第五章:难道我不是你的亲生孩子吗

diwuzhang:nandaowobushinideqinshenghaizima

jingchazhishikanzhegege,dianjixiayigeshipin。

wokanzheshangmiandejiankongshipin,xinliyoukuyouse,leishuiyikeyikezaxia,neishimamasiwangderizi。

neitian,wogangjingliyichangyitianyiyebumianbuxiudeshoushucaibagegecongsishenshouliqianghuilai。

caitachushoushushidewo,kouzhaodoumeilaidejizhai,luguodehushizhangnalaiyizhangzhi,gaosuwo,“zheishiayirangwozhuanjiaojinide,kanshenqinghaitingjide。”

yinxiangli,mamalianjiwoshoujifaxiaoxidecishudouquzhikeshu,gengbietishouxiedezhitiao。

wodakaisaoleyiyan,kanqingshangmiandeneironghuilaihou,zhenggerenruzaoleiji。

“jianghe,niyaoshiyoudianliangxinjiulaitongyuandadaojiwoshoushi。”

neiyishunjian,wotouzhongjiaoqing,fafengsidechaowaimianfengkuangpaoqu。

tongyuandadaocheliumiji,wokanjianmamazaiduimianchaowohuanhuanhuishou,xiangjilegaobiedezitai,jiezhemaituichaocheliulizouqu。

我目眦欲裂:

“mama!bie!mama!buyao!”

neiyike,wodeyanlixinlizhizhuangdexiawodemama,erwodemamayaoxunsi。

wofengyibanchuanjincheliu,zhiyaowozaikuaiyidian,zaikuaiyidian,wojiunengjiuxiamamale。

jinjichatingdeqichezhuangshangwodedatui,zhenggerenbeizhuangfeiyimiyuan,tuigukezailuyuanshishang,fachuyishengguliedecuixiang。

teng!haoteng!zhendehaotenga!

wokanxiangmama,tashenzhimeikanwozheibianyiyan,jixuchaoqianzou。

一颗心被紧紧提起。

wopaqilai,tuikaishangqianchakandesiji,siyaozheyarenzhetongmaozujingchaomamabenqu。

妈妈,我来了!

mama,qiuqiuni,biesi!

mama,qiuqiuni,biediuxiawo!

dajieshangmingdisiqi,gezhongchacheshengmanmashengjiaozhi。

可我根本顾不上。

zhongyu,wozhuadaomamale。

wojijinzhandoudeyaobaozhuta,zhankaixiaorong,“mama,wojiuxianile——”

shentituranbeidalituikai,wokanjianmamalianshangqinzhedechengdexiaoyi,“neiniqusiba!sile,nigedexinzangjiuyouzheluole。”

beihou,wotingjianchegulujichierlaidepofengsheng,woshuaidaozaidishang,gebocachudapianxuese,shuobushangshixintonghaishibeiai,jijiangyaguolaidechelunrangwochedishiqulexingdongnengli。

zuihouguantouwobeiyishuangyoulideshuangbeixianghouyiche,neiliangchecongwomianqiansoudeyixiashiguo。

shijiaojingzaiguanjianshikejiuxialewo。

jiehouyushengdewomurandekanxiangmama。

weishenme?mamabushiyinggaihenaizijidehaizima?weishenmemamayaowoqusia?

zainixinli,wodemingjiuzhendebibushanggegedemingma?

mama,zheishiweishenmea!

xinzangbeixuechengyipianyipian,woxiangwenwenmama,wodemingzaitayanlizhendeneimebuzhongyaoma?haiyou,nandaowojiubushitadeqinshengdehaizima?

suansetianmanlehoulong,womeilaidejiwen,mamajingnudebiaoqingbeihuxiaoerlaidedahuochedingge。

“不要!”

wenredexuejiandaowodelianshang,judadechacheshengjihucichuanwodeermo,wojixiexingdezhuandongyanzhu,mandidexue。

woshoujiaowuli,jihushiguipadaomamashenbian,qiuzhuzhezhouweiweiguandequnzhong。

“da120,jiuren,jiurena!”

“ma,nichengzhu,henkuaiyiyuanderenjiudaole。”

wowuzhutaliuxuebuzhidehoulong,qiangpozijilengjingxialaizuojijiu。

zheiyike,shenmedoubuzhongyaole。

我只想让妈妈活。

泪水却不自觉流下。

“ma,nijianchizhu,woqiuni,bieshui!”