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wohesonghuaijincengshibicishengminglideyidaoguang,houlaiwoxiantaqiong,rengxiajiezhiyuanzoutaxiang。
zaicijianmian,shizaiwohetagegededinghunyanshang。
tachenglegaobukepandeshangjiexingui,wochengletadesaozi。
tashenqinglengmodikanzhewo,“nihaishizheimeshuixingyanghua,buzhilianchi。”
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wowanzhejiangzhuo,tingzhezhouweibinkedegonghesheng,neixinquehaowubolan。
“jiangxianshengheyuxiaojiezhenpeia!”
“tingshuotamenliangshizaiguowairenshide,shanggeyueganghuiguo。”
“......”
wotaiqijiubei,yiyiyingxiatamendezhufu,taiyanjianquezairenqunzhongkandaoleyigeshuxideshenying。
wodeqiannanyou,songhuaijin。
huxizaishixianxiangzhuangdeneiyiketingzhi,wokandaotaduanzhejiubeichaowozouleguolai。
xinzangpengpengzhitiao,xiangshiyaotaochuxiongtang。
hewunianqianneigezaisushelouxiaqiuwobuyaofenshoudesonghuaijinxiangbi,xianzaideta,lianshangshaolexieqingse,duolechengshuyulingli。
shenbiandejiangzhuojiwomenzuozhejieshao,wotingjiansonghuaijinchaotahanleyisheng“ge”。
woweiweilengzhu,dinghunyanshangyujianqiannanyou,haichengletadesaozi,wobujingantanzheigeshijiezhendehaoxiao。
“biaoge,zhunihezheiweiyuxiaojie……”
songhuaijinzhuanguotou,mianwubiaoqingdikanlewoyiyan。
“zaoshengguizi,bainianhaohe!”
woxinzangweiweiyitong,querengmiandaiweixiao,shuoleju“xiexie。”
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womeixiangdaohuizaiciyujiansonghuaijin。
wunianqian,tahaishigeyiqiongerbaideqiongxiaozi,wunianhou,taqueyijingchengweifengjiashierfudedexiaoerzi。
tadidiaojingui,zaishangjiehundefengshengshuiqi。
budao30suijiuyijingzhangwolesongjiayiwandezichan,shiquanzilizhengxiangbajiededuixiang。
tinghaode,zheiyangwohetajiugengmeiyoukenengle。
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yanhuijieshu,wozhanzaimenkou,lengfengchuiqiwodetoufa。
“panshangjiangzhuoleyonglebushaoshouduanba。”
dichendeshengyinturanzaiwoerbianxiangqi。
wozhuanguoshen,songhuaijinzhanzaiwoshenhou。
jianwobushuohua,talenghengyisheng。
“xianzaidewoyouqianle,nihouhuilema?”
hunandeyeseli,wokanbuqingtadeshenqing,zhinengwendedaotashenshangdeyancaowei。
后悔吗?
woturanxiangqizhihushangneigegaoredehuati,ruguorangnichuanyuedao10nianqian,nihuiganshenme?
pinglunwuhuabamen,youshuoyaoqumaicaipiaode,youshuoyaoqugenzijianlianderengaobaide,youshuoyaohaohaoxuexide。
neishidewoshanleyouxie,zuizhongliuxialeyichuandaan。
ruguorangwochuanyuedao10nianqian,wohuihe23suidesonghuaijinfenshou。
suoyiwodedaan,yidingshibuhouhui。
kanwohuidadejianjueyouguoduan,songhuaijindeyuqizhongdaizhechaonong。
“wunianle,nihaishiyidianyemeibian,yiyangdeshuixingyanghua,xixinyanjiu。”
cierdehuayurangwolianseyouxiefabai。
wozhalezhayan,wangzhetaliqudebeiying,dixialetou。
gaogenxiebutaihejiao,jiaowanneilimochuleyigegedexiaoshuipao,youxieteng。
yanleibuzhengqidiliulechulai。
记忆回到了五年前。
dayuxishuazhexiatiandezaore,wogensonghuaijintilefenshou。
shaonianjueqiangyouguzhidizhuaizhewo,meiyigezidefayindoujiannanhuise。
wolazhexinglixiang,yiliandebunaifan。
“nayoushenmenanyanzhiyin,wufeijiushiwannile。”
“wojiajingyouwo,bileyekeyizhijiejinwobadegongsi,ernini?niyoushenme?”
“wopingshenmeyaogennizaineigepochuzuwulishouzui?”
huayishuochukou,songhuaijindeyanweishunjianjiuhongleyipian。
tazibeimingan,huiandetongnianxianglaishitaderuanlei。
songhuaijinshibeilingyangde,tajiajingpinhan,tadeyangfumulingyangtayezhishiweilezhaogerenyanglao。
houlai,tadeyangmushengleerzi,tajiubeichediyiqile。
zheimeduonian,tayizhidoushiyigeren,zhidaoyujianlewo。
“wanwaneryi,nihaizhendedangzhenle?”
woshuaikaitadeshou,kanzhetadaidaidizhanzaiyuandi,yanliliuchuleleishui。
dagaitayemeixiangdao,dangchutapoukaineixin,xiangwoqingsutaqicandeguowang,rujinquebeiwodangchenglecixiangtadeliren。
“congjinyihou,womenqiaoguiqiao,luguilu。”
wozhaixialetaaolewushugetongxiaojiwomaidaodejiezhi,touyebuhuidizuoshangleche,zaiyemeiyouhuilai。
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dinghunyanjieshudediertian,wozhaojiuqushangban。
bangongshidetongshifenfendaquwo,“doushilaobannianglehaizheimejuan?”
我笑了笑没有说话。
tamenbuzhidao,wohejiangzhuoshixieyijiehun。
wopeitawanchengtayeyedexinyuan,tatiwoduzhuwobadezui。
jiangjiabushixiaomenxiaohu,tamenjiadechanyezaigegexingyedouyousheji,nenghewolianyin,shiwomenjiagaopanle。
wobazhidaohougaoxingdehebulongzui,zaiyemeiyoujiwoanpaiguoxiangqin。
bijingzaitayanli,hunyinyezhishiquanlidefushupin。
dangchuwomaqushi,zoulehaimeisangeyue,wobajiuzaihunle。
talouzhelingyigenvren,lianshangkanbudaorenhedebeishang,bujiuhou,wojiuyouleyigedidi。
wopinmingdixuexi,meicichengjidoushinianjidiyi。
woxuegangqin,xueshufa,xuejinrong,qiangpozijiqukanneixierangwotoutengdeshuzi,nulirangzijibiandeyouxiu。
kewulunwozenmenuli,wobadeyanli,zhiyouneigeyiwushichu,chengjidaoshudiyihaizhihuidaoluandedidi。
suoyibenzhishang,wohesonghuaijin,shitongyizhongren,womendoushibeipaoqideren。
zheicidinghunyanshang,wobapotianhuangdiduiwoshuoleju“nizhenshiwodehaonver!”
zhenfengci,wobushidangnianneigexiaohaizile,tadekuazanzaiwoyanliyimaobuzhi。
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天气渐渐转凉。
huiguoyijingsangeyuele,shuoqilai,linchuanshigenyiqianbihaoxiangyemeishenmebianhua。
wufeijiushilubiandewutongshugengjiacuzhuangle,haiyoujiushi,denghongdengdeshijianhaoxianggengzhangle。
laiwangdelurenxingsecongcong,gezibenfuzhezijidemudedi。
woshouhuishixian,hongdengbianlv,woqidongchezi,houmianquechuanlaipengdeyisheng。
woxinyijing,yinggaishibeizhuiweile。
zhaolegelubianbachetingxia,houmianzhuangwodecheyeshunshitingzailehoubian。
chezhucongchelixialai,kanqingchutadelianhou,woyixiazilengzaileyuandi。
竟然是宋怀瑾。
tayishenheisedefengyi,mosedetongrenxiangshishenbujiandidexuanwo。
woyazhufanyongdeqingxu,dixiatoukanlechewei。
“各修各的吧。”
qishilunqilai,shitadequanze。
wodakaichemen,zhunbeishangche,beisonghuaijinlanlexialai,tashenqingdanmo。
“zenme,nijiuzheimebuxianghewodaizaiyikuai?”
是,不怎么想。
wochuixiayanmou,bashoukuanmanalechulai。
songhuaijinkandaohouchixiaoleyisheng。
tanachuzijideshouji,saoleyixia,meichenggong。
taweiweizhoulezhoumei,yousaoleyixia,haishimeichenggong。
“还是不用……”
wogangxiangkaikoujujuetadehaoyi,youbeitalengmodeyanshenjiquantuile。
“支付限制了。”
“wojianihaoyouzhuanjini。”
xiangshipawohuiwuhui,talinleyoujialeyiju。
“wobuxihuanqianbierende。”
yeshi,dangchufenshoufendeneimenankan,womenshizaizuobuchengpengyou。
jiashanglehaoyou,tatongkuaidizhuanguolailiangwankuaiqian,ranhoutouyebuhuidishangchelikaile。
gancuililuo,zaiyemeiduotingliuyimiao。
wokanzhezheiyichuanzaoyilanshuyuxindeweixinzhanghao,xinqingfuza。
youyuleyixia,dianleshoukuan。
dangnianchuguozhihou,wobanlexindedianhuaka,yiqiandeshoujihao、weixinyedouzhuxiaodiaole。
womeixiangdaohainengzaijiahuita。
wunianle,tadeweixintouxiangbianchengleyizhangheibaidexingkongzhao,pengyouquanliyeshiganganjingjing,yitiaodongtaiyemeiyou。
haoxiangbianle,youhaoxiangmeibian。
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diyicijiandaosonghuaijin,yeshizaizheiyangdeqiutian。
tianqizhuanliang,qiafengyouxialechangdayu,taquezhichuanleyijiandanbodechenyi,kanqilaishifenqingleng。
youliulangmaotiezhetadekujiaozhuanlaizhuanqu,tadunxiashen,congbeibaolinachuhuotuichang。
wozhanzaitashenhou,kanjiantadeshouqingqingfumozhexiaomaodejibei。
mingmingshizaipingchangbuguodedongzuo,woxinliqueshengchuleyizhongqimiaodeganjue。
yeshicongneitianqi,wokaishizhuyita。
tachifanxuexidoushiyigeren,baitianhaiyaodahaojifengong,dantachengjiyizhishidiyiming。
tongxuejuhui,wohuibadifangxuanzaitadagongdekafeidian。
shangkedeshihou,wohuibuzijuedizaibenzishanghuaxiatagongzuoshidecelian。
kanzhetabeinvshengdashan,wohuihenfanzao。
zheizhongshuobuqingdaobumingdeqingxu,rangwoyishidaozijixihuanshangleta。
woxiangtabiaobai,jieguocanlie,tajiuxiangshizuobinglengdexueshan,haoxiangmeiyourennengchupengta。
zaiyicixiaojidebisaishang,wohetayiqizaitaishanglingjiang。
xiataideshihou,tajiaoxiaturanyihua,shentikongzhibuzhudiwangqianqing。
woshenshouquzhuaita,queyinweiguanxinghetayiqigunxialelouti。
tadezuichuncaguowodelian,wokaozaitahuaili,simuxiangdui,qifenaimei。
dixiadexueshengkaishiqieqiesiyu,taliansefahong,haoyihuicaifanyingguolaibawotuikai。
buzhidaoshibushiyinweitaxinlikuijiu,neitianguohou,womendeguanxihuanhelehenduo。
lichundeshihou,woyangzaijialidexiaogoudiule,wozhaolehenjiu,zuihouzailubiandelajitonglizhaodaoletadeshiti。
wokanlelubiandejiankong,shiwoneitongfuyimudedidigande。
tajiangwodexiaogougaogaojuqi,youzhongzhongdishuaixia,yiciyouyici,zhidaomeileshengxiang。
neishiwomazouhou,wodiyicibengkui。
wofengleyiyanghuidaojia,nazhedaoyaoshaleta,tuisangzhongwohuashangletadelian,xuezhibuzhudiliulechulai。
houmayaobawoganchuqu,woxianfanlezhuozi,zhenggejialiluanzuoyituan。
zheichangnaoju,zuihouyiwobeiwobayongbianzichouleyidunjiewei。
kewobingbujuedewozuocuole。
wodexiaogousidiaole,erwodidizhishihuashanglelian,zheiyangdechengfataiqingle。
yemujianglin,wozuozailubiandetaijieshang,yigegedishuzheyouduoshaogelurenzaiwomianqianzouguo。
wobuxianghuijiale,neiyijingbushiwodejiale。
wojiuyizhizheimeshuzhe,zhidaosonghuaijinchuxian。
tatizheyaozaiwoshenbianzuoxia。
我仰起头看他。
“wobuxuyaonikelianwo。”
taxiangshimeiyoutingdaoyiyang,cheguowodegebo,mianwubiaoqingdijiwocazheyao,shouxiadedongzuohenqingrou。
“想哭就哭吧。”
tapielewoyiyan,bawaitaogaizailewodelianshang。
jiuneimeyishunjian,jizandeqingxuxiangshiturandakailezhamen,yixiazishikongyonglechulai。
wokulehenjiu,kudaozhouweidehuanjingcongcaozabiandeanjing,kudaoludengdouximiele。
neitianzhihou,womenzaiyiqile。
womencengshibiciheianlidejiushu。
wushugeyewan,womenzouzaidajieshang,hunandeludengxiayingchuwomendeyingzi,wowojintadeshou,shuo“womenhuiyongyuanzaiyiqi。”
kewozhongjiuhaishisalehuang。
renshiwoxianzhaorede,daozuihouyeshiwoxianrengxiade。
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wanshangwohuigongsinaluoxiadeyaochi,kanjianzhangzhulihejigetongshihaizaijiaban。
linzoudeshihouzhangzhulijiaozhuwo。
“yutaitai,wojinwanhaiyaoganjigehetong,nengbunengbangwobazheifenwenjianzhuanjiaojijiangzonga?”
woyileng,zhangzhulibuzhidaowohejiangzhuoxieyijiehundeshi,tadagaiyiweiwomenshizhuzaiyiqide。
“ruguobufangbianjiusuanle。”
kanwolengzhu,zhangzhulinaolenaotou。
“fangbian!xinkuzhangzhulile。”
wonaguowenjian,yutaitaizheigemingzi,zhendetingbieniude。
wojijiangzhuodalegedianhua,tameiyoujie,buzhidaotazaibuzaijiali。
wokaichequlejiangzhuozaidebieshu,anxianglemenling。
kedakaimendequeshisonghuaijin。
tachuanzheyijianlanbaisedechenyi,peizheheisedezhangku,kanqilaihenxiuxian。
“yuxiaojiehuizijijiahaiyaoqiaomenma?”
songhuaijinyizaimenshang,yuqidandande。
woyizhenganga,buzhidaogaizenmehuida,sisuobanshangdao。
“wowangjidaiyaochile。”
tatiaoletiaomei,zuihoushenmeyemeishuo,jiworangchudaolai。
wohuanxiaxiezi,jucudigenzaitashenhou,momingdeyouzhongtashizhuren,woshikerendeganjue。
zhengzaixinlixiangzhe,taturantingxia,woyixiazimeizhuyizhuangzailetadehoubeishang。
“zenmehaigenyiqianyiyangzoulubukanlu?”
“sheirangniturantingxiade!”
womolemobizi,zhouzhemeikanta。
shixianxiangduideneiyichaneiwomenliangdouturanlengzhu。
womenyijingfenshoule,zheiyangqinnideyuqishibuheshide。
wohuifulechenmo,zuozaishafashang,dizhetoujijiangzhuodadianhua,danyijiudabutong。
“kongdiaoyaokongqizainali?youdianre。”
songhuaijincheleyixiayiling,zhanqilaiwenwo。
“我找找。”
zaidatinglizhaolebantian,zhaodezijidourechuhanle,zuihouzhongyuzaichoutilizhaodaole。
wobawendudiaodi,zhuanshendeshihoubujingyidipiedaolesonghuaijin。
talingkoudekouzibeitajielesanke,limiandejifuruoyinruoxian。
woxunsudipianguotou,yihuishixian。
“我去外面等吧。”
“buganhewodaizaiyiqi,shiyinweixinxuma?”
shenhouqingliedeshengyinrangwojiaobuyidun。
wobeiduizheta,yaoyaotou。
“不是。”
tahaixiangshuoshenme,yizhenqichedehongmingshengchuanleguolai。
jiangzhuocongchelichulai,lianshanghaidaizhepibei。
kanwoguolai,tayanmoulishanguoyisijingxi。
wobawenjianjiaojita,tajieguolai,yanshenanlean。
“shichushenmeshilema?”
“ng,yeyejinwanjinjianhushile。”
wobuzhidaozenmeanweita。
dangchutahewodinghun,yezhishixianglequetayeyezuihoudexinyuan,
“biedanxin,yiqiedouhuihaode。”
tadiandiantou,shenchushoutiwolonglelongwoejiaodetoufa。
“冷不冷?”
shenhouyizhenkesoushengxiangqi,songhuaijinshuangshouchadou,mianwubiaoqingdikanzhewomen。
“huaijin,buhaoyisi,benlaijintianyuehaoyaotanhezuode,fangnigezile。”
宋怀瑾看了我一眼。
“meishi,woxianzoule。”
congjiangzhuojiachulai,yijingjiudianle。
duzichuanlaiguluguludeshengyin,wokaizhecheraolehenyuandelulaidaoleyigexiaoxiangzi。
neishigelubianzhiqilaidehuntuntan。
zheimewanlemeixiangdaohaikaizhe。
laobanniangyuqishuren,“haishiliangwanhuntun?”
我点点头。
woyiqiandeshihoubingbuaichihuntun。
wohesonghuaijinhaizaiyiqideshihou,youyiniandongtian,womenbeizhongjiekengdehencan。
wodeyinxingkabeitingdiaole,womenliangtaochushenshangsuoyoudeqianyezhigoumailiangwanhuntun。
neitianhenleng,haixiazhedaxue。
reqitengtengdehuntunbeiduanleshanglai,wuqimohuleshaoniandelian。
songhuaijindizhetou,baliangwanhuntuntuidaowomianqian。
“对不……”
“zaidongtianchiyiwanrehuntunyetaixingfuleba!”
wokaozaitashenshang,yizhishoufangjintashangyidekoudaili,daduanletayaoshuodehua。
neiduanshijianwomendouhennan,songhuaijinmeitianzaochuwangui,erwoyeshijiabanbuduan。
shaoniandexinsiminganxini,wozhidaotaxinlikendinghennanshou,wonengzuode,jiuzhiyouyonglibaojinta。
“馄饨很好吃!”
womeiyousahuang,neitiandehuntunzhendehenhaochi。
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lingchen3dian,woshoudaoleyigemoshengdedianhua。
anxiajietingjian,duimianshengyincaoza,xiangshizaijiubali。
“于粥粥,是我!”
duimianchuanlaisonghuaijindichendeshengyin。
“nizenmeneimehenxin?”
“nishoulewodeqian,hai…yaolaheiwodeweixin?”
“你说话啊?”
“你要我说什么?”
wotanlekouqi,jihunengxiangxiangdaoduimiansonghuaijinzuijiushengqideyangzi。
“yuzhouzhou,zhiyaonishuoyijunihouhuile,wojiuyuanliangni。”
kongqituranninggu,wohuxiyizhi。
dianhuaneitouturananjinglexialai,xiangshizaidengwodedaan。
woyaoleyaotou,songhuaijinbuyinggaishizheiyangde,tayinggaigaogaozaishang,erbushididaolechenaili。
“songhuaijin,wobuhouhui。”
nazheshoujideshoukaishizhandou,neiyishunjian,wohaoxiangtingjianleshitouluodideshengyin。
“doushichengnianrenle,biezaizheimeyouzhile。”
woguadiaoledianhua,xinzangkaishiyichouyichouditeng。
duibuqi,songhuaijin,biezaiaiwole。