第1章
1972niandong，shilianghecunbaimangmangyipian，
【wuwuwuhaoleng......baobaokuaibeidahuaidandongsile......】
suniannanchanhoulijiehunshui，
yishifuchenjian，duanduanxuxudeyingerkusushengzaierpanxiangqi，tingderenxinjiuchengyituan，
fujinchuletajia，bingwuqitaxinshenger，zenmehuiyouhaitongkususheng？
sunianxiangzhe，xindituranshengqiyidaohuangmiuniantou，
zheishengyin......nanbuchengshitanverde？
女儿快被冻死了？
xinmengdiyizhan，tamengranjingxing，moxiangshenceqiangbao，quemolegekong，
“chenyaozu，nverni？”
“陈耀祖？”
sunianyilianjiaolejisheng，meidenglaizhangfuchenyaozuhuiying，quezaicitingdaolehaitongdeshengyin，
【yi？mamaxingle？xiaoshushubushishuomamahuihunmidaotianheima？】
【buguanla，mamaxinglaishizaishitaihaole，baobaobuyongdefeiyan，mamazangqilaidexiaojinyuyebuhuibeidahuaidanpianzoula！】
haitongsuisuiniandehuaruyidaojingleizaisuniannaohaizhongzhaxiang，
sunianxiankaimenliandedongzuodunzhu，houjiliangchuyouguciguhanyizhouranshengqi，dongdetahunshendouzhan，
lingtadanhandebushigangchushengdenvernengfachushengyin，ershinverhuazhongyunzangdejujudaxinxi，
ruguotameitiqianxinglai，chenyaozuhuibatamendenverhuidongchengfeiyan，yiciweijiekousuoyaotacongjialitoudaichulaidejintiao？
lengshenshunjian，yidurenqiangdangzaimianqian，
chenyaozuchenguaidesangyinzaitoudingxiangqi，
“jieshengposhuonanchanhoubunengxiachuang，zenmejiubutinghua，luoxiayuezibingzenmeban？””
sunianshixiandiyishijianbeichenyaozuhuaizhonglvexianlingluandeqiangbaolvequ，chenzhelianshenshou，
“把女儿给我！”
“zenmeturanshengqile？”
chenyaozuceshenjiangbaozheqiangbaodeshouwangpangbianduoleduo，bankaiwanxiaodao，“sutongzhi，nixianzaiderenwushiyanghaoshenti，haiziwoheniangdaijiucheng。”
sunianbeijujuedeshuangshoujiangzaibankong，shenshimuguangshangyiluozaichenyaozulianshang，
nanrenshenglezhangguozilian，danongmei，zuijiaoqiadaohaochudeguanqiexiaorong，kanqilaikuanhoulaoshi，
kesheiyounengliaodao，zheifurenrenchengzandezhengzhipinangxiaquezangleyikelangxin，
keyiyingzaodewenroutianmixiazangzhezhimingpishuang。
sunianshangqianyibujiangqiangbaoqianghuihuaizhong，kandaonverbeidongdefanqingdexiaolianhou，nverbeishangdenuhebeisuanjidehentongshiyongshangxintou，tataishouyibazhanghenhenshuaizaichenyaozulianshang，
“hudubushizi，banverdongchengzheiyang，chenyaozunihaishibushiren！”
“啪！”
【dadehao，dademiao，dadedahuaidanwawajiao！】
nverdehuanhushengzhong，sunianshuaileshuaifamadeshou，sanbubingzuoliangbupashanghuokang，jianghunshenbingliangdenverbaotiezaishenshangqunuan，
ruguotazaodianxinglaijiuhaole，
zaodianxinglainveryebuhuishouzheizhongzui，
xinyixiaxiajiuzheteng，sunianbishangyan，liangxinghuihendeleiconglianjiawushenghualuo，
“zaozhidaonishizheizhongren，dangchuwojiubugaigennijiehun！”
tahechenyaozudehunyinbenjiushiyichangjieyichangderenhuozaochengde，
shidaidouzaizhibingjiurendejiazu，quezaidongdangshibeiyouxinrenkoushangmaozi，beichaojia，beipidou，beisongqulaogai，
beixiafangdaoshilianghecunqian，tashisujiapengzaishouxindexiao**，renrenxianmukuazan，
xiafanghou，tachenglesheyuantuoqideheiwuleizinv，renrenbizhibuji。
xinghaotahuizhiliaodiedasunshanghexunchangxiaobingxiaotongdeng，zaishengchanduimoudao‘chijiaoyisheng’degongzuo，
jiugeyueqian，tashanghoushantishengchanduiduiyuancaicaoyaozhibing，huichengshibeiliumangbangjinshandongguanyaoyuxingbugui，haozaitakongjianzanglefangshendaoju，cishangliumanghoucongshanshangtaotuo，
yaoxingmenglie，tajianchidaoshanjiaowopenghoushiquyishi，xinglaishi，shentirutongbeikachenianguoyiban，tuixinzhangtong，erchenyaozuzhengzhanzaichuangbian，kouzhesankaideyikou，manlianzizekuijiudiyaoduitafuze。
tajujuechenyaozudetiyi，bingyuedingdangzuoshenmedoumeifasheng，
kelingtameixiangdaodeshijishichiyaohaihuihuaiyun，gengmeixiangdaohuaiyundeshibeibuduifudezhiqingfaxian，xiexinjubaotaluangaonannvguanxi，
tabeiguanqilaizhunbeipidoushi，
chenyaozujiangzerenlandaozijishenshang，youqingdaduizhishushuoqin。
tajixiachenyaozudeqing，yuchenyaozuyuedinghunhoumanmanpeiyangganqing，
jiehunhou，chenyaozuxinshouchengnuo，zunzhongta，weihuta，chuchutitie，
taxinzhonggandong，sixiatiebuchenyaozuqianhepiao，chuqianbangchenjiatianzhiyiwuyongjudeng，
meixiangdaorenxinbuzushetunxiang，
tadedafangqueyangdalechenjiarendeweikou，weilecongtashouzhongnadaogengduodeqian，jingedudaonatanverdemingweixieta！
“苏念，你！”
poxiejingranganduitadongshou！
chenyaozubukezhixindiwuzhelian，lianseyinchennengjichumolai，
haoyanhaoyuhongtajigeyue，haizhendangjitalianle！
zhengyaofazuo，sunianmeiyouganqingqifudehuaquexiangdongridebingshuiyingtoujiaoxia，rangtashunjianqingxing，
“jirannimenzhongnanqingnv，kanbushangwomenmunv，zheirizizanmenyebieguole，chuyuezihouwojiudainverlikai。”
“不行！”
chenyaozumiansezhouranniuqu，
haimeinadaosunianshouzhongdeqianhejintiao，zenmenengfangsunianzou！
yebuzhidaojiannvrenzenmezangdedongxi，soubianletadailaidedongxiyemeizhaodao！
贪欲战胜自尊，
“xiaosunitingwojieshi，”
chenyaozufangxiashenduancouguoqu，wenshenghongdao，“tayizhiku，wopadaraonixiuxi，zhinengbaodaoxiwuqu，gujishihuilaishibeilengfengguanleyixia。”
pasunianbuxin，tayoushuqishouzhifashi，“wofashi，woshuodedoushizhende！”
“niqianxinwankutiwoshengdenver，wodangbaobeitenghailaibuji，youzenmeshedetashouyidianzui？”
【pei！dahuaidancaibushibaobaodebaba！baobaodebabakeshihuibiubiubiudedayingxiong！】
sunianbeiwanzhong，yingerdanfensexiaozuibielebie，rouhuhudexiaoshoujinwochengquan，chaochenyaozufangxiangyonglihuiwu，
【dahuaidanhuaihuai，huaqianzhaorenzhuangliumangqifumama，haichenbabayoujishilikaishiqianggonglaopianmama！】
yuanlaizheicaishidangchudezhenxiangma？
chenyaozuzidaoziyanleyichuyingxiongjiumeidexima，quemeisuanjidaotazhashang‘liumang’，taodaoshanxiawopengyudaoleqitaren。
keweishenmetaxinglaishi，shenbianrenshichenyaozu？
bangtajieyaodeneigerenqunaerle？
sunianxinshenjuzhan，baozhenverdeshouezhibuzhudefadou，
liumangshijiade，jieyaoshijiade，enqingyeshijiade！
jiangtazhuaichuxuanwodeenren，jingshituitaxiashuidexiongshou！
dangchutazhidangzijijingchangshangshanbeiyouxinrendingshang，chenyaozuqiahaojingguo，beitatuozhefanxiacuoshi，
细细回想，
eryueshi，shengchanduizuzhiquansheyuanzaicundongtouxiujianshuiqu，chenyaozuzenmehuineimeqiaohedichuxianzaihoushanshanjiaodewopeng？
zhiyubaobaodeqinshengfuqin......
baobaoshuoqinshengfuqinhuidaqiang，neiyidingshijunren，
shilianghecuncanjundeqingnianbushao，eryuefenhuicuntanqindezhiyoudaduizhishudexiaoerzichenzhiyuanyiren，qiehuicunbujiujiubeijizhaoguidui，
daduizhishujirandayingtichenyaozushuoqin，shuomingchenzhiyuanmeiyouxiangjialirentiguoneitiandeshi，
yebuzhishibuxianggentazheizhong‘heiwuleizinv’cheshangguanxi，haishimeilaidejigenjiarenshuo，caishidechenyaozudedingtihaowupozhan。
“xiaosu，wozhidaocuole，bieshengqile，kanzaiwoshixintengnidefenshang，nijiuyuanliangwoyihuiba。”
chenyaozutingbujiannverdeshengyin，buzhidaosunianyijingcongnverkouzhongdezhiledangchuzhenxiang，jiantabuzuosheng，zhudongbaliancoudaotamianqian，jiaxingxingdizhuangchuyifukangkaijiuyidemoyang，
“ruguodawohuirangnixinqinghaoyidian，jinida！”
“zhiyaonengrangnikaixin，rangwobaxinwachulaidouyuanyi！”