingtian，mingtianzaitiyiciba。wobuneng，yejuebunengzaituoleitamenle。
2021nian7yue9rimingyunxiangshikaileyigejiqicankudewanxiao。jiuzaizuotian，
wozaiciyongzuishangrendehuabiayanshi，ningningdenainai，neiweicixiang、caolaoleyibeizidelaoren，tufanaochuxue，
curanlishile。ayandeshijieshunjianbengta。taguizaiwomianqian，shuangyanbumanxuesi，shengyinsiyaposui，
xianggewuzhudehaizi：“ayuan……biezou……qiuqiuni，biezaizheishihoulikaiwo……ningningbunengmeiyoumama，
wo……woyebunengmeiyouni……”tajinjinzhuazhewodeshou，neilidaojihuyaoniesuiwodegutou，
chuandizhetashenrugusuidekongjuheyilian。kanzhetaqiaocuijuewangdelian，wodexinsuichenglejifen。ayan，duibuqi，
duibuqi！woduoxiangbaojinni，gaosuniyiqie，peiniyiqiaoguozheisixinliefeidetong。
kewo……womeiyoushijianle！woshenzhibugansheqiunei42%deweiguang，
wopaneiweiguangranjindeshiniheningningdeweilai。yuanliangwo，wobixutuikaini，yueyuanyuehao。
2021nian7yue11rijintianshiayanmamaxiazangderizi。laorenxinkuyisheng，zongsuanzoudetimiananxiang。
zheiliangtian，woqiangrenzheshentidejutonghejingshendezhongya，meiyoutilihundeshi，zhishimomodipeizheta，
jinyidianweibozhili。tamingxiandigengqiaocuile，chenmodekepa，xiangyijubeichouzoulelinghundequqiao。
kanzhetazheigeyangzi，wodexinxiangbeifanfulingchi。woduoxiangshijianjiucitingzhu，rangwozaiduopeitayihuier，
napazhishiyifenyimiao……huidaoneigecengjingwenxin、rujinquebinglengzhixidexiaojia。
ningningqieshengshengdiyiweizaibabashenbian，dayanjinglimanshimimanghebuan。wozhidao，bunengzaituole。henxiaxin，
worangningninghuifangjian。ketinglizhishengxiawoheayan，kongqiningzhongdenengningchushuilai。“lihunba，
”wodeshengyinbinglengdemeiyouyisiwendu，xiangzaichenshuyijianyujiwuguandeshiqing，“woyijingshuolehenduobianle。
xiayan，fangshouba，rangwozou，rangwo……quzhaowodexingfu。nibuxiwangwoxingfuma？
”meiyigezidouxiangcuidudezhen，zhaxiangta，yeshenshenciruwozijidexinzang。weizhuanglengmo，
shiwonengjiyutamenzuihoudebaohu，yeshiwoduizijizuicanrendechengfa。tamengditaitou，sisididingzhewo，
yanshenfuzadexiangshenbujiandidehantan。guolexujiu，jiudaowoyiweishijianyijingninggu，
tacaiconghoulongshenchujichulianggezi：“……hao。”neishengyinganseshaya，fangfoyongjinlequanshenliqi。
“mingtianshangwuwoquqingjia，bashouxu……banle。”worushizhongfu，queyoushunjianbeijudadekongdongtunshi。
zhuanshenxiangtaolizheilingrenzhixidedifang，shouwanquebeitaguntangdeshoujinjinzhuazhu！
neishuxidewendutangdewolinghundouzaizhandou。“buli……zhendebukeyima？”tazuihouwen，
shengyinlidaizheyisiweiruode、jihutingbujiandeaiqiu。xinzangmengdiyichou，jutongpaishandaohaibanxilai。
woyongjinzuihouyisiliqi，jinhucubaodifukaitadeshou，touyebuhuidichongchulejiamen。menzaishenhouguanshang，
gejueleneigewocishengzuijuanliandeshijie。gangzouchuliangbu，yanqianyihei，
juliedetoutonghexuanyunrangwojihutandaozaidi。wofuzhebinglengdeqiangbi，dakouchuanzhecuqi。taoli？
wogaitaoqunali？zheimangmangtiandi，nalihaiyouwodejia？rijiben，wo……meiyoujiale。
2021nian7yue15rineibenciyandehongsexiaocezi，zuizhonghaishinadaole。lihunzheng，sangezixiangluotie，
tangzaiwodexinshang。congci，wohexiayan，heningning，zaifalvshangzaiwuguage。duomefengci，
yongzuijuejuedefangshituikaizuiaideren，queshiwonengxiangdaodezuishendeai。shentizhongjiushichengbuzhule。zaidajieshang，
haowuyuzhaodi，yanqiandeshijiemengdixuanzhuan、bianhei，woxiangyipiankuyebandaolexiaqu。xinglaishi，
shuxidexiaodushuiqiweigaosuwo，woyouhuidaoleyiyuan。wangjunyishengzhanzaichuangbian，mianseningzhong：“jiangnvshi，
qingkuang……ehuale。aixibaokuosanhenkuai，yaposhenjinggengyanzhongle。”qishibuyongtashuo，wozijiyeqingchu。
zheijitiandetengtongbianbenjiali，liantunyandoubiandekunnan，xiezigengshishewang。zheizhibi，cikezhongruqianjin。
shiwangyisheng，zheiweishanliangdeyizhe，momojieguolewoderijiben。“xiangxiedianshenme？wobangni。
”tadeshengyinhenwenhe。“xiexienin，wangyisheng。”woxuruodidiandiantou。tachenglewozuihoushiguangli，
weishubuduodeqingtingzhehejiluzhe。wangyishengjianyiwo：“jiangnvshi，zhiliao……yiyibudale。
shenghaidegailv……diyu0.5%。buru……chuyuanba，quzuodiannixiangzuodeshi，chidiannixiangchidedongxi。
”tadeyanshenchongmanbeimin。0.5%……yigemiaomangdaojinhujuewangdeshuzi。woshizhedongledong，
jinjinshitaishouzheigedongzuo，jiurangwoqichuanyuyu，lenghancencen。xuruo，wukongburudexuruo。
woshenzhiwufazoudaoningningdeyoueryuanmenkou，zaikantayiyan。zuihou，shiwangyishengbangwononglaileyiliangershoulunyi。
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daizhexianxingweidefengpumianerlai，hailangwenroudipaidazheshatan，xiyangjianghaimianranchengyipiansuijin。
haiouzaitiankongziyoudipanxuan。zhenhaokana……guangkuo、ningjing，fangfonengdaizousuoyoudetongkuhebugan。
yaoshinengheayan、ningningyiqilaikan，
gaiduohao……2021nian7yue20ri(youwangjunyishengdaibi)yingjiangyuannvshideyaoqiu，youwo，
tadezhuzhiyishengwangjun，laijilutarenshengzhongzuihoudeyipianriji。yujiangnvshijiechudezheixietian，
woshenshenganshoudaotaduihaizihezhangfuneifenshenchenquebudebuyinzangdeai。mingyunduitataiguobugong，
rangrucinianqingdeshengmingzaoyurucieji。tashiwojianguodeaizhenghuanzhezhong，feichangtebiedeyige。
jishizaizuitengtongdeshike，tadeyanshenliyechangchangdaizheyizhongjinhujueqiangdepingjing，
shenzhiouerhainengkaidiankusedewanxiao。tacengxuruodiduiwoshuo：“wangyisheng，zheibing……taiguile。
hualiaoshicideqian，dougoujiningninghuangeyouyangguangdedafangjianle……”tadetanxili，
shiduijiarenshenghuozuiposudeqiwangheduigaoangyiliaofeidewunai。tayizhiyihuo，
weishenmewomeiyoucuijiaotadezhuyuanfeiyong。jintian，wojuedinggaosutashiqing：“jiangnvshi，
qishiyizhiyourenzaitinijiaonafeiyong。”tayanzhongshanguoyisicuoe。
wojiezheshuo：“shiyiweijiaolinmomodenvshi。”tingdaozheigemingzideshunjian，
jiangnvshideshentijuliedizhandouqilai，huxibiandejicu，yanleihaowuzhengzhaodixiongyongerchu。woheleyitiao，
lianmangwen：“zenmele？nirenshita？”tanulipingfuzhehuxi，
duanduanxuxudixiangwojiangshuleyiduanchenfengdewangshi：「linmomo，
tashiwo……congchuzhongdaodaxue……zuihaodepengyou，xiangqinjiemeiyiyang，wocongxiaoshiguer，
xiaoshihou……biedehaiziqifuwo，zhiyouta……zongshidangzaiwoqianmian。keshihoulai，taxihuanshangleyigenanren，
neigenanrenshige**，wokanqingletadezhenmianmu，pamomoshoupian……woyonglezuichundebanfa，
woqu‘gouyin’leta，rangtagenwozaiyiqi，woxiangrangmomokanqingta，jieguo，
momomawobuyaolian……mawobuzhilianchi……mawoshi**、xiaosan……wopinmingxiangjieshi。
tashuoyishengduibuqi……wohaohouhui……houhuibugaiyongneizhongfangshi……bugai……meinenghaohaogentajieshi……」
judadebeishanghehuihenxijuanleta，huayinweiluo，taturanjuliechouchu，yanjingyifan，zhenggerenshiquleyishi！
“jiangyuan！”wodahan，likezuzhiqiangjiu。qingkuangweiji，xuyaojinjishoushu，bixujiashuqianzi！
wofanbiantadeziliao，jinjilianxirenyilan，heranxiezhe：linmomo。baozheshishikandexintai，
wobotongleneigehaoma。dianhuajietong，wojicudishuo：“ninhao，shilinmomonvshima？zheilishishiyiyuan。
jiangyuannvshiqingkuangweiji，xuyaojinjishoushu，tadejinjilianxirenshini，xuyaonilikelaiqianzi！
”dianhuaneitouchenmolejinjinyimiao，suijichuanlaiyigedaizhekuqiang、wubijinzhanghejipodeshengyin：“jiangyuan？！
tazenmele？！yisheng！qiuni！yidingjiuta！womashangdao！mashangdao！dengwo！yidingyaodengwoqianzi！
”dianhuabeiguaduan。wobenyiweixuyaodengdaihenjiu，shenzhizuohaoleduifangkenengbulaidezhunbei。meixiangdao，
jinjinliangfenzhong！yigeqichuanyuyu、manlianleihen、toufalingluandenvrenxiangyizhenfengyiyangchongjinlehushizhan，
zhengshilinmomo！tayiyankandaolewoshouzhongdeshoushutongyishu，jihushiqiangleguoqu，
kandoumeikanjiuzhandouzheqianxialezijidemingzi。tasisizhuazhuwodeshoubei，zhijiajihuyaoqianjinwoderouli，
shengyindaizhejuewangdekuqiangheaiqiu：“yisheng！wangyisheng！qiuqiuni！yidingyaojiuhuota！yidingyaojiuhuota！
duoshaoqianwodouchu！qiunile！
meigentadaoqian……wohaimeigaosutawozaojiuzhidaozhenxiangle……”kanzhetabumanxuesideyanjinghejuewangdeshenqing，
neiju“xiwangmiaomang”kazaiwodehoulongli，zenmeyeshuobuchukou。wochenzhongdidiandiantou，zhuanshenchongjinleshoushushi。
shoushudenglianglesigeduoxiaoshi。womenjinlezuidadenuli，yusishenzhengduozhezheigenianqingdeshengming。raner，
aixibaokuosandetaiguang，luneichuxuediantaiduo……tadeshengmingtizhengzuizhonghaishibukenizhuandihuaxianglezhongdian。
wopibeidizouchushoushushi，xuanbuleneigecankudejieguo：“duibuqi，womenjinlile……”shoushushiwai，
linmomotanguizaibinglengdedibanshang，shuangshousisiheshi，etoudizhedimian，shentijuliedizhandouzhe，
zuilibutingdi、yuwuluncidinannanziyu：“pusabaoyou，fozubaoyou，shangdibaoyou，gelushenxian，
qiuqiunimen，wolinmomozheibeizibuxinshenbuxingui，danqiuqiunimen，zhiyaorangjiangyuanhuoguolai……wofashi！
woyishengchisu，wojuanqianxiumiao，wozuoshenmedouxing，bawodemingjitayexing……qiuqiunimen，
gentashuoduibuqi……rangwogaosutawozaojiuyuanliangtale……qiuqiunimen……”neibeiweidaochenailideqiqiu，
xiangyibadundaogezhezaichangmeiyigerendexin。woshizaiburenxindaduanta，danzuizhong，haishibudebuzoudaotamianqian。
tasihuganyingdaoleshenme，mengditaiqitou，bumanleihendelianshangxiemanlezuihouyisixiji。