ruyuqian，qiyaodezhangfabeiyidaojianxia，bianchengleqierduanfa，shenshangdeyifuhuanxia，bianchengletongyideqiufu，dangliaokaodaishangdeneiyike，wocaimingbai，woderensheng……zhendewanle……buguanniyiqianduoguangxianliangli，daolezheili，zhishengxiayichuanbianhao。
bianhao1203jiuchenglewodedaihao。
“1203，yihounijiuzhuzaizheigefangjian。”
wobeirentuijinleyijiansushe，wosaoshileyixiazheigefangjian，jipingmidefangjiannei，fangzhesigeshangxiapu。
xiangjilejiushiniandaidegaozhongsushe。
“慕知安？”
huranyourenzhangkouchaowowen。
woxiayishidediandiantou，wogangyousuohuiying，zheiqunrenbianchaozhewoweileguolai。
“给我打……”
renqunzhongyourenxialemingling，jiezhedoudadequantoujiuchaowoputiangaididedalai。
wolianmangzhuanshen，duizhedamendashenghan：“jiuming……darenle……”
shuangquannandisishou，wojuansuozheshenzi，dunzaidishangshuangshoubaotou，weiyouzibao。
rizizaijiannan，woyexianghuoxiaqu。
zhenxiangzonghuiyoujiekaideneiyitian。
yezhangyi，baoqianle！jiusuanshirenshengkunku，meiyibudousitazaijingjizhishang，woyexiangzouchuyitiaoxuelulai。
我要活着——
yitian……liangtian……santian……sitian……
woyaohuoxiaqufanan，huoxiaqu，rangmuqingxuesuozuosuoweigongrantianxia。
ruguomeilezheiguxinnian，wopawohuichengbuxiaqu。
diqitian，wodeshenzizhongyujianchibuxiaqule，zhangjiudejiegenaidarangwozhongyutilibuzhiyundaoleguoqu。
neiyike，wojingguiyidejuedezijidedaolejietuo。
………………
bijianchongmanlexiaodushuideweidao，zheishizainali？haimeidengworenqingchuqingkuang，biantingdaoyidaoshuxideshengyinchuanlai。
neishengyindaizheyinzangbuzhudebaonveqixi，yuqiyinzhiweixian：“zaijianchayibian。”
womimihuhudezhengkaiyan，biankandaoyezhangyiyilianbaonudedingzheyimingshenchuanbaipaodeyisheng。
neiyishengzaiyezhangyidebipoxia，duanduanxuxudekaikoushuo：“mei……meicuo，jianchalesanbianle，taqueshishihuaiyunle，haizidayueliangzhouzuoyou。”
怀孕……
wohuaiyunlema？gangqingxingguolaidedanaojiuxiangshiluxiangdaikaqiaoleyiyang，bantiandouhaihuibuguoshenlai。
“liule，jiushuotadeshentibushihehuaiyun……”
wotingdaoyezhangyiyadishengyinduizheyishengshuochuzheijuhua。
wodunshishoujiaobingliangqilai，xinyegenzheyixiazitileqilai，yezhangyijingranxiangjinyiqiebanfazhiwoyusidi。
kexianzaiwoyidiandoubuganbiaoxianchulai，shenzhibuganrangtafaxianwoyijingxinglai。
“ketaxianzaiyanzhongpinxue，yaoshiliuchandehua，shentihuiluoxiabinggen，shenzhihaikenengfashengweixian。”yishengyuqiyouyudaizheburen。
tingdaoyishengdehua，yezhangyichixiaoyisheng：“yimingsixingfan，yaoneimejiankangdeshentiyoushenmeyong？”