jianjie：【wojiaoyebin，manguzuidaomeidedaoyou，zhuandailingyituan。bierenkanbujian，woquetianshengyinyan，
nengkanjiansuoyoubugaikandedongxi。zhidaowodaiduichuangjinleneijiafeiqifuchanyiyuan，
liangqianjuyingshizuchengdejinzitaxiangwo“zhijing”。yigebeiyuanlingchanshendenvxueshengzhaoshangwo，
bojingshangraozhexuehongdeqidai。“daoyou，ninengkanjianta，duiba？”jiangtoushizaianchulengxiao，
baimiaogaosengqiqiaoliuxueerwang。diqiye，woshouwojinjian，mianduijingzhongwanqianyingling。jianduanqidai，wonenghuo，
taquekenengyongduolunhui。erzaiwoshenhou，wushuxixiaodeshengyinzaiwen：“daoyou，xiayigejingdian，shidiyuma？
”】mangudeyujizongshidaizheyiguchanmianbuqudeyinyu，yushuibushiqingchede，
ershihunzhechengshidechenxiaoyuyuwang，biandehunzhuobukan。wo，yebin，
yigezaimangutangrenjiedaihuarenlvxingtuandedaoyou，zhengjuzhexiaoqi，daizheyiduixingzhibobodenianqingren，
zhanzaibeijiaoneijiawenmingxiaerde“guiwu”——lianhuafuchanyiyuandexiushidamenqian。“geweituanyou，
yanqianzheizuofeiqileshiwuniandejianzhu，jiushichuanshuozhongde‘yinglingchaoxue’——lianhuafuchanyiyuan。
”wonulirangzijideshengyintingqilaichongmanxuannian，rutongguoquwushucineiyang，“jushuo，shenyeluguocidi，
nengtingdaolimianchuanlaizhenzhenyingerdetiku，shenzhiyoufujindejuminshengcheng，
kandaoguochuanghushangyouxiaoxiaodeshouyin……”youkemenfachujikongjuyouxingfendedihu，
shoujihexiangjideshanguangdengciqibifu。raner，zaitamenyanzhongchongman**detanxiandi，zaiwoyanli，
queshiyifudiyubandejingxiang。zhengdongyiyuandaloubeiyituanpangda、rudong、buduanfanyongdeheisexieqibaoguozhe，
neixieqinongchouderutongshiyou，buduanxiangwaipentuzhelingrenzuooudehanyi。
wushutiaoxixiaode、gengjiashensuideheiseqiliu，xiangchushoubancongjianzhudechuanghu、liefengzhongtanchu，
zaikongqizhongwushengdihuiwu。zheishiwodezuzhou，yeshiwodetianfu——tianshengyishuang“yinyan”，
nengkanjianchangrenkanbujiandewuhuizhiqi、zhiliurenjiandewangling，yiji……neixieyoujizhiyuannianyunyuchudexieling。
duiwuli，yigedaizheyashemao、chenmoguayandenianqingnanrenyinqilewodezhuyi。
tazhoushenchanraozheyisijidan、queyuyiyuanxieqitongyuandeheiqi，buxiangbeifushen，
gengxiangshizhangqijiechuguomouzhongbujiezhiwuliuxiade“yinji”。tabingbuxiangqitayoukeneiyangpaizhao，
zhishisisidingzheyiyuanzhuloumougeqiheidechuangkou，yanshenfuza，jiazazhekongjuheyizhongnanyiyanyudekewang。
womomojixialetadetezheng。tuikaizhiyazuoxiangdeshensuomen，
yiguhunhezhefuermalin、meijunheshencengfubaideqiweipumianerlai，rangwoweibuyizhenchouchu。
youkemenxingfendiyongru，erwoqueganjuexiangyibubuzoujinmouzhongjudashengwudeshidao。
qiangbishangbumanlebanbodewuziheguiyidetuya，kongqiyinhancigu，yumenwaidemenrexingchengguiyiduibi。
“yedao，zheilimianhaolenga！”yigechuanzhediaodaiqundenvhaizibaozhegeboshuo。“zhengchang，feiqijianzhuma。
”wofuyanzhe，xinquechenlexiaqu。zheihanyibingfeiwulishangdediwen，ershiyuanqiqintidezhengzhao。
womenyanzhezoulangzouxiangchuanwenzhongzuikongbudedixiachuzangshi。yuekaojinneili，woyanzhongdexieqijiuyuefanongyu，
jihuyaoningchengshizhi。neigedaiyashemaodenanrenbuzhibujueluozaileduiwuzuihou，huxibiandeyouxiejicu。
chuzangshidetiemenbeiguanliyuan（womenfule“tebiefeiyong”）feilidiqiaokai。menkaideshunjian，
jishishiputongyouke，yewendaoleneiguwufaxingrongde、tiannizhongdaizhefuxiudeechou。
erdangshoudianguangzhuzhaoliangneibushi，suoyourendoujingdaile，shunjianshisheng。
yanqianshiyigeyouwushujudaboliguanmafangchengde、jinhuwanmeide“jinzita”。meiyigeguanzili，
doujinpaozheyijuyijingchengxing、queyongyuanshiquleshengmingdeyingershiti。tamenquansuozhe，pifuhuibai，
wuguanzaihunzhuodefuermalinyezhongmohubianxing，shuliangzhiduo，
dailaideshijuechongjilizuyirangzuidandaderengandaozhixi。“tiana……zhei，zheiyouduoshao……”yourenzhanshengwen。
“jushuo，chaoguoliangqian。”woyashenghuida，ganjuezijidehoulongyebeiwuxingdeliliangezhu。zaiwoyanzhong，
zhei“jinzita”genbenjiushiyuanqidehexin！moheisedexieqirutongfeitengdeliqing，congmeiyigeboliguanzhongyongchu，
zaifangjiandingbuxingchengyigejudade、huanmanxuanzhuandexuanwo。neixiebengaijiangsideyingshi，zaiwodeshiyeli，
tamendelunkuozaiweiweirudong，wushushuangkongdongdeyanwofangfozheng“zhushi”zhewomenzheixiebusuzhike。
lengqijizaoyibaofei，dantiejubiaomianqueguiyidiningjiezheshuizhu，bu，shixuezhu！
xinxiandexuezhuzhengbuduancongtiexiuzhongshenchu，huanhuanhualuo。genglingrenmaogusongrandeshi，
chanraozaiguantizhijiandeneixiegankuqidai，cikejingxiangfusudexishe，zaikongqizhongweiweipiaodang，
shenzhixiangzhewomensuozaidefangxiangtanlai！“biepengrenhedongxi！”wolishenghedao，
tongshiyibalazhuneigesihuxiangcoujinpaizhaodediaodaiqunnvhai。jihuzaiwochushengdetongshi，
suoyouyoukedepaizhaoshebei，wulunshishoujihaishixiangji，pingmudoushunjianshanguoyipianxuehua，suijiheiping。
jinghushengsiqi。erzaiwoyanzhong，kandaodequeshilingyifanjingxiang——boliguandeneibishang，
fuxianchuwushuxixiaode、shiluludezhiwenyin，tamenmimimama，zhengfengkuangdi、zhiaodixiangshangpaxing，
mubiaozhizhiboliwaibi。tongshi，yiguqiangliede、chongmanyuanhendeyinianrutongchaoshuibanxiangwoyonglai，
qizhongdabufenshizhenduisuoyouchuangruzhedewuchabieeyi，danyouyixiaobufen，quegewaijianruidisuodinglewo。
tamen“kan”daowole。yizhidouneng。wozheishuanggaisideyanjing，jiuxiangheianzhongdedengta，xiyinletamendezhuyi。
hunluanzhong，neigedaiyashemaodenanrenturanfachuyishengyayidesihou，tamengdichongxiang“jinzita”，
conghuailitaochuyigexiaoqiaode、kanqilaixiangshigudiaodewujian，sihuxiangrengxiangneixieboliguan。“lanzhuta！
”woduilitazuijindeguanliyuandahan。guanliyuanfanyingxunsu，yibajiangtapudaozaidi。gudiaowujiangunluozaidi，
shunjianbeiyigupingkongchuxiandeheiqichanrao，fachu“kaca”desuiliesheng，huaweijifen。nanrenbeizhifuhou，
眼神涣散，
yu：“bugou……haibugou……tamenshuohaixuyaogengduo……”——dierzhangzheigechaqurangyoukemengengjiakonghuang，
duiwushunjiankuisan，zhengxiankonghoudiwangwaipao。wozuihoukanleyiyanneikongbude“shilin”，qiangrenzhebushi，
genzherenquntaoli。wozhidao，zheicidaituan，reshang**fanledaiwantuandedangwan，wojiufaqilegaoshao。
mengjingguangguailuli，manshishiluludepaxingsheng、boliguanpengzhuangdecuixiang，
yijiwushuxisuijiaozhide“mama”kuhan。wozhidao，zheibushiputongdeshengbing，
ershibeineidifangdexieqiyanzhongqinran，bingqiebeibiaojile。bingxiudedisantian，lvxingshelaoban，
yigejingmingdechaoshanshangren，qinzitizheguolanlaidaowozuzhudegongyu。“abina，haodianmeiyou？
”tamanlianduixiao，“yougesihuo，baochouzheigeshu。”tashenchuwugenshouzhi，
“jiushibangmangjiesongzhaoguyigenvxuesheng，zhulalonggongdaxuede，jiaolinxiaochun。qianjitianshizong，gangzhaohuilai，
shouledianjinghe，xuexiaoxiwangyougenengshuozhongwendetongbaobangmangzhaokananfuyixia。”wobennengdixiangjujue，
danlaobanjiexialaidehuarangwoyouyule：“zheinvhai……beifaxiandedifang，
linishangcidaituanqudeneigelianhuayiyuanbuyuan。erqie，tahuilaihoudeyangzi，youdianxiemen……”lianhuayiyuan？
xiemen？woxintouyilin，lianxiangdaoneigeyashemaonanrendeyichanghezishendezhuangkuang，yinyueganjuezheiqizhongbiyoulianxi。
shiweileqian，yeshiweilenongqingchuzijireshangdemafan，wojiexialezheigehuo。
zaizhulalonggongdaxueliuxueshengsushejiandaolinxiaochundediyiyan，wojihukeyikending，
wojuanruleyuanbixiangxiangzhonggengkepadeshiqing。taduzizhuzaidanjianli，fangjianchuanglianjinbi，
mimanzhenongliedexiangxunhecaoyaowei，shituyangaimouzhonggengshencengdebuan。taquansuozaishangpudejiaoluo，
yonghouhoudetanziguozhuziji，zhiluchuyizhangcangbairuzhi、yanwoshenxiandelian。
yuanbenqingxiudemianrongcikexiemanlekongjuyuqiaocui。erzaiwoyanzhong，
tajihubeiyituannongdehuabukaideqingheiseyuanqiwanquanbaoguo。youqixianyande，shitaxianxidebojingshang，
chanraozheyidaoyouxieqiningjiechengde、fangforengzaiweiweibodongdeanhongseqidai，
zhengsuizhetadehuxihuanhuanshoujin、songchi。zheijingxiangrangwobojingyeyizhenfajin。gengrangwotoupifamadeshi，
她的背上，
yigedongxi——yigeyouchuncuiyuanniangouchengde、wuguanmohubuqing、buduandiluoheisezhanchouyetideyingerxingxieling！
taxiangfuguzhiqu，jinjinxifuzailinxiaochundebeishang，xixiaodeshoubeihuanbaozhetadebozi。
sihuchajuedaolewodezhushi，neikebilishidiao、meiyoutongkongdejudanaodai，
huanhuandi、yiyizhongwanquanweibeishenglijiegoudejiaodu，zhuanguoyibaibashidu，neishuangchunbaideyanwo“ding”zhulewo。
ranhou，taneiliezhiergendezuiba，manmanxiangshangcheqi，luchuleyigejiqiguiyi、chongmaneyidexiaorong。
“ye……yedaoyou？”linxiaochundeshengyinsiyadexiangshazhimoca，tataiqitou，kongdongdeyanjinglimeiyoujiaodian，
quejingzhundi“kan”xianglewo，“ninengkanjian，duibudui？
wozhidao……nihebierenbuyiyang……ninengkanjianta……”tamengdizhuazhuzijidebozi，
baqidaitaozaiwobozishang……yibiyan……jiushoujin……wochuanbuguoqi……”woshunzhetashouzhidefangxiangkanqu，
tabojingdepifushang，chuleneiyuanqiqidai，guoranyefuxianchuyiquanxixide、anhongsedewulilehen。
tasongkaishou，wuyishidiyongzhijiazaishenpangdeqiangbishangfanfukehua，fachulingrenyasuande“shasha”sheng。
wocoujinyikan，neimianqiangyijingbeihuademimimama，
quanshitongyixingwaiwainiuniudetaiwen：“เด็กไม่มีชื่อ”（haizimeiyoumingzi）。
zijishenruniziceng，daizheyizhongjuewangde、lingrenxinjidezhiao。wozhidao，changguideanweizaicikehaowuyiyi。
woshenxiyikouqi，juedingbuzaiwanquanyanshi：“wo……nengkandaoyixiebuganjingdedongxi。xiaochun，gaosuwo，
fashengleshenme？niquguolianhuayiyuan，duibudui？”tingdao“lianhuayiyuan”sigezi，linxiaochunhunshenjulieyizhan，
beihoudeyinglingyetongshifachuwushengdejianxiao，neiguyuannianchongjirangwoyanqianyihei。
takaishiduanduanxuxudijiangshu：tadenanyounate，ruhezaitahuaiyunhouqipianta，
yi“yingxiangxueyeheweilai”weiyou，jiangtadaidaoyige“sirenzhensuo”jinxingleqiangzhiyinchan。
tajideneidifanghenjiu，weidaohennanwen，shoushuguochengzhongtafangfotingdaowushuyingerzaiku……zaixinglai，
haizimeile，ernateyexiaoshiwuzong。tajingshenhuanghu，buzhizenmejiuzoudaolelianhuayiyuanfujin，
ranhou……jiyijiuyipianhunluan。
“tashuo……yaojiwohehaiziyige‘genghaodeanpai’……”linxiaochunjuewangdikuzhe，“doushipianrende！
taxianzailaizhaowole！tayaowoyongyuanpeizheta！”kanlai，
neige“sirenzhensuo”jiyoukenengjiushilianhuayiyuandedixiaheizhenshi。ertadehaizi，
kongpayijingchengleneiliangqianduojuyingshizhongdeyiyuan，bingqie，youyumouzhongyuanyin，
huaweilerujinjiuchantadezheigekongbuxieling。wobunengzuoshibuguan。
wochangshiyongxiaoshihougenyiweiyuanfangzhangbeixueguode、zaoyishengshudezhenshafazibangta。
woyongzhushahunzhechenluzaitamenkouhualepixiefu，fuzhiquezaijifenzhongneiwuhuoziran，huaweihuijin。
woniansong《jingtiandishenzhou》，gangqitou，fangjianneidedengjiujulieshanshuo，fangfoyouwuxingdeliliangzaiganrao，
zhouyushengyebeiyizhenturuqilaide、rutongwanqianyinghaiwuyandeyinfenggaiguo。
woshenzhitoutouzaitazhentouxiasaileyimeijiachuande、jushuobeigaosengkaiguangguodegutongqian，diertianqingchen，
neimeitongqianjingranbumanlexiushidexiaokong，lingqijinshi。yiqienulidoutulaowugong，
fanersihujinuleneigeyingling。linxiaochundezhuangkuanggengjiazaogao，lehengengshen，jingshenyegengjiabuwending。
wunaizhixia，woxiangqileyigezhuanzuolingyizhibodepengyoualun。tashebeijingliang，erqiebuxinxie。
wojiekouqingtabangmangceshixindaodehongwaishexiangjihediancichangtanceyi，
qingtadaolinxiaochunsushezuoyici“huanjingjiance”。alunxingzhibobodijiashehaoshebei。hongwaijingtouxia，
linxiaochunsuoguchuneiqingzisedeyingershouyinqingxidehairen。
tabeihoudeyinglingxingxiangyegengjiajuti——tashenzhiouerhuitaiqineiyouyuanqigouchengde“shou”，
zuochufumolinxiaochuntoufadedongzuo，daizheyizhonglingrenmaogusongrande、niuqude“yilian”。
dangtanceyidezhizhenfengkuangbaidong，zhixianglinxiaochunbeihoushi，alunhaixingfendijieshuo：“laotiemenkandaolema？
qiangliededianciyichang！zheilikendingyoudongxi！”raner，danghuamianzhongneiyinglingzaicizhuanxiangjingtou，
jiqihuanmandizhaleyixiataneimeiyoutongkongdeyanjingshi，yibianfasheng！“zila——！
”alunneitaiangguidezhuanyejianshiqipingmumengdizhakaiyituanjuliedexuehua，jinjiezhewanquanheiping。tongshi，
fangjianlidedengguangshunjianximie，beiyongdianyuanyemeinengqidong。heianzhong，
zhitingdaoalunjingkongdejiaoshengheshebeiluodideshengyin。dengdengguangzhongxinliangqi（fangfogangcaidetingdianzhishihuanjue），
alunliansecanbai，tadeshexiangjicunchukayijingchediwufaduqu，fangfobeimouzhongliliangchedipohuai。
zhiyouyizhidiaozaijiaoluodebeiyongluyinbi，yinweibingfeizhuyaomubiao，jiaoxingjiluxialeyiduanyinpin。bofangchulai，
kaishishimohude、fangfogezheshuiliudetaierxintiaohekuqisheng。jiezhe，shilianggezhongfudeyinjie，
daizhewujindekewangyuyuandu，youyuanjijin：“ma——ma——”zuihouneishenghuhuan，
jihushijintiezhemaikefengsihouchulai，bansuizheyizhonglingrenyasuande、fangfoxueroubeishengshengsiliedezhannishengxiang，
jiuxiang……yicishengyincengmiande、qiangzhixingdefenmian。alunliantaneitaoangguideshebeidoumeiganyao，
liangunpapadipaole，linzouqiankanwodeyanshenxiangkanyigewenshen。wozhidao，mafandale。
zheiyinglingbushiputongdeyuanhun，taqiangda、jiaohua，bingqieduixiandaikejishebeisihuyouteshudeganraonengli。
tabujinzaijiuchanlinxiaochun，yemingquedijinggaolewozheigeduoguanxianshideren。
---disanzhang·jiangtoushideyinyingalunliangundaipataolihou，sushelizhishengxiawo，
yijibeigengshenzhongjuewanglongzhaodelinxiaochun。
kongqizhongfangfohaicanliuzheshebeishaojiaodehuweiheneisheng“ma-ma”dailaideciguhanyi。wozhidao，
changguishouduanyijingwuxiao，shenzhikenengshideqifan。bixuzhaodaogenyuan。
wojianglinxiaochunzanshianzhizaimanguxianghuozuiwangdewofosifujinyijialvguan，
xiwangjiezhusimiaodehongdazhengqizanshiyazhitashenshangdeyuanqi。tajihuwufazhengchangjiaoliu，
dabufenshijianquansuozaichuangshang，ouerhuituranjingxing，jingkongdizhizhekongwuyiwudeqiangjiao，sihanzhe“talaile！
”。andunhaota，wodongyonglezuoweidijiedaoyouzheixienianjileidesuoyouhuiserenmai。shenyedenihongdengxia，
wozhaodaozaishilongyeshibaitanmai“gufafopai”desongcai。tadetanweishangzhenjiahunza，danxiaoxilingtong。
“lianhuayiyuan？‘palangyun’？”songcaitingdaozheilianggeci，younidexiaorongshunjianshoulian，jingtidisixiazhangwang，
“abin，datingzheigeganma？zhanshanglekeshuaibudiao！”zaiwosaiguoquyidiezugouhoudetaizhuhou，
tacaiyadishengyin，xiangtuluwenyiyiyangshuodao：“‘palangyun’……shinianqianhenhuoyue，
zhuanmenjineixiexiangzoupianmendefuhaotigong‘teshufuwu’。lianhuayiyuanjiushitamende‘yuanliaoku’zhiyi。
hexinrenwushigejiaoazankundejiangtoushi，xinhenshoula，
zhuanmenyongyinchanhuoyaozhedeyingshilianzhi‘luguo’……neizhongdongxi，yuanqijida，jianxiaokuai，
danfanshiqilaiyegengxiong。”“neilinxiaochun……”“nishuodeneizhong‘shuangshengling’……”songcaideshengyingengdile，
daizhekongju，“shiazankunde‘jiezuo’zhiyi。xuanfumujuzai、shengchendaiyou‘gusha’dechengxingtaier，
qiangzhiyinchan，zaiqiyuanqizuishengshi，yimifajiangyinglingyumutihunpoqiangxingkunbang。qirizhinei，
yingguihuibuduanjiqumutishengjiyuhunpo，zuizhong‘zitimuwei’，mutichengweikongqiaosiwang，
eryingguizehuaweigengxiongde‘zimushuangsha’，chengweigongyangzhezuizhongchengyezuiedude‘shouhuling’。
”takanlekanwocanbaidelianse，buchongdao：“neigenate，woyoudianyinxiang。jializuojiancaishengyi，