第五章哀莫大于心死
“suruoxin，nishuoshenmeni？”
zhangboyuanjiangyingdehuiguotou，lianshangxiemanlebukesiyi：“nizenmebiandezheimebudongshi，wobudouhenijieshiguolema？wozaishuoyibian，woheziyimeiyounixiangdeneizhongguanxi！”
tayazhehuoshenxiyikouqi，yuqijinkenengdepingjing：“womenbicidoulengjingyixia，woyaozhaoguxiaofanle，nihuiquba。”
wowangzhetafushenzhaoguxiaofandebeiying，shishendezhanzaiyuandi。
shia，tabuzhiyicipaoqiguowoheyueyue，wofanshalaizhaotayouyoushenmeyong？
yaobushiyueyuededongshianwei，shiwoyicicibashiwangzangruxindi，kenengwomendeganqingzaojiupoliele。
erzheiyiciwoshenpangmeiyouleyueyue，beiwojiyadebengkuiqingxupenyongerchu，sihuxindixiangshiyoushenmedongxisuile，yexushijinshengdeyidianganqingpomieleba？
shihunluopodehuidaofuyuan，youhushizhangdetongrong，wotanzuozaibingchuangzuanzheyueyuedeshouyileiximian。
jianceyiqideshujushifenpingwen，yueyuequezaiyezhengbukaiyanjingle。
zuanzheyueyuedeshoumozailianshang，wokudeshenquzhandou：“duibuqi，yueyue。”
leiyanpangtuodewoxinzhongwubitengtong，wohaoxiangzaitingyueyueshuoyici：
‘mamabuku，yueyuezai——’
huoxushiwozizuozishouba？yaobushiwodefanlandetongqingxin，haiyouyizaidemoxu，huoxuzhangboyuanyebuhuiyuwoheyueyueyufashuyuan，gengbuhuinaochengjintianzheiyimu。
yuzheibiandeqiliangxiangfan，zhangboyuanhexuziyimuziyexuzhengqilerongrong......
wohuidechangzidouqingle，xuruodeshenti，jiashangjingshendeshuangzhongdajixia，pibeiganxijuanquanshen，wopazaiyueyuedeshenbian，jiuneimekuzheshuizhele。
lingchen，gangchenshuipiankedewo，beiyiqidejicujingbaoshengjingxing。
“玥玥？玥玥！”
wozhixidechengqishen，wangxiangyiqineikanbumingbaideshuju，huangluandeshouzuwucuo，fengkuangxiangwaipaoqudewoyigeliangqiangshuaidaozaidi。
wenshengganlaidehushiheleyitiao，jimangyaofuqiwo：“nvshi，ninmei......”
“bieguanwo，jiuyueyue，jiu......jiuwonver！”
tanzuozaididewoaiqiu，hongzhongdeyankuangzhongleishuizaidudazhuan。
langbeipaqishendewopudaojijiuchuangpang，bansuizhe‘huahua’degunlunsheng，hehushiyilupaoxiangshoushushi。
“yueyue，jianchizhu，mamazaini......”
qiaocuibukandewoleizhufeiluokongzhong，zhiqiulaotianyenengfangguoyueyue，buyaozaizhetengtale，zhiyaoyueyuenenghuidaocengjing，bawodemingnazouwodouxinganqingyuan！
mudunverzaiyicibeituirushoushushi，wobengkuideyanmiantongku。
wozhendebuxiang，yebunengzaitingdaoyueyuedeehaole，yaoshishiquleyueyuewohuozhehaiyoushenmeyisi？
huangluandebotonglezhangboyuandedianhua，woqibuchengsheng：“boyuan，woqiuni......qiunilaikanyueyue，yueyueta......”
kezhangboyuanqueyuqibaozao，daduanlewodehua：“ruoxin，wodoushuole，dengxiaofanzheibianwendinglejiuhuiquzhaoniheyueyue，nengbiezaishuaxiaopiqilema？”
“xiaofandishao，henyoukenengshidaokoufayan，woyaobushishizhaoguzenmenenganxin？”
guaduandemangyinxiangqi，wodanaoyipiankongbai，shouji‘pa’dehualuozaidi，wuzhu，juewang，bengkui......wushufuzadeqingxuyongshangxintou。
tadexinlijiuzhiyouxuziyimuzima，weishenmedoubuyuantingwoshuowanhua？
aimodayuxinsi，buhuizaiyourendaraotahexuziyimuzile......