第2章 绝望的人生

gaokaohoudejiaqi,jinguanfumuduiwoyijiulengluo,danwoduishenghuo,queyoulereqiedekewang;yinweiwozhongyuyaobaituozheilile,shangdaxue,jiushiworenshengdezhuanzhe。

kepianpianneigegaokaoluobang,zaiwaichuangdangyiniandegegehuilaile;tashidaizhenvpengyoulaide,lianggerenzhunbeidinghun,nvfangzhangkoujiuyao10wankuaiqiancaili。

dangshiwohaipajile,yinweijializhiyou2wankuaiqiancunkuan,neishiwoshangxuedexuefei,yeshiwobaituojiating、gaibianmingyunweiyidejihui。

jiaoshengguanyangdegege,genbamafashenglejiliedekoujiao,zuihouhaixianlezhuozi、zaledianshi;womeixiangdaofuqin,diyicizhanzaiwodejiaodushuolehua:jializhiyouliangwankuaiqian,neishijinididi,shangdaxuedexuefei,juebunengdong!

tingdaozheihua,wogeerhuabushuo,zhijiejiuzhewolingzi,bawozhuaidaoyuanzili,anzaijingtaishangwangsilida!woxiangfankang,kezhendebugan,duonianlaifumuhegege,duiwozaochengdekongjuyishi,zaorangwoshiqulefankangdenengli。

wobaozhetou,suozaidishang,zaojiuxiguanlezheizhongjiatingbaoli;jinguanzheicishentidetengtong,chaoguoleyiwangrenheyici,kewohaishiqiangrenzhe,butingdigaosuziji:meiyoushenmeshiguobuqude,zhiyaotingguolai,wojiunengshangdaxue,jiunengbaituozheili,jiunengjiandaopiaoliangjiejiele……

buzhidaleduojiu,wodetoushang、zuilidoumaolexue;suozaiwulidefuqin,zhongyuzhanchulaishuolejuhua:nijiushidasita,jialiyenabuchushiwankuaiqian。

wobingmeiyoubazheihua,dangchengshifuqinduiwodeweihu;tamenrangwoshangdaxue,yezhiyinwonengjilaochenjiaguangzongyaozueryi;kuangqie,jialishizhennabuchuneimeduoqian。

congmeibeifumujujueguodegege,biandegengjiafennule!tanazhedahuoji,zhijiebajialidechufangshaole;yuanzilihuoguangchongtian,fuqinmeiyouzuzhi,woxiangneishi,fuqinyedabuguorengaomadadegegele。

“jinimen10tianshijianzhunbei,nabuchucailiqian,bieguaiwowuqing!”gegehongzheyan,xianglaizidiyudeemo,yinhendidingzhefumu。

“nijiushishalewomen,yenabuchuzheimeduoqiana!”muqinfuzaimenkuangshang,kudeshengsilijie。

“wobuguan!bierenfumudouyou,nimenyedeyou!”tarengxiazheijuhua,jiulazhenvyoulikaile。

tengtong、huangkong、wunengweili,neiduanshijianyizhizaiwonaohailipanjuzhe;wobeigegedadebunengxiachuang,meitiandouwozaibeizilisesefadou,wohaipatazaihuilai,qiangzouwodexuefei,huilewodeyisheng。

shanghaohougangnengxiachuang,bamaturanduiwohaoleqilai;tamenbujinzaiwomianqian,gezhongshuluogegedecuo,haijiwomailexinyifu,kuawoyouchuxi;congxiaodaoda,wocongmeichuanguoxinyifu,hunshenshangxia,doushigegechuanguodejiuyifu。

neishihou,wojingtianzhendeyiwei,fumuzhendekaishiguanaiwole;huoxushiwokaoledaxue,huoxushiwodongshitinghua,gengegeyiduibi,wochenglebamayanzhongdehaohaizi。

kanzheneixiexinyifu,woguizaidishangjiujibamaketou;zaizheigejiali,wojiushirucidibeiwei,zhiyaotamenduiwoyouyidingdiandehao,yiqiansuoyoudeshi,wodoukeyijiwangbujiu。

“ba、ma,dengwodaxuebileye,yidinghaohaoxiaojingnimen,banimenjiedaochenglizhu!”qibuchengshengjian,wotaoxintaofeidishuolezheihua。

muqinmeibengzhu,“wa”diyishengkuzhelikaile;fuqinhuangluandimozhewodetou,jidongdishuo:haohaizi、haohaizi,daxuezanyidingnian!danyougeshier,woxianggennishangliangyixia。

zhiyaonengniandaxue,haiyoushenmehaoshangliangde;woyigejingerdidiantou,fuqinjiushuo:nigezaiwaimiandalejia,zheishieryaochuanchuqu,renjiadanweijiubuyaotale;zhenghaonigennigezhangdexiang,jiutitadaopaichusuodingyixia,juliujitianjiunengchulai。

tingdaozheihua,wodexindousile,weishenmetadajia,yaorangwoqudingzui?!fuqinmangshuo:nibuxiangniandaxuele?dinglezui,nigejiuganjini,haibuhuizhaojialimafan;dengniyichulai,zanzhijiejiuquniandaxue。

neishifalvyishidanbodewo,genbenmeixiangdao,houguohuineimeyanzhong;gengmeixiangdaotongyangzuoweierzi,fumuhuineimehenxin,neimebeibidekengwo!

weileniandaxue,weilebujijialiremafan;woshuncongdibeifuqindaidaopaichusuo,dingzhewogedemingzizishoule。fuqinhaihuaqianzhaoleguanxi,jihumeiyourenheshenxun,wojiuzaiyifenkougongshanganleshouyin;dangshitahaipianwo,shuoyigexingqijiunengchulai。

keyixingqihou,wojingranshanglefating,neishiwocaizhidao,wogeshifanleqiang.jiezuiheguyishangrenzui!yuetingyuejuedebuduijinger,xinlideweiqu、juewanghehuangkong,jihubidewoyaobashishishuochulai。

ketaixia,wokandaolefumusharenbandeyanjing,tamensihuzaijinggaowo:niyaoshiganshuo,bujinnianbuledaxue,jianglaiyebuhuiyourenhehaoguozichi!

neinianwoganghao18sui,yijingnengzilile;henduorenkendingrenwei,nidouchengnianle,jiudadandebashishishuochulai,napagenjialiduanjueguanxi,younengzenyang?18suidenanren,youshouyoujiao,nandaohainengesibucheng?

woyexianga,keshinimenmeishengzaiwozheiyangdejiatinghuanjingli,meiyoutongnianshi,xinlingshoudaodechuangshanghekongju,suoyinimenwufalijiehezhizewodenuoruo;neijiuxiangyigenxian,fengzhengfeidezaigao,yeshizhongbaituobulefumudezhangkong;tamenduiwoyidengyan,wogutoufengerdougenzhezhandou。

wozhendebuganfankang,nilaishunshoujihuchenglexiguan;congxiaodaodasidushu,woyemeiyouyanghuozijidenengli;wohaipafumuhegegedebaofu,haipaneigejia,queyoulibukaineigejia,zuizhongwoxuanzeletuoxie,beipanle6nianyouqituxing。

linjinkaixuedeqiansantian,fumulaijian.yulitanjian,houhoudeganghuaboliduimian,wokandaolexiaoyaofawaidegege!tahuodehenzirun,haimailefangaishouji;muqinjiwomaidexinyifu,douchuanzailetashenshang。

releiyongchuyankuang,woniezhedianhua,tingzhefuqinwuguantongyangdedingzhu:“chenmo,nigejiuyaoquniandaxuele,mingtianjiuzou,niyaobuyaogentashuoliangju?”

“a!!!”yigurexuechongjinnaolu,woyitouzhuangzaileganghuabolishang;“weishenme?neishiwokaodedaxue!”

xueyanzhebolihuanhuanliutang,fuqinshierbujiandishuo:nibushijinqulema,nigegennizhangdexiang,nianlingyechabuduo,haohaodedaxue,bunengbaibailangfeile;nigehaishuo,dengtabileye,jianglaihuijinianpaigehaogongzuo。

kanzhefumumamuburendeyangzi,wodangshiyijingfengle;yachihenyao,wozhixiangsiletamenderou、jiaosuitamendegutou!wocongmeiruciditonghenguoshei,danneiyike,woxiangsharen!