第2章

wodoubuganxiang,tazoudeshihou,shibushihenhaipaa?tashibushiyezaichengzhedengwolai?

meicixiangdaoneigehuamian,wodoutoubuguoqi。

wodoubuzhidaozijizheisangeyueshizenmeguolaide。

toufajihushizaiyiyejianquanbaile。

三个月我老了十岁。

shidulaoren,haoxiangyongyuanzoubuchulai,huodeyuejiu,jiuyuejuewang。

yinweigenbendoubuzhidao,zijiweishenmehaiyaohuozhe。

jingchaneibiangenjupansiguangshuodeneirong,qudiaoquledangshidelumianjiankong,yechakanletacheshangdexingchejiluyi。

xingcheyiqingchudijiluledangshicheshangdeduihua。

xinxinkanjianlubianyoumaitanghulu,zhudongyaoqiuqumaide。

congdaolujiankongyenengkandao,xinxinmailechuantanghuluhuidaocheshang,ranhoucheliangyanzhehuaichangluxingshidaojingyuanludejiaochakoudengdaihongdeng。

zailvdengliangqideneiyike,cheliangqibu,tongshiyoucededianpingcheqiangdaoxiangyaobingguolai。

yiqiedouhepansiguangshuodewanquanwenhe。

taweileduobidianpingchemengdafangxiang,jieguozhuangshanglelinchedaodehuoche,dianpingcheyemeiyouduoguo,zhuangshangletamen。

zheizhishiyichangjiaotongyiwai。

nverxiazanghou,woquleyitangtadefangzi。

tajiehunhoujiuhepansiguangbanqulewojitamaidexinfanglizhu。

woqiaoleqiaomen,laikaimendepansiguangmanlianhucha,yanjingtonghong,tuifeiqiaocuidexiangshijigeyuemeishuijue。

「wolaishoushixiexinxindedongxi。」woshuo。

zuotianwogaosuguota,xianglainayixieyiwuliunian。

tadiandiantou:「douzaifangjianli。」

taxianglaibangwo,wokanzhetahaichanzhebengdaideshoubei,tanlekouqi:「wozijilaiba,niqushuihui。」

tameiyoushuohua,wushengdichuqule。

我心里也很复杂。

tazheigerensuiranmeishenmebenshi,danduixinxinhaibucuo,fuqiliangganqingyizhitinghao。

bansangshideshihou,tamangqianmanghou。youciwobanyejingxing,xiangqulingtanghenvershuoshuohua,jieguokanjiantaguizailingtangdejiaoluoli,toutoumoyanlei。

他也很痛苦。

妻子孩子都没了。

和我一样。

suoyi,dangjingchagaosuwo,jingguodiaocha,xinxindesiwangshijiaotongyiwai,erqiezhuyaozerenzaiqiangdaodedianpingche,jucitamendeyijianshibuqisupansiguang,danxuyaozhengqiuwodeyijian,wenwozuoweisizhejiashu,shifoukeyiliangjie,yuanyichujuliangjieshu。

wozuizhong,xuanzeleliangjie。

wochujuleliangjieshu,suiranwodeqingganshangkenengyongyuanwufayuanliangnvxu,danzailizhishenchu,woqishiyezhidao,zheiyiqiebingbushitadecuo。

erqie,nveryebuhuixiwangtabeiqisuba。

wobanverchangyongdedongxishoujinbaoli,ranhouzaiwenjianheliquchuhukoubenheyixiezhengjian。

wenjianhelihaiyouxinxinxiaoshihoudeyimiaoben,wonaqilaifulexiafengmianranhoufankai。kanlehuierganjuejiluhaoxiangbuyiyang,wokanleyanxingmingye,faxianshipansiguangde,yushifanghuiyuanchu。

zheishi,hezishenchudedongxihuranyinqilewodezhuyi。

neishiliangbenbaoxianhetongshu。

pansiguanghexinxinweiduifangmaiguozhongjixian,yibaobuxingshengzhongbingdeshihou,youbaoxianjinzhibing。zheishiwozhidaodeshiqing,jingchagaosuguowo。

yinweishihenchangjiandejiatingchangguibaoxian,suoyiwobingmeiyouzaiyi,jingfangzaidiaochaguohou,yemeiyoujiangcilieweihuaiyimubiao。

keshixianzaiyizhangpeikuandanxiyinlewodezhuyi。

wokandao,neizhangpeikuandandejineshibashiwanyuan,shoukuanrenshipansiguang,ershijianshibangeyueqian。

我有一瞬的恍惚。

bangeyueqian,pansiguangqulingleyibibashiwandebaoxianpeikuan?

wolijifankanbaoxiantiaokuan,faxianzheifenzhongjixianlimianshibaohanshouxiande,yejiushishuo,wulunbeibaoxianrenshiyinweishenmeyuanyinsiwang,shouyirendoukeyinadaobaoxianjin。

huanjuhuashuo,zhiyaoxinxinsiwang,pansiguangjiukeyinadaobashiwan。

zheigeniantoumengdiqiaojilewo。