姜斌觉得奔溃极了。
qiaomanxuanzelezheiyangyizhongfangfalaijieshushengming，laichengfata。
ruguoqiaomansizaileshoushushi，yusheng，tajiangruheduguo？
是悔恨？
还是绝望？
“nizheige**，xianzaizenmebushuohuale？”qinhaoyuyanshenlengjile，nushengdao，“xiaomantazenmehuiaishangnizheiyangderen？zheiwunian，taguodenandaohaibugoukuma？niyicongguowaihuilai，jiuyaoganjinshajue，bitadiudiaogongzuo，bitazhaobudaogongzuo，tahaoburongyixiadingjuexinlaizhaowo，zaiwozheiligongzuo，niqueyoubangletadeerziweixieta，jiangbin，nishirenma？nidexinshishitouzuodema？”
“niyoushenmezigehewoshuozheixiehua？”
jiangbinyandixinghong，tajinjindingzheqinhaoyu，lianggenanrenzhijianjianbanuzhang。
talengshengzhiwendao，“dangniandaodishisheipohuailewohexiaomanzhijiandeganqing？daodishishei？nizheigebeibi**de**，nihaiyoulianzhizewo？quanshijiedoukeyizhizewo，weidunimeiyouzhizewodezige……”
“hao，jiusuanwomeiyouzigezhizeni，danzheiyebunengchengweinishanghaixiaomandeliyoua？”qinhaoyushengyinlenglie，taduizhekongqihuiquan，shuo，“ruguoxiaomanzhenyoushenmesanzhangliangduan，jiangbin，woyidingbuhuifangguoni……”
“shoushushimenkou，nimennengbunengbuchao？”
youhushiguolaitixingtamen。
jiangbinmashangwenneihushi，“limianderenzenmeyangle？youmeiyoushengmingweixian？”
neihushiyaoyaotou，bingmeiyoujijiangbinmingquedehuida，zhishishuo，“yishengzhengzaishoushu，qingnimennaixindenghou，yishenghuijinquanliqiangjiumeiyigebingrende……”
护士走了。
shijiezhongxinhuifuleanjing。
jiangbinwulidekaozaiqiangshang，liangzhishouniezhetaiyangxuedeweizhi。
他十分后悔。
ruguotabubaqiaomandehaizidaizou，jiubuhuiyouzheiyangdejumian……
都怪他。
这一切都怪他……
qinhaoyuzhanzailingwaiyibian，zheizhongzhuangkuang，tabixujiqiaomandedayidadianhua，bixurangwangmeihuazhidaoqingkuangcaixing。
qinhaoyujiwangmeihuadaledianhua，yemeiganbashiqingshuodetaiyanzhong，zhishirangwangmeihualaiyitangyiyuan。
wangmeihuazhengweiledududeshiqingjidetuantuanzhuanni。
dudushicongxuexiaolibeirenlingzoude。
tajiqiaomandalehaojigedianhuadoumeirenjie。
tingdaoqinhaoyushuoqiaomanjinleyiyuan，wangmeihuajiujifengle，ganjindachelaileyiyuan。
lushangduche，wangmeihuadaoleyiyuandeshihou，qiaomanyijingbeisongrulezhongzhengjianhushi。
zhuzhiyishenggaosujiangbin，“xingkuitaluodaolemeiguihuatanli，ruguoluodaoshuinidishang，houguobukanshexiang……danbingrenhaishiduochuguzhehecashang，shoushugangwanbi，yehenchenggong……buguotaxuyaozaizhongzhengjianhushiliduguoyiduanshijian，zheiduanshijiandoushuyuweixianqi，dengduguoleweixianqi，tajiukeyizhuanruputongbingfangle。”
jiangbinjinzhangdaokuaiyaobaozhadeshenjing，zhongyusongchileyixia，danyezhishiyixia。
qiaomanhaizaizhongzhengjianhushi，yishengshuole，zhongzhengjianhushizheiduanshijianli，tarengjiushuyuweixianqi……
jiangbindeliansecangbaidekepa。
tacongweirucixuruoguo，houbeidelenghanyijingshitoulechenshan，kelenghanhaizaibuduandeliuzhe。
透过重症监护的玻
li，takandaoqiaomanneizhangcangbaidelian，anjingdexiangshiyisuidewawayiyang……