第四章生不如死
dangshizaiyiyuan，baitongdefuqinbaijinglinrenchulelinyan，liunianqianfashengzaibaitongshenshangdeshiqing，buzhishibaitongdeemeng，gengshitabaijinglindeemeng。
meixiangdao，tachuyule，erqiezhudongzhaolaile。
weilenver，tameiyoudangchangzhirenlinyan。
linyanshenxiyikouqi，zhengyaokaikou，baijinglinbaibaishou，shiyilinyanshangche，linyanmeiyouyouyu，lakaichemenzuanlejinqu。
“liunianlai，tongtongguodehenbuhao，wozheigezuofuqindehentongxin，wohenbudeshaleni，shinihuilewodenver，keshishaleni，wonveryehuibudaodangchu！”
“cishiyinnierqi，huoxuweiyouninenggourangtongtongtuolikuhai......”
shuozhe，baijinglinquchuyifenjiehunxieyishu，haiyouyizhangjinka，dijilelinyan，“qianlezheifenhunyue，kalide100wanjiushinide！”
tazhidao，qianleinverzuidadezulijiushimingshengtaicha，zhiyaoranglinyanzheige“shizuoyongzhe”yutawanhun，feiyiziranpingxi。
ermeiyoulefeiyi，tongtonghuoxujiunengzhimianshenghuo，baituodangniandeyinying，buzaishikexiangyaoyisijietuo。
congziliaoshang，linyanzhidao，baijinglinshiyimingchenggongshangren，xuechunhongyejingyingzheyijiameirongyuan，jiajingyinshi。
congbaijinglindekuochuoshoubijiukejianyiban，danlinyanquejujuele，tatuidiaoxieyishuhejinka，chenshengdao：“bofu，woqiantongtongde，wohuiquanlibuchang，yujinqianwuguan！”
shixianlveguochechuangwaideyejing，linyanxinzhongbeitong，“ruguokeyidehua，woxiangxiangtongtongzhengzhongdaoqian，xiwangtakeyiyuanliangwo！”
白敬临沉默。
liangrendoumeiyoutijiliunianqianzhishi，zheiqizhongdeshifeiduicuo，liangrendouxinzhiduming，weiyoubaitong，shizheiliangrengongtongdexinbing。
zheishi，chezishirubaijiabieshu，laoguanjiashuibozhanzaiyuanmenkoudongzhangxiwang，shensejiaoji，yikanchezishilai，xiaopaozhechongguolai，dahandao：“laoye，xiaojiechushile！”
wenyan，baijinglinhelinyanquandouxinzhongyichen，jimangtiaoxialai，jihuyikoutongsheng，“fashengleshenmeshi？”
liangrenduishiyiyan，fenfentanxi。
“xiaojiebazijiguanzaifangjiannei，yebuchifan，yijingdabantianle，furendoukuaijihuaile......”
shuozhe，shuiboyankuangyihong，bujinshanranleixia。
keyishuo，baitongshitakanzhezhangdade，zaoyishiweiqinsunnv，yankanbaitongbianchengjintianzheibutiandi，tayeshifentongxin。
baijinglindajing，yizhenfengsidechongjinbieshu，linyanyejinsuiqihou，laidaobaitongdefangmenwai，jiujianxuechunhongyibianmoyanlei，yibianpinmingdepaidafangmen，qiqiunverdakaifangmen。
baijinglinxinzhongjiaoji，paidazhefangmen，xiangrangnverkaimen，napazhishishuojuhua，rangtaquedingnverpinganwushiyehao！
但一切都是枉然。
wulunxuechunhuahebaijinglinruheqiaomen，limianjiushimeiyoudongjing，fangfogenbenjiumeiyouren。
“shushu，ayi，nimenrangkai！”yizhongbuhaodeyuganmimanxintou，linyanshangqianliangbu，yijiaochuaiqu。
zhitingyishengjuxiang，fansuodefangmenbeichuaidao，yigunongyudemeiqiweipumianerlai，menwaidesanrenliansedabian。
linyanlvxianchongjinqu，zhijianfangjianneiyipianqihei，tadakaidiandeng，youdakaisuoyouchuanghutongfeng，zheicaizhuantoukanqu，bujinxinzhongyichen。
baitongpingtangzaidachuangshang，lianseweiweifaqing，qiruoyousi，xianranshizhongduyishen，xuechunhongkaishihaotaodaku，baijinglinzehuangluanbodadianhuajiaojiuhuche。
“haiyoujiu......”kuaisuzhenmaizhihou，linyanfaxianbaitonghaiyoumaibo，shuoleshengbaoqianzhihou，yibianrengonghuxi，yibian**shunqi。
yipangdebaijinglinhexuechunhongquandoupingqiningshen，jinzhangdewangzhelinyan，fangjianneiyipianjijing。
henkuaide，banhunmidebaitonglianliankesou，zhengkaiyanjing，yingruyanliandezhengshilinyanjingxidemianpang。
怎么是他？
yiguchanzazheyuanhenyuzengedeqingxumimanquanshen，zheigenanrenzhongxingouqiletaliunianqiandecantonghuiyi，tayinyajinyao，sisididingzhelinyan。
ruoshiliunianqian，linyanzaidadanyidian，zhudongzhuiqiuta，tajiuhuitongyizuotadenvpengyou，zheiyangyilai，tajiubuyongzaichengdanzhuzheizhongedudemaming，tayehuiyongyuchutingzuozheng，zhirensongyulin。
“nigun，wobuxiangkanjianni！”baitongbishangyanjing，yanjiaoqueyouliangkeleishuihualuo，zuijiaoyeyaochulexuesi。
yuanben，xuechunhonghaixiangganxielinyan，faxiannverqingxubudui，zheicaiyihuodekanxiangnver，youkanlekanzhangfu。
baijinglinyishengtanxi，huanhuandao：“tashilinyan！”
薛春红脸色大变。
tazenmekenengbuzhidaolinyan？jiushizheigejiahuo，haidezijidebaobeinverliunianqianbeifumaming，shengburusi！
“tongtongdehua，nimeitingdaoma？”xuechunhongshoulianqiganjizhiqing，nushilinyan，shengsejuli。
“ayi，dangniandeshi，wo......”
啪——
haimeishuowan，xuechunhongjiuchongleguolai，henhendichoulelinyanyijierguang，“nihaiyouliantidangniandeshi，gunchuqu！”
linyanlianjiahongzhong，dantabingmeiyoujieshishenme，tanlekouqi，zhuanshenliqu，baijinglinjishuiboshilegeyanse，shuibohuiyi，daizhelinyanlaidaolehouyuandechuwushi。
jinguanshuiboyehentonghenlinyan，dantatongqingdali，bingmeiyouweinanlinyan，jiandanshoushiyibian，youqulaileyitaozhanxindebeiru。
“baijinglin，nishenmeyisi？nijuranbaneige**liuxialai？”xuechunhongnushizhangfu，shuangquanjinwo。
“bieyingxiangnverxiuxi！”baijinglindengleyiyanqizi，taiduquebingbuqiangying，kuaibuzouchulenverdefangjian。
xuechunhongjinsuiqihou，laidaolezhangfudeshufang。
baijinglindianranyizhixiangyan，xuechunhongquezhijieqiangzouxiangyandiuzaidishang，henhendicaileyijiao。
duonianlai，baijinglinzhiguanxinshiye，zizhiduinverheqiziyousuokuiqian，yinertayebushengqi，tandao：“xinbinghaixuxinyaoyi，linyanjiushitongtongdexinyao，zaizhe，niyekandaole，linyanyishuhenhao，ruguotongtongzaixiangbukai，linyankeyibangmang！”
duiyuzhangfudezheitao“waili”，xuechunhonggenbenbumaizhang，tazhizhezhangfupokoudama，shuodaoshangxinchu，zijiquexiankuleqilai。
zheishi，louxiaturanchuanlaiyishengjuxiang，liangrenmianmianxiangqu，zhenghaoqizhiji，yimingnvyongchonglejinlai，qichuanyuyudao：“laoye，furen，xiaojieyouzaifapiqile！”
liunianlai，baitongdeshenghuohenbuhao，chulehejiu，jiushishuijue，duanjueleyiqiejiaoji，jiulianjigeyiqianzuiyaohaodeguimilaikanwangta，tayebimenbujian。
youshihou，baitongyehuiqujiubamaizui，hezuizhihou，youxunxinzishi，jihumeigebangeyue，baijinglinjiuyaoqujingjulaoren。
tingnvyongzheimeshuo，xuechunhongyegubushangmazhangfule，jicongcongxialou，baijinglinyejimanggenshang。