mamaxiazangneitian，tianxiazhexiaoyu。gegebawoladaoyibian："fangzimaliujiwole，youyizhu。"womengle，
zheifangzidangchushiwochudeshoufu。mamalinzhongqian，mingmingwozhewodeshoushuo"doushinide"。
xianzaigegenachuyizhu，wogaixinshei？01yusiyoulengyoumi，dazaiheisedesanmianshang，fachuchenmendeshashasheng。
nitubeiyushuijintou，biandeshihuanining，meizouyibudouyichangjiannan。wopengzhemamadeheibaiyixiang，
zhaopianlidetahaizaiweixiao，wenhedexiangyiwangshui。kewodexin，quexiangbeizheimudidelengyujiaotoule，yipianbingliang。
zanglideliuchengfansuoeryayi，womamudigenzhesiyidezhiling，jugong，zhixie。
gegelinjianguohesaozizhanglizhanzaiwoshenhoubuyuanchu，xianglianggezhishenshiwaidebinke。
linjianguochuanzheyishenzhanxindeheisexizhuang，toufamodeyouliang，kanbuchubandianbeishang。zhanglizebaozheshoubei，
baiwuliaolaidisichuzhangwang，zuilihaixiaoshengdigenpangbianderenbaoyuanzheshenme。wotingbuqing，yebuxiangting。
songzangdeduiwuzaininingzhonghuanhuanqianxing。zhanglicoudaowoshenbian，yongbudabuxiaodeshengyinshuo：“xiaoyu，
zheizanglibandeyetaipuzhangle，hualebushaoqianba。”woniezhexiangkuangdeshouzhishoujin，zhijiefanbai。
“mayibeizijiejian，nizheimegao，talaorenjiazaitianzhilingyebuhuikaixinde。”womeiyouhuitou，yemeiyouzuosheng，
zhishisisidingzheqianfangneikuaixinlidemubei。“zaishuole，niyigenvhaizijia，huaqiandashoudajiaode，
yihouzenmejiaren。”tadeshengyinxiangcangyingyiyangzaiwoerbianwengwengzuoxiang，jiaodewotoutengyulie。huidaojiali，
wuzilihaicanliuzhelingtangdexiaosuoqixi。qinqimensansanliangliangdizuozhe，meirenshuohua，
kongqichenmenderangrenchuanbuguoqi。wojimeigerendaolebeishui，shentiyinweizhangshijiandezhanlierbuzhudifadou。
jiuzaizheishi，linjianguoqingleqingsangzi，zhandaoleketingzhongyang。suoyourendemuguangdoujizhongdaoletashenshang。
“geweiqinqi，jintianqingdajialiuxialai，shiyouyijianzhongyaodeshiqingyaoxuanbu。
”tacongxizhuangneidailitaochuyizhangzhediedezhengzhengqiqidezhi，xiaoxinyiyidizhankai。
“zheishimashengqianlixiadeyizhu。”wodexinmengdiyichen，yizhongbuxiangdeyuganshunjianjuezhulewo。
“yizhushangxiedeqingqingchuchu，mamingxiazheitaofangzi，youwo，yejiushitaweiyideerzilinjianguo，gerenjicheng。
”tatigaoleyinliang，yuqilidaizheyisiyanshibuzhudedeyi。hongdeyisheng，wodedanaoyipiankongbai。
wobuganxiangxinzijideerduo，zhilenglengdikanzheta，fangfozaikanyigemoshengren。zheitaofangzi，sannianqianmaide，
shoufusanshiwan，shiwotaokonglesuoyoujixu，yougenpengyoujieleshiwancaicouqide。zheisanniandeyuegong，
meigeyuewuqian，yeshicongwogongzikaliyifenbuchadihuazou。gege，tachuguoyifenqianma？
tashenzhiliankanfangdoulandequ。linjianguojiangneifenyizhudidaowomianqian，baizhiheizi，gewaiciyan。“nikan，
zheishangmianyoumadeqinbiqianming，haiyoushouyin。”wozhandouzheshoujieguoneizhangzhi。zijiqueshishimamade，
zhishiwaiwainiuniu，haowulidao，xiangshihaojinlesuoyoushengminglicaixiexiade。qianmingpangbian，shiyigexianhongdeshouyin。
luokuanriqi，shilianggeyueqian。saozizhanglilikehuanshangleyifunvzhurendezuilian，zoudaowoshenbian。“xiaoyua，
nikan，zheidoushimadeyisi，laorenjiadeyiyuan，zanmenzuozinvde，jiugaizunzhong。”tapailepaiwodejianbang，
neilidaobuxiangshianwei，gengxiangshiyizhongqugan。“zheifangzijiranjilejianguo，niyigewairen，
yegaizaodianzuodasuan，zhaogedifangbanchuqu。”“shiashia，”yigeyuanfanggumafuhedao，
“jiachuqudenverpochuqudeshui，jiachanbenlaijiugailiujierzide。”“xiaoyugongzuoneimehao，
yigeyuezhengbushaoqian，buquezheidian。”“jiushi，genzijiqingegezhengshenme，buxianghua。
”qinqimendeyilunshengxiangyibabadundaozi，yixiaxiagezaiwodexinshang。jiuzaiwokuaiyaobeizheixieshengyinyanmeishi，
yigehongliangdeshengyinxiangleqilai。“wobuxin！zheibukeneng！”shijiujiuchenguodong，
tayibacongwoshoulinaguoyizhu，qidemanliantonghong。“wojielinzouqianzenmegenwoshuode？
tashuozheifangzishixiaoyumaide，yihoujiushixiaoyude！tabukenenglizheizhongyizhu！”linjianguolianseyibian，
shangqianqiangduo：“jiujiu，zheishiwomenjiadeshi，ninyigewairenjiubiechanhele。”“wowairen？”jiujiuqixiaole，
“linjianguo，nihaiyoumeiyouliangxin！nimashengbingzheisannian，sheizaichuangqiansihou？sheichudeyiyaofei？
xiaoyuweilejinimazhibing，bagongzuodouchadiandiule，nini？”“nichulehuishenshouyaoqian，haizuoguoshenme！
”liangrenshunjianzhengzhiqilai，wuzililuanchengyituan。wodaidaidizhanzaiyuandi，naozilizhiyouyigehuamian。
mamalinzhongqian，zaiyiyuandebingchuangshang，takushoudeshoujinjinwozhewo。tadeyanjingyijingmeishenmeshencaile，
quenulidikanzhewo，zuichunxidong。
“xiaoyu……maduibuqini……zheifangzi……jialide……doushinide……”tayiziyiju，
shuodeneimeqingxi。yanleihaowuzhengzhaodigunluoxialai，zazaineizhangqingpiaopiaodeyizhushang，yunkaiyituanshuizi。
zhongrenjianjiansanqu，wuzilizhongyuanjingxialai。gegehesaozizhanjulezhuwo，fangfotamenyijingshizheilidezhuren。
woduzizoujinmamaneijianxiaoxiaodewoshi，guanshanglemen。fangjianlihaimimanzhetashenshangneigudandandeyaowei。
wozuozaichuangbian，kanzheshoulineifenbinglengdeyizhu，xianrulechensi。wobuxinmamahuizheiyangduiwo。zheijianshi，
woyidingyaochageshuiluoshichu。02neiyiye，wocheyewumian。chuangwaideyuxixililixiagebuting，
qiaodazheboli，yeqiaodazhewoqianchuangbaikongdexin。wotangzaibinglengdechuangshang，congxiaodaodadejiyixiangchaoshuibanyonglai，
jihujiangwonibi。zaizheigejiali，gegelinjianguoyongyuanshizhongxin，shitaiyang，erwo，zhishiyikeweiraotaxuanzhuan，
shenzhilianguangdoulinyujiyudexingxing。wojidewusuineinian，linjianguochaozheyaoxuegangqin。mamaerhuabushuo，
bajialiweiyidecunzhequkong，yousichujieqian，jitamaileyijiaangguidegangqin。erwo，
zhishixiaoshengshuoleyijuxiangxuehuahua，jiubeimamayiju“nvhaizixueneixieluanqibazaodeganshenme”jidulehuiqu。
neijiagangqin，linjianguomeidanlianggeyuejiunile，zuihouchengleketinglijihuidebaishe。xiaoxueshi，
linjianguokaoshicicidaoshu，mamazongshiqingshengxiyudianweita“meiguanxi，wojiajianguozuicongming，
zhishibuaixue”。wokaolequanbandiyi，nazhejiangzhuangxinggaocailiedipaohuijia，mamaquezhishidandandikanleyiyan，
shuo“nvhaizixuexineimehaoyoushenmeyong，jianglaihaibushiyaojiaren”。gaokaoneinian，wopinjinquanli，
kaoshanglenanfangde985zhongdiandaxue。linjianguozhikaoshangleyigebendidesanbenyuanxiao，xuefeigaodeheren。
mamahaobuyouyudibajialisuoyoudejixudounalechulai，quanbujiaojilelinjianguo。lundaowoshi，
taliangshouyitan：“jialimeiqianle，nizijixiangbanfaba。”zuihou，woshikaozhezhuxuedaikuanhewushufen**，
caiduwanlesiniandedaxue。jibianshizheiyang，womeigeyuehaiyaocongweibodeshenghuofeilijichuqianlai，jihuijiali。
yinweimamazongshizaidianhualishuo：“nigezuijintanlianaile，huaxiaoda，nizheigezuomeimeide，yegaibangchenzhedian。
”daxuebiyehou，wojinlexianzaizheijiagongsi，congzuidicengdehuijizuoqi，meirimeiyedijiaban，kaozheng，
caiyibubuzuodaolecaiwuzhuguandeweizhi。erlinjianguo，tadesanbendaxueyagenmeiduwan，daerjiutuixuele。
tajichudeliyoushi“dushutaimeiyisile，haiburuchulaichuangshehui”。ketasuoweidechuangshehui，
jiushimeitiandaizaijialidayouxi，meiqianlejiuzhaomamayao。zheixienian，
mamachenglewomenzhijiandechuanshengtonghetikuanji。tameicijiwodadianhua，kaitoudiyijuyongyuanshi：“xiaoyua，
nigezuijinshoutouyoujinle。”“nigeyaohuanshoujile，nikan……”“nigekanshangyiliangche，
shoufuhaichaledian……”woxiangyigebeishedinglechengxudejiqiren，mamudizhuanzhang，yiciyouyici。
wobushimeiyouyuanyan，kemeicikandaomamaweinandeyangzi，tingdaotashuo“tajiunizheimeyigemeimei，
nibubangtasheibangta”，wojiuxinruanle。wotianzhendiyiwei，wodefuchu，woderenrang，mamadoukanzaiyanli，
jizaixinli。woyiwei，tazhishibushanyubiaoda，danxinlishitengwode。kexianzai，
neifenyizhuxiangyigexiangliangdeerguang，henhendichouzaiwodelianshang。tagaosuwo，wosuoyoudefuchu，suoyoudexisheng，
douzhishiyigexiaohua。zaimamaxinli，wozheigenver，huoxuzhendebibushangyigenshouzhitoudoulandedongdeerzi。
xinhan，chegudehanleng，congsizhibaihaimanyankailai，dongdewohunshenfadou。woquansuozaibeizili，
yanleiwushengdijinshilezhentou。nandao，wozhendecuolema？nandao，wozheimeduoniandenulihexiaoshun，
zaitayanlizhendeyiwenbuzhi？heianzhong，wozhengzheyanjing，zhidaotianbianfanqiyisiyudubai。bu。womeiyoucuo。
ruguolianwozijidoufangqile，neijiuzhendeshenmedoumeiyoule。wocongchuangshangzuoqilai，caganyanlei，
yanshenlijianjianningjuqiyisilengyingdeguang。03diertianyizao，wohuilezijizuzhudexiaogongyu。
neishiyigebuzusanshipingmidekaijian，beiwoshoushidejingjingyoutiao。wodakaishuzhuozuixiamiandechouti，
conglimianfanchuyigehouhoudewenjianjia。zheilimian，shiwozheixieniansuoyoudezhongyaopingzheng。
wozhaodaolesannianqiandegoufanghetong，yijiyizhangyinxingzhuanzhangpingzheng。pingzhengshangqingqingchuchudixiezhe：zhuanzhangjine，
sanshiwanyuanzheng。shoukuanren，shifangchankaifashang。woqingchudijidesannianqiandeneigexiatian。
mamaturandadianhuajiwo，shuotaxiangzaichengliyoutaozijidefangzi，laoleyeyougeyikao。tashuo，
tabuxiangzaikanfangdongdeliansele。wolikedadianhuajigegelinjianguo，shangliangmaifangdeshi。dianhuaneitou，
taxiangdoumeixiangjiujujuele。“maishenmefang？woxianzaizhumazheilibushitinghaodema？wokemeiqian。”gualedianhua，
wochenmolehenjiu。dangshiwoganggongzuomanliangnian，shoulisuoyoudejixujiaqilai，yecaiershiwan。
weilecougousanshiwandeshoufu，woyaozheya，fangxialesuoyoudezizun，jiwoneixiedaxuetongxueyigegedadianhua，
zuihoucaijiedaoleshiwankuaiqian。qianhetongneitian，mamalazhewodeshou，yanquanhonghongde。“xiaoyu，shimameiyong，
rangnishouweiqule。”woxiaozheshuo：“ma，zheiyoushenmeweiqude，yihouwomenjiuyouzijidejiale。
”weilerangmamaanxin，yeweileyihounengshaoxiejiatingmaodun，fangchanzhengshangxiedeshimamayigerendemingzi。
dangshimamajinjinwozhewodeshou，zhengzhongdixiangwochengnuo：“xiaoyunifangxin，zheifangziyihoujiushinide，
majueduibuhuikuidaini。”woxinle。woxiangxinletayanlidezhencheng。zheisannian，meigeyuewuqiankuaidefangdai，
xiangyizuodashanyazaiwoshenshang。wobuganqingjia，buganshengbing，buganmaixinyifu，bugancanjiarenheyulehuodong。
gongsilisuoyourendouyiweiwoshigegongzuokuang，zhiyouwozijizhidao，woshibugantingxialai。
wofanchushoujilihemamadeliaotianjilu。tashengbinghou，wobunengshishikekepeizaitashenbian，
zhinengtongguoweixinguanxinta。wokandaoyitiaotalianggeduoyueqianfajiwodeyuyin，diankai。“xiaoyu，
nigezuijin……youlaizhaowole……nifangxin，maxinliyoushu，mabuhuihutude。”tadeshengyinhenxuruo，
haidaizhechuanxi，danyuqishikendingde。haiyoulinzhongqianneitian，tazhuazhewodeshou，
yongjinzuihouyisiliqishuodeneiju“doushinide”。zheiyiqie，douheneifenyizhubeidaoerchi。
wojiangsuoyoudepingzheng、zhuanzhangjilu、liaotianjilujietu，quanbuzhenglihao，dayinlechulai。xiawu，
wonazhezheixiedongxi，huidaoleneigesuoweide“jia”。linjianguohezhanglizhengzuozaishafashangkandianshi，kezheguazi，
mandilangjie。kandaowojinlai，linjianguoyanpidoumeitaiyixia。“nihuilaiganshenme？bushirangnizhaodifangbanma？
”womeiyoulihuitadetiaoxin，jingzhizoudaotamianqian，jiangshoulidewenjianshuaizaichajishang。“ge，nikankanzheixie。
”linjianguobunaifandinaqijizhangzhi，saoleyiyan，suijichixiaoyisheng。“shenmeyisi？
nazheixiefeizhilaihehuwo？”tajiangneixiezhirenghuizhuoshang，manbuzaihudishuo：“koushuowuping，
xianzaibaizhiheizideyizhuzaizheili，zheifangzijiushiwode。”pangbiandezhangliyeyinyangguaiqidikailekou。
“linxiaoyu，wozhenshimeikanchulai，nixinjizheimeshena。hailiuzhezheixiedongxi，zenme，
zaojiupansuanzhegenwomenzhengjiachanle？”tazhanqilai，jugaolinxiadikanzhewo，zuijiaoguazhebiyidelengxiao。
“niyigedangnverde，jimayanglao，jimahuaqian，neibushitianjingdiyidema？zenmezhe，haixiangyaohuibaoa？
zhenshixiaosirenle。”wodexueyixiazichongshangletouding，hunshenqidefadou。wosisizuanzhequantou，
zhijiashenshenxianjinrouli。wokanzhetamenneiliangzhanglisuodangrandechouezuilian，yijuhuayeshuobuchulai。
hezheiyangderen，shijiangbutongdaolide。woshenxiyikouqi，qiangpozijilengjingxialai。wowanyao，
yizhangyizhangdijianqisanluozaidishangdewenjian，zixididiehao。ranhou，wozhuanshen，
yiyanbufadilikaileneigerangwozhixidedifang。guangkaozheixiezhengju，queshiwufaduikangneifenbaizhiheizideyizhu。
danwozhidao，shiqingjuemeiyouneimejiandan。04huidaowodexiaochuzuwu，wojiangneifenyizhudefuyinjianpuzaizhuoshang，
dakaitaideng，zixiyanjiuqilai。yizhudeneironghenjiandan，zhiyouyijuhua：“benrenlinxiufen，
ziyuanjiangmingxiaweiyuxxluxxxiaoqudefangchan，zaiwoqushihou，youwodeerzilinjianguoyirenjicheng。
”xiamianshiqianmingheshouyin。wohenkuaifaxianlejigeyidian。diyi，riqi。yizhudeluokuanriqishilianggeyueqian。
woqingchudijide，neiduanshijianshimamabingqingzuiyanzhongdeshihou，tayinweiaitong，zhengyezhengyedishuibuzhe，
kaodajiliangdezhitongyaocainengmianqiangweichi。henduoshihou，taliannakuaizideliqidoumeiyou，shoudoudefeichanglihai。
dier，ziji。suiranqianmingqueshishimamadebiji，danhewozhiqianshoudaodetaxiedexinxiangbi，
zheifenyizhushangdezijimingxianyaoliaocao、niuqudeduo。youhaojigebihuadoutuodehenzhang，xiandeyouqiwuli，
genbenbuxiangshiyigeshenzhiqingxingderenxiechulaide。gengxiang……shibeirenwozheshou，qiangxingxiexiade。disan，fengge。
mamasuirandushubuduo，danxinsixini。tayiqianjiwoxiexin，zongshijiazhangliduan，dingzhuwozhuyishenti，
haohaochifan，congbuhuiyongzheimeshengying、gongshihuadeyuyan。zheifenyizhu，lengbingbingde，
wanquanbuxiangchuzitadeshoubi。wohuixiangqineiduanshijianfashengdeshiqing。gegelinjianguoyifanchangtai，
turanduimamabiaoxiande“xiaoshun”qilai。tajihutiantianwangyiyuanpao，duanchadaoshui，chuibei**，
bazhouweidebingyoudougandongdebuxing。erwo，yinweiyaopinminggongzuozhengqianfuyiyaofeihefangdai，zhinengmeitianxiabanhou，
wanshangquyiyuanpeiye。henduobaitianfashengdeshiqing，woqishibingbuzhiqing。xianzaixianglai，
taneixieturuqilaide“xiaoshun”，beihoudouzangzhebukegaorendemude。
woxinliyouleyigekepadecaice：zheifenyizhu，henkenengshilinjianguochenzhemamabingzhong、yishibuqingdeshihou，
hongpianshenzhiqiangpotaqianxiade。weilezhengshiwodecaice，wozhaodaoledangshizaiyiyuanzhaogumamadehugongwangayi。
woqingtazaifujindexiaocanguanchiledunfan。qichu，wangayihaiyouxiegulv，buyuanduoshuo。zaiwozaisankenqiuxia，
tacaitanlekouqi，kailekou。“xiaoyua，bushiayibuxiangbangni，shizaishi……nineigegege，butaihaore。
”tayadishengyinshuo：“nimazhuyuanneiduanshijian，nigequeshitiantianlai。buguo，tameicilai，
douzhaogezhongliyoubawozhikai，shuoshiyaogennimadandushuoshuohua。”“youyiciwohuilaidezaoledian，
zaibingfangmenkou，yinyuetingdaonigezailimianshuo……shuoshenme‘ma，nijiuqiangeziba，xiaoyuneimenenggan，
buquezheitaofang’zhileidehua。”wangayidehua，xiangyidaoshandian，pikailewoxinzhongdemiwu。
wodecaicebeizhengshile。wodeqingege，weilefangzi，jingranzaimamabingzhongshi，yongzheiyangbeiliedeshouduan。
yiguhunzazhefennuhebeiliangdeqingxuzaiwoxiongzhongfanyong。wofennutade**，
yebeiliangmamazaishengmingdezuihoushike，haiyaobeizijideerzisuanji。woxieguowangayi，
jiletayigehouhoudehongbao。xianzai，shiqingdelunkuoyijingyuelaiyueqingxile。danwohaixuyaogengduodezhengju。
wobotonglejiujiudedianhua。“jiujiu，woxiang，wokenengzhidaoneifenyizhushizenmelaidele。”dianhuaneitou，
jiujiuchenmolepianke，ranhouyongyizhongyichangjiandingdeyuqishuo：“xiaoyu，nibiepa，jiujiubangni。
womenyiqibazhenxiangzhaochulai。”05jiujiuchenguodonghenkuaijiugandaolewozuzhudexiaowu。
kanzhezheijianxiaxiao、jianloudefangjian，tayigeliushisuidedananren，yanquanyixiazijiuhongle。“xiaoyu，
weiqunile。”tazuozaixiaoxiaodeshafashang，zhangzhangditanlekouqi。“nimata……ai，
tajiushipianxinpiandaoguzilile，wozheigedangdidide，shuoletayibeizi，tayetingbujinqu。
”jiujiucongkoudailimochuyibaoyan，chouchuyigen，xiangdianshang，youkanlekanwo，bayanfanglehuiqu。
“qishiyouhenduoshi，nidoubuzhidao。”jiujiudeshengyinyouxieshaya。“sannianqiannimachachuaizheng，yaozuoshoushu，
xuyaoyidabiqian。woquzhaojianguo，nicaitashuoshenme？”woyaoleyaotou。“tashuotameiqian，
haishuomazheibingjiushigewudidong，zhiyezhibuhao，burushengdianqian，rangtazuihouguodeshufudian。”wodexin，
xiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanzhu，tengdewufahuxi。“houlaineijishiwandeshoushufei、zhiliaofei，
quanshiniyigerentaokongdejixu，youjieledaikuancaicouqide。zheixieshi，jianguoyigezierdoumeichuguo。
”“kenimani，tajiushikanbuqing。jianguozaitalinzhongqianneijigeyue，tiantianpaoquyiyuan，
zaitachuangqiankudeyibabitiyibalei，yandegengedaxiaoziside，banimagandongdebuxing。”wodixiatou，
kusedixiaolexiao。yuanlai，neiduanshijiande“xiaoshun”，bujinjinshiweilepianquyizhu，
gengshiweilezaimamaxinliliuxiayigehaoyinxiang。“wodangshiyezhiwenguonima，wentaweishenmezheimepianxin。
”jiujiujixushuo，“tashuo，‘jianguomeibenshi，jianglaiyaoyanglaosongzhong，zongbunengbujitaliudiandongxi’。
”“ketayegenwoniantaoguohaojici，shuo‘xiaoyuzheihaiziweizheigejiafuchutaiduole，woxinliyoukui，
wobuhuikuidaitade’。”jiujiudehua，xiangyibayaochi，dakailewoxinzhongzuihouyidaosuo。mamabushibuaiwo，
tazhishibeichuantongde“yangerfanglao”guannianshufuleyibeizi，xinlichongmanlemaodunhejiujie。taxiangbuchangwo，
danyoufangbuxianeigebuzhengqideerzi。“xiaoyu，womenbunengjiuzheimesuanle。”jiujiupailepaiwodeshou，
yanshenjianding，“womenqucha**yinxingzhanghu，quyiyuandiaoqubinglijilu，wojiubuxin，
chabuchutalinjianguodehuliweiba！”zaijiujiudegulixia，wozhongxinzhenzuoleqilai。womenyiqiquleyiyuan，
zhaodaoledangshibingfangliqitachuangweidebingyoujiashu。jingguoyifandating，yiweidashuzhengshi，