第5章 问心无愧

shoushiqilangbei,manwumudedikaizhechezaichengshilixiaguang。buxianghuijia,quefaxiangenbenmeiyouquchu。youhuozheshuo,zheizuochengshigenbenmeiyoutaderongshenzhichu。

daohangxianshiyoudianhuadaru,qinanyazhenglihaolingluandexinqing,caijietongdianhua。

“qinanya,xiaoyakafeiting,nihuizhidaonixiangyaodedaan。wodengni!”wenglanxinzhigaoqiangdeshengyintongguobinglengdewuxiandianbochuanlai。

shuowan,tabianjingziguaduantonghua。

qinanyadaokafeitingdeshihou,yijingshiershifenzhonghou。

wenglanxinlinchuangerzuo,beibukaozaidiaohualanganshang,qiyangaozhang,“qinanya,zenme,haimanyiwojinianpaidezheiyichuhaoxima?”

“ninpairengenzongwo?neitiaoduanxin,shinifade?”qinanyazaiwenglanxinduimianzuolexialai,xingmoumingxianshanshuoleyixia,yiranleranyuxiong。

yiqianqinjiamingshengzaiwaideshihou,wenglanxinjibianbuxihuantazheigezhunerxifu,yebuhaokeyiweinan。xianzaiqinjiashengminglangjie,duitadetaidulimafashenglefantianfudidezhuanbian,gancuiduitazhihuqiming。

doushuopoxishitianshengdeyuanjia,xiangbijianglaitaqinanyayenanyibimianzheiyangdemozhou。

wenglanxinchixiaoyisheng,bingbudasuanfouren,“meicuo,duanxinqueshishiwofade,wozhishixiangrangnikanqingchuxianshi。nigenchenxideganqing,zaojiubufudangchu。ninandaojiumeifaxian,taduiniyuelaiyuelengdanle?yiqianweilejiniliudianmianzihaihuizaimeitimianqianzhuangzhuangyangzi,xianzaitadoulandezhuangqiangzuoshile。”

tazouleguolai,shuaixiayizhangxieyishu,“baxieyishuqianle,bajijiadepinjintuile,nimenhaojuhaosan!chenxineimeyouxiu,tayinggaiyougenghaodexuanze。”

tashiqinanyaheerziganqingdejianzhengren,tamencongyikaishidexiangjingrubin,daoxianzaidexingtongmolu,liangrenzaoyijianxingjianyuan,bufudangchu。

qinanyaxinlikuxiao,tagenjichenxideganqingbenlaijiushigecuowu,chizaodouhuiyoubengtadeyitian,buguoshizaowandeshi。

tajueqiangdeminjinlechunban,“bomu,wojingninshijichenxidemuqin,zheixienianduininyizhidoushigongjingyou。hunyinshiwogenjichenxidexuanze,shifouzhongjiedejuedingquanzaiwomenshoushang。ruguoshijichenxideyijian,wohuizunzhongtadexuanze!”

wenglanxinyanlizangbuzhudeyanehefangan,“qinanya,haiyiweinishiyiqianneigegaogaozaishangdedeqinjiadaxiaojiema?biewangle,nibanuodonggongkuangaodaqiqianduowanyijingbeijingfanglianzhencha,haiyounineigexuanchengwankuzididianfandedidi,youshouhaoxian,buwuzhengye,qinjiachizaohuizaitadeshouli!”

“congyunduandieluogudideganjue,xinlihenbushuangba?nixianzaiyijingbushiyiqianneigerenrenyanxiandemingyuanqianjinle,youshenmezigezaiwomianqianshengqilingrende?zheizhangxieyishu,youbudenibuqian!”

qinanyazuanjinlexiangbinsedequnbai,piaoliangxiuzhangdeshouzhizhijiegengenfanbai,“qingzheziqing,falvshigongyunde,yidinghuihaiwobayigegongdao!zhiyupinjin,zhaojichenxiguolaiqinzigenwotan。”

zaiyuanzexingdewentishang,tabuhuituirang。

wenglanxinzhuangrongniuquzhe,“nidaoxianzaihaizhiwangchenxinengbangni,bataneiweilailaozhangrencongjianyulilaochulai?”jierchixiaoyisheng,“woquanni,haishizaodiandaxiaozheigeniantoubijiaohao!niruoshibuxiangrangzijitaiguonankandehua,xianzaijiubaxieyishuqianle,miandejiangtousipolianpidajiadoubuhaokan!”

wenglanxinjiansuankebodehua,yiziyijugengxiangjianruideliqicizhongqinanyadexinzang,tengtongdeganjuezaitadexiongkoumanyankailai。

“zhiyaowogenjichenxihaiyouhunyuezaishen,wojiuhaishitadeweihunqi,bomuwuquanzuoyouwodejueding,gengwuquanganshewohejichenxiganqingzuizhongdeguishu!”qinanyajueqiangleyaoleyaochun,qishenzhunbeilikai。

jibianqinjialuopo,tayijiuyoutadejiaoao,ertadejiaoao,hairongbudebierenjianta!

wenglanxinqihongleyanjing,“qinanya,nixianzaizhishiyigeluopoqianjin,jijiademenjiantaigao,bushihenizheizhongren,biezitaomeiqu!”

qinanyajiaobudunzhu,shouxinzuanjinlequnbai,queshimeiyouhuiying,xintouchanraozheyisinanyiyinrendetongku。

wenglanxinxiaole,“jijiazhunerxifudeweizhi,henkuaijiuhuiyourenqudai。”

qinanyayanzhongyinyunzhemenglongdewuqi,sisiyaozhuchunban,“bomu,nizheihuashenmeyisi?”

wenglanxinmanyouyoudihuadongshoujipingmu,diankaiyizhangzhaopiannadaotayanqianhuanglehuang,“kandaomeiyou?woerzizhengzaihemeinvxiangshoulangmandeliangrenzhuguangwancan,nalinengchoukaishenziqupeini?”

zhaopianlidezhuhuoyaoye,goulechunvrenaotuyouzhidemanmiaoshencai。nanrendewuguanzhaozaiyinyingli,suiranzhishiyigemohudelunkuo,danshixiangchuduoniandemingruishijue,haishinenggouqingchubianrenchuzhaopianlidenanrenjiushitadeweihunfu—jichenxi!

guangyingbaliangrendeshenyingliaoraodexuxushishi,jincongyigebeiying,qinanyayiyanjiurenchugenjichenxigongjinwancandemeinvdeshenfen。

yexushizaojiuliaodaohuiyoujintiandejieju,qinanyazaidezhijichenxichuguideshihou,taxinlijuranmeiyouxiangxiangzhongneizhongsixinliefeidetengtong。huoxujichenxihuibeipantamendeganqing,zaojiushiyuliaozhongdeshi,bijingmeiyounagenanrennenggoujianshouyiduanairendexinbuzaizijishenshangdeganqing。

duiyuqinanyadepingjing,wenglanxinyouxiebuganzhixin。qinanyagaoao,tashineizhongyanlirongbudeshazidenvren。duiyuqinanyazheizhongyifanchangtaidepingjing,taxiandeyouxiewusuoshicong。

qinanyaqingwanzuijiao,“zheishijieshangmeiyounagenanrenshibutouchide,jichenxishinanren,tayehuifancuo。neixiexinhuaipocedenvrenxiangchenxuerru,woweishenmeyaojiangjitaitaideshenfengongshourangren?wobushishengnv,zuobulaineixiechengquanbierenweiquzijideshiqing!”

qinanyade“kuanrongdadu”,qingyijiutuifanlewenglanxinshixianyushehaodetaolu。tayiweiqinanyahuidaizhezheijianshibufang,neitajiukeyijietifahui,jiaoleerzizheiduanhunyin,rangqinanyagunchujijia。

wenglanxinqiji,“qinanya,nimingzhidaowoerziyijingbuainile,niweishenmehaiyaojiuzhetabufang?ruguotaaini,youweishenmedinghunyinianquechichimeiyouxiawen?”

qinanyazichaoyixiao,wanyaonaqiwaitaoxiangmenkouzouqu,jiwenglanxinliuxiayigegaoguilengyandebeiying。neishenbalishizhuangzhouchristiondiorzuixinkuandexiangbinseliqun,jirenganshoudaodeshibenzhiyouya。

wenglanxinbeiqinanyashenshangdeneifenyongronghuaguidurao,bujinqihongleyanjing。jibianqinjiajingluomo,danqinanyaguzilideneifengaoguiheyouyaquebanfenweijian。

tahenhendimadao“zheishinigenzhangbeishuohuadetaiduma?”

qinanyajiaobudunledun,“zheimeduonian,woshizhongruyi,suoyiwenxinwukui!”