tiqindangtian，woturannengtingjianweihunqidexinsheng。【shenweiguokezhenshigeshadabing，
buguokanzaitayingxiongshenfenhejintiedefenshang，jialeyebukui。dengtanatiansizaizhanchangshang，fuxujin、gongzuominge，
jiudoushiwodele！】tajiaoxiudiwenwodaileduoshaocaili，wodangzhequancunrendemian，
baikaitajinzuanzhewojungongzhangdeshou，yiziyijudigaosuta：“zheihun，wobujiele。”tashunjianbengkui，
kuzhehanzheshuofeiwobujia。ketaxinliquezaijianjiao：【bujie？laoniangrangnizaibuduidoudaibuxiaqu！
】011983nian，xia。wo，shenweiguo，ershisisui，gangcongqianxianhuilai，zuobeishangchanzhehouhoudeshabu，
xiongqianqueguazhejincancandeyidenggongjiangzhang。jintianshiwoheliuxiaolidinghunderizi，yeshiwomendiyicizhengshijianmian。
meirenbatakuadetianshangyoudixiawu，shuotarenmeixinshan，shizhenshangfangzhichangdeyizhihua，weilezhaogujiali，
caidanwudaoleershiyisui。yijinliujiamen，wojiubeiwuyangyangderenqunweizhule。
liuxiaolidedieniangxiaodemanlianzhezi，bayigechuanzhefensedequeliangchenshandeguniangtuidaowomianqian。“weiguoa，
zheijiushixiaoli，nimennianqingrenduoliaoliao。”liuxiaolidizhetou，lianjiafeihong，shouzhijinzhangdijiaozheyijiao，
yifushouzuwucuodejiaoxiumoyang。queshihenpiaoliang，fuhezheigeniandaisuoyoudeshenmei。woxinliyouxiejinzhang，
congkoudailitaochuzhunbeihaodejianmianli——yikuaishanghaipaishoubiao。“xiaolitongzhi，nihao。”taxiudadadijieguo，
shengyinxidexiangwenziheng：“weiguoge，ni……nihao。”jiuzaitadezhijianpengdaowoshoubeideneiyike，
wonaozili“weng”deyisheng，yigewanquanmoshengde，jianruiyoukebodenvshengpingkongzhaxiang。【zongsuanlaile，
rangwodengzheimejiu，jiazihaizhenda。yaobushikannishigezhandouyingxiong，wocailandedalini。】wohunshenyijiang，
xiayishidichouhuileshou。zenmehuishi？huanting？yexushizhanchanghouyizhengba，yishengshuoguowoyouxieshenjingshuairuo。
wodingledingshen，nulijichuyigexiaorong。liuxiaolidemuqinreqingdilazhewozuoxia：“weiguoa，
ganlezheimeyuandelu，leileba？kuaihekoushui。”liuxiaolizeduanzheyibeitangcigangzidiguolai，yanboliuzhuan，
hanqingmaimai。ketaneishuangpiaoliangdeyanjingbeihou，wonaozilideshengyinquezaifengkuangtucao。
【zheitangcigangzihaishiwobadanweifade，bianyinile。tingshuobuduilijintiehengao，tayigelianzhang，
yigeyuedeyouhaojishikuaiba？yihoukedebaqiandoujiaojiwoguanzhe。】woduanzheshuibeideshou，tingzailebankongzhong。
zheishengyin……hetaderen，fanchataidale。“weiwo……woge，nizenmebuheya？”liuxiaoliqieshengshengdiwen，
yanshenlidaizheyisiqiadaohaochudeweiqu。wokanzhetaneizhangwugudelian，
zaitingzhenaozilineigepansuanzhewogongzihefuxujindeshengyin，yiguhanqicongjiaodibanzhichongtianlinggai。
zhouweideqinqilinlidouzaiqihong。“aiyou，xiaolizheishihaixiule。”“weiguokeshizanmenshilibaxiangdeyingxiong，
xiaolijiaguoqu，neishixiangfuge！”liuxiaolidefuqinqingleqingsangzi，cuozheshou，
yilianchanmeidicouguolai：“weiguoa，nikan，zheiriziyedingle，
zanmenshibushi……bacailideshierzaihejiheji？”wohaimeikaikou，liuxiaolijiuqingqinglalelatadiedexiuzi，
roushengshuo：“die，nitizheigegansha，woheweiguogeshizhenxinxiangai，youbushiweileqian。”tahuashuodepiaoliang，
kewotingjiande“xinsheng”queshilingyifanjingxiang。【zheigelaotouzi，jishenme！derangtazijixinganqingyuandiji！
sanbaikuai，bu，wubaikuai！shaoyifendoubuxing！haiyaosanzhuanyixiang！buranwozheiduoxianhua，
pingshenmechazaitazheiniufenshang？】“niufen”lianggezi，xianggenzhenyiyangzhajinwodeerduoli。
wofangzaixigaishangdeshou，buzijuedizuanjinle。neizhishouyinweichangnianwoqiang，bumanlehoujian，
shoubeishanghaiyouyidaozhengningdeshangba，shishangcirenwushiweilejiuzhanyouliuxiade。
liuxiaolisihuzhuyidaolewodemuguang，tadedayanjingzhalezha，turanshenshou，qingqingfushangwoxiongqiandejungongzhang，
yuqilichongmanlechongbai。“weiguoge，nizhenshiwomensuoyourendeyingxiong，zheijungongzhang，zhenhaokan。
”tadedongzuohenqing，daizheshaonvdeshitanheaimu。zhouweirenyoushiyizhenshanyidehongxiao。keyucitongshi，
wonaohailideshengyin，quechongmanletanlanhesuanji。【zheiwanyierkeshijingeda，yihouwoerzishangxue、zhaogongzuo，
dounengjiafen。dengtasile，zheidongxijiuguiwole。】【tageboshanghaiyoushang，kebieshigecanfeiba？
deganjinrangtaquyiyuankaigezhengming，kebunengyingxiangyihouganhuo。】【tingshuozhanchangshangsirengengemaiziside，
tazheicimeisisuantamingda，xiacikejiubuyidingle。wodechenzaohuaigehaizi，zhiyaoyoulehaizi，tasile，
fuxujinjiushiwode，gongzuomingeyeshiwode，wohainengdaizheqianhehaizigaijia，zhaogechengliganbu！】yishunjian，
wohunshendexueyedouliangtoule。wobushishazi，zheizhongtuwuchuxiandeshengyin，
hetameigebiaoqingdongzuodouyansihefengdiduiyingshang，bukenengshishenmehuanting。zheijiushitadezhenxinhua。
wokanzheyanqianzheizhangjiaoxiudongrendelian，zhijuedexiangzaikanyigepizherenpideguaiwu。
woweizhiliuxuexishengbaoweidejiaguo，woyongminghuanlaiderongyu，zaitayanli，buguoshitagaijiadechouma，
shitatongwang“haorizi”dedianjiaoshi。yiguhunzazheexinhefennudeqingxuzhichongnaomen。womengdizhanqishen。
suoyourendoubeiwodedongzuoheleyitiao，wuzilidexiaoshengjiaranerzhi。liuxiaoliyelengzhule，yangzhetoukanwo，
neishuanghuishuohuadeyanjinglimanshijinghuang。【tazenmele？nandaofaxianshenmele？bukeneng！】wochuixiayan，
kanzhetahaifangzaiwojungongzhangshangdeshou，neishouzhixianxi**，hewocucaodeshouzhangxingchenglexianmingdeduibi。
woshenchushou，yigenyigendi，jiangtadeshouzhicongwodejungongzhangshangbaikai。tadeshouhenruan，
querangwoganjuexiangzhuazheyitiaohuanidedushe。“xiaolitongzhi。”wokaikou，shengyinbuda，
queqingxidichuanbianlezhenggewuzi，“zheihun，wobujiele。”02yijuhua，xiangyikezhalei，
baliujiatangwulisuoyourendouzhamengle。liuxiaolidelian“shua”diyixiabiandecanbai，tananyizhixindikanzhewo，
yanleishunjianjiuyongleshanglai。“weiguoge，ni……nishuoshenme？”【zheigewangbadan！taganshuawo！
dangzhezheimeduorendemiantuihun，wodelianwangnaerge！woraobuleta！
】taxinlidezhoumahetalianshangdechuchukelianxingchenglejizhidefancha，rangwoweiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai。
liuxiaolidemuqinzuixianfanyingguolai，chongshanglaijiuzhuazhulewodegebo：“weiguo！nizheihaizihushuoshenmeni！
shibushilushangleizhele，shuohuhuani！”“womeishuohuhua。”wobokaitadeshou，
muguangzhishizheliuxiaolidefuqin，“shu，shenzi，duibuzhu，zheimenqinshi，wotuile。”“weishenme！
”liufudelianzhangchenglezhuganse，tuomoxingzidoukuaipendaowolianshangle，“womenjiaxiaolinadianpeibushangni！
nijintianbixujiwoshuochugeyiersanlai！”quanwuzideqinqilinjuyedouzhakaileguo，duizhewozhizhidiandian。
“zheishenyingxiongshizahuishia？zenmeshuobianjiubian？”“kendingshixianwomenxiaolishinongcunhukoubei！”“zeze，
nanrena，youlediangonglaojiubuzhidaozijixingshale。”wotingzhezheixieyilun，xinliyipianbingliang。wonengzenmeshuo？
shuowonengtingjiannimennverxinlineixieeduyoutanlandexiangfa？shuochulai，tamenzhihuijuedewoshigefengzi，
huozheshizaiguyizhaochaxiurutamen。liuxiaolikanwochenmobuyu，kudegengxiongle，shentiyiruanjiuyaowangdishangdao。
“weiguoge……wodaodizuocuoleshenme，niyaozheimeduiwo……niyaoshibuxiangjie，
dangchujiubietuomeirenlaia……wuwuwu……xianzaiquancunrendouzhidaole，
nirangwoyihouzenmezuorena……”takudelihuadaiyu，ganchangcunduan，yindebushaorenxinshengtongqing，
kanwodeyanshenyeyufabushan。【ku！dui，jiuzheimeku！rangtabaikoumobian！rangtashenbaiminglie！
wokantayihouhaizenmezaibuduihunxiaqu！】wokanzhetadebiaoyan，zhijuedewubifengci。
zheijiushitamenyanlide“haoguniang”。woshenxiyikouqi，congkoudailitaochuwushikuaiqian，fangzaizhuoshang。“shu，
shenzi，jintianjinimentianmafanle，zheixieqian，suanshiwopeidebushi。”shuowan，wozhuanshenjiuzou。“zhanzhu！
”liufunuhouyisheng，zhuaqizhuoshangdetangcigangzijiuchaowozaleguolai。wotouyemeihui，fanshouyichao，
wenwendijiezhule。wenredeshuisachulai，jianshilewodejunzhuang。zheiyixia，chedidianranleliujiarendenuhuo。
liuxiaolidegege，yigewudasancudehanzi，zhijieduzailemenkou，zhizhewodebizima：“xingshende！
jintianbubahuashuoqingchu，nibiexiangzouchuzheigemen！”【data！rangtazhidaowomenliujiabushihaoqifude！
zuihaobatadacanle，buduidoubuyaota！】liuxiaolixinlizaifengkuangjiaoxiao，lianshangqueshiyifu“buyaoa，gege，
biechongdong”dejiaojimoyang。zhenshigetianshengdexizi。wobuxianghetamendongshou，junrendequantou，
bushiyonglaiduifuxiangqinde。wobatangcigangzifanghuizhuoshang，kanzheliuxiaolidegege，
yanshenpingjingdexiangyitansishui：“rangkai。”changnianzaizhanchangshangmolichudeshaqi，bushiputongzhuangjiahannengchengshoude。
tabeiwokandexinlifamao，xiayishidituileyibu。wochenjimaichudamen，
touyebuhuidilikailezheigerangwozuooudedifang。shenhoudekuhansheng、zhoumasheng，xiangchaoshuiyiyangyonglai，
jihuyaobawoyanmei。wozouzaicunlidexiaolushang，zhouweidecunminduiwozhizhidiandian，qieqiesiyu。
neixietongqing、biyi、xingzailehuodemuguang，xiangdaoziyiyanggezaiwoshenshang。wochenglecunlidezuiren。
yigewangenfuyi、wannongganqingdechenshimei。huidaobuduizhaodaisuo，wobazijiguanzaifangjianli，
yigenjieyigendichouyan。neidaojianruidenvsheng，sihuhaicanliuzaiwodenaohaili，huizhibuqu。
zheijianshihenkuaijiuchuandaolebudui。diertianyizao，tuanzhangjiubawojiaodaolebangongshi，zhuozipaidezhentianxiang。
“shenweiguo！nixiaozinengnailea！yidenggonghaimeiwurehu，jiujiwogaochuzheizhongzuofengwenti！
nizhibuzhidaoxianzaiwaimiandouzenmechuanni？shuonikanbushangnongcunguniang，xianpinaifu！
womenbuduideliandourangnijidiujinle！”wodizhetou，yiyanbufa。“nidaoshishuohuaa！yabale？
daodiweishenme！liujiaguniangneimehaoyigetongzhi，nizenmejiubianguale！”wonengshuoshenme？
woshuowonengtingjiantaxinlihua，taxiangzhouwosi，nawodefuxujingaijia。
tuanzhangdagaihuizhijiebawosongqujingshenbingyuan。“baogaotuanzhang，shiwodewenti，worenshibuqing，
gufulezuzhidexinren。wojieshouyiqiechufen。”chulerencuo，wobiewutafa。zuizhong，
wobeishangleyige“yanzhongjinggao”chufen，benlaiyaotibafuyingzhangderenmingyebeiwuxianqigezhi。bujinruci，
weile“xiaochubuliangyingxiang”，tuanlijueding，jiangwodiaolixianzaideyingxionglian，paiquyibaiduogongliwaideshenshanshaosuo，
dangyigeshaosuozhang。suoyourendoujuede，wodeqiantu，chediwanle。congyingxiongdao“zhanan”，buguoyitianshijian。
likaineitian，zhanyoumenlaisongwo，yanshenlidoudaizhewanxihebujie。woshanglequwangshanqudejunyongkache，
dianbodelushang，wokanzhechuangwaidaotuidejingxiang，xinlifaneryouzhongshuobuchudepingjing。yuanlineixieshifei，
huoxushijianhaoshi。zhishiwomeixiangdao，liuxiaolidebaofu，caiganggangkaishi。03tongwangheishishaosuodelu，
biwoxiangxiangdehaiyaonanzou。junyongkachezaipanshangonglushangdianbolejinyitian，
zuihoutingzaileyigeqianbuzhecunhoubuzhediandeshanaoli。“shenlian……ebu，shensuozhang，qianmianchekaibujinqule，
dekaoninzijizoule。”sijibanzhanglaowangdijiwoyigejunyongkuabao，yanshenlidaizhetongqing，
“fanguoqianmianneizuoshan，jiudaole。”wodiandiantou，beishangbao，tiaoxialeche。shanluqiqu，wotuozheyitiaoshangtui，
shenyijiaoqianyijiaodizoulelianggeduoxiaoshi，caiyuanyuankandaoyimiantunsedehongqi。neijiushiheishishaosuo。
yuqishuoshishaosuo，burushuoshijijianpobaideshitoufang，gulinglingdilizaishandingshang，xianggebeiyiwangdeshaobing。
shaosuolijiashangwo，yigongwugeren。fusuozhanglaozhang，haiyousangenianqingdezhanshi，xiaoli、xiaowanghexiaozhao。
tamenduiwozheigexinlaide“wenti”suozhang，taiduhenweimiao。zunjinglidaizhedianshuyuan，haoqiliyoujiazhedianjiebei。
wobasuoyoujinglidoutourudaolegongzuozhong，daizhezhanshimenxunluo、xunlian、jiagugongshi。shanliderizihenku，
danyehenchuncui，zhishaobuyongzaitingjianneixiefanrendexinsheng。woyiweizheijianshijiuzheimeguoqule。zhidaoyigeyuehou，
laozhangxiujiahuilai，jiwodaileyiduixin。“suozhang，nidexin，doushiconglaobuduizhuanguolaide。
”laozhangdebiaoqingyouxieguguai。wojieguolaiyikan，shijifengxin，xinfenggebuxiangtong，danjixinrendizhi，
xiededoushitongyigedifang——liuxiaolisuozaidehongqizhen。wochaikaidiyifeng，
xinzhishangshiyonggangbixiedejuanxiuziji，keneirongquerangwoshunjianzhoujinlemeitou。xinli，
liuxiaoliyongyizhongshouhaizhedekouwen，xiangxi“xushu”lewoshiruheqipiantadeganqing，
ruhezaidinghunyanshangdangzhonghuihun，rangtashoujinlecunlirendebaiyanhechaoxiao。“weiguoge，wozhidaonikanbuqiwo，
xianqiwoshigenongcunguniang。kewodeyipianzhenxin，nandaojiuzheimebeinijiantama？womeitianyileiximian，
buzhidaomeiyouniderizigaizenmehuoxiaqu……”xindejiewei，haifushangleyishousuandaoyadeshi。
ruguobushiqiner“tingjian”guotadexinsheng，wojihujiuyaobeizheifengxingandongle。woyifengfengchaixiaqu，
neirongdatongxiaoyi，doushikusuhemaican。danyuedaohoumian，xinlideneirongjiuyuebuduijing。
takaishizaixinlibianzaoyixiezixuwuyoudexijie。shuowocengjingduitadongshoudongjiao，
shuowosixialishoulebierenjiadehaochu，caiguyihuihun。zuihoujifengxin，tashenzhikaishiweixiewo。“shenweiguo，
wojinizuihouyigejihui，huilaijiwodaoqian，bahunshibanle，wokeyijiwangbujiu。fouze，
wojiubanide‘choushi’，xiechengjubaoxin，jidaojunqu，jidaobeijingqu！rangniyibeizidoufanbuleshen！
”wobaxinzhiniedegezhizuoxiang，xiongzhongdenuhuojihuyaopenboerchu。zheigenvren，jianzhishifengle！
jiexialaiderizi，liuxiaolidexin，jiuxiangxuehuayiyang，yuanyuanbuduandijidaoshaosuo。
shaosuodezhanshimenkanwodeyanshenyeyuelaiyueqiguai。tamensuiranzuishangbushuo，danwozhidao，
tamensixialikendingdouzaiyilun。“tingshuolema？suozhangzailaojiayougexianghaode，
barenjiaduzigaodaleyoubuxiangfuze。”“zhendejiade？kanbuchulaia，tapingshineimeyansu。
”“wufengbuqilangma，buranweishayigezhandouyingxiong，huibeifapeidaozanmenzheiniaobulashidedifanglai？
”zheixieliuyanfeiyu，xiangmayiyiyangkenshizhewodeshenjing。woshituxiexinhuiqujieshi，
danxinjichuqujiushichendahai。woyoujituanlidadianhua，zhengweizhishirangwo“baochilengjing，xiangxinzuzhi”。
woganjuezijibeiyizhangwuxingdedawangjizhaozhule，wulunzenmezhengzha，douzhengtuobukai。neitian，woxunluohuilai，
xinqingfanzaodaolejidian，zaixunlianchangshangdaleyixiawudequan。hanshuijintoulejunzhuang，
xiongkoudefanmenquesihaomeiyoujianshao。bangwan，woqushaosuowaidexiaoxibianxilian，
zhengqiaopengdaolelaixibiandashuidechenqiuyue。chenqiuyueshishanxiachenjiacundeminbanjiaoshi，
yeshizheiyidaiweiyide“chijiaoyisheng”。ershichutoudenianji，shuzheliangtiaodabianzi，pifushijiankangdexiaomaise，
yishuangyanjingyouheiyouliang，kanrendeshihouzongshidaizheyigubufushudejinger。
yinweishaosuodecaigouheyiliaodoudemafanta，suoyiyilaierqu，dajiayedoushule。takanjianwo，lengleyixia，
ranhouzhilezhiwoshenchuxiexuxuejidezuobeishabu：“shensuozhang，nizheishangkouyouliekaile？”woditouyikan，
caifaxiangangcaidaquantaiyongli，qiandonglejiushang。“meishi，xiaoshang。”“shenmexiaoshang！nizheishangkouzaiganran，
zhengtiaogebodoudefeile！”tabuyoufenshuodifangxiashuitong，congsuishenxiedaideyiyaoxianglinachushabuheyaoshui，
“zuoxia，wojinizhongxinbaozha。”tadeyuqidaizheyizhongburongjujuedeqiangshi。
wozhihaozaixibiandeyikuaidashitoushangzuoxia。tajiekaiwoshoubeishangbeihanshuihexuejijinshideshabu，
luchudixiazhengningdeshangkou。“si……”tadaoxiyikouliangqi，“nizheishiqiangshang？”“ng。”“tengma？
”“zaojiubutengle。”tameizaishuohua，zhishidizhetou，yongniezijiazhemianqiu，xiaoxinyiyidibangwoqingxishangkou。
tadedongzuohenqing，henzhuanzhu。jiuzaitadeshouzhichupengdaowopifudeshihou，yigeqingcuiganjingdeshengyin，
turanzaiwonaohailixiangleqilai。【zheishangkouyetaiherenle，dekuishipianledian，burangutoudoudedaduan。
dangbingde，zhenburongyi。】womengditaiqitou，kanxiangta。tazhengzhuanxinzhizhidichuliwodeshangkou，
meitouweiweicuzhe，yanshenliliuluchude，shichuncuide、buhanrenhezazhideguanqie。wojingran，
yenengtingjiantadexinsheng。04zheigefaxianrangwozhenjingbuyi。nandaowozheiguguaidenengli，duisheidouguanyong？
wodingzhechenqiuyue，shitucongtalianshangzhaochunapayisiyihaodeweizhuang。ketacongtoudaowei，
douzhishizhuanzhudibangwochulishangkou，meiyoubanfenyiyang。【zheirenkanzhetingyansude，shoushangdejianzizheimehou，
pingshixunliankendinghenkeku。neixiexinlishuotazuofengyouwenti，wozenmejiubuxinni？】taxinlideshengyin，
zaiciqingxidichuanruwodenaohai。wolengzhule。ta……jingranshixiangzhewode？shangkoubaozhahao，
taliluodishoushihaodongxi，taitoukanwo，zhenghaoduishangwodaliangdemuguang。“kanshenme？
”tabeiwokandeyouxiebuzizai，lianjiaweiweifanhong。“meishenme。”woshouhuimuguang，huodongleyixiashoubei，
“xiexieni，chenlaoshi。”“buyongxie，weirenminfuwuma。”taxuezhebaozhishangdekouwenshuoleyiju，
zijixianxiaole，luchuyikoujiebaideyachi。tayixiao，zhenggerendouxianhuoqilai，
xiangshanliyingzhetaiyangshengkaidexiangrikui。【taganmayizhidingzhewokan，guaibuhaoyiside。buguotazheiren，
buxiaodeshihouxiangkuaishitou，xiaoqilai……haoxianghaitinghaokande。】wotingzhetaxinlidehua，
zuijiaorenbuzhuweiweishangyang。zheishiwolaidaoheishishaosuohou，diyicifazineixindixiao。“duile，shensuozhang，
”taxiangshixiangqileshenme，congkuabaolitaochuyigeyouzhibao，“zheishiwozijizuodehongshugan，nichangchang。
nimenpingshizaishanshang，yechibudaoshenmelingzui。”youzhibaodakai，limianshijinhuangsedehongshugan，
sanfazhexiangtiandeqiwei。wonaqiyikuaifangjinzuili，youxiangyoutian，henyoujiaojing。“haochi。
”woyouzhongdizantandao。tayanjingyiliang，xiangshidedaolejidadekuajiang：“haochiba！womenjiazijizhongdehongshu，
tebietian！”【taihaole，taxihuanchi。xiaciwozaiduozuodianjitasonglai。shanshangderizineimeku，deduobubu。
】wotingzhetaposhiyoushanliangdexinsheng，xinlimougedifang，xiangshibeishenmedongxiqingqingdizhuangleyixia。congneiyihou，
chenqiuyuelaishaosuodecishu，jianjianduoleqilai。youshishijiekousongxiezijizhongdeshucaiguaguo，
youshishishuoshunluguolaikankanyoumeiyouxuyaobangmangde。shaosuodezhanshimendouhenxihuanta，meicitalai，
xiaoxiaodeshaosuodouhuirenaobushao。dajiabeidilidouzaikaiwanxiao，shuochenlaoshishibushikanshangwomenshensuochangle。
meicitingdaozheixie，wodouhuibanzhelianbatamenxunyidun，kexinli，queyouyisishuobuqingdaobumingdeqiexi。
tongguo“duxinshu”，wozhidaolechenqiuyuedehenduoxiaomimi。wozhidaotakanqilaidadalielie，