第5章 心的位置

“wohaimeiyougentashuo!”peimiaoxinganmangdaduanpeimudehua,meiyouzairangtabahuashuowan。

huangmangzaikaileyixiayanjiao,“nizhidaoyaoyangneigerenpingchangzuijihuixieshenme,taconglaibuhuiluanyongzijideshenfen,tafanshidouxiangkaozijiyenengkaoziji,suoyiwodongtamingbaita,genhekuangniyezhidaotagongsilideqingkuang,nenggouzuodaozheiyixingdelongtou,zhenggegongsidejueceyijingbushitayigerenshuolesuan,suoyi,tashibukenengzaijieqianjiwomende。”

“wozhidaowozhidao。keshi,xianzaiyinxingyijingbuyuanyijieqianjiwomen,‘peishi’dezichanjibianyonglaidiyayeshizibudizhai,meirenzaiyuanyixiangyinxingdanbaojieqianjiwomenle,suoyiwohaishixiwangninengbunengbaituoyixiayaoyang,yita‘hongke’zaizheiyixingdediwei,jiusuanshibuzhijiechumianjieqianjiwomen,guangshitatongyinxingzhijiandeguanxi,zhiyaotayuanyiqushuoyisheng,wogennibajiunenggou……”

“buyao!”peimiaoxindeshengyingengduodeshiqiqiu,“mawoqiuqiunihaobuhao?buyaoqubaituotashenme,wobuxiangrangtaweinan,womenjiadeshibenlaijiubuguantadeshi,biezaituoleitalexingbuxing?”

peimubuyi,“miaoxin,nishuodezheishishenmehua?tashinilaogong,xianzaininiangjiayoushi,tanengbuguanni?”

“zongzhiwoqiuqiunimenlexingbuxing,buyaozairangwodiulianle……qiuqiuni……”

“keshimiaoxin,niyedangshimamaqiuqiunilexingbuxing?nibababaishouqijiadaoxianzaicaiyoulewomenjintiandeyiqie,nidaodimingbumingbaishenmejiaoyirongjurongyisunjusun?ruguowomenjiazhendejiuzheiyangwanle,nihaiyoushenmelichangjixudaizaiqujia?niyiweiyaoyangzhendeshiyinweixihuannicaigennizaiyiqideme?ruobushiyinweiwomenjia……”

peimiaoxin“pada”yishengguaduanlepeimudedianhua,danshouwuzhezijidezuiba,dizhetouzaibushuohua。

peimushuodezheixie,tayouhechangbumingbaini?

她只是,装傻。

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quyaoyangjiangcheshiruwangjianghuayuanxiaoqudedixiatingchechangshi,fangzaifujiashizuoshangdedianhuazhenghaodididadaxiangleqilai。

tajiangcheshirucheku,tingwenzhihoucaiceshenjiangdianhuanaqi,“wei?”

“yaoyang,wo……woweiyouxieteng……wozhaobudaonishangcijiwochideweiyao,nihaijibujidetamenfangzainali?”shixiazhiroujiaodidiyoudaizhexiegengyandeshengyin。

tayitingneitoudeyuqi,bujuejiugoulechunjiaoxiaoqilai,biaomianshangyangzhuangzhending,gaosutayaohezifangzainagenagejuzidechoutili,haiyouweizaitengdoubunengkongfuchiyao,haishiyaoxiandiandiandongxi。

xiazhirouguaiguaiditingzhe,tingdaohoulaitaneiju:“haole,niguaiguaide,womashangjiuhuilai。”bianbuzhudexintengnanguo。

taguaduanledianhuajikebiandadiantishanglou,qiaoqiaoyongyaochidakaiketingdefangmenshi,guobuqirankanjianneixiaonvrenzhengzuozaicanzhuoqianmianduizheyizhuozidongdoumeiyoudongguodecaipadapadadiaozheyanlei。

takaimenjinlai,takudeleiyanmenglongde,quezaiyitaishoudeshunjiankandaochuxianzaimenkoudenanren,zaogubudeqita,kuaisucongcanyishangzhanqishen,chongdaomenbianyibajiangtabaolegemanhuai。

tachunpandexiaoyiyouzai,dengtabaogouleyekugoule,zheicaizhuazhetadeshoubeixianghoutuikai,“wokankan,yijingkuchengshenmeyangle?”