第1章
1978年。
北平，夜。
zhoujiadexiaoerlouzhangdengjiecai......
mihujian，songanningerpanchuanlainanrendichendechuanxisheng。
是梦？
zaihuanhuanzhengkaiyanhou，jiezhechuangliantouchulaideyueguangsonganningkanjianyigenanrenlianyijingmaijinzijidebojing。
dangnanrenqishentuoqushangshenbeixinshi，songanningzongsuankanqingduifangdemoyang，boxuededuanfa，nongmeidayan，neimianrongrudaoxuefukebanshifenliti，gaozhuangdeshencai，sanfazhemanmandeheermengqixi。
好帅......
buguodengsonganningcong‘meise’zhonghuiguoshen，tabennengdigongqituiyonglididingleguoqu。
songanningzhisuoyirucifanyingzheimejulie。
zhiyinyanqiandenanrenshitaneizaonianjiuxishengdexiaoshuzijihuai。
“嘶~”
nanrendaoxiyikouliangqi，zhenggerengongqidetongshidaoxiangyipang。
chenzhenanrencongshenshangxiaqu，songanninglianmangtaishoumosuozhe，henkuai，chupengdaokaiguan，dengguangshunjianzhaolianglezheigefangjian。
ruyandexianshimanmandehongse，baiqiangshang，menchuangjiandoutiezhehongsexizi，shimudazaodedayiju，wudouchuchuchudoutouluzheniandaigan。
buyuanchudezhuoshanghaifangzhededazaohuashengwuyibuzaisushuozhe：jinriyouxi。
tongyangdefangjian，tongyangdebuzhi，renquebutong？
songanningnaoziluanle，taweishenmehuihejihuaijiehun？hetajiehundebuyinggaishitajiejiema？
dinghunqianyigeyue，zhoubingchuankaodaxueyouyiciluobang，jiejiesongyulanbianchaozheyaohuanqin，yaojiajiyijingshiyingzhangdedidijihuai。
hunyuemeidingxialai，songyulanbuyuan，zhoubingchuanbenjiushiyi，naliyouxinsiquxiangbiede，bianhesonganningdinglehun。
songyulanshiruyuanjiajilejihuai，zhishijihuaizaijinianhoudechurenwushixishengle。
geniansongyulanzaihunlegeyouqiandenanren，yiweizheiyangjiukeyihesonganningyiyangguohaorizile，zhikexiduifangqueshigejiabaonan，songyulanshenshangdeshangjiumeiyoutingguo，zhidaoyicibeidajinyiyuan，songanningqukanta，buxiangquebeihongleyandesongyulanyidaotongjinxinkou。
xiangdaozhei，songanninghuanhuanshenxilekouqi，tasihuzhongshengle。
ersongyulanmeiyouchaozheyaohuanqin，zhinengshuomingyijianshi......tayezhongshengle！
songanningyishijianbuzhidaozenmehezheiweixiaoshuzijieshi，yuguangluozaijihuaishenshangshi，neiwanmeideshangshen，manmandequanshiheermengdeqixi，tahongzhelianjiangtoupiedaoyipang，zheishencai......bunengduokan。
kezheipietoudedongzuoluozaijihuaideyanzhong，manmandedoushixiurugan，burangtapengjiusuanle，xianzaishenzhiliankandoubuxiangkanta。
“nizheimekanbushangwo，weishenmejiehunqianbushuo！”
jihuaiyuqifenfen，diuxiayijuhuahou，kuaisuchuanhaobeixintaoshangsigekoudaidejunzhuang，meiyoutingliubiankaimenchuqu。
songanningbenzhunbeihetahaohaoliaoyixia，meixiangdaozheinanrenhuizhijiechumen，zheipiqiguoranhaishineigejihuai。
jihuailikai，songanningbingmeiyoulikaizhuishangqu，ershiqishenxialechuang，zoudaojingzipang，tawangzhejingzizhongshijiusuideziji，kuxiaodetongshizuilirenbuzhumaleyiju，“zhenshizaoxinshiqing。”
haozaijianaoderizibuyongzhonglaile。
songyulanyiweijiajizhoubingchuanjiuhuiyouhaoriziguoma？
shishishang，shangyishizhoubingchuangaokaolianxuluobang，xingqingdabian，yaoshenyibianbianchengwanku，zhengtianduisonganninglengyanxiangxiang。
zailengbaolixia，songanninghaiyaochulipoxiguanxi，keyishuoshixinlijiaocui。
haozaitianbufuyouxinren，zaisonganningdenulixia，zhoubingchuanlangzihuitou，zhongxinnaqishuben，houlaiduisonganningyetengaiyoujia，benyiweihuishikujinganlai，queyouyinweihaizideshiqingrangtazaiyicirenqinglezheiyijiaren。
jihuaixisheng，yanxuxuemaideshiqingquandouluozaisonganningtoushang。
keshiduonianxialailiangrenyizhimeiyouhaizi，quyiyuanjianchaxialaigaosutashitadewenti，zhidaoouerdeyici，tazijiquyiyuanjiancha，caizhidaotashiyiyuntizhi，buyunbuyudeshizhoubingchuan。
songanningxiaoxiao，zijihaizhenshi‘jian’，fuchuneimeduo，neimexiangxinta，kedaotoulaihaishibeipianle！
yiqiezainaozhongshanguohou，songanningsixuhuiguixianshi，xiangjiaozhixiajihuaibuzhidaoyaobizhoubingchuanhaoduoshao。
ershisansuidenianjijiuyijingshiyingzhang，xinggewenzhong。
xiangdaozhei，songanningjuedingxianhejihuaijieshiqingchuzaishuo，tazhenglihaoyifu，zhunbeiqianwangbuduidayuan。
buguokaimenyishun，yingmianzhuangjianyigeren。
neirenyizhangmingyandexiaolian，pifubaixi，zhangfaguanghuaroushundidazaijiantou，shenshangchuanzheyitiaodanhuangsesuihuabulaji，yingyingyiwodexiyao，zhishineiyishuangweiweidiaoqideyanshaokansirouruo，quewuduanjirenyizhongjianlikebodeganjue。
“meimeizheidaxiderizishiyaoqunalia？”
songyulanzuijiaogouzhexiao，zaozaiqianjiritaxianyibujiajinlezhoujia。
zaikandaozheizhanglian，songanningsixuwanqian，buzhidaogaihenni，haishigaixie......
“我去部队大院。”
songyulandangranzhidaotaqubuduidayuanzhaojihuai。
liangrenruledongfangzhihou，songyulanjiudingzhezheigewuzi，guoranyedengdaolehaoxi，tajidehenqingchu，shangyishijihuaijiumeiyoupengta，zijiyigerenhuilebuduidayuan。
gangcaikandaojihuaiheizhelianpaochuqu，songyulangengjiaquexin，yiqiedouhaishianzhaoshangyishidejuqingzaizou，neixuanzhedexinyechedifangxia。
xiangdaozijizheibeizinengguoshangsonganningshangbeizidehaorizi，ersonganninghuibianchengziji，songyulanxinzhongbietiduokaixin。
“zheidaxiderizi，jihuaiyezhenshi，zenmenengbameimeidiuxia，yigerenpaoqubuduidayuanni，yaoshichuanchuqu，xinhunyexinlangguanpaole，duonanting。”
“meimei，jiejiebinixianjiajinlaijitian，zhoujiahejijiashidaidanchuan，haoburongyidaomazheishengleliangge，weiyidejiujiushengyoushinver，cairangmeifuxingdeji，jijiakedouzhiwangzhemeimeishenggeerziyanxujijiani。”
“kexianzaimeifuxinhunyedoubuzaijiazhu，nalilaidehaizi，yaoshiyizhimeiyougehaizi，daoshihoumaneikendinghuiduimeimeiyouyijiande，nizaizheijiajiutaibuqitoulaile，suoyimeimei，nikeyaozhuadianjin。”
songyulanzheiyijujudehaoxiangdoushizaiweisonganningkaolv，kezheiyuqiqueshidaizhemanmandeanfeng，anfengshangbeizisonganningshengbuchuhaizideshiqing。
buguotashuodehuayebuwudaoli。
guanyuzhoujiajijiashidaidanchuansonganningzaiqingchubuguole，shangyishi，tazaizhoujiakemeishaoshouguolengyanlengyu。
songanninggangcaiyouneimeyishunxiangdaoguolihun，zhishijunhunxiangli，hennan，jiashangsongjiahezhoujiayebuhuitongyi。
quanhengxialai，yaozaizhoujianengzhanwenjiaogen，jijihuaishenggehaizishizuihaodebanfa，meiyouzhiyi。
jiusuandaoshihoujihuaizhenxishengle，tayoulehaizi，songyulanyouzaiduoderuyisuanpan，neiyeshidabuxiangde。
感情？
songanningbuzaihuyoumeiyou，denghoumiantakeyikaogedaxue，zouzijidelu，buyongzaiweilesheiweiquziji！
wentishijihuaizheipiyema，tagaizenmexunfuni？