bingfanglibenlairerenaonaode，guchengyanyilai，kongqijiubiandeningguleqilai。
yanyizhanzaichuangkouxuepingguo，xiangdaozhiqianneinvhaishuodehua，duizhezhaohaowendao：“nizhiqianquzhaozhangqiangdeshihou，tadeqingkuangshishenmeyangzide，fengfengdiandiande，haishishenmeyebushuo。”
“tadeqingkuanghenbuwending，yigerenyebuzhidaozaishuoshenme，yihuierxiao，yihuierhentongkudeyangzi，haijianghushideshouyaoshangle。”
zhaohaoshenshoujiezhuyanyidepingguo，duizhepangbiandeguchengyanshuodao：“tingshuonishixinlixuede，yedongyixiejingshenfangmiandewenti。woshangciqudecongmang，yemeikanchushenme，buguowojuedezhangqianghuishiyigetupokou。niduizheifangmianyouyanjiu，shuobuzhunkeyichadaoshenme。”
“wozhengyoudasuanquyitangjingshenbingyuan。”guchengyanshuodao。
“yanyiniyegenzheyikuaiquba。”
“wo，”yanyibaibaishou，“woqunaerzuoshenme，woyoubudongxinlixue。”
“nihaodaishiyimingyisheng，yaoshizhangqiangguyizhuangbingni。”zhaohaoshileyanse，yanyihaikanbuchutadexiaoxinsi，jiushibufangxinzheigesuanmingzhuanjiabei，rangtabangmangdingjindian，miandechuwulong，shangleshangmiandeyanmian。
“haoba，woquhaibucheng。”yanyiyuguchengyanbingjianzhanzhe，taxiaodao：“neiwomenzouba。”
jingshenbingyuanqishijiushilingyijiandejianyu，zheilideyisheng、hushibufajicong，lianshangjihumeiyouxiaorong。yanyiliangchuzijidexiongpai，jingchabanshi，zhaodaozhangqiangdefangjian。
houzhongdetiemenzhiyouyishanxiaoxiaodechuanghu，hushitixingtamen，zhangqiangdebingqingyanzhong，zuihaobuyaokaojinta，yimianwushangleziji。
yanyitouguobolichuangkandaobingfanglimianzhiyouyizhangchuang，shangmiantangzheyigeyanqiushenxian，mianrongqiaocuidenanren，sizhibeibutiaokunbangzaichuanglanshang，liangtiaotuichengxianbazixing，tahunshenchouchude，shenqingfeichangdetongku。
zheihaizenmelubigong，yanyiyihuitoufaxianguchengyanyuyigenianqingdehushiliaoleqilai，doushenmeshihoulehaiyouxinqingliaomei。meiguojifen，hushinaleyichuanyaochizouleguolai，dakaitiemen。
“bushishuokaimenhuihenweixiandema？”yanyiwendao。
“jiranlaile，zonggaiyousuoshouhuo。”guchengyanduizhehushiweixiaodedianlediantou，zoujinlebingfanglimian。
neihushilimamianrongjiaoxiudepaokaile，zheiniantoumeinanjihaishixiangdangchixiangde。
yanyizoujinlebingchuangbian，zheicaikanqingzhangqiangdemianmuzhengning，sihuchuyujidujingkongdeqingkuangxia。shufudeshouwanbeilechuleyitiaohenshendexuehen。xiaoshoudeshentizaibinghaofulixiandekongdangdangde，miansefanhuangjiqidenankan。
mengranjian，zhangqiangzhengkaileyanjingziguzideshuozheshenme，zuibazhangdehenda，koushuiyanzhezuijiaoluozaichuangdanshang。tazhengzhazheshengsuo，chuangbangegedexiangdongzhe，zhenggeshentixiangshicongchuangshangyueqi，tongkongfangdehenda，zhijiakouzhezijidejifu，yidaodaodexuehen，chumujingxin，kongbuzhiji。
hushitingdaolexiangshengpaolejinlai，duibingrenzhushelezhendingji，yanyiheguchengyanyezoulechulai。
“tadaodishizaoyuleshenme，caibianchengzheiyangde，buxiangshizhuangfengmaishade。”yanyikanzhebingfanglimangliudehushi，bujiedao。
“PTSD。”
“e？”yanyikanxiangleguchengyan。
“chuangshanghouyingjizhangaizheng，huanzhehuifanfuhuiyiyuchuangshangyouguandeqingjing，congerzican。”
“zheimebiantai，yiciyouyiciderangzijichuyujingkongzhizhong，neibushiyaobeizijizhemosima？”yanyiwangxiangbingfanglizhangqiangzhushelezhenjingji，jianjiandeanwenlexialai。
“liangjushaoshangdeshitisiqianyeshishoudaolejinghe，zhangqiangsuiranxiezhulexiongshoumaishi，buguotayinggaizhishitancai，buranshitiyebuhuineimefuyandebeimaizaimingxiandedifang。xiongshoumeiyoushalezhangqiang，huoxushizhangqianggenbenjiumeiyoujianguosizhedeyangzi，danshizhangqiangquefengle，chuxianptsddezhuangkuang，neitayidingshishoudaoleshenme**。jingfangyoudiaochasizheyuzhangqiangdeguanxima，weishenmexiongshoupianpianmaitongzhangqiangrangtamaishi，yinweizhangqiangtancai？”guchengyanshuodao。
“zheijiushinimendeshiqingle，duilexiawuzhaoganghuiqujingchajulubigong。”yanyishuodao。
“zhaogangxianzaishizijiyigerenjuzhuma？”
“嗯。”
“nixianhuiquba，wohaiyouqitadeshiqing。”guchengyanshanglechezi，duizheyanyishuodao。
yanyizuanjinlehouzuo，guchengyanzhouzhemeitoutouguohoushijingkanzheta，“yanxiaojieshibushirencuosijile。”
tashuangshouchengzaihouzuo，shuodao：“guxianshengchulailianshi，zhuyaodejiushibanan，zhaogangxiawulaijingchatinglubigong，gangqiaowoyehuiluguojingchating，niquediuxiawoyigerenzou，yaobushinitaoyanwozheigeren，jiushinishuodeshibuhuijiushitoutouliujinzhaogangdejiaba？”
guchengyanzuijiaoweiweishangyang，“zheiyisi，nishiyaogenwoyiqiqule。”
“neiburanni，suirannishishenglimianpaixialaidegaocaisheng，danxianzaibijinghaibushiyimingzhengshidejingcha，xiangwojiubuyiyangle，wokeshiyouzhengde。”
“fayizheng？”guchengyanxiaodao，suijiyoumenmengcai，yanyihaimeiyouzuohaozhunbei，tajiukaishibiaochele。
kenengshinvzhurenbuzaijia，suoyifangjianhenluan，chufangshuicaoliduijizheguowan，fangjianyeshilangjieyipian。qiangshangguadehunshazhaobeizasuile，yiduihuanxiyanxiaodexinren，xianzaikanlaiqueshifengcidehen。
“womenweishenmetoutoudejinlai，nongdegenxiaotouyiyang，jiubunengzhengdaguangmingdejinlai？”yanyimaozheshentishuodao。
“jiranlaile，jiurenzhendezhaozhengju。”
yanyibeitadudeyusai，tahaibunengshuoyixiazijideguandianle？
neixiaonvhaihaoxiangshuoguozhangfangtingbeizhaogangnve*daideshihoubeiguanjinlejiujiao，keshizheigefangjianlimiannayoudifangrongdexiajiujiao，taqiaoleqiaodiban，zheishishierceng，xiamiandeyeshibiedezhuhule，neixiaoyatoubuhuiyoushizaikuangtadeba。
“yourenjinlaile。”guchengyanduizheyanyizuoleyigexudeshoushi，menbashoubeizhuandongle，talazheyanyiduojinleyijulimian。touguofengxikandaojinlaideshiyigelaoren，goulouzheshenqu，shibushidekesoujisheng。
laorenkandaolingluandefangjiantanleyikouqi，zuozaiyizishangkanzheqiangshangdehunshazhao，buzhidaoshibeihaishishengqi，jiangqiangshangdehunshazhaoqulexialai，fangjinledianshijixiamiandejuzili。
kenengshituijiaobubian，tazhanqilaideshihouhuanlehuanshen，biankaishishoushizaluandefangjian，danshiguoyihuierjiukanyiyanqiangshangdeguabiao，tazoudeshihoushoulitizheliangdadaidelaji，kexiangerzhifangjianduomedezangluan。
yanyijianlaorenzhongyuzoule，songleyikouqi，zhunbeicongyijuchulaideshihou，faxianzijibeikazaijuzilile。
“nixianchuqu，nitaidagele，weizhidoubeinizhanle。”
guchengyanyouxiewunaidao：“nixianjiekainidetoufa。”
yanyiyitaitou，zheicaikandaozijidefasiyutadechenshanniukoudajiechengyikuaile，tayidong，zijidetoupijiubeicheleyixia，tongdeziyaliezuide，shuodao：“nianjingdian，biedong。”taangzhenaodai，dianzhejiaojian，yanjingdouhuale，fasiyuniukouqueyueliyueluan。
“nizheiyifuguima？”yanyitaitoukanzheta，gezitaigao，kanzhezhenlei。
“还好。”
“neijiuxing。”yanyiduizhuntadeniukou，yigeyonglijiangtadekouzichelexialai，congyichulimianzouchulaideshihou，kongqishunjianliuchanglehenduo，tadoukuaiyaobeibiesile。
erguchengyanzeshiheizheyizhanglian，xiongqianshaoleyilikouzi，dapiandejifuluzaiwai，guanjianyifushanghaiyoukoushui，zheijiulingtayuejiadexianqile。
yanyikanleyiyanshijian，“shijianbuzaole，womenganjinlikaiba。”tacongchajibianluguo，faxianzhuozishangyoujipingjiu，baisedeboliping，jiulimianhaipaozheshugen，yinggaishizijiapaodejiu，buguotamenjinlaideshihouchajishangshimeiyoude，yinggaishilaorendaiguolaide。
tazuozaicheli，kanzheqianmiandeguchengyan，tazheiyilushangjiumeiyoushuobanjuhua，buhuizhendeshengqileba。
“nideyifushishenmepaizide，chimaduoshao，wozaijinimaiyijianjiuhaole。”
“dingzhide。”talenglengdedadao。
“jiuyijianbaichenshan，nikebiepianwo。”
“meidasuanrangnizhongmaiyijian，zheijianxiubuhaojiuxingle。”
“yehao，neinijiangyifujiwoba，wojidezheifujinhaoxiangjiuyouyijiacaifengdian，keyibangnidekouzifengshang。”
“xianzai？”guchengyantouguohoushijingyutaduishileyiyan。
zheicaichuqiu，tabuguochuanleyijianbaichenshan，tuole，bujiushiguangbangzilema。
“xiaci，xiacijiwojiukeyile。”tashanxiaodao。
“koushuiyeyaoqingxiganjing，wobuxihuanqiguaideweidao。”
言意嘴角抽了抽。
takanzhechuangwai，pazaichechuangshang，shuodao：“jintianhaoxiangmeiyoushenmeshouhuo，zhaogangdejialiyemeiyoufaxianshenmeyoujiazhidedongxi。”
“zhaogangxingzibaozao，chufangdejuzilijihudoushijiu，hunshazhaoyebeizasuile，zijideqiziqushile，hunshazhaoquebeizasui，nandaozheixiebushifaxian。”tacongkoudailitaochuleyizhangxiangpian，dijileyanyi，shizhangfangtingyuyimingnanzidehezhao。
“zhangqiang？”tajingyadezhizhehuamianshuodao。
“zheishicongzhangfangtingdeshuzhuangjulimianzhaodaode，zhiqianchadaotayouyigeyangfu，buguozhangfangtingchulaidagongzhihoujiuyuzijideyangfuhenshaoyoulianxi，tajiehundeshihou，fumubingmeiyouchuxian。”
“neihuibuhuishizhangqianghoulaifaxianzijimaideshitishizijidenvershi，beibifengle？”
“bupaichuzheizhongkeneng，danshixiongshouweishenmezheimezuoni。”
yanyikanzheguchengyandebeiying，zheigewentitaxianglexujiu，haishiwenchulaibijiaoshutan，“niweishenmebuduizhaogangjinxingshenxun，genjuzhongzhongqingkuanglaiding，maositadexianyishizuidade。”
“sheishuohushitale。”guchengyanshuowanbianbuzaishuole，yanyibuzhidaotazaidazheshenmezhuyi。