woyizhijiangrenshengshizuoyichangjingxinbianpaidewutaiju，erwo，shidangzhiwukuidezuijianvzhujiao。wodejubenli，meiyoushengsilijiedezhengchao，zhiyouqiadaohaochudeyanlei；meiyouduoduobirendezhiwen，zhiyoushanjierenyideweixiao。woshanzhangbanyanyigewuhai、chunliang、yongyuanweitarenzhexiangde“xiaotaiyang”，yongzuirouruandeyanyu，zhijiuzuijingmidewang，jiangwoxiangyaodeyiqie——haogan、tongqing、ziyuan，naizhibierendeaimu，doubudongshengsedishourunangzhong。woxiangshouzhezheizhongzhangkongquanjude**，zhidaojintian，yourenjiangwodehoutailiaotianjilu，yizibuchadi，gongzhiyuzhong。juguangdengshunjianbianchengleshenpandelieyan，jiangwodeyiqieweizhuangshaochenghuijin。yuanlai，dangguanzhongkanqingleyanyuandeticiqihejubencaogao，zheichangxi，jiuzhishengxiazui**denankanhebengta。
shoujipingmudelengguang，yingzaiwoyinzhenjingerweiweifangdadetongkongli，xiangyiwangshenbujiandidehantan。
neipiantiezidebiaoti，yongxinghongjiacudeziti，daizheyizhongwangluokuanghuanshideeyi，henhendidingzaixiaoyuanluntandeshouye——《niandudaxi！shenba“chunshanxiaoxiannv”linweidedingjilvchayishuyushuangmianrensheng！liaotianjiluweizheng！》
fatierendeidjiao“mianjusiliezhe”，yigechongmanletiaoxinyiweidemingzi。
wodezhijianbingliang，xueyefangfozaizheiyikeninggule。
bishi，wozhengzuozaidaxuechengzuishouhuanyingde“nanfeng”kafeiguanli，kaochuangdeweizhi，yangguangzhenghao。womianqiantankaizheyibenzhuanyeshu，pangbianfangzheyibeiheleyibandeyanmainatie。woshenzhihaijingxindiaozhenglezuozi，quebaocongwaimianluguodetongxue，nengkandaoyigesuiyuejinghao、renzhenxuexidecelian。
yiqiedouwanmeidexiangyifuhua，zhidaowode“guimi”suqingyizhenfengsidechongjinlai，lianshangxiemanleshijiemoribandejingkong。
“weiwei！weiwei！chudashile！”taqichuanyuyu，shengyindouzaifadou，yibajiangtadeshoujisaidaowomianqian。
wolianshangdebiaoqing，zaineiyishunjian，shiwopailianguoqianbaibiande、zuibiaozhun、zuiwugudekunhuo。woweiweicumei，yanshenlidaizheyisiqiadaohaochudedanyou，roushengwen：“zenmele，qingqing？bieji，manmanshuo。”
wodemuguangluodaopingmushang，ranhou，wojingxinweichileershiniandemianju，liekaileyitiaofeng。
tiezili，shiyizhangzhangchumujingxindeliaotianjilujietu。
diyizhang，shiwohesuqingdeduihua。
suqing：“weiwei，guyanjintianhaoxiangxinqingbutaihao，wodoubugangentashuohua。”
wo：“shagua，zheicaishijihuia。nidaihuierqutushuguandeshihou，‘ouyu’ta，jiushuokantaliansebuhao，ranhoubazheigereniunaidijita。jizhu，qianwanbieshuoshiworangnisongde，jiushuoshinizijikantaxinku，shunshoumaide。”
suqing：“a？zheibuhaoba……erqiewoyemeiqian……”
wo：“qianwozhuanni，nijiudangbangwogemangma。woyigenvsheng，zongzheimezhudongguanxinta，bierenhuishuoxianhuade。nibuyiyang，nishitatongbantongxue，mingzhengyanshun。”
dierzhang，haishiwohesuqing。
suqing：“weiwei，jintianxihuajiangyuechuandeneitiaoqunzihaohaokana，guyanhaoxiangdouduokanletahaojiyan。”
wo：“ng，shitinghaokande。buguoqingqing，wogennishuogemiminibiegaosubieren。woshangcihaoxiangtingfuzhuangshejixidepengyoushuo，jiangyueneitiaoqunzishigaofangdeshanzhaihuo，yuanbanyaohaojiwanni。ai，qishiwoyejuedemeishenme，nvhaiziaimeima，danchuanjiadehaizheimegaodiao，wanyibeirenchaichuanleduogangaya。”
suqing：“tiana！zhendejiade？”
wo：“woyebuqueding，nikeqianwanbieluanshuoa！wojiushititadanxin。”
disanzhang，shiwoheyigexuezhangdeduihua，zheiweixuezhangshixueshenghuide，fuzejiangxuejinpingding。
wo：“xuezhang，zheicideguojiangpingxuan，jiangyuedejidianhaoxiangbiwogaolingdianlingjifenni，tazhendehaolihaiya，wohaopeifuta。”
xuezhang：“shia，tachengjiyizhihenhao。”
wo：“ngng！jiushi……ai，suanle，bugaiwoduozuide。jiushishangcitacanjiadeneigequanguodaxueshengjingsai，daiduilaoshibushiwomenxueyuandewangjiaoshouma，wotingshuowangjiaoshoushijiangyuemamadeshidi……dangranla，jiangyuekendinghaishikaozijideshilide！wojiushijuedetahaoxingyun，youzheimehaodeziyuan，buxiangwo，shenmedoudekaozijibenzhuodinuli。”
jietuyizhangjieyizhang，xiangyibabacuiledudejiandao，jingzhundipoukaiwowenliangwuhaidewaipi，luchudixianeigejingyusuanji、yexinbobodelinghun。
tiezilibujinyouwohebierendeliaotian，shenzhihaiyouwofazaijinzijikejiandepengyouquanlide“beiwanglu”。
“beiwanglu1：guyanxihuanmao，xiacikeyi‘ouyu’yizhiliulangmao，biaoxianchuaixin。yaodian：yanshenyaobeimin，dongzuoyaoqingrou，zuihaorangguyankandaowojimaoweishidechangjing。zhuyi，bunengchuantaiguideyifu，buranhuixiandehenkeyi。”
“beiwanglu2：jiangyuexiazhouyaocanjiayingyuyanjiangbisai，keyitiqian‘bujingyi’dixiangguyantoulu，woweilezhunbeiyigehenzhongyaodekaoshi，zuijinyezaiaoyeliankouyu，yalidadaoshimian。yingzaoyizhong‘womendouzaiweimubiaonuli’degongminggan。”
“beiwanglu3：suqingzheigeqizihenhaoyong，gouchun，yegoutinghua。xiacikeyitongguota，rangguyanzhidaowoweilejitazhunbeishengriliwu，qudalesantianduangong，jieguobashoudoumopole。”
……
kafeiguanlihenanjing，zhiyoubeijingyinlezailiutang。kewodeshijieli，quexiangqileshanbengdiliedehongming。
wonengganjuedao，zhouweidekongqibianle。
linzhuodejigenvshengyuanbenzaidishengtaolunzheshenme，xianzai，tamendetanhuatingle。wonengcongyanjiaodeyuguangli，piejiantamentouxiangwode、hunzazhebiyihehaoqidemuguang。tamenzaiyongshoujikanzheshenme，ranhoujiaotoujieer，qieqiesiyu。
buyongxiangyezhidao，tamenzaikanneipiantiezi。
suqingyijingkuaijikule，tazhuazhewodegebo，shengyinzhandou：“weiwei，zhei……zheishizenmehuishi？sheizheimeedu，ptulaixianhaini！”
P图？
zhiyoutazheigeshaguacaihuijuedezheishiptu。zheixieliaotianjilu，meiyigezi，meiyizhangjietu，douzhenshiderangwohunshenfaleng。
wodedanao，wozuiyinyiweiaode、yongyuanlengjingqingxidedanao，cikezhengyiqiansuoweiyoudesudufeikuaiyunzhuan。
xiuchi？fennu？bu，zheixieqingxutaishechile。
wodediyigeniantoushi：shisheigande？
sheinengnadaowozheimeduo、zheimesimideliaotianjilu？zheibuguangyouwohesuqingde，haiyouwohebutongrende，shenzhishiwosimidegerenjilu。zheijihuyiweizhe，wodeshouji，huozhewodediannao，beichechedididiruqinle。
diergeniantoushi：zenmeban？
ku？zhuangkelian？shuozijibeidaohaole？
bu，buxing。zheixieshouduanzaitiezhengrushandejietumianqian，zhihuixiandewogengjiaxuweikexiao。tiezilishenzhitiexindifangdaleliaotianjiludeshijianchuo，meiyitiaodouhewozhenshideshenghuoguijiyansihefengdiduiyingzhe。
woshenxiyikouqi，qiangpozijilengjingxialai。
wotaiqitou，kanxiangsuqing。wodeyanjinglixunsuxumanleleishui，bushibengkuidelei，ershineizhongshouletiandaweiqu、xuanranyuqi、queyoujueqiangdibukenluoxiadelei。zheishiwodenashouhaoxi。
“qingqing，”wodeshengyindaizheyisiqiadaohaochudeshayahecuiruo，“wobuzhidao……wozhendebuzhidaozheishizenmehuishi。wo……womeiyou……”
woshuobuxiaqule，qiadaohaochudigengyanzhu，jianbangweiweizhandou，xiangyizhizaihanfengzhongwuzhudexiaoniao。
suqinglikebeiwodeqingxuganranle，tadeyankuangyehongle，yifentianyingdishuo：“yidingshijiangyue！kendingshita！tajiduni！jiduguyanduinihao！weiwei，nibiepa，wozheijiushangluntanqubangnijieshi！woqumaneigefatiederen！”
我心里冷笑一声。
zhenshigechunhuo，zheizhongshihoutiaochuqu，zhihuizuoshiliaotianjiludezhenshixing，bianchengyigehuoshengshengde“zhengren”。
wolikelazhuta，yanleizhongyushunzhelianjiahualuo，guntangerwusheng。“buyao，qingqing，nibiequ。xianzaiqingkuangzheimeluan，nishangqushuoshenmedouhuibeitamenqujiede。women……womenxianjingyijing，haobuhao？”
wobiaoxianchude“shanliang”he“guquandaju”，rangsuqinggengjiaxintengwole。
jiuzaizheishi，wodeshoujipingmuliangle。
pingmudingduandanchudexiaoxiyulan，xiangyidaojinglei，zaiwonaozhongzhaxiang。
是顾言。
neigewofeijinxinsi、bubuweiyingxiangyaojiejindenanren。
neigewojubenlijueduidenanzhujiao。
tadeweixintouxiangshiyigeqinglengdeshanmaijianying，hetarenyiyang，ganjingyoushuli。
xiaoxihenduan，zhiyouyijuhua。
“linwei，tiezishangshuode，shizhendema？”
meiyouzhiwen，meiyoufennu，zhishiyijupingjingdeqiuzheng。
raner，zheijupingjingdehua，quebirenhejiliedeyancidougengyoushashangli。taxiangyibashoushudao，jingzhundiqieduanlewosuoyouxiangyaobianjiedetuilu。
yinweiwozhidao，tazheiyangwen，xinliqishiyijingxinleqibafen。
wodezhijianxuanzaipingmushangfang，chichimeiyoudiankai。woshenzhinengxiangxiangdao，cikezaixuexiaodemougejiaoluo，guyanhejiangyue，zheilianggemingzibeiwofanfutiji、fanfusuanjideren，kenengzhengzhanzaiyiqi，kanzhetongyipiantiezi，ranhou，yongyizhongwocongweijianguode、shenshidemuguang，zhongxin“renshi”wo。
wokuxinjingyingdexingxiang，neigeshanliang、nuli、oueryouxiexiaomihuquewubizhenchengdelinwei，zaizheiyike，suidelianzhadoubusheng。
wodiyici，ganjuezijishiquleduijubendezhangkong。
wutaidedengguangquanbuximie，zhiliuxiayishuzhuiguang，sisididazaiwoshenshang，erwo，quelianyijutaicidouxiangbuchulai。
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