1xitongdeshuangzhongzoumingqulinwanshizaiyizhensuzuibandetoutongzhonghuifuyishide，
haimeidengtakanqingyanqianshehuadaohuangyandeshuijingdiaodeng，yigejianruidedianziyinjiuzaitanaozilizhakaile。【ding！
edunvpeinixixitongbangdingchenggong！suzhulinwan，jiancedaonizhengshenchu《badaozongcaideqiyuejiaoqi》xiaoshuoshijie，
shenfenshijijiangbeinanzhushensihengpaoqideeduqianweihunqi！】linwan：“？？？”ta，
yigeqinqinkenkendeshechu，zuowanhaizaiweilaobanhuadebingjiabandaolingchen，zenmeyizhengyanjiuchuanshule？
haishizheizhongguzaogouxuewen？【zhongjirenwu：gonglvenanzhushensiheng，rangtaaishangni，duoqunvzhuqiyun，
chengweizheigeshijiederenshengyingjia！xianzaifabuxinshourenwu：jinanzhushensihengxiayao，zhizao**jidingshishi！
xianshi：jinwanshenjiayanhui。renwuchenggongjiangli：meilizhi+1。shibaichengfa：dianjisihou！】xiayao？**？
linwanzuijiaochouchu，zheidoushenmeniandailehaiwanzheitao？erqieweifahaoma！
zuoweiyigeshouguoshehuizhuyihexinjiazhiguanjiaoyudelianghaoshimin，taneixinshijujuede。
dannaozilineizizizuoxiang、fangfoxiayimiaojiuyaofangdiandeweixieyin，rangtahencongxindisongle。“xing……xingba。
”tayaozheya，congneizhangnengtangxiawuliugerendedachuangshangpaqilai，kaishifanxiangdaoju，
zuizhongzaishuzhuangtaiyigeyinbidechoutili，zhaodaoleyuanzhuzhunbeide、yixiaobaokanqilaijiuhenkeyidebaisefenmo。
dangwan，shenjiayanhui，yixiangbinying，gongchoujiaocuo。linwanchuanzheyitiaoguofenhualidequnzi，
shoulijinjinzuanzheneibaofenmo，shouxinquanshihan。taxianggeyouhunyiyangzairenqunzhongchuansuo，
xunzhaozhemubiao——shenshijituanzongcai，shensiheng。neishigezhanzairenqunzhongxinyeyiranhelijiqundenanren，
shengaotuizhang，mianronglengjun，zhoushensanfazheshengrenwujindeqiangdaqichang。
queshi……henyourangwushunvrenqianpuhoujideziben。【kuaiqu！tagangcongshizheshoulinalebeixiangbin，jihuilaile！
】xitongcuicuzhe。linwanshenxiyikouqi，yingzhetoupizouguoqu。
tanulijichuyigezirenweiwumei（shizejiangying）dexiaorong，
shengyinfazhan：“shen…shenzong……”shensihengdanmodeyanshensaoguolai，daizheyisibuyichajuedeyanfan。
jiushixianzai！linwanxinyiheng，jiezheshentizhedang，zhandouzheshoujiuyaobafenmowangtabeizilidao！raner，
jiuzaifenmojijianglishoudeshunjian——yibiandousheng！shensihengdeshentimengdiyijiang，
yuanbenlengjundebiaoqingshunjianbiande……zhengqilinran？taxiangshibeishenmedongxikongzhileyiyang，
yiyizhongjiqibufuhetabazongrenshedesudu，mengdixianghoucheleyibu，tongshigaogaojuqileneibeixiangbin。
jinjiezhe，yidaoqingxiwubi、daizheboyinqiangbanbiaozhunyudiaodedianziyin，suiranbushiconglinwannaozhongxiangqi，
quefangfojuyoumouzhongchuantouli，rangtahetadexitongdoutingdeyiqingerchu：【jinggao！
jiancedaosuzhujijiangjiechubuminglaiyuanyaowu，yanzhongweifan《nandeshouce》disantiao：jieshenzihao，
yuanliyiqiekenengsunhaishenxinjiankangdewuzhi！lijiqidongjinjiyingduichengxu！】linwan：“！！！
”tashoulidefenmochadianhediao。shenmewanyier？nandeshouce？！haidaiboyinqiangde？！
gengrangtamudengkoudaideshiqingfashengle。zhijianshensihengliansezhanghong（buzhishiqidehaishibiede），
yanshenzhengzhalejixia，zuizhonghaishizaineiwuxingdeliliangkongzhixia，yongyizhongkangkaijiang、fangfoxuanshibandeyuqi，
duizhemengbidelinwanhezhouweizhujiananjingxialaidebinke，dashengshuodao：“linwantongzhi！qingnizizhong！
woshensihengshenweixinshidainanxing，qingbaizhongyutaishan！juebuhuibeizheizhongtangyipaodanfushi！wodexin，wodeshenti，
doushuyuweilaidegemingbanlv！”tong……tongzhi？！gemingbanlv？！linwanshihuale。
zhouweidebinkemenyeshihuale，qieqiesiyushengxiangwenziyiyangwengwengxiangqi。
wu……weizhiganrao……luojichongtu……】linwannaozilideedunvpeixitongfachuyilianchuanhunluandedianliuzayin，
xiangshicpu**shaole。ershensihengnaoneideneigeboyinqiangnandexitong，
haizaijixubobao：【yingduifanganqidong：lijijinxinggaoqiangduwuliyundong，jiasuxinchendaixie，
huifakenengyisherudeweiliangyaowuchengfen！zhixingzhiling：yuandifuwocheng，yibaige！xianzaikaishi！】ranhou，
zaisuoyoubinkedaizhidemuguangzhong，neiweiyilengkuwuqingzhuchengdeshangjiedalaoshensiheng，
jiuzheime……jiuzheimeyilianquruyouwufafankangdi，pazaileguangjierujingdedibanshang，
kaishiyibanyiyandizuoqilefuwocheng！“yi！er！san！……”shensihengyibianzuo，
neigeboyinqianghaiyibianzaitanaoneijitajishu，shengyinpingwenyouli，
yutabenrenneijihuyaosharendeliansexingchenglecanliededuibi。linwanshoulideneibaofenmo，
zhongyu“pada”yishengdiaozailedishang。takanzhedishangneigeyiqiyifu、nuli“huifayaoli”debazong，
youkanlekanzhouweizuyisaixiajidandewushuzhangzui，zhijuedeyidaotianleishunzhejizhuigupilexialai，waijiaolinen。
【xitong……xitongwenluan……renwu……shibai……chengfa……】edunvpeixitongdeshengyinduanduanxuxu，zuizhong，
yiguweiruodedianliuchuanguolinwandeshenti，buteng，danzugourangtayigejiling。chengfa？zheihaichengfagepia！
qingjieyijingcongyuantoushangbengdeliantamadouburenshilehaoma！jiuzaizheipiansijiyushensihengchenzhongdechuanxishengzhong，
yidaowenhedaixiaodeshengyinzailinwanshenhouqingqingxiangqi：“lin**，xuyaomaojinma？nihaoxiang……chulehenduohan。
”linwanjiangyingdizhuanguotou，
kandaoyigechuanzheqianhuisexizhuang、meiyanjingzhipiaoliangdenianqingnanrenbuzhiheshizhanzailetashenhou。
tashoulinazheyikuaiganjingdebaishoupa，yanshenqingche，zuijiaoqinzheyisiruoyouruowudexiaoyi，
zhengraoyouxingqudikanzhedishangzuofuwochengdeshensiheng，youkankanta。zheirentayoudianyinxiang，
haoxiangshishensihengneigechuanwenzhongbuxuewushu、zhizhidaochihewanlededidi，jiaoshensinian。cike，
shensiniandemuguangsaoguodishangneibaoxianyandebaisefenmo，youhuidaolinwancanbaidelianshang，tazhalezhayan，
yongyizhongtianzhenwuxiedeyuqidishengwendao：“wogegeta……zheishiyouzaizuoshenmexinxingde……xingweiyishuma？
”linwankanzheshensinianneishuangfangfodongxiyiqiequeyouzhuangzuowugudeyanjing，
naozililianggexitongtongshisijidewengmingshenghaizaihuidang。tashenxiyikouqi，
yongjinquanshenliqicaimeirangzijidangchangbengkui。wanle，zheiposhudeqingjie，
haoxiangchaozhemouzhongbukeyuzhide、shenjingbingdefangxiangyilukuangbenerqule。
2zaibenghuaidelushangkuangbenyanhuishijianhou，linwanzaijialitanleliangtian。bushishentishangdelei，shixinlei。
zhiyaoyibishangyan，jiushishensihengzaidibanshangzuofuwochengdemoxinghuamian，
yijitadidishensinianneikansiwugushizeyiweishenzhangdeyanshen。
【xitongzhongqichenggong……zhengzaixiufushuju……】edunvpeixitongdeshengyindaizhejiehouyushengdexuruo，
danfaburenwudezhizhejingeryidianmeibian，【xinshourenwushibai！fabubujiurenwu：zhangguainvzhusuxiaoxiao，
zaishensihengmianqianzhanxiannidejiduyuqiangshi！xianshi：24xiaoshi！】linwanyikoushuichadianpenchulai。zhangguainvzhu？
taliannvzhushisheidoubuzhidaohaoma！erqie，jingguoshangcineichu，
taxianzaikandaoshensihengsangezidouyoudianptsd（chuangshanghouyingjizhangai）。“xitong，shangliangyixia，
”linwanshitujiangdaoli，“nikan，nanzhuta……naozihaoxiangbutaizhengchang。womenhuangegonglvemubiaoxingbuxing？
birutaneigedidi，wokanzhejiutingshunyande……”【jinggao！jinzhizhiyixitongjuece！
nanzhushensihengshibenshijieqiyunhexin，wuketidai！likezhixingrenwu！】xitongdedianziyinjianruiqilai。
linwanrenmingditanlekouqi。xingba，weilebubeidianji，quzhaoneigejiaoshenmesuxiaoxiaode。
tadongyongleyidianyuanzhuderenmai，datingdaosuxiaoxiaoshishenshijituandeyigexiaoshixisheng，jintianhuizaigongsijiaban。
linwanshenxiyikouqi，shaxiangleshenshijituan。
tahenrongyijiuzaikongkuangdejiabanquzhaodaolesuxiaoxiao——yigekanqilaiqingchunrouruo、wojianyouliandenvhai。
ershensiheng，juranyezai！tazhengzhanzaisuxiaoxiaodegongweipang，sihuzaijiaodaigongzuo，
lianseyijiushineifubierenqiantababaiyidebingshanyang。【jihui！kuaiguoqu！shanta！】xitongjidongdijianjiao。
linwanmomocengcengdizouguoqu，neixintianrenjiaozhan。darenshibuduide，
danvrengengbudui……keshidianji……tazoudaosuxiaoxiaomianqian，nulidiaodongmianbujirou，
xiangzuochuyige“edu”debiaoqing，jieguokanqilaigengxiangyateng。tazhanweiweidijuqishou，
xinlimonian：duibuqileguniang，
woyeshibeibide……jiuzaitadeshoujijiangpengdaosuxiaoxiaolianjiadeqianlingdianlingyimiao——“zhushou！
”yishengdichenyou……momingdaizhedianzhengqi？dehezhixiangqi。shishensiheng！
tayibajiangmengdongdesuxiaoxiaoladaozijishenhou，ranhouyongyizhongfuzawubideyanshenkanzhelinwan，
neiyanshenliyouyane，youwunai，haiyouyisi……beixitongzhipeidekongju？jinjiezhe，linwanhetadexitong，
zaiciqingxiditingdaoleneigeshuxideboyinqiang：【jinggao！jiancedaocixingjingzhengyinfadebaolichongtumiaotou！
yanzhongweifan《nandeshouce》diqitiao：zunzhongnvxing，baohuruoxiao，juebucanyurenhexingshidecijing！
lijiqidongjinjiganyuchengxu！】shensihengdeshentiyoushiyijiang，lianshangshanguoyisiquru，
danzuibaquebushoukongzhidizhangkai，duizhelinwanyizhengciyan：“linwantongzhi！qingniliketingzhizheizhongcuowudexingwei！
zheiweisuxiaoxiaotongzhishiwomengongsideyouxiuyuangong，shishehuizhuyidejiebanren！
nizenmenengyinweitagongzuonuli、jijixiangshang，jiuduitashijiabaolini？nizheishijidu！
shifuxiudezibenzhuyisixiangzaizuosui！”linwan：“……”tajuzaibankongdeshou，fangxiayebushi，
bufangyebushi。suxiaoxiaoduozaishensihengshenhou，zhazhewugudedayanjing，kankanshensiheng，youkankanlinwan，
xiaoshengshuo：“shenzong……lin**shibushiwuhuileshenme？”shensihengmeilita，
jixubeixitongcaokongzheshuchu：“woshensiheng，shenweiyimingjieshoulexianjinsixiangjiaoyudexinshidainanxing，
juebuhuiyunxuzheizhongqilingruoxiaodexingweifashengzaiwodemianqian！wodelichanghenjianding，
wodetaiduhenmingque——qingni，like，xiangsuxiaoxiaotongzhidaoqian！
”【……luojicuowu……renwuchongtu……】edunvpeixitongzailinwannaoziliyoukaishimaoluanmale。
linwankanzheyanqianzheigehuafengqingqidebazong，zhijuedeyizhenwuli。tachelechezuijiao，
ganbabadiduisuxiaoxiaoshuoleju：“……duibuqia。”ranhouzhuanshen，
tongshoutongjiaodilikailezheigerangtashesidedifang。【renwushibai！chengfa：qingweidianji！
】edunvpeixitongyouqiwulidizhixinglechengfa。linwanmamudiganshouzheneidianweiruodedianliu。he，xiguanle。
jitianhou，xitongfabuledisangerenwu。【zhongjilangmanrenwu：yushensihenggongjinzhuguangwancan，
zaiaimeiqifenxiazhudongxianwen！jiangli：meilizhi+5！shibaichengfa：zhongdudianji！】linwankanzherenwumiaoshu，
neixinhaowubolan，shenzhiyoudianxiangxiao。zhuguangwancan？xianwen？tapashensihenghuizaitakaojindeshihou，
dangchangjitabeisongyibian《shipinanquanfa》he《zhianguanlichufatiaoli》。guoran，
dangta“yaoqing”shensihenggongjinwancanshi（guochengshenglveyiwanziganga），shensihengliansebianhuanmoce，
zuizhonghaishizainandexitongde**xia，tongyile。wancandidianzaiyijiajiqigaodangdexicanting，huanjingsimi，
zhuguangyaoye，meiguifenfang，qifen……benlaiyinggaishihenyinide。qiantishi，
ruguoshensihengdailaidebushiyibenhouhoude《zibenlun》，bingqieshengqingbingmaodikaishiweitalangdudehua。
“linwantongzhi，worenwei，zaixiangshouwuzhishenghuodetongshi，womenbunengwangjijingshendezhuiqiu。
”shensihengyilianyansu，zhizheshushangdeduanluo，“nikan，
……”linwan：“……”takanzheduimianneigezaizhuguangxiaxiandewuguangengjialiti、quemanzuiyishixingtaidenanren，
tingzhetacixingsangyinsongduzhewanquanbugaichuxianzaizheizhongchanghedeneirong，ganjuezijibushizaigonglvebazong，
ershizaicanjiashenmexianjinfenzililunxuexiban。【suzhu！wenta！kuai！qifenyijingdaole！
】xitonghaizaichuisizhengzha。wenta？linwankanzheshensihengkaihebutingde、zhengzaifenxi“shengyujiazhi”dezui，
shizaixiabuqukou。lianggexiaoshihou，shensihengheshangshu，manyi（？
）dikanzheyanshendaizhidelinwan：“jintianjiuxuexidaozheiliba。xiwangninengyousuoshouhuo。
”linwanmamudidiandiantou。【renwushibai！chengfa：zhongdudianji！】xitongdeshengyindaizhejuewang。
zheiyicidedianjibizhiqianqiangleyixie，linwanshentiweiweizhandouleyixia，
xindineidianduiqingjiehexitongdezuihouyisijingwei，yechediyanxiaoyunsanle。zheirenwu，genbenbukenengwancheng！
tashenxinjupidizouchucanting，wanfengchuizaitalianshang，daizheyisiliangyi。“lin**，youpengmianle。
”daixiaodeshengyincongpangbianchuanlai。linwanzhuantou，kandaoleyizaiyiliangsaobaopaochepangdeshensinian。
tajintianchuanlejiankuansongdechaopaiweiyi，kanqilaigengxianggerenchuwuhaidedaxuesheng。
“kanlaiwogede‘lilunxuexi’xiaoguoxianzhu？”shensinianxiaomimididiguolaiyibeirekeke，“hediantiande，
buchongyixiaxiaohaodenaoxibao。”linwanjieguorekeke，wenredechuganrangtabingliangdeshouzhishaoweihuinuan。
takanzheshensinian，turanwendao：“nigeta……yizhizheiyangma？”shensiniansongsongjian，coujinleyidian，
yadishengyin，xiangfenxiangshenmexiaomimi：“juwoguancha，shizuijincaizheiyangde。kenengshi……turanwule？
juedewanhuacongzhongguo，pianyebuzhanshendebazongluxianbufuheshehuizhuyihexinjiazhiguan？”tadeyuqidaizhediaokan，
yanshenqueliangjingjingde，fangfojuedeyanqianzheiyiqiefeichangyouqu。linwankanzhetaneishuangfangfonengkantouyiqiedeyanjing，
guishishenchadiwenleyiju：“neinini？nizhanshenma？”shensinianlengleyixia，suijixiaodegengjiacanlan，
tacongkoudailitaoletao，juranzhendetaochuyiben……bitageneibengengxiaoqiaojingzhi，haidaizheleisihuabian（？
）fengpide《nandeshouce（qingchunban）》。tahuanglehuangshouce，duilinwanzhalezhayan：“jiejie，
wogeneizhongshi**，sibandehen。”“wodemeitiaozhunze，
kedoushiweilejianglaineige‘ta’liangshendingzuode，
biru——‘yongyuanjuedejiejiezuihaokan’、‘jiejieshuodedoushiduide’、‘ruguojiejiecuole，
qingcankaoshangyitiao’……”“zenmeyang？”tacoudegengjin，qixifuguotadeerpan，daizherekekedetianxiang，
“shibushijuede……wobiwoge，haogonglveduole？”linwanwozheneibeiwenrederekeke，
kanzheyanqianzheigexiaodexiangzhihulidepiaoliangnanren，zaixiangxiangcantinglineigesongdu《zibenlun》debingshan，
naozililianggexitongdeluanmashengfangfojiaozhichengleyishouguiyidejiaoxiangle。taturanjuede，zheigebenghuaideshijie，
haoxiang……yebushiwanquanneimezaogao？
3lvchadididejingzhundajizicongbeishensihengde《zibenlun》tuduguohou，
linwanduitade“gonglverenwu”chedijinrulebailanzhuangtai。
meitianxiangzhengxingdizaixitongcuicuxiaduishensihengjinxingyixiebutongbuyangde“saorao”，
ranhouxinanlidediyingjierenwushibaihoudeqingweidianji——quandangshimianfeidedianliao**le。
edunvpeixitongsihuyerenmingle，faburenwudepinlvhechengfalidudouxianzhuxiajiang，
ouerhaihuizaitanaozilifachuleisi【……meijiule……dengsiba……】debailandianbo。
yucixingchengxianmingduibide，shishensiniandecunzaiganyurijuzeng。tafangfozailinwanshenshanganzhuanglegps，
zongneng“qiahao”zaitabeishensihengqidao（huozhexiaodao）neishangshichuxian。biru，danglinwananzhaoxitongyaoqiu，
jijiabandeshensihengsongqu“aixinbiandang”（shijishitadianwaimaiduocoudeyiheshala），
jieguoshensihengzainandexitongdezhihuixia，yansudijianchalesuoyoushicailaiyuan，
bingjitakepulebanxiaoshi《shipinanquanfa》，
zuihouyi“bunengjieshoulailibumingdekuizeng”weiyoujujuehou……shensinianjiuhuikaizhetaneiliangsaobaodepaoche，
tingzaigongsilouxia，yaoxiachechuang，dichuyihemiqilinsanxingzhuchuqinshouzuode、maixiangkanbiyishupindetiandian。
“jiejie，jiabanxinkule，chidiantiandekaixinyixia。”taxiaoderenchuwuhai，“woqinyankanzhezhuchuzuode，
jueduifuhe《shipinanquanfa》……yijiwode《nandeshouce（qingchunban）》di12tiao——‘jiejiedewei，
youwolaishouhu’。”linwankanzheneihejingzhidetiandian，zaixiangxiangshensihengduizhetaneihecaoliaorulindadideyangzi，
momojieleguolai。zhenxiang。youbiru，danglinwanbeixitongbipo，bixu“hanqingmaimai”diningshishensihengshifenzhong，
jieguoshensihengbeitakandehunshenbuzizai，zuihounandexitongpandingcixingweigoucheng“shijuesaorao”，
qiangzhitabeisongle《zhianguanlichufatiaoli》xiangguanzhangjiehou……shensinianjiuhui“luguo”，
shoulinazheliangzhangzuixinshangyingdexijudianyingpiao。“jiejie，yanshenshabuleren，danwuliaokeyi。”tahuangzhepiao，
yanshenjiaoxia，“yuqizaizheilijinxingwuxiao‘ningshi’，buruqukanchangdianying？wobaozhengquanchenganjing，