第一章:压力太大,不容易怀

京北,柏庄。

“huailema?”nanrendiyadesangyin,zaishenyegewaiyouren。

xihuannazheyigenyanyunbang,congyushichulai,miansepinghuandanran。

tayoushoubian,nanrenzhichuanleyitiaoxiku,kuanhoudebeibudizheqiang,maimisedexiongtanglunkuofenming。

yishuanghaokandedanfengyanbeiliaoraodeyanwuzhezhu,menglongzhongtouchulingrenwufazibadeshensui,shenmi。

tayaoyaotou,qingtanyishengjiangzhiyouyitiaogangdeyanyunbangdiguoqu,“wangshangshuo,yalitaidaburongyihuai。”

jiehunsangeyue,chuleyuejingqitajihumeitiandouyaobeilelingceyici。

chucizhiwai,meitiangenta**,yeshibixude。

tabayanyunbangdiuhuiyushilajitong,guanshangyushimen,guodaodezhanglangxiandeyongjixuduo。

dandandeyancaoweimimanzailiangrenzhijian,nanrendixiao,xuebodechunjiaoxianqidehudu,shidaizhejifenfengcide。

“queshigaiyouyali,yinianneihuaibushangjiulihun,nihaizhaodedaodiergerentiannijiadewudidong?”

tazaitashenbiancaguo,jinshidebeibanghuaguotaergen,suifasongsanhuangdong。

tajiajiluyubosangeyue,luyubojiuzhifuletamuqinsangeyuedeyiyaofei。

chucizhiwai,haiyoutajiashengyi,zhengzaiyangzhangzhelujia,congjiannanqibudaoyipianhuihuangdejieduan。

lujiarenshuotaxiangxixuegui,tawuhuakeshuo。

suoyibulunhunhou,luyuboduitaduomelengmodanran,tacongbucengyouguoyuanyan。

“hailengzheganshenme?”luyubosangyincencen,shuaiguolaidemouguangshenanbukejiandi,anzangzheduitadebuxieyugu。

tashenxingweidong,zoudaotamianqian,youyulejimiaoxiruandeshuangshouluozaitaxikudeyaokoushang。

qishigenluyubozaiyiqi,tameishenmebuqingyuan。

tashiliusuishibeisongdaolujiajiyang,genluyuboxiangchuleliunian,kanzhezheigenanrencongkuangwangsiyidenianji,daorujinchenwenneilian。

panninianshaoshidetahunbulin,youzherangsuoyoushaonvduoluoderongmao。

qingdouchukaidenianji,tawanruoyiwangsishuiderenshengheqingxu,zaiyujiantazhihou,turanfanqilianyi。

burushehuibuguojinianshijian,luyubojushoutouzujiandejinguihechenggongqixi,sanfachuwuxianguangmang,duinvrengengjushashangli。

不仅是外貌,能力。

那方面亦是如此。

xihuanziyoutiaowu,shencaihaoshentiruan,rongmaojiaohaobingqiepifu**。

bijianershangyikeheisedezhi,meicijulieyundonghouzhidezhouweifanhong,xuxurusheng。

ketaxiaolianbailitouhong,mili、qingyudemouhanshui,yuekanyuerangrenxiangqifu。

youqi,tahanguanleta‘erge’。

chenghujinjixiade**,nanrenshizuiwufakangjude。

tazizhizaizheifangmian,luyubodeshikongshizhende。

zhidaotaxiwanzaozaiyushichulai,caixiachuangquxishu。

chuangshangdetaduomereqingsihuo,chuangxiadetaduomelengkuwuqing。

luochadadaoxihuanzhinengxiguanxingdiziqiqiren,shierbujian。

taguanleyushimen,dakaishuilongtouhou,congyujujiaoluodeweishengmiandaizili,nachuyipingyao,daochuyikefensedexiaoyaolitunxia。

那是避孕药。

guanyuluyubobuaitazheishier,tabuhuiqipianziji。

sangeyueqiantadaxuebiye,benyinghuinanhai,dantongxuejuhuishangheduo,buzhizendejiugenluyubofashenglebukemiaoshudeshiqing。

laijietahuinanhaiderenzhuanglegezhengzhe,rulefuqindeyuan,tajiajiluyubo。

luyubomeitaxiangxiangzhongneimefanganzheishier。

lujiashiquangui,zhengshangshilijunheng,hundefengshengshuiqi,zhaobudaomendanghuduideerxi。

tamenzhixuzhaogejiaoyanghao,rongmaohaodetigongxiayidailianghaojiyinjike。

tarongmaomeidetiao,jiaoyang……zheiliunianzailujiajiezhu,tamendoukanzaiyanli,youfencundongguiju。

huanjuhualaishuo,tazaitamenyanli,zhishiyigeshengyugongju。

luyuboduitadebumanqingxu,laizijiehundeshiqingchaochuzhangkong,tazhangkongyuqiang。

qiangdaotazhishijiezhuzaitajia,zaixuexiaobeiqifuletadouhuichumian,benzhe‘dagoukanzhuren’dexintai,huzheta。

shisuiqian,tagenmuqinxiangyiweiming。

shisuihoubeipofenli,weilemuqinyiyaofeitaquantingfuqinanpai,beipolikaixijia,genmuqinjushaoliduo。

tabuxiangyihouyegenzijidehaizibaoshouxiangsizhiku,suoyitabuhuiqingyihuailuyubodehaizi。

zhikaohaizibiranshuanbuzhuluyubo,chufei……tanengzaizheiyinianneirangtaaishangta,wenzhulutaitaideweizhi。

fouzeyinianhou,zaitameihuaiyundeqingkuangxia,jiuzhiyoulihundexiachang。

lumusixiachengnuodaoshihuijitawuqianwan,huozheanpaiyitiaochulu,xushipatajiuchan。

taqianlexieyi,zhishizheishierluyubobuzhi,lumuburangtashuo,tayebuhuishuo。

wuqianwan,muqindeyiyaofeigoule,daoshiruozhenzoudaoneigefenershang,tajiuyoudiqibamuqinzaijiazhongjiechulai。

buguoneidoushizuihuaidejieju,taxindihaicunzhe……pingganqingzuowen‘lutaitai’weizhidexiwang。

“xihuan!”yushimenturanbeituikai,tasiluzhongduan,wozheyaopingdeshouxiayishiwangshenhouzang。

luyuboyishounazhedianhua,kandoumeikanta,shuaichuyiju‘genwochuquyitang’,jiuzhuanshenquhuanyifu。

tazhibuzhuodaotacelian,qiansuoweiyoudejiaojihedanxin。

lingchenliangdian,kulinanshichubozhuang。

bozhuangzhanjulebangeshantou,xiashandeluzhiyouyitiao,quanchengwucheliang。

weiraozhejingbeiwaihuanwangyigefangxiangshiqu,lingchendechengneigaosushangcheliangliaoliao。

kaidefeikuaidekulinanlianchuangjigehongdeng,xihuanbeihuangdeyunche,lianseshabai。

zhongyu,chetingzaiyidongbieshuqian。

xihuanyundeyandiyouwuqi,biziyesuan,ganjinxiache,liangjiaoyiruanchadianermeidaoxia。

shentidizhechemen,kankanzhanwen,ernanrenquezaoyikuobuliuxingjinrubieshunei。

bihaiwan?luyuboyoushejitianfu,zheijiushitabiyeshiyizhanchengmingdeshejizuopin,huanshanraoshuifengjingjihao。

duoshaorenzazhongjinqiumai,danlujiabuqueqian。

zheidifang,tahenxihuan,suiranmeilaiguo,dantazixidikanguotadeshejitu,neibugouzaotayiqingerchu。

tazhiqianyiwei,zheihuishitaheluyubodehunfang。

cike,bieshudenghuotongming,gezhechuangnengkandaoketingzuozheyimowenwanxianxideshenying。

是个女人。