jieshuyishiyigexiaoshihou。
沈辞在包间里漱口。
jingzhongdeta，liansecangbai，xingmouchongxue，hongchunweizhong，kanzhezheiyangdeziji，tanulidijichuyisixiaoronglai，napanankandexianggegui，yedeweijieziji——bannian，shenci，haiyoubannian，xiaohuijiuchulaile，yiqiedouhuibianhaode。
忍着！
zaitongzaiku，yebixurenzhe。
zhenglihaoyirongyuqingxu，shencizouchubaojian。
qinsiyezhijitasanshimiao，tadanwubuqi，kechulaihouqinsiyebingbuzai。
shencizhanzaidiankou，kanzhetashangletadebujiadi，sijizaojiudengzaiyice，xiandeshencixianggexiaohua。
tazenmekenengzhendehuirangtasongtahuiqu。
neizuoheerzhuangyuan，neiyuanbenshitajisongyuebeidehunfang。
shishencibunengtarudejindi。
沈辞是哭不出来的。
zheishi，baozhongdeshoujixiangle。
jialiyizhizhaogutadezhangmajiantaxiafeijizheimejiu，haimeidaojiazhejidalaidianhua。
zhangmadeshengyinquemanshiwucuo，“taitai，ninkuaihuilaiba，zaibuhuilai，jialijiuyaobeibankongle。”
shencihuojiliaoliaodeganhuiqu，jiujiansongyuedemuqinwangshichuanzhetashuiyi，dailejigeqinqizaiketingdachidahe，erqiehaibatazaigguojizhangma，tiaoxuandeliwuxiangdakai。
zheigenazhetamaideliwu，neigenazhejialiangguidongxi，yanranyifutufeiyang。
zheigebieshushiqinlaoyezisongjitagenqinsiyejiehundehunfang。
danqinsiyecongbuguolaizhu，wangshiziranqingchutamenzhijiandeguanxi，jianshencichuxianhou，yizhanglaolianquanshichaofeng，“yo，sharenfanhuilaile，huilaidezhenghao，ganjinanfuxiazhangma，biedajingxiaoguaide，wojiaoqinqiguolaishishoulixide，womenyoubushiqiangdao，nisuoyongyoudejintiandoushiwonverde，wobugainame？”
shenciquantouniedegegezuoxiang。
zhangmaqideyutaqialeqilai，wangshijianzhuangbianbenjialichaofengzheshenci，“nigaibuhuibuleyiba？”
yubi，tajingtaochushoujijiujiqinsiyedaqu，kaikoujianxianranyunnianghaoleqingxu。
“qinzong，kuaijiujiuwo，shencitadarenle。”
那边似乎还未睡。
shencitingwangnvshideaihaojiangzaiyuandi，sikongjianguanle。
“aiyo，wokumingdenvera，beitahaideshileshen，yiyuzisha，xianzailianwoshisheidouhaibuzhidao。tashencidemingzhenhaoa，huirenqingbaihainengshangbanzhubieshu，guozherenrenxianmushenghuo，woshizaitiwonverbuzhi，natadiandongxizenmele，tabugaijideme？qinzong，tayagenjiumeiyouhaohaoanzhaonindefenfutiwonverzhaoguwo，wodemingkua。”
三年。
congqinsiyerangtashuzuiqi，jiubasongyuemuqinwangshianpaizhujinletamendehunfang。suiranwangshibingbuleyitiantianjiandaoshenci，bingbujingchangguolai。
danqinsiyerangtatisongyuejinxiao。
ruguobushita，suoyoudecanjudoubuhuifasheng，yongtadehualaishuo，tahuogaide，tagaishoude。
shencibuzhidaoqinsiyeduisongyuemuqinshuolexieshenme，zhitingdaozijishoujixiangle。
dianhuajietong，nanrenlingchitadelengyixilai。
“nijiushizheiyangjinxiaode，haishiyouxiangweikanglewo？”
jiaoxunhaishibugou，tayongyuanxuebuhuichenfu。
shenciwozheshoujideshoubuduanyongli，shoubeishangqingjindouchulaile。
“womeiyou……”shencitingdaozijideshengyinzaifazhan，yirudangniantajitaanzuimingshideweiqu。danhaozaitafanyingjishi，nulidikongzhizhuleziji，burangtayoujixiuru，“qinzong，liwushijiyeyebeide，wangnvshijiangxiangzidakai，hairangrennazou，wohennanxiangyeyejiaodai。”
“shenmishuzheishizaiweixiewoma？”nanrenjiqibuxiedao。
shencishenhuxidihui，“bugan，zhishirushidihuidanin。”
qinsiyejixiao，“nishibuganhaishiyouyi，womeixingquzhidao。shenci，woyaoqiuguoni，yaoshikemingjizijideshenfen，nishitixiaoyuejinxiao，yingdangayishiqinshengmuqin，huaizhejingweiyukuijiudexin，jiusuanmailiwuyeyingdandubeiyigexiangzi。shenmishu，nijiushizheiyangbanshide？”
沈辞未语。
zuichunqidaofadou，taqiyindao，“qinzongjiaoxundeshi，shishenciwuneng，shencizhicuole。”
qinsiyemeishenmenaixingdao，“liwuqingtalijinazou，haohaopeilidaoqian，biezairangwotingdaotashoulebandingdiandeweiqu，houguo，shenmishuyinggaihenqingchu。”
shencichuixiayanmou，cangbaideliansebeiyinyulongzhao，zhenggerenruzhuibingkuli。
zheishi，qinsiyekuaiguadedianhualichuanlaiyidaojiaoqiaosheng，“siye，sheidedianhua，zheimewanle？”
shenzaibingkulideshenci，dunganxinzangjiuxiangbeishechuanleside。
kuangdangyisheng，fencuidechedi。
tatengdedongdanbude，butaiqingmingdenaohaili，buduanfuxianzheigeshengyin。
宋月……回国了？
“meisheide，wuguanjinyaoderen。”
他不屑多言。
电话挂了。
沈辞忽然想哭。
但她哭不出来。
yanleizaoyizaizheisannianbuduanrenqingxianshizhongkujiele。
“ruhe，haiyoushenmebuleyime？”wangshijiqixiyueshencibeiqinsiyezhenzhu，yilianchaofengyijihehu，“shenci，bieshuoworangqinzongchushou，jiusuanwoyaoqiuzheidongbieshuzaiwomingxia，niyedeguaiguaiguojijiwo。yongyuanbuyaowangji，zheishiniqianwonverde，zheibeizidouhaibuqing。”
wangshirangqinqibamanxiangzideliwuquanbaozou，zhangmayoujiyounao，“taitai。”
tatitahanyuan，titabuzhi。
basuijiudaoqinshijituanshenghuodeshenci，bieshuolaoyeziteng，shaoyeyeteng，quanjiadoupengzhe，zendeneishifashenghou，douchenglepaoying。
shencinuliweixiao，shenhuxidao，“zhangma，womeishi，bietiwodanxin。”
“keneishijilaoyezideliwu，jiuzheimebeitanazoule，ninzenmexianglaoyezijiaodai。”
shencipailepaitadeshoudao，“jiyeyedecaibushizheixie。”
tazaojiubaliwufenxianghaole。
三年。
wangshizaizenmezuoyao，lailai**yejiuneijizhao，tazhishiteng，jiusuanwangshilailai**haishineijizhao，qinsiyeyiranxuke。
zhangmatingwangshimeizhandaoshenmebianyi，lijixijierqi，kejianshencizhangxin，xigai，haiyouyifudouyouxueji，zhandouzhechundao，“shaoye，youfaninleme？”
yanleibuzhengqidediaolexialai。
zhangmakuiduishencishengfumu，shencibasuizaofengjiabian，danqinshizhangyijiangtamenliangjiedijiehuiqinjia，tasuitongzhaogu，queshizhi。
“meishi，xiguanle，jinwanyoudexinkuninshoushile。”shencititacadiaoyanlei。
zhangmaxiangshuobuxinku，tagaizuode，kemianduishenciyuyanyouzhi，“taitai，ganjinshanglouxiuxiba，zhangmajininzhuwanroumomian。”
shuozhe，zhangmajinlechufang。
shencisaoleyankuanchangdebeixijieyikongdebieshu，chunjiaoweigou，chengzhu，shenci，bannian，henkuaide。