第1章
“我不想死！”
xiangchengyizuolaojiujuminlouzhong，yidaodahoushengturanxiangchezhengdonglou。
duyuxuanmengrandengdayanjing，mantoudahandicongchuangshangzuoqi。
yanjinglibianbuxuesi，yonglichengzhechuangdakoudakouhuxi，yangzixianranshihedebuqing。
“zenmehui？woxianzaibushiyinggaiyijingsilema？”
huiguoshen，kanqingchuzhouweidehuanjing，duyuxuandunshilengzhu，yanliluchunanyizhixindeshense。
屋子不大。
只有一百多平米。
dancongchuanghuzhongtouguolaineiwennuandeyangguang，queshitazuomengyebuganxiangde！
yinwei，tayijingyouliangnianmeiyoujianguozheimewennuandeyangguangle！
taiyangli2063nian1yue3ri，yichangshiwuqianlidebaofengxueqinxilezhenggelanxing。
baofengxuelailinbudaoyigeyue，quanqiushuiyuanchedidongjie！
yigebanyuehou，quanqiudianliduanjue，baokuonuanqi、tianranqidengchengshishengcunbixunengyuanquanbushiquzuoyong！
zaijiangjinlingxiabashidudekongbudiwenmianqian，renleiyinyiweiaodesuoyouqunuanfangshibianchenglexiaohua，suoyoudongwujihuzaiduanduanyigeyueshijianneidongsidaijin！
wangzheshuxiyoumoshengdewuzi，duyuxuandiyishijiannachushoujichakanshijian。
jibianzaoyousuocaice，kandaoshoujishangxianshideneirongshi，tayijiubujinxinzangyizhen。
taiyangli2062nian12yue20ri。
julibaofengxuelailinhaiyouershisantian！
ziji，zhongshengdaolemorifashengzhiqianershisantian！
xujiu，tacaihuiguoshen，zhongzhongtuchuyikouzhuoqi。
“kanlaishitianbuwangwo，rangwozhongshenghuimorizhiqian！”
“rangwoyoujihui，zhaoneiqungoudongxibaochou！”
suizheshangbeizifashengdeshiqingshanguonaohai，duyuxuanyandibukeyizhidiyongqishayi。
常欣欣！
zheigemingzitahuachenghuidoubuhuiwangji！
zheigeedudenvren，shiduyuxuanzhuiqiulesanniandenvshen。
morilailindediertian，tabuguzishenweixianmaozhebaofengxuejiuchangxinxinhuijia，jiangzijichucundeshiwufenjita。
quebuxiang，zaizijixiangbanfazhaoxunshiwudeshihou。
neige**jingranzhudongdakaimen，rangyiqunqiangdaochuangru，jiangshushuizhongdezijibangqilaidangzuomirou！
xiangqizijishangbeizijingshouguodetongku，duyuxuanshuangmuxinghong，qixibiandeyouxiebuwen。
buguo，tahenkuaiqiangpozijilengjinglexialai。
shenhuxiyikouqi，muguangshanshuodao。
“zhaoneige**baochoushizaowandeshiqing。”
“danjulibaofengxuelailinzhishengxiaershisantian，xianzaizuizhongyaodeshiqingshizenmetiqianzuozhunbeiyingjiejijiangdaolaidemori。”
xiangyaozaimorizhongshengcun，shouxiandedundaodaliangshiwu。
bijingbaofengxueweilaihuichixuduojiushiweizhide，yizhichixuxiaquyebushibukenengdeshiqing。
suoyi，shiwudangranshiyueduoyuehao。
duyuxuanxinlihenqingchuzheiyidian。
他是个孤儿。
sannianqiankaozijidapinzanxiadianqian，hepengyouhehuokaileyigewuliugongsi，xianzaizhengchuyushangshengjieduan。
chulegongsi，tagerennengnachulaidexianjinzhiyouershiduowan。
zheixieqianquanmaichengmimiandaoshigouchiyibeizi，danshirenhuozhebukenengzhiyoumimianjiugoule。
taxuyaoshucai、shuiguo、yaopin、yiwu......shenzhigezhongyulesheshi，yibaozhengzijishenghuodeshushidu！
buyaoshuozheizhongxiangfataishechi。
zaimorili，renleizuidadekongjubudandanshimeiyoushiwu，jingshenyalitongyangshiyasirendedaocao！
duyuxuankebuxiangzaimingmingyongyouwujinwuzideqingkuangxia。
因为精神崩溃而死！
chucizhiwai，zuilingrentoutongdeshi，jiusuanzhendegaodaozugouwuzi，yougaizainalibaocun？
问题一个个提出。
duyuxuanmeitoujianjianzhouleqilai。
zhengzaizheishi，taturanyanqianyihua。
zaizhengkaiyanshi，heranfaxianzijizhengshenchuyuyigehundundekongjianzhong。
“zheidifang，nandaojiushixiaoshuozhongdesuishenkongjian？！”
duyuxuanyanzhongfuxianqiangliedeliangguang，zhengkexinzhibuzhuxingfen。
yousuishenkongjianzai，jiexialaideshiqingjiurongyiduole。
taxinliyoulechubudejihua。
tahepengyouhehuojingyingdewuliugongsizhuanzuodaxingwuliuyunshu。
meitianshouruyunchudehuowubujiqishu。
gongsizaigangkouhejichangfujingeyouyigechaodaxingwuliuyunshucangkuyigongkehuchucunzanshibubiyunshudehuowu。
yinweicangkurongliangda，bingqiechucunfeiyongdi，henduokehudouxuanzebahuowuchucunzaineili。
jiulianxiangchengdeliangshigongsi。
yeheduyufeidegongsidachenghezuo，jiangjichangcangkudeyibangaizaochengliangcang，yongyuchucunliangshi。
shangbeizi，tahechangxinxinhebibierenduohuojiangjinyinian，bianshiyinweidangshigongsiyouyixiaobufenhuowumeidifangcunfang，zanshifangdaoletaweiyujiaoqudelaozhaizhizhong。
erzhei，jinjinzhishiyibufen。
cangkuneidehuowulianggengshipangdadaobukesiyi！
shiwu、yaowu、riyongpin......dengdeng，yingyoujinyou。
neipishuliangpangdadedongxi，zugoujishigegewukouzhijiafuyushenghuoyibeizi！
zheixiewupinbudanzhiliangjueduiguoguan，shuliangyibanyaodianchaoshiyewufaqiji。
duyuxuandejihua，jiushijieyongzijigongsichuzirenshenfendebianli，shenbuzhiguibujuebacangkulidedongxiquanbushoujinkongjianzhong！
zheiduitalaishuo，bixianzaiqudaochusoujibianjiededuo！
buguozaibaofengxuelailinzhiqian，zheixiedongxizanshibunengdong。
bijingdalianghuowushizonggongsibiranhuibaojing，zijiyoumeiyouwanfenbawokeyiyinmixingzong，yidianbeirenfaxianzhusimaji，sheizhidaohuidailaishenmehouguo？
ruoshiyincibeizhuaqilai，wufazaibaofengxuedaolaishizhunbeihaoyiqieqibushidebuchangshi？
“zheiyangdehua，jiudengbaofengxuelaideqianyitianwanshangqushoucangkulidewuzi。”
duyuxuanmozhexiabasikao，dangxiazuohaojueding。
buduochiyi，tanaqishoujidadianhuajicangkuguanliyuan。
yaoqiuduifangjiangcangkuneimuqiandehuowucunchuqingdanfajiziji。
不一会儿。
清单发到邮件中。
shangmianqingxilieminglecangkumuqiandecangchuqingkuang，heweilaiyigeyueneiyounaxiehuowuyaoyunzou。
tadazhikanlejiyan，ranhoupishangyifuzhijietachujiamen。
zouchuloudao，xujiumeiyouganshoudaodemenglieyangguangzhaoshedaolianshang。
rangduyuxuanrenbuzhuhuanghuleyixia。
suiji，taqingxingguolai，yanlishanguoyimofuzadeshense。
sheinengxiangdao，zheiyanghaodeyangguangzaiershiduotianhouhuiquanranxiaoshi？
duyuxuandemubiaoshichaoshi。
suiranyouwuliugongsidecangkuzai，danweileyifangwanyi，tahaishiyaozuoliangshouzhunbei。
ranerzaijijiangdaodamudedideshihou，duyufeimuguangbukeyizhidibeiyijiagaodangsichuguanzhongchuanlaidexiangweijixiyinzhule。