误以深情只予我
wuzhongyipianxiqingdehongse,mingrijiushiwojiayutaizichengweiliangdidehaorizi。
neigeduiwoshuo『jianglainiyaoshiganjiajibieren,wojiulaiqiangqin』deren,pufuzaiyuanjiao,beihuangshideweiyanzhenshebugantaitou。
woshenchuanhuangjiadingzhideliangdifushi,huameizungui,yitaiwanqiandecongtadeshencezouguo,hongseshuangyuandegaitouxia,zhiqiaojian,tadeshouzhiweiweizhandong,xieluleyichixinshi。
wofuzhexipodeshou,suizhehuajiaoyiluchuida,jinletaizidefudi。
一
jintianshiwodedongfanghuazhuye,woduanzuozaichuangyan,tantedidengdaizhetaizidedaolai。
zicongyigeyueqianjiedaogongzhongzhiyi,fengwoweitaiziliangdi,yecengzaizumuxiqiankukuaiqiu,ertasuitengaiwowanfenqueyewukenaihe,laoleizonghengdishuo:
『shuer,ruonibuqu,nidiebianhuibulaiya!』
woxinsuibunengziyi,fuqinshouwozhongbing,huangdikongtaqibingzaofan,weirangtayixinxiaolihuangjia,biancihunwoyutaizi。shuoshilianyin,shizewoweizhizi。
woshangxinyujuelaidaomajiu,pujinqiandehuaili。
『zenmeban,angege,wobuyaojiajitaizia!woxihuandeneigerenshini,weishenme?weishenmemingyunyaozhuonongwo。』
qianjinjinbaozhewo,『shuer,bieku』tafuquwolianshangdeleizhu。
『zhiguaiwoshiwei,ruonengxianghuguogongyiyangshouwobingquan,huoxujiunengyutaizikanghengle。』
『angege,womengaizenmeban?woyaozenmeban』
『biepa,shuer,dengwo,daiwoxundejihui,daoshihouwomenyuanzougaofei,quyigesheiyeburenshidedifang,kehao?』
qiandeanwei,lingwoxinjingpingfubushao,woyutayiyixibie,meirizaiwuzhongxuexifanzadeliyi,zhidaowochujia。
qindianneihenanjing,gaitouxianengkanjianzhouzaobuzhishifenhualixiqing。
zhouzaoyahuanxingzoujianxixisusu,sheiyebugangaoshengyanyu。
zhidaoerbianchuanlaiyahuanzhilandeshengyin:“taizianhao”,zhilanfulefushentuiqudianwai。
wojinjinzhuaizhezijideyijiao,tingzheneigeliwoyuelaiyuejindejiaobusheng,renbuzhuxintouyizhenhuangluan。
yishuangxinghuangseruishouwengongxuechuxianzaiwodeshixianzhong,qingqingtiaoqugaitou,wotaiyankanta,zhijiantaiziyixihongpao,shaoguangliuzhuan,chuchenyilangdejunyanguangcaihuanfa。
duishangwojingkongbuandeyanshen,tadezuijiaogouqiyisiwenhedexiaoyi。
wobuganzaikan,dixiatouqu,taizizhiyiweiwoshihaixiu。
tazuozaiwoshence,wuzhonglongfengzhuxiaranshaodejianying,yizhanyizhan,taweiweiceguoshenzi,zhaixiawodetouguanhefashi,wenroudebuxiangweiyandedonggongdianxia,erwo,neixinquehuangluanbuyi。
tayongzhewotangxia,fuzaiwoshenshang。wenredechun,xixiwenzaiwodelianshang,jingjian,rangwoxiangqiqiandelian,wobishangyan,murandijieshouzheiyiqie。
yesejiannong,erpandehuxishengweizhong,tadeshenziyichen,gongchenglvedi。
shenshangderenhurandunzhu,wozhengkaishuangyan,kanzhetaiziqishenyibaxiankaijinbei,jianhongsedechuangdianshangmeiyourenhehenji。
zhijiantaizinongqingjianjiansanqu,yizhanglianqiheilengku,yanzhongdenuyijianjianshifang,zhidongdewobuduandidahanzhan。
tashuranqishen,pishangwaipao,nuqichongchongshuodao:
『是谁?』
wojianshishibeichuochuan,yebubihui。zhiqiutanengkanzaiwofuqindefenshang,buquzhuijiu。
woqishen,guizaitaqianbingliangdedishang,didikaikoudao:
『殿下,对不起』
tachongguolaiqiazhewodebojing,yishuangyanxionghenderutongyeshou,yuzhiqiandewenrunruyupanruoliangren:
『bengongshiwenni,neigerenshishei?』
我心一横道:
『shidaorujin,wozhiqiuyisi,shishei,zhongyaoma?』
『meixiangdaohuguogongzhinv,jingrucibushoufudao』
tayongzheimezhuoliedecihuilaixiuruwo,keshiwodeneixin,jingranyidianyebunanguo。
kanzhemianqianbaotiaoruleidetaizi,wozhixiwang,tadenuhuo,bieqianlianqian。
『bengongbuxin,bengongyitaizizhishen,jingranhaibibuguonineiweixiaoxiaozhibei』
shuowantalouyeshuaimenerqu,menwaiyizhongshinvhuaran。
woxiang,tamenkendingzaiyilun,xinhunzhiyejiubeitaizipaoqi,rihou,zheirizimeiyoupantoule。
wokaozhechuangyan,bishangyan,leicongyanjiaohualuo,yikeyouyike。
wodieshihuguodajiangjunliwei,shouwozhongbing,zhangnianzhuzhazaibianjing,wosuizhezumuzhangzaijingzhong,huangdimeiqimingyue:tiwodiekanhujiajuan,shizebawomendangzuorenzhi。
congxiao,jiazhongguijusenyan,wosuiranshijingzhongcainv,queyechangshoushufubudechumen。weiyidewanbanbianshimajiulide『heifeng』heqian。
qianshiwodiejinshenxiaosi,wobasuishengrideshihou,wodiesonglewoyipiyema,hunshenheisezongmao,weifenglinlin。mingqianqianlitiaotiaosonghuijiwodangliwu。
wojitaqimingjiaoheifeng,yizhijiaoyouqianlaizhaoliao,zici,qianzaiweihuidaowodieshenbian,zhipeizheheifeng,haiyouwo。
meiyouquchudewo,jingchangshangwangezhongzumuanpaidekechenghou,jiuhuilaidaomajiu,peizhemaerfaxieyitiandeqingxu。qianjiuhuijingjingdilizaiwoshenpang。
youyici,yinweiyishixingqi,wobeizheguanjia,qizheheifengduzichumen,laidaojiaowai,yinmashubujia,shuaidaozaiyigexiaoshanpoxia。wobuzhidaojiarenzhaowodouyaozhaofengle,zuihoushiqian,zhaodaolewo:
『daxiaojie,wozhongyuzhaodaonile』tayilianjiaoji,dunxiashenxixinchakanwohongzhongdejiaohuai,zhijianbuxiaoxinfuguowoguangjiedepifu,lingtaergendouhongle。
wotengdeziyaliezui,jianzhuangdiaokanta:
『yexushiwomenxinyoulingxiya!』
shuowan,wokanjiantarouyankejiandelianhongle。
tabawobeizaibeishang,qianzheheifenghuilejia。
yilushang,wofuzaitadejiantou,xixidaliangtadeceyan,xiabaliuchangdexiantiao,jingzhilitidewuguan,jiongjiongyoushendemeiyan,touzheyisidananhaicaiyoudehaixiu。
『qian,wulunwozainali,nidouhuizhaodaowoma?』
qianbuzibuting,kengqiangyoulideshengyin:
『hui,qianhuiyizhishouhudaxiaojie。』
woxixiaozhetiejintadejibei,qiangyoulidexintiao,luanlewodexin。
zici,wogengjiapinfandilaizhaoqian。
qian,jingchanghuibikaifuzhongzhongren,jiezheliuma,daiwolaidaojiaowai。
womenyiqikanshankanshuikanfanxing,changxiangzheweilai,woyiweiwomennengyizhizouxiaqu,zhidaoyidaoshengzhi,jiangwodemeng,dasui。
二
taiziyuwoxinhunyeliliqu,jiridoubucenglumian,fuzhongzhongrenyiweiwojiucishichong,yebuyuwolaiwang,daoluodegeqingjing。
wojintaizifudediqiri,woquzhengyuanqiuletaizifeideendian,mingyahuanzhilanshoushidongxi,chengzuomacheduzihuilehuguogongfu。
zumumozhewodeshou,shuo:
『yatou,taiziduinihaoma?』
wochuixiayanlian,diandiantou,buyuanyiduotan。
zumubumingsuoyi,zhixintengdifuzhewodehoubei,yixiayixia:
『jialeren,zumubuzaishenbian,yiqiedouyaokaoziji,zhaoguhaoziji,』
wohuidaozijishuxidewoshi,piejianjiaoluolizhanzheyigewochaosimuxiangderen,lingwoxunsujiangzhongrenpingtui,jiayixiuxi,binglelingbuxurenherendarao。
huishen,wotiqiqunbaibenpaoxiangta,yitouzhajintadehuaili。
『qian,nilaile,nizhongyulaile,woyiweicishengxushiwuyuanzaijiannile。』
woleiliumanmianditaitou,qingqingfuguotadelian,mosuozhetademeiyan,zixidaliangzhemianqiandexinxinniannianderen,xiangyaobatakehuajinxinli。
qianwenlewenwodeetou,youwenquwolianshangdeleidi。
『daxiaojie,woyaozoule』
『zou?niyaoqunali?』
taqingqingjiangwolingluandefasiwandaoerhou,muguangwenroudikanzhewo:
『qucongjun,jiangjunlaixin,wozhiyoujiangongliye,cainengbaohuwoxiangbaohuderen』
『yihouwobuzai,niyaozhaoguhaoziji』
我闻言,泣不成声。
『bu,qian,biediuxiawo,meiyouni,woyitiandouhuobuxiaqu』
『bieku,niyiku,wodexindouyaosuile』
tayikeyikewenquwodeleizhu,shiruzhenbao。
『daiwobodejungong,jiuhuilai,dainizou……』
wobuduandiyaotou,keshiwozuzhibule,yiruwozuzhibulezijijiajitaiziyiyang。
wodianqijiao,wenxiangta,huoredechunshehezhexianxiandeleishui,zhiyouzheiyang,wocainengzhenqiediganshouzijihuozhe。
wobaozheqiandelian,yanzhonghanleidao:『qian,niyidingyaohuozhehuilai,yidingyao。wohuidengni,yizhidengni……』
『daxiaojie,qianyidingbuhuigufuni。』
taxixisuisuidiwenxiangwo,rushizhenbao。
menwaidejiaobushengjianjiancaoza,yourenlaile。
woxiangtuizheqianyaotasusutiaochuangliqu。
kexiyijinglaibuji,haiweinuodongbanfen,taizijiujinmenlai,jiandaodeshiheqianxiangyongzaiyiqi,manmianleihendewo。
wohaipadehunshenfadou,duozaiqiandehuaili,taiyanbiankanjiantaizimuguangchenchenzhanzaibuyuanchu。
zhijiantaiziyayizhenuhuo,mouselingli,siwanqianlijianchaowoheqianshelai。
『haoyiduibuzhixiuchide,bengongbuzhi,zheiguogongfu,jingshizangwunagouzhidi。』
talenglengdeshengyin,rangrenruzhuibingku。
wojiantaolibude,zhidezhishenshangqiandangzaiqianshenqian。
『dianxia,qiuni,fangguotaba!』
『fangguo?nishiwodenvren,nijingranqiuwofangguota?』
『来人,给我拿下』
shuowan,yizhongshiweishangqian,jiangqianandaozaidi,fanshoukunbang。
wodexinzaidixue,guidaozaidi,xixingxiangqian:
『dianxia,qiancuowancuodouzaiwo,qiuni,raoguotaba!』wodetoukezaidishang,fachupengpengxiangsheng,buyihuier,dishangyinyintouzhexinghong。
qianbeishiweiyazhe,fachuzhandoudenuhousheng:
『bu,yaoshajiushawo,fangguodaxiaojie』
taizizaiyipangnujifanxiaodao:
『haoyichuninongwonongdexia!zhenshijingcai』
shuowanmingrenlunqigunbanghenhenchoudaqian。
qiantongdezhouqimeitou,xianxuecongzuibianliuchulai,chumujingxin。
wodexinfangfobeisiliekaiyiyangteng,xinxiang,rujin,jiushisiyeyaoheqiansizaiyikuaier。
taiziduanzuoyishang,youlengdeshengyinchuanlai:
『bengongyiweishigeshenmelebudederenwuduoqulenilishudehun,yuanlaibuguoshigebeijiandenucai。』
wotaiqitou,jueqiangdishuodao:『qianbushinucai……』
ruhaitongyiban,yidingyaozhenggegaoxia,jibiancike,mingdouyaomeile。
kanzhewodeyanmoutonghong,etoudixue,taiziruguimeideshengyinchuanlai。
『he……ruguowocikejiubatasongjingongni?』
jingong?tashiyaorangqianquzuotaijian,duanletadeqiancheng,womudengkoudai。
mangpazheshangqian,lazhetadeyibai,guizheshuodao:
『dianxia,qiuni,qiuni,fangguowomenba!niyouzhongduonvren,wozhishiweibuzudaodeyige,qiuni……』
『sheishuoniweibuzudaode……』
taizimanmanwanxiashenzi,tiaoqiwodexiaba,yiziyidunshuodao:
『ni,yeshiwokuxinchoumoudelaidea!』
『weishenmenidexin,jiubunengduizhewodakaini?』
tadeshenserenzhen,shiwobucengjianguodemoyang。
『zheigenucai,youshenmenengnaipeideshangni?』
『shuer,nidangzhenbuyuanyijieshouwoma?』
我摇摇头:
『dianxiadaodiyaoruhecainengfangguowomen?』
taizipiaoyiyanpangbianguizhedeqian:
『niruozhenxintongwohuiqu,ziciyihoubuzaijianta,wojiufangguota,ruhe?』
woxinxiahuanxi,zhidangrihouhaiyouzhuanji,mangketouxieen:
『xiexiedianxia,xiexiedianxiadaen』
太子示意身边侍卫:
『jiangcirensongchucheng,bengongzaiyebuxiangkanjiantale』
jiehouqiushengdexiyuemengbilewodeshuangyan,womeiyoukanqingtaizibeiduizhewoshi,yanzhonganzangdeshaji。wojuanliandekanleyiyanqian,lianyijudaobiedoubucengshuoqi,bianbeiyizhongyahuanshinvyongzhehuiletaizifu。
三
zihuifushang,taizibianfenfutaizifei,woshentibaoyang,wanghoudouzailuoyuxuanyangzhe,meiyoutademinglingbuyunxurenherenjinru。
taizimeitiandouhuilaiwodianzhongzuozuo,ouerwoyeweitaqiyihuhaocha,duizheyuanqiangshangtamingrenweiwozaizhongdeqiangwei,xixipinming。
zhishitafangfoyexiexialeqinjinwodexinsi,zidahunneiriliquyihoubianzaiyemeiyoupengguowo。
woxinxiang,taguoranshiduiyuwohunqianshishenerjiehuaide。
wobuhouhuirujindejingyu,zhishinanmianzaiyeshenrenjingshi,xiangqiqian。
zhuanyan,chenghunlianggeyue,zheitian,taizilaidaowodedianzhong,wofushenjitaxinglishi,huranganjueyizhentouyunmuxuan,taizishangqianchanfuzhewo,yanlidedanyouyiyuyanbiao。