第3章 她,做不到

suranheiliangdetongkongzhouranyisuo,yikouqingqiduzaisangzili。

tajiushilujingxing?zenmekeneng。

suranmomokanleyantadeshou。yiyangdewanbiao,fanzhelengguangdejinshubiaolianxia,ruoyinruoxianyikedandandezhi。

tajinzaodongqingshi,haijuedeneikezhihenxinggan,fanfuqinwenguo。

suranzaixinlihenhenmaleyisheng:biantai。

zhiqianzaijiudianbushuomingshenfen,tuodaoxianzai,haiguyidangzhebierendemian。

shixiangkantajingedejiongtai,haishixiangxinshangtajidongqueyuedibaojintadedatui?

zuowanshibushiyinweitachadianbatanongku,weilexiefen,zaitaliangbianxiongjimiaozhunbaxingeyaoleyikou?

tabiezaikuzilidechenyiyijiao,shibushihaishizhe?

zaoshanghaoxianghaishuoguotalaodangyizhuang。nanrenyinggaiyebuxihuanbeishuolaoba。

suranyoujingyouqi,zhiqiandeneidianerganjizhiqing,shunjianjianleyiban。

huanlebanmiaocaishenchushou,yazheyaoyaqiechideshenger,jinlianglimao:“luzong,jiuyang。woshitianleishipinchangdeshichangzongjian,suran。”

lujingxingfangfowushi,qianwoyixiajiusongkai,xiabaweiweizhilexiayizi:“zuo。”

genguolaidejiweigaoguanxiangbaguayoubugan,yongyuguangnikanwo,wokanni。

yigegedouzaicai,luzongnandelaitangbalou,erqietaidunandedeheai,daodishiweilezheigebeijuledexiaoxiangmu,haishiyinweizheiweiaotuyouzhidelengyanmeiren?

答案不言自明。

zhanzailujingxingshenhouyiweikuiwuyansudenanren,yinggaijiushidutezhu,qingqingpieleyansuixingdejigeren。

zhongrenshunjianlinghui,shiqudituilechuqu。

suranmianqiangjichujisixiao,shuangshoudishangzhunbeihaodewenjianjia:“luzong,zheishi《rongzijihuashu》。womenyoushizubawo,keyigaoyingligaohuibao。”

dutezhujieguowenjianjiajiaojilujingxing,dishengjieshi:“genjujichengshangyuechuxinchutaideshipinanquanfagui。henduozhongxiaoxingshipinchangdouxuyaoquanmianshengjigaizao,yuqibudabiaozhinengguanmenfengchang。”

lujingxingyishensuleng,qizhangdeshenziduanzhengzuoxia,chuimouwushengkanwenjian。

suranjiantaluozuo,yejing**daoyizishang,anandaliang。

lujingxinggongzuodeyangziyansuzhuanzhu,congbiaoqingkanbuchurenhexinutaidu。

renmogouyangdaoshibisixiashigengyourenlehenduo。

lujingxingkanleyihuiercaidandandao:“jihuashuzuodebucuo。”

shuobazhijieyangqixiuzhangdexiaobei:“jiaojiyibuzuopinggu。”

suizhewenjianjiataiqi,tiezaibeimiandeliangzhangbozhi,diaoluodaozhuomianshang。

sangerendemuguangbuyoudouluozaishangmian。

zaogao,baimiyishu,gangcaiquyiyuandedanjuzenmebuxiaoxinzhandaowenjianjiashangle。

suranxunsunahuihuayandan,diehaofangjinbaoli。jiazhuangwushifasheng。

dutezhushiruowudu,bushengbuxiangyetuichuhuiyishi。

wulizhishengletamenliangge。

lujingxinglengranqingxiao,hpv、tct、tp,tahaichadetingquanmian:“bufangxinwo?”

surandetidihuiletayigemolengliangkedeyanshen:“bugan。”

zongbuhaozhijieshuopashenshangyouzangbingchuanranjita,suoyizhuajinshijianquyiyuanzuolejiancha。

yaobushiyishengshuomeibiyaoerqiefuzuoyongda,tashenzhidouxiangguofuyongzuduanyao。

lujingxingyouyouxiao,shenziweiweiqianqing:“ruguowoshuo,woyeheniyiyang,shiganjingde,nixiangxinma?”

tazheiyangdechengniannanren,sishenghuoqingtangguashui,guicaixin。

suranxinzhongchixiaoyisheng,fanwen:“luzongguigeng?”

lujingxingbingbuzaihutazenmexiang,bizhongjiuqingdao:“haiyoulianggeduoyueershiqi。xiangtiqianjiwozhunbeishengriliwu?”

surandaimeiweiqiao:“daoshihou,wojiluzongzhunbeiyifentianleidesongheshoutao,lihezhuangde。”

lujingxingqixiao:“buruniqinshouzuojiwochi。”

surandaqidao:“ruguoluzongkentouzi,ninyihoudegaodian,tianleibaole。”

lujingxingqingtiaoyanpi:“e,nixiangbaolewo。”

suranhenxiangjitagaotingdebiliangyiquan。zheimehaokandebizibuliudianxue,kexile。

lujingxingruoyousuosi,yousuogulvdemoyang:“daoshiyekeyi,danniyaodebietaipinfan。wopingshihaishitingmangde。”

gangcaihaiyifujinguizongcaigaolengfan,pangrenyizoulikeluchubenlaimianmu。bisunwukongdeqiankundaihainengzhuang。

yuebuqundouyaohantayishengshizun,shuangshoufengshangkuihuabaodian,gongtaanzhongcaolian。

“luzongshuoxiao,womeineimedadelianmianhedanzi。”

lujingxinggujiefenmingdeshouzhisonglesongmolansedezhensilingdai,zhijianlveguolitidehoujie,shengyinbiandecixingguhuo:“wodaojuede,nidanzibuxiao。”

suranbikaita**deyanshen,ergenzhujianfare。

jigexiaoshiqian,jiushizheitiaosihuadelingdai,beitadalichexialai,chanraozaitashenshang,celiangtadeshentiweidu。

dangshitayeshizheiyangdeyudiao,tiezaitashenhoushuotayaozhi**xiruan,rangtashebude。

suranhoulongfagan,qinglexiasangzi:“luzongduiwomengongsihaiyoushenmexuyaolejiedema?wojininjiangjie。”

lujingxingmeihuida,taochuyizhangjinziheididefangka,kada,fangzaizhuoshang:“8086wodingleyinian,youxingqujixuzuowandeyouxima?”

suransuiranduilujingxingde“fuwunengli”heyingjiandouhenrenke,danhaimeikaifangdaoyaozhaozheizhongbanlv。

buranyitaderongmao,yebuhuinianguoershisan,genxueyitanlebannian,haodaozuowancaikaihun。

daoshilujingxing,zheigeshihoutichuyaoqiu,wufeishixiangyongtouzilaizuochouma。

zuotianqingkuangteshu。meibiyaojijiaosheizhansheibianyi。

huiguidaoanquandehuanjingxia,rangtalixingdiquxuan,taningkezhongtouzailai,yebuyuanyichumaizijideshentihezunyan。

genghekuangzheizhonggaogaozaishangdedingjidalao,duobanyaodeshinvrendimeishuncong、chanmeiquyue。

她,做不到。

suranzhibaidiwen:“shibushibudaying,jiubujitouzi?”

lujingxingkaodaoyibeishang,lianshanghuifulelengsu:“zheishiliangmashi。sishichengbucheng,doubuyingxianggongshigongban。”

lujingxingzhengjingqilai,youzhongrangrenyouzhongxinfudeqiyan。sihutashuohubuxiangrao,jiuyidinghuidagongwusi。

danyisurandejingyan,wulunchoushuai,nanrenhezibenjiadehua,yueshixinshidandan,yuebukekao。

tadegongshigongbanhenkenengshizhi——suiranzanliangyoutongchuangzhiyi,danbunengyincigaibiannirongzixiangmubuhegedeshishi。

“xiexienindegongshigongban。wozanshimeiyouneifangmiandedasuan。”

“zanshi。”lujingxingzhongfutadehua,gujiefenmingdezhangshouzhianzhefangka,huanhuantuidaotamianqian,“meiguanxi,shenmeshihouxiangle,suishi。”