第三章 癌症

第三章癌症

kandaoduanxindeneiyike,wodexinqingwubichenzhong。

qianduanshijianwozuoleyigeyiyuandehezuoxiangmu,jisirenyiyuandetijianzhongxinzuowangzhan,tuozhanxianshangyewu。

tamensongleyigegaojitijiantaocanjiwo。

xianzaitamenfasongletijianjieguojiwo,xianshiwoyouhuanweiaidekeneng!

医院让我再去复查!

qishi,zheiyangdejieguowozaoyouyugan。

zheixienian,weileranglinruoweiguoshanggenghaodeshenghuo,womeirimeiyedapin。

qinianshijian,wobazijixiaoxiaodechuangyegongsi,zuodaolenianlirunsanqianwanyishang。

rujindewoyishishenjiaguoyi。

wozheixienianbaoshouweibingkunrao,zuijinyiduanshijianqingkuangjiazhong,wocaidaojianchajieguobuleguan。

quemeixiangdaozhenshizuihuaidejieguo!

wobuzhidaozijishizenmezouchuxuanzhuancantingde,yebuzhidaozijishizenyanghuidaogongyu。

womeiyoukaideng,yigerenzuozaiheianli。

我睁眼看着天花板。

meiyouchiwanfandeyuangu,weilishucijiaotong,tongdewolenghanzhiliu,wodouyingkangguolaile。

linruoweimeiyouhuilai,yemeiyoujiwodaguoyigedianhua,faguoyigeduanxin。

wodesihuotagenbenbuzaihu!

taxinlizhiyoutadenanguimi!

woganshouzhejizhidegudu。

wodefumuzaiwoershiersuineinianjielianqushi,woshidushengzi,meiyouxiongdijiemei,gudandihuozaishijieshang。

zheixienian,womangzhedapin,meiyouganshoudaolinruoweidelengdanhehulve。

zhidaoxianzaiwocaifaxian,woyizhidoushijueranyiren,xingdanyingzhi。

linruoweigenwojianmiandeshijianyuelaiyueshao,dabufenshijiandouyonglaipeibaiyukun,yikexinyedouxizaibaiyukunshenshang。

taduibaiyukunxinximiaohui,duiwoxinxilunhui。

baiyukunmeiyigexihaotadoujizaixinshang,zhengrixuhanwennuan。

duiwo,zongshiliaoliaojigezijiudafadiao,youshihaihuibunaifan。

wulunshirichangyuehuihaishishengri、qingrenjiedengzhongyaorizi,zhiyaobaiyukunyigedianhua,jiusuanfutangdaohuo,linruoweiyeyaogandaotashenbian,wuweibuzhidizhaogupeiban。

我算哪门子男朋友?

可我还是放不下她!

wozhidaolinruoweibuhuizuoduibuqiwodeshi,tazhishikanbuqingnanlvchadezhenmianmu!

womenqiniandeganqing,zenmehuiqingyibeiyigewairendabai?

我相信她会醒悟!

wobaozheshouji,zaiketingdeshafashangzuoleyiye。

wokanzhechuangwaideheiyeyidiandiantunqu,tianseyidiandianliangqi。

wokanzheyueliangluoxia,xurigaosheng。

wotingdaochengshicongjijingzhonghuixuannao。

linruoweiqueshizhongmeiyouxiaoxi!

她一夜未归!

shenzhimeiyouhuifuwodeduanxin!

wodeweijiuxiangyouqianjinjuchuihenhenqiaoda,tongdehunshenzhandou。

woqiangchengzhenaqishouji,jilinruoweifaleyitiaoweixin。

“linruowei,nidaodihaiyaobuyaogenwojiehun?”

我没有想过拖累她!

jiaruwoquezhenweiai,zhiyaotadayinggenwojiehun,wokeyibulingzheng,zhibangeshuyuwohetadeyishi,suanshirangwomenqinianaiqingkaihuajieguo。

zhihou,wohuibasuoyoudecaichanliujita,yigerenanjinglikai!

bijingzheiqinian,woquanxinquanyiaizheta!

她终于回信息了。

“chengyu,yizhiwuliqunaoyouyisima?hunniaijiebujie,biezaifanwo!”

kanzhelinruoweibinglengdewenzi,wodeyanleizhongyudiaolexialai!

naneryouleibuqingdan,zhishiweidaoshangxinshi。

我应该不算伤心。

wozhishigandaojuewangeryi。

qiniandefuchu,buguoshiwoyixiangqingyuanbale!

woyongjinquanliquaidenvren,xinligenbenmeiyouwodeweizhi!

wojitafaleyitiaoweixin。

“bujiele,zhunihetaxingfu。”

yigehongsegantanhaochuxianzaiwomianqian。

linruoweiyijingbawolaheile!

yanleiliuxialai,woquexiaole。

talianwodesihuodoubuzaihu,youzenhuizaihuwodexiangfa?