第1章

shangbeizi,songyueyanweiaigandanghouma。

kedangneigepaofuqinvdenvrenyihuilai,tayangdadenverbiangaikoujiaotagugu。

tadetuanzhangzhangfuyulinzhougengshimanxinmanyanzhiyouqianqi。

talunweisuoyourendexiaobing,guduzhonglao。

zaicizhengkaiyan,tahuidaoleyulinzhoudeqianqihuilaineitian……

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’1978nian,beijing。

songyueyanzhongshengdediyijianshi,jiushiduziquleyiyuan,quzouleshentilijiezhadehuan。

zheiguochenghenteng,bidangchushanghuanshihaiyaoteng。

ketayaojinlechun,hongleyan,queyingshengshengqiangchengzhemeiyouluoxiayidiyanlei。

shangbeizi,tajiajiyulinzhoudeshihou,yulinzhouduitashuo。

“wozheibeizi,zhihuiyouguoguoyigehaizi,wobuxiangrangtashouweiqu。”

tadeqianqijianglishuyinshoubuletachangniandaizaibudui,jushaoliduo,rengxianianjinliangsuideyuguoguopaole。

songyueyantingwanweibiaojuexin,biandaoyiyuanzuolejiezhashoushu。

tashuo:“woyidinghuibaguoguodangzijideqinshengnverduidai。”

jieguotajiangzijisuoyoudeqingchundoujilezheiliangfunv,yishengmeiyouzijidehaizi,zuihouqueluogeguduzhonglaodexiachang。

congyiyuanchulai,songyueyantengdezouludejiaodouyouxieliangqiang。

ketameiyoutingliu,nazhedahaodelihunbaogaoqulejunqu。

laidaoyulinzhoudebangongshimenkou,haimeijinqujiutingjianyulinzhoudexiashuwenta。

“tuanzhang,saozihuilaile,neinihuihesongyueyanlihunma?”

songyueyanjiaobuyidun,jiutingjianyulinzhoudeshengyinchuanlai:“weishenmeyaolihun?woxuyaoyigerenzhaoguguoguo。”

“lishudexinggetaiziyoule,wobuxiangshufuta,jiurangtaquzuozijixiangzuodeshiba!”

songyueyanjiangzaimenwai,xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdashousilie。

suoyi,tajiuhuogaichengweijiatingzhufubeikunyibeizima?

mingmingzaijiajiyulinzhouzhiqian,tayeshidaxuelizuishoulaoshimenqidaidexuesheng。

yaobushiyulinzhoudemamawulizhaoguyuguoguo,qiudaoletazheili,tayuanbengaiyouzijicuicanderensheng。

zaitahenxiaodeshihou,tadebabajiuzaiyicirenwuzhongxishengle,mamabenjiushentibuhao,tingdaozheigexiaoxizhihou,shengleyichangdabing,yequshile。

yufushitababadezhanyou,zaitafumudouzoulehou,yufuyumuzheixienianyizhiduitaduoyouzhaofu。

tahuidayingyumuheyulinzhoujiehun,yishibaodaenqing,eryeshiyinweitadequekelianguoguoshiqumuqin。

keshimeirenxiangxin,suoyourendoushuotashiweileyujiadeqiancai,caibuyaolianshangganzhedanghouma。

songyueyanjiangshouzhongdelihunbaogaozuanchengyituan,zuizhongmeiyouhaishimeiyoujinqu。

yulinzhoudehuayijingshuodehenqingchule,tabuhuiqingyigentalihun。

tadexianglingwaidefazilikaizheili。

songyueyanhuidaojiashuyuanshi,yuguoguoyijingfangxuehuilai。

kanjianta,yuguoguomeiyouchenghu,ershizhijieshuo:“woele,qujiwozuofan。”

neiminglingyibandeyuqi,fangfotazhishizheigejialidebaomu。

kemingmingzaijianglishuhuilaizhiqian,yuguoguoyehuitiantianjiaota‘mama’de。

xintoutongyirengweitunqu,songyueyanchelechezuijiao:“hao。”

laidaochufang,songyueyandakaishuilongtou,huahuadeshuishengrangtachuleshen。

qishishuoshibaoen,youzenmehuimeiyouyidianaini?

bijingcongmengdongshiqidaoqingdouchukai,yulinzhouyizhixianggelinjiagegeyiyangzhaogutabaohuta。

suoyishangbeizi,napamianduimantianliuyanfeiyu,tayejianchilexialai。

tayexiangxiangdangchuyulinzhoushouhutayiyang,huzhetadenver。

ketamen,congtoudaoweiquezhijiangtadangzuoyigegongjuzailiyong。

songyueyanjiangfanduanshangzhuoshi,yulinzhouqiahaoyejinmen。

fanzhuoshang,takanzhechidezhengxiangdefunv,qingshengkaikou:“mingtianzaoshangwoquyanjiusuobandianshi,bunengdaizheguoguo……”

yulinzhouyidun:“mingtianwoxiujia,zhenghaoyaodaiguoguochuqu。”

tahuayinluoxia,yuguoguogaoxingdichazui:“babashiyaodaiwoquzhaomamama?”

yulinzhoukanleyansongyueyan,meiyoushuohua。

songyueyanxiaolexiao,chuimouyanxiaweihongyankuang:“hao。”

yiri,yanjiusuobangongshinei。

“songyueyantongzhi,zhiqianshuolehaojicirangniquzhangshagongxueyuancanyujisuanjiyanzhi,nidoushuoyaozhaogujiali,zenmeturanxiangtongle?”

zheishibaomixiangmu,yiqujiushijinianbunenggenjialilianxi。

songyueyankanzhedeshenqingbiao,xinxiang,zaiduodeenqing,shangbeiziyeyijinghaiwan,zheibeizitagaiweizijierhuole。

taminleminchun,xiaodao:“zhuren,zhiqianshiwotaixiaaile,zuguobuhao,womendexiaojiayounalinenghao。”

tashuowan,guoduandiqianxialezijidemingzi。

——宋月言。