第1章

(jianghuguiju,jiaonaozibusha。)

“jiege,nishuowodagetamenbuhuiyoushierba?”wangjianguomanliandanyou,kelianbabadiwangzhelinzongjie,yanshenzhongmanshijiaozhuoyubuan。

linzongjiekanzheyanqianzheifumoyangdewangjianguo,xinlitouneijiaoyigeyumen。

tazenmeyexiangbudao,buguojiushiheledianerxiaojiu,shuileyijue,xinglaizhihoujingmomingqimiaodichuanyuele。yuanshenyeshizaishidaomei,pingbaiwugu,shamaobingmeiyou,jiubeizijizhanjulezheifushenzi。

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fangcai,linzongjieyijingwanquanxishouleyuanzhudejiyi。

yuanzhulinzongjie,1958nianchushengyutazhaicunlinshijiazu。

meicuo,jiushineigeshengmingyuanyangdetazhaicun,neigedongshulinyaodongsuozaidetazhai。

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yuanshenlinzongjie,keshitazhailinshijiazuliduyiwuerdedaxuesheng。

dangshijiazuzaidangdishidanlibo,haowubeijingkeyan。weilenengrangjiazuyouchaoyirijueqi,daxuebiyehou,tayiranjuerandifangqiledanweifenpeidegongzuo,xuanzetoushenjunlv。

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zaitamenlianduili,youyiduixiongdi,wangjianguohewangjianjun。

yuanzhuduitamenbingmeiyoutebieshenkedeyinxiang,weiduduiwangjianjundenengliqinpeiyoujia。

jiunakaohelaishuo,chulewenhuakaohe,linzongjieganghuiyidaozheierdeshihou,zheshichileyijing——zheigeshiqijuranhaiyouwenhuakaohe。zaiwanghoukanjiyicaimingbai,suoweidewenhuakaohe,qishijiuleisisaomangbandeneizhongkaoshi。

erchulewenhuakaohezheiyixiang,qitasuoyoukemu,bulunshigerentineng,neiyaoqiuliliangyunailijianjudegaoqiangduxunlianxiangmu;haishijinshengedou,kaoyanshizhanjiqiaoyuyingbiannenglideduikangkemu;yihuoshiyundongsheji,xuyaojingzhunduyusuduwanmeijiehedeshejixiangmu;shenzhishibuzhi、chaijiedilei,guanhushengsiqiejishuhanliangjigaodezhuanyekemu,wangjianjunwuyibushidiyiming,kanchengquannengxingdezhandourencai。

danduiyurujinchuanyueguolaidelinzongjieeryan,zheilianggemingziyiyifeifan。

wangjianjun,neikeshichuanshuozhongdedikonga,duididiwangjianguodeaihuneishiwuweibuzhi。erwangjianguo,linzongjieyinxiangli,zaiqianshisihuchulemingzi,jiuzaimeishenmexifen,haoxiangdoumeiyouchuchangguo。

houlai,bianjingjushijinzhang,houziwuduantiaoxin,linzongjietamensuozaidebuduizuoweidiyipicanzhanliliang,yiwufangudikaifuzhanchang。

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haimeidenglinzongjiezhanqishenlai,buyuanchudewangjianjunkandaodidixianxianghuansheng,dunshishuangyantonghong,nuhuozhongshao,haobuyouyuditaishoujiushiyiqiang。bansuizheyishengqingcuideqiangxiang,neigetouxidehouzishunjiannaodaikaihua,yimingwuhu。

linzongjiexinliqingchu,zhanchangshangzheizhongqingkuang,mianduiyijingtoujiangdefulu,sizikaiqiangkeshidaji。bijing,youdaifulushiwomenyiguandezhengce。suiranzheigehouzitouxizaixian,danshiwangjianjunzhijiebaotou,haishiweifanlejilvde。

weilebaohuwangjianjun,yuanzhudangjiliduan,likezaineihouzishenshangyoubuleyiqiang。

suihou,taxunsusaoshileyiquanzaichangdesuoyouren,ruanyingjianshi,weibiliyou,rangzaichangdesuoyouren“xiangxin”shizijixiankaideqiang,wangjianjunshikandaozijikaiqianghou,chuyubaohuzijidemudecaigenzhekaiqiangde。

zheiyangdehua,yuanzhubawangjianjundezerenjiujidanguolaile。bijinglinzongjieshidaxuesheng,shi**paizhang,shizheigexiaoduidezhihuiguan,shangjiduidailinzongjiehaishihuiyouxieyoudaide。

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buguozaishouzhangmendezhouxuanxia,linzongjietamenduiwaishiyinweizhanhouxinlizonghezheng,yejiushichuangshanghouyingjizhangai(ptsd)demingyituiwude。

wangjianguoyikanpaizhanghaiyougegedoutuile,zijiyejiumeiyoushenmekeyiliuliandele,genghekuangtamenhaishiyinweizijicaibeituiyide。yushiyejiugenzhetuiyile。

haiyoujigedangshizaichangdezhanyou,juedebuduizheimezuoyouxielingrenshiwang,yegenzhetuile。

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shihou,lianzhangsixialicaiduilinzongjieshuodao,dangtian,zaineiminghouzibeiwangjianjunbaotouhou,tamenyinggaizhijiehenxiaxinlai,zheiyangdehua,jiumeiyourenzhidaotoujiangdeshiqingle。

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“nifangxinba,nigedeshenshounihaibuqingchu?budongqiangdeqingkuangxia,zanmen5gerenyiqishangdounabuxiata,genghekuanghaiyouxiaomatamensanxiongdigenzheni。”

linzongjie,chuanyueguolaidelinzongjiekanzhekelianbabadewangjianguoshuodao。