第1章 童年

wochushengzaidongbeidiquyigebusuanpianyuandexiangcun。

wochushengshibianbuzhifuqinshishei,congxiaodaoda,zhiyoumuqinyigerenhanxinrukudebawolacheda。

wodemuqinzaita44suishishengxiawo,jiwoqumingzijiaozhongming。

congwoxiaodeshihouqi,tajiudaiwodaoyaoqingtadegejiagehuqu,chuanzheyanhongdesamanxingtou,quanshenguamandingdangzuoxiangdechunyinshipin,shouwuzudao,youchangyoutiao。

meitianwanshang,muqinjiwojianggushihongwoshuijue,neigushilideshenshenguigui,diwangjiangxiang,rangwoshenwang。

houlaiwodezhi,wodemuqinshige“daxian”,yejiushidongbeidiqubangrenquguipixiedetiaodashende,sucheng“zoumaxian”。

erqie,muqinshisuoyouzoumaxianzhongzuizhiyinzhixiedeyilei--“siguxian”。

zheiyilei“siguxian”,shijiqihanjiande,jihuwanliwuyi。

“siguxian”bixushiyigebazizhixiezhiyindenvren,zaiqingxianshangshenzhiqian,tayaoxianfushisirendehaigusuomochengdegufen,datongyinyangliangjiedeqiaoliang,quebaodaxianzhendenengshangshenshifa。

“siguxian”shenchuyinyangliangjie,zhudingtianyagudu,duanzijuesun。

zaiguoqu,weiletaoshenghuo,henduotaohuanghuozhebeiguaimaidaowaididenvzi,caiqubaishiqiuxue,chengwei“siguxian”hunkoufanchi。

dansuizheshenghuotiaojianyuelaiyuehao,xianzai“siguxian”zheiyixingdangjihuyijingjuejile。

danshi,benyingduanzijuesundemuqinquebuzhiweishenme,zaita44suishi,shiyuehuaitaishengxialewo。

jushuo,zaiwochushengdeneitian,leidianjiaojia,qingpendayulianxialesantiansanye。

hongshuichongsanlefangyuanshubailideyefen,wushudeshitibeicongnitulifanshangdimian,huhudangdangpiaozainishuili,neichangmianshenshikongbu。

erqie,dayushibenyingzangzaishudongzhongdelaoshu,she,huli,huangshulangheciwei(dongbeisuchengwuchangxian)yiqunqundeweizaiwojialaofangzidezhouwei。

tamenjianjiaozhe,sihouzhe,jiuhaoxiangzaizuzhou(?)huozheshizaiwenhou(?)zheilaofangzilijijiangchushengdeyinger。

zhidaolaofangzilichuanlaiyingerdediyishengtiku,tamencaichengqunjieduideliqu。

zaidianshanleimingdeneigeyewan,wo,chushengle。

suirancongxiaodaodawodoumeiyoushenmepengyou,zhiyoumuqinpeibanzhewo,danshiwohenxingfu,henzhizu。zhidaoyouyitian,muqinlikailewo,zaiwo12suishengrideneiyitian。

wowushuciwenguomuqin,wodefuqinshigeshenmeyangderen。

meicishuodaozheili,muqinzongshixiaoerbuyu,ranhouqinqiedikanzhewo。

wozhidao,qishifuqinshisheiyuwodoumeiyoushenmeguanxi。

tayoubuzaiwoshenbian,woyoumuqindeai,jiuzugoule。

zaiwoduannaizhiqian,muqinjiubabaozheqiangbaozhongdewo,quqingtatiaodashendejiatingchumaxian。zheishitalaiyishengcundefanwan,yeshiwomenniangliangshengcunxiaqudeweiyishouduan。

youyu“siguxian”chuma,meixianbiling,suoyimuqindemeicichangchangtiaotiaodoubansuizhekeguandeshouru。

dangran,yaochengwei“siguxian”,fuchudedaijiayeshijudade。

wodemuqindangshizhiyousishiduosui,dantadetoufahuibai,fazhirugancaoyiban。shuotakanshangquxiang60duosuihuo70duosuiyebuweiguo。

muqinshuo,neixieshanzhangyanji,meishenmeshentongzhishihunongrendetongxingmen,qishiyeguodehenhao。

fanzhengyoubushizhendeqingdaxianshangshen,tamenjihumeiyourenhefuchu,zhiyaokuxinzuanyanzenmequhuyoushannanxinnvjiuhaole。

errumuqinyileizhenzhenglianjieyinyang,qingdaxianfutidesiguxian,meiyicichuxiandouhuizhesunzijishouming。

jucunminshuo,woshiyigehenqiguaidehaizi。

dangwohaishiyingershi,wozaimuruweizunaihou,haishiyizhibutingdiku。

erdangwotingdaomuqinqiaoqiqingshengu,tingdaotatiaodashenshiyaoshangbangdeyinbixiangzhuangshengshi,wojiulijitingzhilekuhan,shenzhikaixindixiaoleqilai。

wodemuqinzaiwoliusuishijiukaishijiaowochengtachuxiandezhushou,yejiushi“erxian”。

“daxian”shiyigerongqi,rangxiantijiangrutadetinei,zhidianhuaqianqingzoumaxiandejiatingruhepixie,biyaoshihaihuichushouzhijieganzouniezhang。

ererxianzeshidaxiandezhushou,fuzezaixiantishangshenhou,zaiyipangchangsong《yingshenqu》,bingqiaodaqingshengu。

wodetongnianshiguang,jiushizaifanfuchangsong《yingshenqu》zhongduguode。

zaidongbeinongcun,daduoshujiazhongchuxianzhongxiehuozheshenmeyiwaideyuanyin,doushiyinweimaofanle“wuchangxian”:hong(huxian)huang(huangshulangxian),bai(ciweixian),liu(shexian),hui(shuxian),yinci,duiyu“siguxian”laishuo,jiejuezheixiexiaodejiufenkeyishuoshihaobufeili。

dangran,oueryehuiyoujishoudeqingkuang,jialide“zangdongxi”falitaiqiang。qinglaidedaxiandabuguo。zheishi,muqinhuixiansongzoudashenxian,ranhoudianransangentanxiang,yongyachiyaopowodeshouzhi,ranhoujichusandixue,dizaitanxiangshang。

为什么是我的血?

我不知道。

danmeidangwodexuedizaitanxiangshangshi,xiangyanjiuhuibianchengqinglvse,chuizhidepiaoshangwuding,zaijialinaoshidewangliangchimeiyehuizaibanxiaoshineiquanbuxiaoshi。

houlai,woshanglexiaoxue,danshizhidaobiye,wodoumeiyoupengyou。

shenzhimeiyoutongxuexianghewoshuohua。

wozhidao,“zoumaxian”zheigezhiyeshibeirenkanbuqide。

erwoshiyige“siguxian”deerzi,yigebengaiduanzijuesunde“daxian”shengxiadebujizhiren。

shenzhilianlaoshidekanwodeyanshen,yexiangshizaikanyigeguaiwu。

zaixuexiao,wocongweitiyanguoshenmeshicixiang,shenmeshishanyi。

tongxuemendoujiaowo“xiaoguicha”,qifuwo,lengluowo,meirengenwoyiqiwan,woyizhidulaiduwang。

wokule,woweiqu,woquzhaolaoshi,kelaoshizhihuiduobiwo。

cunzilidetonglingrenyedouduiwobizhiruomei。

woxiguanlebeirenzhizhejilianggushuoxianhua,woxiguanleneibiyierjihuideyanshen。

congneishiqi,wobiandezibei。

woyexiangxiangputongdexiaopengyouyiyang,chengqunjiedui,danaoxixiao,keshi……wobuneng。

wozhidao,wohetamenshibuyiyangdecunzai。woyoujiujingzuocuoleshenmeni?

wobiandebuxihuanyurenjiaowang,wobiandezairenheshiqingshangdouteliduxing,yizijidefangshimianduizheigeshijie。

zaiwodezhianshike,shimuqinjilewozuiduodeai,tadeaijiuxiangyidaowennuandeguangzhaolianglewodetongnian。

zaiwogududetongnian,muqinjiushiwowennuandejia,shiwodegangwan,shiwodeyiqie。

danshidangwo12suishi,zheidaoguang……quexuanzelikailewo。