第2章自欺欺人
furenyiluoshui，zhenggejiangjunfudouzhakaileguo，andilishuluofurenyouleshenyunyebuzhizhuyidian，juranbazijidiejinleshuili，haiyaolaofanjiangjuntiaojinqujiu。
meiyouyigerengancaishijiangjuntuifurenluoshuide，jiulianjiuxizijidoubuxin。
tahuaiyizijishijicuole。chenghunsannian，shendonglinsuizaiaiqingshangcuxindayi，danduitayesuanshichongaiyoujia。suoyizheici，yidingshizijijiaohualecaihuidiaoxiaqu。
haozaihaizihaizai，burantakeyaokuijiusile。
buguo，shendonglinnaneimerongyifangguota。
taqiazheshichenzaijiuxifangmenfujindengzhe，daiyahuanduanzheaohaodeantaiyaoguolai，jiubeitalanxia，dakaihaosheng“jiancha”leyifan。
duicihaobuzhiqingdejiuxiwenzheneiyaoweiyouxiebudui，daoyemeiyouduoxiang。zhidaofuzhongjiaotong，gujianxianxuezhiliu，tacaiyishidaowenti，queyilaibujile。
shendonglinwenxunganlai，zhuangchuyilianjiaojidemoyang，weijisongyaodeyahuanyijushuohuadejihui，bianjizhangbile。
jiuxiyezhongyuyishidaobuduijingle，chenzhewurendeshihouzhiwenshendonglin。
weixiangdaoshendonglinjingdafangchengrenle。
tazhengyaofazuo，quehuranbeishendonglinlouzhushenzi。
“xier，rujinwogonggaozhenzhu，huangshangbenjiujidanwo。niyoushiweigaoquanzhongdechengxiangdedinv，rujinruoyouwomendehaizijiangshi，kongpazhenggejiangjunfudoujiangfumie。nizhiyaorenguozheiyizhen，daiwochengdaji，womenkeyisuibiansheng，douyini。”
jiuxibenshizaiqitoushang，bingbudasuanyuanliangta。danduifangyiwenshanglai，tajingshenmedouwangle。
zaijiashangshendonglinyigaiwangrilengku，duitayuefawenrou，rangtagengjiameilelichang。
tashierlaikanta，daizhegezhongxiaowanyisongjita。youxietabuxihuan，birushendonglintedimingrenweitadiaozhideanshenxiang，danweilebugufushendonglindexinyi，tayejianchimeitianranzhele。
tabuzhidaoshendonglindedajishishenme，zhizhidaozaifuqinerbianshuoshendonglindehaohua，zhenshishadekeyi。
jiuzheiyangwozaibingtashangdengzhe，waijiedexingfengxueyusihuyutawuguan。
tahuanguoshendeshihou，yishixindidewanghoule。
tafujunshuodedaji，jingranshimoufan。
yiqietaikuaile，taganjuexiangshizuomeng。
zhiyoushendonglinshenqingningwangtadeyanshen，rangtazaizheifengxuechuifuzhongyoulehuozhedeshigan。
yiboyouyibodehexi，rangjiuxifadehen。
biaojiejinyutiangengshitiantiantizheliwulaibaifang，nianzhecongxiaoxiangshi，jiuxiyemeiduoxiang。
“gongxiya，wodehaomeimei~abudui，yinggaijiaoniwanghouniangniangle~”jinyutianxiaozhe，meiyanwanwan，gewaihaokan，zaizheiyinzhuangsuguodedongrili，xiangshiyiduomolihua，qingxinkeren。
“kuijiejieyouxinle。”jiuxixiaozhe，shunshouqianzouleyepoweipifadenubi。
“neishiziranle，niwoziyouyiqizhangda，xiaoshihounihuzhewo，xianzaiwoziranyeyaozhientubaoma~”jinyutianweixiaozhe，sihuhualiyouhua，qiaozhejiuxideduzi，“ai，wokeliandemeimeiyou......”
“可怜？”
errenduishiliangjiu，jiuximanmianbujie，butingzhuiwen，jinyutianzhongyusonglekou，“benlaiwoshuoleshiyaodiaonaodaide，dan，nianzaizanerrenyitongzhangda，jiejiebunengkanzhenishouneiweiqu。xiernihaixiao，bietaixinrenbierenle。”
“jiejiedaodishenmeyisi？”
jinyutianqingtiaolexiamei，zhilezhizhuoshangneiranzhedeanshenxiang，“jiejiewoziyoudiaoxiang，suoyi，zheiwanyierliyoushenme，woyiwenbianzhi。nizhiyaozhidao，nidexinshangrenmeineimeainibianke。”
ng？jiuxibumingbai，tacongxiaojiaoshengguanyang，fengyudoucongweizhanshen，tazennengdong。
jiuxiyizaizhuiwen，jinyutiankansiweinandijieshidao，“zheiliyoudaliangdeshexiangashahaizi。tiantianranzhe，nizheibeizidoubiexiangyouhaizile。dangjinshengshang，genbenjiubuxiangyunishengzia。nixiangxiang，ninacixiaochan，bushiliudexiqiao？youyounacinenghetatuoleganxi？yaowoshuo，tayunichenghun，yebuguoshikanzhongnichengxiangdinvdeshenfenbale。”
yishijian，yangjiuxihuangzaowuleihongding。
“bukeneng.......bukeneng......nizenmekenengqueding.......niyoubulejieta，taduiwoneimehao......”
jiuxinannanziyu，fanfufourenzhexiangtahonglaideyiqie。
“taduinihao？”jinyutiantuozhezhangyin，jianjiuxineishihunluopoyang，yishimeibiezhuxiao，“ketaduiwogenghaoa。”