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woxiangbutong,congqianjianghanzhijiangwozongdebuzhitiangaodihou,zuolecuoshiyewudixianbangwodouzhe,weishenmexianzaizheibanjueqing?

daodishiyinweishiwo,haishiyinweidangchudewoshitademeimei?

我彻底绝望了。

womingmingyijingjinlizaishuzuile。

weishenme,weishenmehaishibukenfangguowo?

wozaiyitiantiandelingnvexia,zhujianxueguaile。

tamenrangwoxuegoujiao,wojiuxuedeweimiaoweiqiao。

rangwoguizhe,wojiuzhitingtingdiguizhe。

shenzhitamenrangwoquxipanzizhuanqianjitamen,woyezhaozuo。

youshiweilebimianyidunquandajiaoti,wohaihuizijishanzijierguang。

suoyourendoukanbuqiwo,xiaowohuodeliangoudouburu。

wobenlaiyiweihuizheiyangyizhidaoshengmingjieshu,quebuxiangtamenjingjiangwojielehuiqu。

yehao,zhishaobuhuibixianzaigengcha。

zhiyuqitade,wobugansheqiu。

......

huidaojiashi,suoyourendouzai。

womingyishangdejiejiejiangzhi,yijiandaowojiurenbuzhujinjinzhuazhuyangmudeyibai。

yangfumuganmangjiangqilouzaihuaizhonganwei,xiangwotoulailemaiyuandeyanshen。

“jiranhuilailejiudongshidian,zijuelinijiejieyuanyidian。”

“对不起。”

wogonggongjingjingdichongtamenjugong。

tamenlengzhu,chayidikanwo。

“你......”

yangmuzhouzhemei,jianwohaizhanzaimenkou,youchidao:

“dangchuniqifuzhizhi,xianzaizhidaocuolema?”

“zhidaocuole,yiqianshiwobuzhitiangaodihou,jinhoudangniuzuomahaijijiejie。”

yangfumuyanzhongshanguochayi,gengduodeshiwokanbudongdeshenyi。

yangfuqingkeyisheng:“nizaixinxuexiaoguodezenmeyang?zheimejiuyebujijialilaigedianhua。”

woniezheqilemaobiandeyibai,serandao:“tinghaode,xuexiaolidelaoshidouhenzhaoguwo,tongxueyehenyouhao......”

其实不是的。

congwoxiaoshoulahuangdelian、kuhuangganzaodetoufayijilianjiadechuanzhejiunengkanchulai,woguodehencha。

但他们不愿看。

ruguowoshuoguodebuhao,tamenkendinghuishuozheiyoushiwobotongqingdebaxi。

zhiyaowoshuoguodehao,tamenjiuyidinghuixin。

jianghanzhizuozaishafashanglenglengkanzhe,bochunweiminkanbuchushenmeduoyudeqingxu。

wodizhetouyangaizijidejucu,yishijianketingqifenxianruningzhi。

jiangzhituranjinghu:“xiaohenizenmechuanzheimepodeyifua?”

养父母冷了脸。

“womenmeijinishenghuofeima?chuandezheimehansuanshixiangchuowomenxinwozima?”

“haishishuo,xiangbeibierenkanjian,chuanchuqushuowomenjiangjiakedaiyangnv?”

yangfulishengzhiwenwo,yangmuzeshirouleroumeixin,yilianzaoyi。

jiangzhianzhongdenglewoyiyan,anhanjinggao,youxiaozheduiyangfumushuo:“yexushixiaohedeyifuguojile,tazuiaipiaoliangzenmehaihuichuanneixie,woyijulihaiyouhenduodangjihaimeichuande,wonaxialaijixiaoheba。”

“haishizhizhidongshi。”yangmuzanxudikanzhejiangzhi,youbuxiedibailewoyiyan,“guoranbushicongwoduzilichulaide,zhenshixinjishenchen。”

我始终一言不发。

zhiyaonengbuzaibeisonghuizhenjingxueyuan,woshenmedoukeyizuo。

jiangzhihenkuaijiulouleyiduiyifuxialai。

wogongjingdijieguo,“xiexiejiejie。”

jiangzhiyanzhongdedeyiyishanerguo,yangfuquezhouzhemei,xunchidao:

“zhengtianwanzhegeyaozuoshenme?yemeigexiaomoyang,yidianjingqishendoumeiyou!”

“jiunizheiyangzhoujiashaoyezenmekandeshangni?”

jiangzhilikechushengdaduan:“ba!”

周家?

nandaoshineigebeiduanyanhuobuguoershisuidezhoujiashaoye?

kanjiangzhijinzhangdeshenqing,woxinzhongleran。

zheiyingdangjiushitamenjiewohuilaideyuanyinle。