第6章 情感与权利的交织

yanhuichangneideqifenyiduxianruhunluan,weiguanderenqundishengyilun,qingxingxianranbuxiangbiaomiankanshangquneiyangjiandan。zhaoxiaolanzhanzaiguyunfanshenhou,muguangjingenzhetadedongzuo。tanengganshoudaozhouweidejinzhangyuyapo,shenzhikongqizhongmimanzheyigunanyandeweixiegan。

guyunfanmeiyouduoyan,muguangruilirudao,saoshizherenqunzhongdedongjing。tadeshouwanqingqingyihui,jimingshenzheheiyideshiweilijishangqian,xunsujiangweiguanderenqunsankai。zhaoxiaolanshenzhinengkandaotamendedongzuoneiyangganjingliluo,youruyizhixunlianyousudebudui。

“rangkai。”guyunfandichendeshengyintouguorenqun,jianduaneryouli。

kongqifangfoningguleyishun,zhongrenbuganzaizuorenhedouliu,fenfentuikai。zhaoxiaolanchajuedaoguyunfandeqingxubiandeyichanglenglie,neishuangyanjingkanzhedaozaidishangdenvren,sihuyinzangzheyisishensi。

taqiaoqiaokaojin,xinzhongancun:neigedaozaidishangdenvrenshishei?zenmehuizaizheizhongchanghechuxianzheiyangdeyiwai?

“tashizhoujiadaxiaojie,zhouxuan。”yigeshiweidishengdao,shengyinzhongyouxiejuse。

zhouxuan?zhaoxiaolanweiweiyizheng,zhoujiazaijingchengyeshiquanguizhijia,menxiaxianhe,shilipangda。ruguozhouxuanzhendeshita,neitadaozaidishangdeshiqingwuyishiyigedamafan,shenzhikenengyinfayichangfengbo。

guyunfanmeiyoulikehuiying,zhishizhanzaiyuandi,shenshendikanleyiyanneimingdaodidenvzi。piankehou,tacaiditouzhihuidao:“jianchatademaixiang。”

zhaoxiaolanzhanzaipangbian,xinzhongbujinyouxieyihuo,muguangquejinsuiqihou,kanzheshiweimenshoumangjiaoluandiweizhezhouxuan,xianranshijiyuchamingtadaodideyuanyin。zhouxuanmianrongcangbai,zuijiaosihuhaiguazheyimoguiyidexuese。

zhongyu,shiweizhanqishenlai,dishengxiangguyunfanbaogao:“tazhongledu。”

“du?”zhaoxiaolanqingshengjinghu,yanzhongshanguoyisijingya。tameixiangdao,jinwandeyanhuihuituranbianderucifuza,jingranhuishejidaoruciyanzhongdeshiqing。

“shisheizuode?”guyunfandeyuqizhongdaizheyiguyayidehanqi。

shiweiditoudao:“muqianbuqingchu,dantadezhuangkuanghenyanzhong,ruobujishijiedu,pashimingxuanyixian。”

zhaoxiaolantingdechu,guyunfansuiranyuqipingjing,danqizhongdeweixieganqueyuelaiyueqianglie。taxinlianzijingya,zhouxuanzhongdudeshiqingkansiouran,shizehenkenengshimouzhongquanlidouzhengdexishengpin,erta,zuoweiyigepangguanzhe,yijingbuyouzizhudibeijuanruqizhong。

“shisheidongdeshou?”guyunfanzaiciwendao,shengyinbinglengrushuang。

“shuxiawufaqueren。”shiweidixiatou,xianranmeiyoudaan。

zhaoxiaolanweiweimiqiyanjing,kanxiangdaozaidishangdezhouxuan。tahuranyishidao,zheiyiqiebingfeibiaomianshangneimejiandan。yanhuizhongderenqunyijingyuelaiyuejingjue,bushaorenkaishiqiaoqiaolikai,xianranshixiangbikaizheichangturuqilaidefengbo。

tadenaohaizhongshunjianshanguoyigeniantou:zheichangju,sihushiyouyumoude,erguyunfanzuoweijingchengdequanlirenwuzhiyi,bidingyeshenzhiqizhongdeyinqing。zhouxuandezhongdu,huoxubingbushidanchundeshigu,ershimouzhongyoumudedebuju。

“wokeyibangni。”zhaoxiaolanturankaikou,dapolechenmo。

guyunfanweiweizhuantou,muguangruilidisaoguota,sihuzaipinggutadetiyi。“nixiangzuoshenme?”

zhaoxiaolanjianguyunfandemuguangbudairenheganqing,queyemeiyoujujue,xinzhongyidong,suijishuodao:“huoxu,wokeyicongzhouxuandeshenbianzhaodaoyixiexiansuo。tadeshenfenrucixianhe,ruoshiyourenxiangtongguotazuoshoujiao,yidinghuiliuxiahenji。”

guyunfankanzheta,chenmopiankehou,zhongyudianlediantou:“nikeyishishi。”

zhaoxiaolanbujinsonglekouqi,suiranguyunfandedafulengdan,danzhishaotadedaoleyigekeyixingdongdejihui。tazhuanshenzouxiangzhouxuan,xinzhongpansuanzheruhejiecijihui,huodegengduodexinxi。

zhouxuandelianseyuelaiyuecha,yijingmeiyouyishi。zhaoxiaolandunxiashen,zixiguanchatadeyijinyuzhubao,faxiantadebojianguazheyitiaojingzhidexianglian,neitiaoxiangliandediaozhuixingzhuangqite,xiangshiyimeixizhangdetongqian,xiangqianzheyixienanyibianrendefuwen。

tahuranxiangdao,zheitiaoxiangliankenengyuzhongdudeshiqingyouguan。taqingqingniezhuxianglian,shitujiangqijiekai,faxiandiaozhuihoumianyouyidaoweixiaodehenji,xiangshibeishenmeruiqihuaguo,shifenbuxianyan。zhaoxiaolanxinzhongyidong,dishengdao:“gugongzi,ninkankanzheitiaoxianglian。”

guyunfanzoujin,ditouzixikanlekanxianglianshangdehenji,meitouweiweiyizhou。“queshiyouxiebuxunchang。”tadishengshuodao,yanzhongshanguoyisijingjue,“zheixiefuwen,kanqilaixiangshimouzhonggulaodeduwupeifang。”

zhaoxiaolandexinzangmengdiyitiao,dunshimingbai,zhouxuandezhongdubingfeiouran,erhenkenengshiyourenguyishejihaode。talianmangshuodao:“neizheixiangliankenengjiushitazhongdudeyuantou。”

guyunfankanzheta,yanzhongsihushanguoyisifuzadeqingxu。“nizhennengchajuedaozheixie?”

zhaoxiaolanweiweiyixiao,xinzhongyijingjueding,yidingyaozhuazhuzheicijihui,jiekaizheichanganliuyongdongdeyinmou。erzheiyezhengshitajiejinguyunfan,zhujianyingdetadexinrendezuihaojihui。

tazhanqishen,yanshenjianding,“gugongzi,zheitiaoxianglian,kongpajiushiguanjian。”

guyunfanchenmopianke,zuihoudianlediantou:“daizou。zhaodaomuhouzhiren。