第4章

tabeiwoyanzhongdeqingxuzhenjingle。zoulejibu,tazoudaowomianqian,jiuzhuwodetoufa:

“mengsi,niyiweiwobuzhidaoniyezhongshengle?”

dangtingdaozhongshengzheigecideshihou,woyanzhongluchuleyinchendeshense。

talenghengyisheng,baxiuhuarengdaowolianshang:

“nizheigecongxiaozhangdadeshezu,zenmenengzhanluchulongzunvwangzhuanshudetuan?jingranganpianwo!”

woqingqingtanlekouqi,fuzheetoucongdishangzhanleqilai:

“jiejie,woconglaidoubuxianghenizhenglun,woyejueduibuhuichuxianzaiwangzimianqian。”

dantabuzaihu。talengxiaoyisheng,yongshouzhifumowodelian:

“niyiweiwohuishujinizheigechounvrenma?nijiusuanxiangda,yedabuguowo。”

我沉默了。

youxieshiqingwowufazhenglun,yinweiwoxianghuodegengjiu。

zhiyoushaguacaihuizhizheyuneixielaji。

longzuguoranshiyoumingdeguizu,lianfeizidehunlidounengjubandezheimelongzhong。

bujinyouxuduozhenxidongwuqianlaiguankan,haizengsonglexuduozhenbao。

keyishuoshijilewohendademianzi。

jiejiechuanzhedahongsedehunsha,hongzhelianqianzhesongziyudeshou,chuxianzailesuoyourendeqidaimianqian。

tazhongyudedaolezijimengmeiyiqiudezhiwei,lianshangdexingfuzhiqingyiyuyanbiao。

jishikandaowo,tayetiaoxindiwaizhetou,zhangkaizui,momoduiwoshuolelianggezi:

“垃圾。”

嗯,我就是垃圾。。

dantajijiangjinrudiyu,tabuzhidaosheigengkelian。

danxiaorongmeiyouchixuduojiu,songziyujiangyibeijiufangdaoletashouli:

“heleta,nijiushizhengfeile。”

jiejielianmangjieguo,gangyaohewan,limiandecibiqiweijiuchulaile。

jiejieyijing,xiayishidibajiubeirenglechuqu:

“zheizenmeshixionghuanga!”

zhengguizheshiwoshezudekexing,jiusuanshixiulianleshuqianniandeguaiwuyewufadidang。huochuyibeixionghuangdeliliang。

suirannibuhuibeiyaoyikouersi,dantahuizainidechuangshangtingliujigeyue。

生比死更糟糕。