第十章

zhidaotiansejianwan,shenzhilicailaikanwo。

tawangzhewoshi,lianshangdeguanqiebushizuojia,kewoyijiubeipaidaozuihou。

congqianwozhiyiweitanamengwandangmeimei,gegechongmeimeibenshitianjingdiyideshiqing,queyuanlaibushide。

wo—zhibucengtilihundeyuanyin,shiyinweiwushiyuzaidexiangban,bianshirijijiubaizaiwodemianqian,woshenzhidoubuganxiangxin。

neishiwushijinian,jiwangeririyeye,wodezhenbianrena!

zaishengsiguantou,tafangqilewo,zhidaoxianzaiwocaizhongyusixin。

—guchilaidenuyijihuyaojiangwoyanmei,woyijinghenjiumeiyouzheiyangdadeqingxuqifule。

neixiebeiwoshenshenyazhizaixindizuishenchudexiangfa,feng—banyongxianchulai。

他日记上写着:

【wanwan,wozainulichangshiailing—geren,qingqingshigehaonvhai,aitayuniwodoushizuihaodejieju,keshiwoshibaile,yuanlaiaishi

不能勉强的。】

wowushucizhiwenziji,woxiangwozhendezheimebuzhideaime?

neishiwushijizai,renshengdabandesuiyue,zheizhongjiannapayou—ke,takecengduiwodongguoxin。

keshiwozhongjiushenmedoumeiyouwen,yinweibuzhongyaole,zhendebuzhongyaole。

「shenzhili,《yuanfang》paishewan,womenjiuqulihunba!」

shenzhilimanliandebukezhixin,xiangqian—bu,zhuazhuwodeshou:

「yangqing,wokeyijieshide~」

wonulixiangyaozhengkaitadeshou,zheiyangdepengchuzongrangwoxiangqiwokexiaode—sheng。

hushizoulejinlai,kanzhetadeliansebushan:

「nishibingrendeshenmeren?

「bingrenshuaidaohounaoshao,naozhendang,ruoshizaizhongyidian,zhipaniyi

经看不到她了。」

zhidaoxianzai,shenzhilisihucaizhidaowodeshangshi:

「qingqing,wo……wobuzhidao。」

tayuqiyouxiejieba,shenqingjiandoushiaohuiyuhoupa。

zhejimanghuangdixiangqian,xiangyaochakanwoshenshangdeshangshi,zaiwangjianwoqingzideshangkoushi,shenqingxintengwubi。

houlaijitian,shenzhiliyizhishouzaiwoshenbian,wulunwozenmelengyanlengyu。

woyoushiwangzhetashihuiyouxiexudichushen,shangyibeiziwozuoguoyigeshoushu,shenzhilituilesuoyoudegongzuo,zaiwoshenbianzhaoguwozhaogule

zhengzhengyinian,yeyincirangwowurenweitaaiwo。

keaishijingbuqibijiaode,biruzaimengwanmianqian,woyongyuanzhishitadediershunwei。