mamajiurenyiwaitanhuanhou，wusuidewosisibaozhubabadetuibusakai。
babayiyaoya，juqimenhouliandaohuapolewodeyoushouwan。
ranhou，touyebuhuilikai，haidaizoulequanbudepeichangkuan。
shoujinbeiqieduan，meiqianyizhidewo，zaimanzhangderizili，xuezheyongzuoshougansuoyoujiawu，zhaogumama。
kaoshangdaxue，yiweirizijiukuaiyaokujinganlaishi，mamahenongyaozishale。
wojiangmamatineiweishaohuadedanpianzuochengdiaozhuisuishendaizhe，diyicichuyuanmenqulexinxuexiao。
nulidushudetongshi，wozhaolefen**jiajiaojiaoxiaoxuesheng。
mianshidangtian，nvzhurenhenshikeqixunwenlewodejibenqingkuang。
tingshuowoyoushouwuli，yipangjierzipinlegaodenanzhurenrenbuzhubaoyuan。
“zheizhongcanfeilaoshi，nengjiaodelewomencongmingdezhouzhouma？”
“haishixiaodifanglaide，biebaqiongsuanqidaijiwomenbaobei！”
woxiaodeposui:“zhouzhoubaba，womenbuyinggailaizitongyigedifangma？”
nanzhurenzheicaitailian，kandaowodeyishun，lengzhule。
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yiyanrenchuwo，chenjianhuangdijiangwozhuaidaomenwai。
“chenzechuan，nizheishixianglaiewoma？douzhuidaozheililaile。”
takaikoujiushizhiwen，haishifenxianqipieyiyanwowulideyoushou。
“nihaizhenshigennineigefeiwumayiyang，daomeiguiyige，biexiangyongnizheizhifeishougenwomaikelian！”
“niyaoganshihuaipohuaiwoxianzaidemeimanjiating，woshibuhuifangguoneigejiaosuonijiuchanwodefeiwusongyingmeide！”
wokeyirenzhechenjianduiwodexiuru，dandangtawurubiandimamashi，worenbuzhule。
“mamabushifeiwu，mamashiyingxiong！mamashiweilejiubeijiechiderenzhi，beirenyongqiangjizhongjizhuicaitanhuande。”
“nizouhou，mamapawonanguo，yiciyemeitiguoni，tayizhiguliwoyaohaohaodushu。”
“woshipingbenshikaodaozheigechengshide，yeshipingbenshijiedaonilaopodemianshiyaoqing，bucunzainishuodeeren。”
chenjiantiaoletiaomei，kanwodeyanshenyouzheshenshendeyapogan。
“lingyalichide，ninengyouduodabenshihaibushiwojinide？ninenglaijiaonididi，yesuanshiniduiwodehuibaole。”
tasuanshimoxulewojitadeerzichenhaozhouzuojiajiao。
yijiekewubaikuai，duiyuyinfeileyoushoubeigezhong**wanjudewo，haishihenzhenxizheiyicijiajiao**jihuide。
diyitianshike，chenjianshibushijinlai，yihuiersongshuiguo，yihuiersongdianxinde。
chenhaozhouyibianchidongxi，yibianxinbuzaiyandezaizhishangluantuluanhua，yagenmeijiangwoshuodezhongdiantingjinxinli。
wonuozoufangchishidepanzi，qiangguotashoulidehuabi，zhoumeiwunaidao:“chenhaozhoutongxue，wojiaodeshiyingyu，bushihuahua！”
chenhaozhouyaolebankoudeliulianpadizawolianshang，jinjiezhewulianwawadaku。
wochuzaiyizhongnanyiyanshuodezhenjingzhongshi，chenjianchonglejinlai，louzhuchenhaozhou。
“baobei，bieku！gaosubaba，nizheishizenmelea！”basuidechenhaozhoucongchenjianhuailitailian，qihenghengshenshouzhizhewo:“baba，taxiongwo！”
“我没……”
wokaikouxiangjieshi，beichenjianlengyandaduan。
“meichiguoliulianshiba？zheiyipandoujini，suanshijiesuanjinideshikefeile。”
“xiangnizheizhongqiongsuanmeijiaoyangdenandaxueshenghaishibushihewomenjiaerzi，niyihoubuyonglaile。”
“zhouzhou，bieshengqile，babazaijinihuangejiajiao。”
tingtadishenghongzhechenhaozhou，huzaiwolianshangdeliulianzhachendezijixianggexiaochouyiban。
congxiaokaodibaoweichishenghuodewo，meiyouchiguogaodangshuiguo，shenzhilianputongdehunxingyezhishedezainianjiechishangyikou。
zaimamadeanfukuanweixia，womeiyouyuantianyouren，yemeiyouhenguodangchupaoqiwodebaba。
zaixiangyu，womeiganwangxianghetaxiangren。
dantahualihuawaidejifenghaishichuotonglewodexin。
wobuyuanyibeiyuanwang，nazuoshoumodiaoliulianzha，yuqipingjingdao:“chenshushu，shinindeerzibuyuanyixuexi，naliulianzaren。”
“wobujieshouliuliandangshikefei，haiqingninanzhaoyuedinghaodejiesuanwoliangxiaoshikeshifei，wolikezouren！”
chenjianyanliduanzanshanguoyimofuzadeqingxu。
tazhanzaimenwai，jiwojiesuanlebaochou，“liangqiankuai，duode，jiusuanshiwozuoweifuqinewaijinide。”
wochouchuyiqiankuai，shuaiguoqu:“buyongle，wodebabazaozaishisannianqianpaoxiawoshi，jiuyijingsile。”
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haishigewusuihaizidewo，zaineiyinian，yinzhefuqindejueqinghenxin，yishunzhangda。
neibahaobuyouyukanxiangwodeliandao，ehenhenmawoshi“sangmenxing”degongji，bidekeqiufuaidewofangleshou。
baba，yijingchengweiwobuganchupengdehuati，yipeng，caifaxiancengjingdeshangkoubingmeiyoubeishijianzhiyu。
danwohaideduzimianduijiannandeshenghuo，yushi，woyoubenbozaizhao**delushang。
shengpayudaodiaozuanmanhengdehaizi，wobuzaizhaojiajiaoxiangguandegongzuo。
youyaojiangudaxuefanzhongdekeye，zuizhong，womianshichenggongleyigezaiyoulechangzuo**kanbengbengchuang，andantichengdegongzuo。
qiansuibuduo，danshiziyoumeiyueshu。
meirendeshihou，wohainengchoukongpengshuxuexi。
mobeidancishi，buyuanchutingdaoxiaopengyoudashengrangrang。
“baba，woyaozuobengbengchuang，yaozuoyibaici。”
wowenshengtixing:“xiaopengyou，zuoneimeduocitouhuiyundee！”
“你怎么在这儿？”
yihuodeshengyinxiangqi，wozheicaichajuezoudaowomianqiandeyiduifuzishichenjianhechenhaozhou。
“wozaizuo**。”wozhilezhizijimianqiandegongzuopai。
chenjiancoudaowoshenpang，dishengwen:“nishenghuohenkunnanma？nimamayinggaihaihuiyoudanweifafangdefuxujina！”
wojiqiaogouchun，“chenshushu，niwangle，dangchunixuanzeyicixingpeichangkuan，fangqilefuxujin，neibiyibaiwandepeichangkuanyebeiniquanbudaizoule。”
wohemamazheimeduonianshikaocunlidedibaohewochoukongjianlajihuoxialaide。
chenjianyanmouyidun，xinxuconglianshangfuqi，chekaihuati，guanxindao:“nideshoushizenmehuishi？”
tasihaomeiyishidaowozheizhifeiledeshoushibeitasuoshang。
meidengwokaikou，chenhaozhoudashenghanchenjian:“baba！”
“baobei，yaozuobengbengchuangshiba！ranggegejinibangyixia。”
chenjianmozhechenhaozhoudenaodai，kanxiangwo。
“wojinizhuanyibaicibengchuangqian，woquerloujizhouzhouxuangehuabanche，nijiubangwokanzhezhouzhoujiuxing！”
shuozhe，tamiaofulekuan，jiangchenhaozhourengzaizheili，zhuanshenlikai。
shuoshihua，wotingtaoyanchenhaozhouzheigexiaohaide。
jitabangbeidaishi，taguyiyongshoupaidawowulideyoushou，jiaoxiadizhayanwenwo:“nishibushitourendongxi，beirendaduanleshouya？”
wobulita，tajiucouwoerbian，hualiyouhuadao:“nigenwobabahenshua！mamahaishuonihebabazhangdexiang。”
“wocaishibabadebaobeierzi，weiyide，bunengbeiqudaide。”
wocuoetaiyan，meixiangdao，yigecaibasuidehaizi，xinjirucizhishen。
suoyi，shangyicitanaliulianzawo，zhuangkushiyinweizheiyidian？
“woburenshinibaba。”woyaotoufouren，zhuandongganzi，jiangtashenggao。
tabengqilaishi，yijiaochuaiwolianshang。
wocubujifangzhiji，tayoubengqichuaiwojianbangshang。
wonaonutaitou，tadeyikanwo。
“babajinizhuanleyibaicibengchuangqian，wojiuyaochuainiyibaici，suanshibianyinile！”
beichenhaozhoupengpengjixiachuaidebiebuzhuhuo，wotaishoumenglashengjianggan。
beidiaoqideta“aa”dajiao，wobuguanta。
xiangzheyihuierjiubaqiantuijichenjian，wozuoxiafanqileshuben。
mamalielieyizhenhoudechenhaozhouturanmeishengle，woniutou，lianseshashicanbai。
wangxiajijiangganzishi，chenjianchongguolaitaishouzhongzhongshuailewoyierguang。
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“chenzechuan，nizheihaizizenmezheimeedu！”
“wohaoxinjinizhizaozhengqiandejihui，nifeidanbuganji，hainvedainididi！”
“zhouzhouyaoshichushi，worangnichibuledouzhezou！”
tabaoqituranyundaodechenhaozhou，kanwodeyanshenrucuileyinzhen，chongmanyuandu。
linzouqian，tayi“nvetong”weiyou，xiangwodelaobantousulewo。
wobeikaichule，neibiyibaicidebengchuangfeiyebeilaobantanlexialai。
wokeyibikaichenjianfuzizhusuoquyu，zhongxinyouzhaolefen**baohuajijiandegongzuo。
jiuzaiwoyiweihechenjianzaibuhuiyoujiaojishi，tazhudongzhaodaolewo。
zheici，wobuganzaijieshoutasuoweide“haoxin”le。
“niyaodinghuazhaowomenlaoban，wozhifuzebaohua，bujiedanzide。”
“lingwai，shangcinijideyibaicibengchuangfei，dengwopinkunbuzhujinfaxialai，couyicouhuihaijinide。”
chenjianyigaizhiqiandeshengshutaidu，“xiaochuan，babajinidejiushinide，naliyourangnihaidedaolia！”
“babazhiqianshipazhouzhouxiaobunenglijie，xianzainihewodeguanxi，babahenididiheayidoushuole，zanmenyihoujiushiyijiaren。”
tashituwowodeshou，genwoshihao。
woyouxiejingtidisuohuishou。
taguzuoxintengdingzhewodeshoudao:“xiaochuan，nikannizheishoubaohuazhadedoushici，yihouzheixiecuhuodoubuyaozuole。”
“nixiangduanlianziji，keyilainizhaoayidegongsishangban，huozhejixujinididizuojiajiao。”
chenjiandefanchangrangwohenshihuaiyi，“nidaodixiangshuoshenme？”
chenjianyouyouyuyukailekou:“xiaochuan，nididizhouzhoubeichachudelexueai，xuyaozuogusuiyizhi，baxiang……”
wolimadaduan:“tabushiwodidi！”
chenjiantanqidao:“nizheihaizishuoshenmeqihuani！zhouzhouhaishuoyaojinipeilidaoqianni！zuogegede，jiudadudian。”
“nishuonimeiyoushenfenbeijingde，haishigecanfei，yihou，haibushidezhizhezhouzhouzheigeqindidiguanzhaoni。”
“zhiyunineigefeiwuma，kanzainidemianshang，woyemianweiqinanjitadianbuzhu。”
“yihou，nijiugenzhebabaguo，babahuimibunizheishijinianqueshidefuaide。”
wolengchiyisheng，“mibu？zenmemibu？nikoukoushengshengshuowoshigecanfei，wozheizhiyoushouhaibushibainisuoci！”
zaichenjianzhenjingchayideshensezhongwokongsudao:“nidangnianweileshuaidiaowozheigetuoyouping，juqiliandaohuapolewoyoushoushoujin。”
“woliuzhexuezhuizaichehoupaolejigongliyewanbuhuinidetieshixinchang，nirujinyounalilaideliandihuimama？！”
chenjianhuangzhangwucuo:“xiaochuan……wo……wobuzhidaode，yinggaishiwobuxiaoxin……”
buxiangtingtajiaobian，baowanzuihouyishuhuadewo，linbaojiuzou。
chenjianzhuishanglai，putongjiwoguixia，“xiaochuan，babaqiunijiujiunididi，nirangbabazuoshenmedouxing！”
yirudangchuxiaoxiaodewokuzhebaozhubabadedatui，zheiyicihuantakuzhebaozhuwodetui。
weilelingyigehetaxuemaixiangliandeerzi。
congtadeshouzhongtaitui，wotuikaiyibu，“zheigexingqiliuwoyoubantianshijian，nilaijiewo。”
woxuyaochenhaozhoumamadaochang，querenyijianshi。
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daolezhouliu，chenjianhechenhaozhoumamazhaoxinyizaojiulaixuexiaojiewo。
cheziwensuxingshishi，zhaoxinkailekou:“xiaochuan，wotingnibabashuole，dangniannibababeinineigeyoujingshenbinghaijiabaodemamaqifu，meinenglidaizouni。”
“haozainimenfuziyouyuanfen，nengzaiyigechengshizaicixiangyu，zhiyaonitongyijizhouzhoujuangusui，wohuinanidangzijihaizikandaide。”
精神病？家暴？
woningmeikanxiangniezaoshishidechenjian，quebeitazhuajinleshou，zhuangmozuoyangkutan。
“xiaochuan，babazheixienianyizhihenhouhuidangnianmeidainilikai，hainishoulebushaoku。”
“nifangxin，yihoubabajiuyounihezhouzhoulianggeerzile，huiyishitongrenainide。”
tingzhetaxuqingjiayidechengnuo，wochenmozhe，zhengzhazheshouhuileshou。
chezizaiyiyuanmenkoutingxia。
wogenzhechenjianhezhaoxinjinlechenhaozhoudebingfang，chenhaozhoukanwodeyanshendiyimanman。
dangzhefumudemiantahaishixinyoubuganjiaolewoyisheng“gege”。
liangrenbeichenhaozhouzhizoumaikendejishi，chenhaozhouyouxiebuxiangxindiwenwo:“nizhendehuijiwojuangusuima？”
我摇头:“不会。”
chenhaozhoucongchuangshangtiaoqilai，shenshouzhiwo:“haoa！nigepianzi！pianbabarenni，niyebuzhaozhaojingzi，kankannizheiqigaiyang，nalipeizuobabadeerzi？”
“womamashizhaoshidedongshizhang，nimamajiushigejingshenbing，fengnvren，dahuaidan，babashuonizhipeiyihoujiwotixie。”
tatiaodaowomianqian，qiyanxiaozhang，yanyipie，shoujikuaidizhuaixiawobozishangdedanpiandiaozhui。
“zheidongxibuhuishibabasongnideba？”
wozhejihoudao:“zheishiwomamadedongxi，haijiwo！”
chenhaozhouxiaozhejiangdiaozhuijudaochuangkou，“niguixialaiqiuwoa！”
tazuoshiyaowangxiareng，wobeipoquruguidiqiutahaiwo。
sheizhitaturanpaoxiangbingfangneideweishengjian，wopaqishenzhuiguoqushi，kandaotayijinganxialematongchongshui。
chenhaozhouhuanglehuangkongkongdeshuangshou，“huairendedongxijiugaijinxiashuidao，wochongxiaqusuanshititianxingdaole！”
danpianshiwomuqinliujiwodeweiyiyiwu，shiwoqinggandejituo。
wonubukeechongshangqujiuzhuletadeyiling，“nizheigeedudexiaohai，zhenshigaisi！”
chenhaozhou“a”didajiao，wodeyoushouaileyidao，xianxueshashiyongchu。
chenjianwozhezhanxuedeshuiguodao，zhaoxinlouzhushoujingdechenhaozhou。
“baba，gegeshuobuhuijiwojuangusuide，haishuoyaorangwokuaidiansi，zheiyang，babajiushitayigerendele。”tinglechenhaozhoueyidekongsu，chenjianqifendao:“chenzechuan！nizhenshibeinimamajiaohuaile，xinchangzheimedaidu！”
“niyige**dexiangxianituizi，youshenmezigegenzhouzhoubi？”
“wokenrenni，shikanzainiyuanyijuanxiangusuidefenshang，nihaizhendangzijishigehuosele？”
“xiangqiangzhouzhoudediwei，woquannichenzaosilezheitiaoxin，niyaoshikenjuangusui，wokeyibuchangniwushiwan，suanshiduideqinile。”
“niyaoshibuyuanyi，woyebujieyijiangninvedaizhouzhou，bifuqinxiagui，lesuoqiancaideshitousudaonimenxuexiao。”
zhaoxinshiwangtanqidao:“chenzechuan，wocuokannile！zhenshiyouqimubiyouqizi！”
wowuzheshoushangdeyoushou，xinliwuweizachen。
haishimeiwangcongbaoliquchuleyizhangdanhuangchenjiudebaozhi。
jieguobaozhidezhaoxinmuguangluozaidangnianbendibaozhidetoubandiyitiaoxiaoxishang，zhengzhengtaiyanwenwo，“nishi……”woyankuangfanhong:“songyingmeishiwomama。”
zhaoxinhuxiyizhi，wozhebaozhideshoudouleqilai。