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wobuzhidaowohualeduoshaoshijian,shuaileduoshaoci,danwozhongyuhaishilaidaolezhuwodemenqian,woyonglidequtuimen,quefaxianmenconglimianbeisuoshangle,suodejinjinde,juliwodejinru。
nanrendeai、meidedi、chuanhenvrenjianruicierdehanjiaoshengchuanruwodeerzhong,rangwoxueliuchenghe……
wojiazhuangbudongzheishishenme。
suiranwojiehunsannianle,suiranwoyijingershiduosuile,kewoduinannvzhishizhidaodeshaodekeliande。
wojiuzhiyouzaibiyewanhuishangyuqinziqiyouguoneimeyici……
wobuzhidaozheishishenme,wobuzhidao!
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——wofanfanfufudeduizijizheiyangshuo,yushiwokaishipaidamenye,yongzhandoudeshengyinchaozhelimianhan。
“ziqi,ziqinichulai,wozhidaonizhishiguyizaiqiwo,niheneigenvrenshenmeshiqingdoumeiyoufashengdeduibudui?”
“nichulai,zhiyaonichulai,wokeyidangjintianshenmeshiqingdoumeiyoufashengguo,woneimeaini,nibuhuibuzhidaowoyouduoainide,woailenizhengzhengqinian,aiyigeren,jiushiyaobaorongtasuoyoudequedian,suoyi,nizuoshenmeshiqingwodoukeyijiwangbujiude。”
“ziqi,woqiuqiuni,nichulai,chulai……”
limiandeshengyinxiele,meiduojiu,womianqiandemenyebeidakaile。
turandedakai,rangjinjinpazaimenshangdewo“putong”yishengshuaizailedishang。
woquemanliandoushijingxi:“ziqi,nidayingwoleshibushi,nidayingrangneigenvrenzou,ni……”
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qinziqidaoshisuishoulaoleyijianshuiyipizaishenshang,keshitahuangdongzheliangtiaoguang、liu、liudetui,zheirangwomashangxiangdaotalimianyeshishenmedoumeiyouchuande。
suoyi,tamenganggangshilaizhende?
zhendezaiwodechuangshang……zuoneizhongzhiyouqinmideairencainengzuodeshiqing。
wodeweilimianhuranyizhenzhendefanyong,qiangliedeexinchongjizhewodeganguan,wodengzheyishuangbukezhixindeyanjing,“wa”deyishengoutuleqilai……
que,shenmedoutubuchulai。
weileyingjieqinziqihuilai,woyizhenggexiawudouzuanzaichufanglizuocai,zijiquemeiyouchiguoyikou。
weilimiankongdangdangde,shenmedoutubuchulai……
“xianzainidouqinyankandaoleba?haiyaoziqiqirendeshuowohexiaoroushenmedoubuhuifashengma?”
qinziqizaiwodemianqiandunxialai:“jiangxiaoyu,nizhidaonixianzaideyangzixiangshenmema?xiangyitiaodoubaidegou!”
tashenleshouguolai,qingyidejiujiangwotiqilai,rengdaolemenkou。
“jirandouyijingquerenguole,jiubuyaozailaidaraowohexiaoroukuaihuo。”
“buguo……ruguonizhongyurenbuzhule,neiwomenjiulihuna。”
zuihouzheijuhua,cijidaolewo,woyaoyaqiechideduitashuo:
“qinziqi,wosidoubuhuihenilihunde,sidoubuhui!”
zhemowo,xiuruwo,jiantawo,shitadeshouduan,ertademude,conglaidoushiyaohewolihun。
keshitazuomengdoubiexianghewolihun!
——zheiyike,wobuzhiwoduitadeaiyijingkaishiqiaoqiaogaibian。
daishangleyuan,daishanglehen,daishanglebuganxin。
“neinijiujiwohaohaodeshouzheba!”
qinziqifahuole,“peng”deyishengjiangmenshuaishang,meiduojiu,neiyangai、meideshengyinzaiyicixiangqi,yishengbiyishenggenggaokang,yixiabiyixiagengzhuixincigu……