第6章 苦涩的心

shijianzaizhizhongrushayibanliutangerguo。

santian,chulezuohua,woyifanchangtaidemeitianchuansuozaixiangfuli,jiashan,chitang,shulin……

zongxiangzaiwuyijiantandeliandexiaoxi,queshiyuyuanwei,fuliyiqieruchang,bingmeiyouxianchuyisihuangluandehenji,liandeshi,jiufurenyinzangdeshifenzhenmi,sihubuxiangrangguoduoderenzhidao。

jiufurendehua,woyihualejiufenle,jiukuaiwanle,wufendexinsizaihuashang,wufendexinsiliujizijideyouxin。

suoyihuabingbumanyi,santian,wobingmeiyoujiaojijiufuren,haiyaoxizhidehuashangdianjingzhibi,wojuedingmingtianzaiqinziqumeijuangejiaodaojiufurendeshoushang。

zhongyuhuahaole,wangzhehuazhongdejiufuren,yunbingaosong,rumodefagengxiantaningzhibandejifurerenxianmu,eryaozaihuazhongtixianneifenruyubandefusequeshinanshangjianan,wodiaoleyizhengtiandesecaicaidiaozhengleyanse。

jiufurenchushengzaizhalutedacaoyuan,youzhecaoyuanrendeyingqiyuyongwu,youjianjunvrendewumeiyujingli,dedaodiedechongai,bianshibiranle,wocongbuhuaiyitademeili,zhikantadehuayirangrenzhemile,tabenren,gengyouyifendiandaozhongshengdebenshi,neishitianshengde,ruguoshengweinanren,huoxuneishiwangzhedefengfanba。zhikexi,tadexingbieshengcuole。

zhongyugaihaole,woyeshouleyiquan,yinweiyouxinerchibuxiafan,bunengguaishei,zhinengguaizijidetaiduoqing,lian,wohaishishikezaidianzheta。

qujianjiufuren,zheiyici,woyidingyaodedaotadexiaoxile。

biaohaolehua,manyile,huanleyishenyuebaidequnzhuang,xiyitiaobaisededuandai,fasuiyidelongzainaohou,chulemen,zaixiangmeijuangeerqu。

“xiaojie,manzhedian,binghaimeijianhaoni。”

shia,yaowodaolehaojici,tabujianzhe,haiyiweiwodouchixiale,yehaiyiweineiyaomeishenmeyongni。

woxiao,jiushibuxianghaolaizhe,niqiao,wozheibinga,youdanglehaojimendeqiuqinzhishi。

yaoshitahuilaile,yidingyoushuowobuzhenxizijideshenzile。

kusezhexin,zuijinderizitebiedenanai,fenfenmiaomiaoyeruyigeshijibannannai。

zheleyigencao,zhijianbonongzheyanshizijidefanzao,yuejinmeijuange,xinyueshitiaodelihai,lian,nihaihaoma?

wocongbuxiang,duitadesinianjingshizheiyangdezhenqie,ruchaoyongyibanshengshengbuxi,sihuzhijianzhangerbujiantui。

huoxu,zheishiaiba,wobudong,moshengdeganjuequerangwogengjiazhizhe。

“yunqierlaile,kuaijin。”shijiufurendezhaohusheng。

“rangfurendengjileba,tuoleyitian,shizaishishenzibuzhengqi。”wowenlewenjichuandehuxi,xiangjiufurenpeizheli。

“buaishi,wojiarenmingtiancailaini,jinergejiuhuahaole,haizaoleyitianni。”

“xianhualejuedebuhao,jiumeinajijiufuren,zuoeryouhaohaodeshangleyifanyanse,jiufurenqiaoqiaokan,kexingbuxing。”woqianxudedishanghua,xinxiazhixiangrangjiufurenxihuan。

qingcongdeshizhizhankailehua,yifumeirentuzhanxianzaizhongrenmianqian,yiyishenghui,kanzhedajiadefanying,woyizhidaolejieguo。

“yunqierdeshoukezhenshiqiaoduotiangong,qiaobawohuadetianxianyiyangderenwu,wokemeiyouhuashangneimemeia。”yiliandexinxi,wokanzaiyanzhong,xinyileran,zheihua,jiufurenhenxihuan。