第五章
yilianxiaoyidezhuyaoyaoturanjianjiaoyishengduozaileshenjinchuanshenhou，jinjinzhuazhetadegebo，shengyinzhandoudao：
“qinghejie，nishenmeshihoulaide？zheijianhunshataipiaoliangle，womeirenzhucaishichuanleyixia，duibuqi……wobushiguyide。”
shenjinchuanxiayishihuzhuta，taimoucaikanjianxuqinghemianwubiaoqingdekanzheta。
“qinghe，niyizhimeidao，yaoyaodengdewuliao，shiworangtashide。”
tazoudaotamianqian，jiantahaishilengzhelian，shengyinchenlechen：
“biezheimejinjinjijiaohaobuhao？yaoyaogangchuyuan，woxiangrangtakaixinyixiaeryi，niyezhidaode，tayouyiyuzheng……”
又是抑郁症！
zheiwunianyinweizhuyaoyaodeyiyuzheng，tarenqitunshengduoshaohui？
jiulianzijidemabeitajianjiehaisi，yebunengguaitayiju，shenzhihaiyaobihuizhe，shengpatatingjianyingjiyouzisha。
tashuaikaishenjinchuandeshou，yanedewanghoutuiletui。
shenmujianzhuangzouguolai，haobuyanshiduitadebuman，lishengdao：
“xuqinghe，nibiemeishizhaoshi！yihouyaoyaojiushinideqinmeimeile，niduitayinggaizheigetaiduma？”
“bujiushiyijianhunshama？jiusuanyaoyaoxiangyao，nirangjitayouzenmele？nikeshitasaozi，zheidiandoushebude？xiaodujichang……”
xuqinghezhengzaiyuandi，hunshenbingliang。
tacongjinlaikaishi，yijuhuadoumeiyoushuo，shenzhilianduoyudebiaoqingdoulandejitamen，quebeishenjinchuanheshenmupitougailianyidunma。
takanzheduozaishenjinchuanshenhoudezhuyaoyao，zhijianzhuyaoyaoweiweitanchutou，chongzhetaluchuyigedeyidexiao，neixiaoronglinalihaiyoubanfengangcaidejupahedanxiao，manshitiaoxinhexuanyao。
keneixiaoquejibuqixuqinghebanfendeqingxu。
zhuyaoyaojiantazhishichenmodikanzhe，yandimeiyousihaobolan，haoxiangyiquandazailemianhuashang，rangtagandaocuobaibugan。
tayanmouweizhuan，shengyinrouruokelian，daizhekuqiangdao：
“qinghejie，nibieshengqi，woxianzaijiuqubahunshatuoxialaihaijini……wozhidaowobugaipengde，wozhishitaixihuanle，wozhendemeixiangguoyaoqiangnidedongxi……”
tashuozhe，zuoshijiuyaowangshiyijianzou，taishoumoleyibayanlei，haoxiangshouletiandadeweiqu。
shenmulikejile，yibalazhuzhuyaoyaodeshouwan，xintengdao：
“tuoshenmetuo！buzhuntuo！yaoyaonichuanzheduohaokan！zheijiushinidehunsha！”
tazhuantou，ehenhendidengzhexuqinghedao：
“xuqinghe，wogaosuni，jiusuannijiajinleshenjia，zheigejiayehaishiwoshuolesuan！zheijianhunshawozuozhu，songjiyaoyaole！jiehunneitian，tajiuchuanzheigejinidangbanniang！zenme？nihaiganyouyijian？wonengrangnijinshenjiademen，jiunengrangnigunchuqu！”
zhuyaoyaobeishenmulazhe，qieshengshengditaitoukanxiangshenjinchuan，shitanwendao：
“jinchuangege，zheiyangkeyima？suiranwozhendehenxihuan，danshi……zheiyangqinghejiehuibuhuibukaixin？”
shenjinchuankanzhezhuyaoyaoneixiaoxinyiyixumanleishuideyanjing，xindiyiruan，tamanyandeqidaitazenmejujue？
tazoudaoxuqinghemianqian，shenshoulanzhutadeyao，qingqingfumotayaojianderuanrou，fuzaitaerbianhongzhedao：
“qinghe，yijianhunshaeryi，wojiehunqianzaiqinzijinishejiyijiangenghaode，duyiwuerde。”
“yaoyaotagangchuyuan，xinqinghaoburongyicaihaodian，nijiurangrangta，ng？doushiweilenihehaizihao，tayaoshizaibukaixin，yiyuzhengfanle，womaxinqingyehuibuhao，daoshihouwomendehunlishuobudingyouyoubiandong。”
yijujuweitahaodehua，xuqinghequetingdeweiliyizhenfanteng。
tataiyan，duishangshenjinchuanneishuangxuweideyanjing，zailveguotajianbang，kandaozhuyaoyaoheshenmulianshangjihuyanshibuzhudeshengquanzaiwo。
tahuranjuedewubikexiao。
zheilingrenzuooudexima，tajingrankanlewunian。
tadianlediantou，shengyinmeiyourenheqifu：
“随便吧。”
yijianhunshaeryi，biqitashiqudemuqinhehaizi，suanshenme？
biqitajijiangchedibaituozheiyiqiedejihua，yousuanshenme？
tamenxihuan，jiunaquhaole。