jiehunbanian，wobazijihuochenglezhangfukouzhongde“huanglianpo”。zhidaotazaijiazucishanwanyanshangdangzhongxuanbulihun，rangxiaosanwanzhetadeshoubei，bawodingzaichiruzhushang。suoyourendouyiweiwohuiyijuebuzhen，quebuzhidaowoshoudaoleyifenggaibianmingyundeyoujian。santianhou，woyaorangzheigepaoqiwodenanrenguidiqiurao。
jinbihuihuangdeyanhuitingli，shuijingdiaodengzheshechuciyandeguangmang，jiangmeiyizhangjingxinmiaohuademiankongyingzhaodexuweierjingzhi。kongqizhonghunhezhexiangbin、gaojixiangshuihegezhongfuzadeqingxu，menredelingrenzhixi。wozhanzaijiaoluo，shouzhongdexiangbinbeibeiwosisidizuanzhe，binglengdebolimianqiangyizhizhuzhangxinriyizhuoshaodewendu，zhijieyinyongliguomengerfanbai。
taizhongyangdejiangyicheng，shenzheyitaoyidalishougongdingzhideshenlansexizhuang，jiancaiheti，jiangtayuanbenjiutingbadeshenzichentuodegengjiaqiyuxuanang。tamiandaigongshihuadeweixiao，wozhemaikefeng，shengyintouguoyinxiang，qingxidichuanbianlehuichangdemeiyigejiaoluo：“ganxiegeweililinjiangshinianducishanwanyan。jinwanchuleweicishanzhuli，jiecijihui，wohaiyaoxiangdajiaxuanbuyigesirenjueding——woyugunanxinvshi，jiangjieshuwomendehunyinguanxi。”
hong！zheijuhuaxiangyidaojinglei，zaiwoerbianzhakai，yeshunjianyinbaolehuichangyuanbenyayideqieqiesiyu。suoyoudemuguang，daizhehuozhenjing、huohaoqi、huotongqing、huoxingzailehuodeshense，qishuashuadichaowotousheguolai。woganjuezijichengweileyigebeijiazaihuoshangkaodebiaoben，meiyigemaokongdouzaitamendezhushixiawusuodunxing。
wokanzheta，yingjun、chenggong，yiranshibanianqianneigewoaidaoguzili、shenzhiyuanyiweitafangqiyiqiedenanren。errujin，tazhengjugaolinxiadixuanpanzhewodesixing。tashenbian，yiweizheyigenianqingdeshenying——bailian。tadelianshangguazhexiusequeyouyanshibuzhudeyidexiaorong，qingqiaodiwanzhejiangyichengdeshoubei，neitiaoehuangsedegaodingwanlifurushuibanliuchangdigoulezhetalinglongdequxian，heranjiushiwoshanggeyuegangcongbalidingzhi，quehaiweilaidejichuanshangdeneiyijian。
weiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai，woqiangrenzheexin，nulirangzijidebiaoqingbaochipingjing。
jiangyichengdeshengyinzaicixiangqi，daizheyizhongxuweidewanxiyu“dadu”：“nanxishigehaoqizi，banianlaiweijiatingfuchulehenduo。danhenyihan，tadegerenfazhanyijinggenbushangwodebufa。zheixienianlai，taanyuxianzhuang，busijinqu，womendejingshenshijiezaoyibuzaitongyicengmian。weilebubicituolei，womenzuizhongxuanzehepingfenkai。”
“hepingfenkai？”wochadianshikongdixiaochusheng。tazheifenmingshijiangwodingzaichiruzhushang，dangzhesuoyourendemian，panwoyige“genbushangjiaobu”desixing！
taixiaxiangqididideyilunsheng，xiangwushugenzhen，cixiangwoquanshen。
“guoranbeiwoshuozhongle，jiangtaitaijiushigehuaping，kongyoumeimao，meiyidianneihan。”
“tingshuotaliandaxuedoumeiduwanjiujiarenle，yaobushijiangzong，tasuanshenme？xianzaibeipaoqiyeshihuogai。”
“jiangzongzheimeyouxiu，chizaoyaozhaogegengnengpeideshangtashiyedexianneizhu。neigexinmishu，zhangdepiaoliangxueligao，tingshuogongzuonengliyeqiang。”
“ai，gunanxiyetingkeliande，bazuihaodeqingchundoujilejiangjia。xianzairenlaozhuhuang，beisaodichumen。”
wohuanshisizhou，neixiecengjingduiwoxiaolianxiangyingdehaomenguifu，cikeyanzhongdoudaizhe**luodebiyihexingzailehuo。sangeyueqian，tamenhaiweizhewo，qingjiaoruhedalijiazujijinhui，ruhecehuacishanhuodong，ruheweixigaoduanrenmai，duiwoshishigongwei。xianzai，wochengletamenchayufanhoudexiaobing。
jiangyichenghaizaijixutade“biaoyan”，yuqizhongdaizheshishebanderenci：“kaolvdaonanxiguowangmeiyoudulijingjinengli，jiangshihuitigongyibihelideshanyangfei，quebaotarihoushenghuowuyou。”
“helideshanyangfei？”wodexinkouxiangbeizhongchuihenhenjizhong。banian！wodezhenggeqingchun，congershiersuidaosanshisui，douqingzhuzaizheigejiahezheigenanrenshenshang。wobangtadalijiazushiwu，xiediaogezhongfuzaderenjiguanxi，shenzhizaitafuqinbingzhong、gongsimianlinweijishi，wofangxiasuoyoudekongjuhebuan，yigerenqiangchengzhe，lianyebenbozaiyiyuanhelvshishiwusuozhijian，titafuqinqianshushoushutongyishu，daiweichuligongsishiwu，zhiweirangtanengzaiguowaianxinchucha，bubeijiashifenxin。rujinzaitakouzhong，wojingranchengleyigechuleyilaitayiwai，yiwushichu、xuyaota“shishe”cainengshengcundefeiwu？
bailianshishidikaojinmaikefeng，shengyintiandefani，queyoukeyidaizheyisi“tiliang”：“yichengyizhihenzhongqingyi，jishinanxijiezheixieniancongmeiweijiatingchuangzaoguoshijijiazhi，tahaishiyuanyifuzedaodi，duitayijingrenzhiyijinle。”
“shijijiazhi？”duomecierdeziyan。nandaoworifuyiridicaochizheigejia，basuoyoudesuoshidalidejingjingyoutiao，rangtahaowuhouguzhiyoudifazhanshiye，ganxinzuotabeihouneigemomowumingdenvren，zheixiedoubusuanjiazhi？nandaowopeitazaichuangyechuqichipaomian、aotongxiao，yongwodejiazhuangbangtaduguonanguan，zheixiedoushikongqima？
wozhouranfangxiashouzhongdexiangbinbei，boliqiminyudalishizhuomianpengzhuang，fachuyishengqingcuierlinliede“ding——！”
neiyisheng，xiangyidaohaoling，shunjianzhizhulesuoyoudeqieqiesiyu。zhenggehuichangchaneijiananjingxialai，suoyourendemuguangdouyinzheituruqilaideshengxiang，zaicijujiaozaiwoshenshang。
wohuanbuxiangqian，meiyibudoutadechenwenerjianding。wonengganjuedaoxintiaoruleigu，danlizhigaosuwo，juebunengluqie。
“shuowanle？”wotingzaiwutaibianyuan，shengyinbuda，queziziqingxi，zuyirangqianpaiderentingqing，yezuyirangmaikefenglveweishoulu。wodeyuqipingjingdejinhulengmo，daizheyizhongbinlinbaofabianyuandekezhi。
jiangyichengzhoumei，lianshangdexuweixiaorongjiangzhu，yanzhongshanguoyisicuoeyubuman。taxianranmeiliaodaowohuizaizhongmukuikuizhixiakaikou。zaitayuxiangzhong，wogaishineigeyongyuanwenshun、yongyuanshidati、yongyuanzaitamianqianditoudeqizi，beipaoqihouyezhihuimomoliulei，yiyanbufa。
“nanxi，wozhidaonihennanguo，dan……”tashitushangqian，shengyinyadilejifen，daizhejinggao。
“wobunanguo。”wozhandingjietiedidaduanta，shenzhimeijitabahuashuowandejihui。woyanshenlengliedisaoguota，zaisaoguotashenbianneizhangshengqilingrendebailianlianpang，zuihoumuguangluozailetaixianeixiekanhaoxiderenshenshang。woyibubuzouxiangwutai，meiyibudouxiangcaizaitamenweishandexinshang。
“wozhishijuedekebei。jiangyicheng，nizhendewangle？”wotingzaitamianqian，yangtoukanzhetaneizhangshunjianbiandecangbaidelian，zuijiaogouqiyimojifengdexiao。“niwangleshisheizainifuqintufaxinzangbing，lianyishengdoushushouwuceshi，lianyegandaoyiyuan，qianxianeifenfengxiangaozhishu，cairangshoushudeyijinxing；niwangleshisheizainigongsimianlindiyicipochanweijishi，nachuwofuqinliuxiadesuoyoujiazhuang，lianmeitoudoumeizhouyixia，bangniduguonanguan；niwangleshisheizheixienian，momodalijiangjiadeyiqie，shangzhigaocengrenjiwanglai，xiazhiniyishizhuxingdexizhimojie，rangnihaowuhouguzhiyoudifazhanshiye，cainengyoulejiangshijintiandehuihuang。”
wodeshengyinbugao，querutongdaofeng，yiziyijudiguaguojiangyichengdelian，yeguaguosuoyouzaichangbinkeweishanderenzhi。tamenyuanbenyiweide“wuyonghuaping”，cikezhanxianchude，shiqiansuoweiyoudeqiangshiyufengmang。
“nishuowobusijinqu？”woqingxiao，daizheyisishuobuchudechaofeng。“neinizhibuzhidao，womanzheni，liyongnizaiguowaichucha，bailianhaizhishinigongsiyigexiaozhiyuandejianxi，xiuwanlezhongyangmeiyuandeyishuguanlishuoshikecheng？nishuowoanyuxianzhuang？neiniyouzhibuzhidao，wonimingchuangzuodezuopin《zhongsheng》，gangganghuodeleguojiyishujijinhuidezuigaopingjia，ronghuo‘weilaiyishuzhixing’dasaitedengjiang？”
ciyanyichu，quanchangzaicihuaran，zheicidezhenjingchengduyuanchaofangcai。yishuguanlishuoshi？guojitedengjiang？zheikebushisuibianyigejiatingzhufunengzuodaode！
bailianliansezhanghong，jianshengfanbo，shituwanhuijumian：“nisahuang！nimingmingjiushigeshenmedoubudongdejiatingzhufu！nishenmeshihouhuaguohua？haiyishuguanli！wokannishideleshixinfengleba！”
wolandekantayiyan，muguangshizhongsuodingjiangyicheng，kanzhetalianshangcuoe、fennu、huaiyi、yijiyisibuyichajuedehuangluan，gezhongqingxujiaozhi，jingcaifencheng。
“lihunxieyiwohuiqian。”wohuafengyizhuan，yuqipingjingxialai，quegengxianlengli，“danbushixianzai。santianhou，jiangshixinpinfabuhui，wohuijiniyige——‘jingxi’。”
shuowan，wobuzaikanrenherenyiyan，gaogenxiezaiditanshangfachududingdeshengxiang，zhuanshen，touyebuhuidilikailewutai。shenhouxiangqiyizhenzhendaoxiliangqideshengyin，yijijiangyichengqijibaihuai、yadileshengyinqueyijiuwufayanshidenuhou：“gunanxi，nibiejilianbuyaolian！likaiwo，nishenmedoubushi！”
我没有回头。
zouchuyanhuiting，wanfengdaizheqiuriteyoudeliangyifuguowodelianjia，jiangwoxintouneituanzhuoshaodenuhuoshaoshaochuisan。woshenxiyikouqi，weilidefantengzongsuanpingxi。yuanchu，yougouziduidejizhejuzhexiangji，shanguangdengxiangbushideyingyan，fengkuangdibuzhuozhewodeshenying。mingtiangedameitidetoutiao，woyijingnengxiangxiangchulai——“haomenqifugunanxidangzhongshitai，yisijingshenshichang”、“juewangqianqishangyanchuisizhengzha，jiangzongqingduanjiuaimixinhuan”。
suitamenxieba。congjinyihou，tamendebi，zaiyewufadingyiwogunanxiderensheng。
wocongsuishenxiedaidexiaoshoubaoliquchushouji，diankaineifengsantianqianshoudaodeyoujian。neicengshiwoanzijizanduoniandeweiruohuoguang，rujin，tajiangxiongxiongranshao，dianliangwozhongshengdelu。
“zunjingdenimingyishujia‘nan’：
womenrongxingditongzhinin，nindezuopin《zhongsheng》congquanqiushiwuwanjiancansaizuopinzhongtuoyingerchu，ronghuobenjie‘weilaiyishuzhixing’dasaitedengjiang。nindezuopinyiqishensuideneihan、dutedegoutuhelingrenzhenhandeshengmingli，zhengfulesuoyoupingwei。
tongshi，womenchengzhiyaoqingninjiaru‘fenghuangjihua’——quanqiudingjianyishujiafuhuaxiangmu，jijinhuijiangweinintigongyiqianwanmeiyuanqidongzijinjiquanfangweizhichi，zhuninzaiquanqiuyishuwutaishangzhanfangguangmang。qingjinkuaiyuwomenlianxi。
zhubanfang：guojiyishujijinhui”
wodezuijiaohuanhuangouqiyimolengliedehudu。
jiangyicheng，haoxi，caiganggangkaichang。