woshidemenmeiyouguanyan，xuyandefengxili，xieluchulaidebushiguang，ershiyiqujiaoxiangledexiuzhifu。
woderensheng，zaicikezhiqian，shiyishoujingzhun、hexie、kanchengwanmeidejiaoxiangle。ertuikaimendeneiyike，
suoyoudeyinfushunjianbengta，tansuochengyigejianrui、cier、zuyisilieermodedanyin。linshu，wodeqizi，
woneishoujiaoxiangledezhuxuanlv，zheng**ditangzaiwomendehunchuangshang。neizhangchuang，shiwohualeyigeyueshijian，
yongtazuixihuandebaixiangmuqinshoudazaode。erxianzai，lingyigenanrenyazaitashenshang，neigenanren，shiwodeshidi，
wodehehuoren，woshizuoqinxiongdidexuhao。jintianshiwomendejiehunsanzhounianjinianri。ketingdecanzhuoshang，
haibaizhewoyudingdemiqilinwancan，heneiping82niandelafei。woshidekongqili，
quemimanzhelingyizhonggengjiayuanshi、yegengjialianjiadeqiwei。womeiyoufennu。zheishiyigeyouqudeshenglixianxiang。
zaizaoyujiduanjingshenchongjishi，renleidedanaoxingrenhehuishifangchuguoliangdeyingjijisu，
tongchangbiaoxianwei“zhanhuotao”fanying。danwomeiyou。wodexinlvshimeifenzhong78ci，xueya125/80，
shenzhibiwopingshizuoshiyanshihaiyaopingwen。wozhishizhanzaimenkou，xiangyigepangguanzhe，
lengjingdiguanchazheyanqiandejingxiang。linshudechaohong，xuhaobeishangbeizhuachudezhihen，
kongqizhongxinxisudenongdu……suoyoudeyiqie，douzaiwoyanzhongbeixunsushujuhua。tamenzhongyufaxianlewo。
shijianfangfobeianxialemanfangjian。linshudejingkong，xuhaodecuoe，xiangliangfuliezhideyouhua，
zaiwoshiwangmoshanghuanmanzhankai。tamendezuibazaikaihe，
sihuzaishuozhe“nitingwojieshi”、“bushinixiangdeneiyang”zhileidefeihua。zheixieshengyin，duiwolaishuo，
zhishihaowuyiyideyinpinwenjian。womeiyoushuohua，zhishipingjingdiguanshanglemen。zhuanshen，zouguoketing，
woshenzhihaiyouxianxinkanleyiyanneipingshangweikaiqidelafei。jiubiaoshangbiaozhudenianfen，cikekanlai，
xiangyigejuemiaodefengci。womeiyouhuijia，ershiquchehuidaolewodeshiyanshi。zheili，caishiwozhenzhengdeshijie。
yigeyouluoji、shujuhebinglengshijigouchengde、jueduikekongdeshijie。dakai-80℃dechaodiwenbingxiang，
zaiyipaipaibiaojizhefuzafenzishidelengdongguanzhong，woquchulezuilimiandeneiyizhi。guanbishangningjiezhebaishuang，
zhezhulebiaoqian，danwozhidaotademingzi。“wangchuan”（lethe）。zheishiwozhiyeshengyazhongzuiweidade，
yeshizuiweixiandezuopin。yizhongshenjingbaxiangyaoji，lilunshang，
takeyijingzhundiqieduanbingyizhidanaozhongfuzetedinggaojiqinggan（liruaiqing）deshenjingyuanlianjie，
tongshiwanzhengbaoliuyuzhixiangguande“shishijiyi”。huanjuhuashuo，tanengrangnijideyiqie，danganshoubudaoyiqie。
nijideniaiguoshei，danneizhongxintiaojiasu、duobaanfenmideganjue，jiangyongyuanyunijueyuan。tahaibuwanmei，
linchuangshiyanyoujudadefengxian。dancike，woxuyaota。woshuliandichouchu1haoshengdelanseyeti，
kongqizaizhentongzhongbeipaijin。wojuanqixiuzi，kanzhezijishoubeishangqingxidejingmaixueguan，xiangkanzheyizhangdianlutu。
womeiyousihaoyouyu。dangbinglengdeyaojibeihuanhuantuijinwodeshentishi，woxiangqilewoxianglinshuqiuhundeneigexiawu。
yangguanghenhao，tachuanzhebaiqunzi，xiaoqilaideshihou，yanjinglixiangyouxingxing。wodangshiduitashuo：“linshu，
congshenjingkexuedejiaodukan，aiqingshiyizhongfuzadeshenghuafanying，danwoyuanchengzhiweiwoshengmingzhongweiyide‘qiji’。
ni，shiwodeqiji。”xianzai，woyaoqinshoushasizheigeqiji。yaoxiaofazuodehenkuai。
woganjuedanaolifangfoyouyibawuxingdeshoushudao，zhengzaijingzhundijinxingzheyichangshenjingwaikeshoushu。meiyoutengtong，
zhiyouyizhong……chouligan。wonaozhongguanyulinshudesuoyoujiyi，kaishibiandexiangyibulaojiudeheibaidianying。
huamianhaizai，gushihaizai，dansuoyoudesecaihewendu，douzaixunsutunqu。taxiaodemoyang，kudemoyang，
tashenshanghaowendezhizihuaxiang，takaozaiwohuailishidewennuan……zheixiecengjinggouchengwozhenggeshijiedeqingganshuju，
zhengzaibeiyixingyixingdishanchu、geshihua。wozuihouyici，zaiqinggancengmian，xiangqiletademingzi。linshu。ranhou，
yiqieguiyupingjing。wonaqishouji，kanzhepingbaoshangwomenliangrendeheying。zhaopianshangdenvren，
youzhefuhehuangjinfengebilidewuguan，shehuixueyiyishangde“meili”。zhaopianshangdenanren，shiwo。
tamenyiweizaiyiqi，xingweixueshangdingyiwei“qinmi”。wolengjingdifenxizhezheixiexinxi，neixinyipiankongming。
wodedanao，wodeshijie，congweiruciqingxi、rucianjing。neishoumingwei“chenye”dejiaoxiangle，yijingjieshule。
xianzai，shixitongzhongqideshijian。jingbao：jiancedaohexinchengxuchuxianzhimingbug。bugmingcheng：linshu。
guanlianbug：xuhao。zhiling：qidong“youhua”xieyi。mubiao：qingchu。2dangwodiertianzaoshanghuidaojiashi，
linshuhexuhaoxiangliangzhireguoshangdemayi，zaidiyuliaoleyizhengye。ketingliyipianlangjie，
neiping82niandelafeidaozaidishang，anhongsedejiuye，xiangganhedexue。linshudeyanjingyouhongyouzhong，
lianshangshiwocongweijianguodeqiaocuihekonghuang。xuhaozezuozaishafashang，shuangshouchazaitoufali，
cengjingdeyiqifengfadangranwucun。tamenkandaowo，xiangliangzhishoujingdetuzi，mengdicongshafashangdanqilai。“chenye，
nitingwojieshi……”linshudeshengyinshaya，daizhekuqiang，chaowozouguolai，shituzhuazhuwodeshou。
wohoutuileyibu，bikailetadechupeng。bushiyinweiyane。yaneyeshiyizhongqinggan，erwodeqingganmokuai，
yijingbeigeshihuale。wozhishizaizhixingyigejiandandezhiling：bimianbubiyaodewulijiechu，
zheikenenghuiganraowodeshujucaiji。wodemuguangpingjingdisaoguota。
genjuwodeshenglishujujiance（yigewofamingbinganzhuangzaijialideweixingjiankangguanlixitong），
tazuowandexinlvpingjunzai120ci/fenzhongyishang，pizhichunshuipingbiaosheng，zhengyeweimian。
dianxingde“jixingyingjifanying”。“aye，wo……womencuole，nidawo，mawo，zenmeyangdouxing，
qiuni……”xuhaoyezouleguolai，tabilinshugengbukan，yanshenduoshan，chongmanlexiuchihekongju。wokanzheta。
xuhao，wodeshidi，womenyiqichuanglilegongsi，wobatadangchengjiaren。zaiwobeishanchudeshujukuli，
youyigebiaoqianjiao“xiongdi”。zheishiyigeyouqudeshehuixuegainian，tongchangdaibiaozhegaodudexinrenheqingganlianjie。
ercike，zheigegainianzaiwoyanzhong，zhishiyigeshixiaodelianjie。“zuo。”woshuo，shengyinpingwen，
meiyourenheqingxuqifu。wodelengjing，xianranbixiesidilidefennu，gengrangtamengandaokongju。
tamenxianglianggedengdaishenpandefanren，jiangyingdizuohuileshafashang。wozoudaotamenduimianzuoxia，
jizijidaoleyibeishui。“wozuowanzaishiyanshitongxiao，youyigeguanjianshujuxuyaochuli。ganghuilai。
”wochenshuzheyige“shishi”，yigekeyihelijieshiwocheyeweiguide“shishi”。
linshudelianshangshanguoyisixijideguang。“suoyi，ni……nishenmedoubuzhidao？”“zhidaoshenme？”wofanwen，
tongshidiaoqulewodanaozhongguanyu“qipianxinlixue”deziliaoku。renzaishituyangaizhenxiangshi，
huixiayishidiguanchaduifangdeweibiaoqing。linshucikedetongkongyouweiruodefangda，zheishiqidaiyujinzhangdehunhebiaoxian。
xuhaozedizhetou，bugankanwo。tadexingweimoshi，shuyu“kuijiuyutaobi”。
“meishenme……”linshumianqiangjichuyigebikuhainankandexiaorong，“jiushiwomen……womenzuowanheduole，
chaoleyijia，suoyijialiyoudianluan。”yigeloudongbaichudehuangyan。genjuwoduitamenshenglizhibiaodezhangqijiance，
linshudejiujingdaixienenglihencha，tacongbuhehongjiu。erxuhao，zeshiyigedianxingdejihuizhuyizhe，
tacikedechenmo，bushiyinweikuijiu，ershizaipinggufengxian，jisuanruhejiangzijidesunshijiangdaozuidi。“shima。
”womeiyouchuochuan，zhishidianlediantou。“woyouxieleile，xianquxigezao。”wocongtamenshenbianzouguo，
zoujinzhuwo——neigecengjingde“fanzuixianchang”。kongqilihaicanliuzheyisiai..meideqixi，
chuangshanglingluanbukan。wopingjingdijiangbeizixiankai，jiangbeidan、zhentaoyiyiquxia，rengjinxiyilan，
ranhouhuanshangleyitaoxinde。zhenggeguocheng，jiuxiangyigejiudianfuwushengzaidasaofangjian，yisibugou，
meiyourenheduoyudedongzuo。dangwozoujinyushi，dakaihuasashi，wokanzhejingzilideziji。jingzhongdenanren，
mianrongyingjun，yanshenquexiangyipianshenbujiandidehu，pingjingwubo。wochangshidiaodongmianbujirou，
zuochuyige“fennu”debiaoqing。jirouxianweigenjuzhilingshousuo，meimaoningjin，zuijiaoxiapie。congshengwuxueshangjiang，
zheishiyigebiaozhunde“fennu”biaoqing。danwoganshoubudaorenheyuzhipipeideneizaiqingxu。jiuxiangyigeyanyuan，
zaiyanyichangyuzijiwuguandexi。xiwanzaochulai，wohuanshangleyishenganjingdejiajufu。
linshuhexuhaohaizuozaiketing，qifenyayidexiangbaofengyuqiandehaimian。wozoudaolinshumianqian，shenchushou，
qingqingfumoleyixiatadetoufa。zheigedongzuo，zaiguoqu，shi“aiyi”debiaoda。erxianzai，
zheizhishiyigeceshi。linshudeshentimingxiandizhandouleyixia，yanzhongchongmanlekunhuohekongju。tawufalijie，
yanqianzheigenanren，weishenmezaijinglileneiyangdebeipanhou，hainengruci“wenrou”。“biepa。”woshuo，
xiangzaianfuyizhishiyandongwu，“yiqiedouhuiheyuanlaiyiyang。”shide，yiqiedouhuiheyuanlaiyiyang。zhishi，
nimenbuzaishiwodeairenhexiongdi。nimenshiwodeshiyanpin。erwo，shizheichangshiyanweiyide，yeshizuilengkude，
zhuzai。shiyan，xianzaikaishi。3jiexialaideyigeyue，wochengleyige“wanmeizhangfu”。
woyijiumeitianzhunshishangxiaban，weilinshuzhunbeitaxihuandezaocan，zaitashengliqideshihou，
huitiqianbanuanbaobaohehongtangshuifangzaitadechuangtou。woshenzhihuixiangguoquyiyang，
zaitakanfeizaojukudexilihualadeshihou，dishangzhijin，qingqingpaizhetadebei。wodexingweimoshi，
wanmeifukele“chenye”zheigejiaosezai“aiqing”zhuangtaixiadesuoyoubiaoxian。danlinshu，quekuaiyaobeibifengle。
wode“wanmei”，duitalaishuo，shiyizhongzuijizhidezhemo。taningyuanwodafaleiting，shenzhishiduitaquanjiaoxiangxiang，
yebixianzaizheizhongguiyide“zhengchang”yaohao。taxiangyigezouzaixuanyabianderen，buzhidaojiaoxianayibuhuitakong，
zhuiruwanjiebufudeshenyuan。tadejingshenzhuangtaiyuelaiyuecha，shimian，shiyubuzhen，shenzhikaishichuxianhuanting。
tahuibanyeturanjingxing，shuotingdaowozaijiaota，dandangwowentawojiaotashenmeshi，tayoushuobuchulai。
wozhishizaitadechuangtouyinxiangli，zhiruleyigenengfachucishengbodeweixingzhuangzhi。zheizhongpinlvdeshengyin，
renertingbudao，dantanengchixuganraorenleideshenjingxitong，zaochengjiaolvhehuanjue。zheishiyigexiaoxiaodeshiyan，
weileceshirenzaizhangqijingshenyalixiadexinlichengshouyuzhi。linshu，shiyigejuejiadeyangben。xuhaoderizi，
yebuhaoguo。neiwanzhihou，taxiangwotichulecizhi，liyoushi“kuiduiwodexinren，wuyanzaiyuwogongshi”。
wojujuele。“gongshigong，sishisi。”woyongyizhong“dadu”daojinhucanrendeyuqiduitashuo，
“womenshixiongdi，yeshihehuoren。gongsixianzaizhengzaiguanjianshiqi，bunengmeiyouni。”wobujinmeirangtazou，
fanerjianggongsiyigezuizhongyaode，youwozhudaodehexinaixiangmu，quanquanjiaojileta。tashouchongruojing，
tongshiyouhuangkongbuan。takanbudongwo。tayiwei，zheishiwoyuanliangtadexinhao，shitajianggongbuguodejihui。yushi，
tatouruleshierfendereqinghejingli，xiangyaobazheigexiangmuzuohao，laimibutadezuiguo。tabuzhidao，
wojiaojitade，genbenbushiyigexiangmu。
neishiyigewojingxingoujiande、biaomianhuali、neiliquechongmanlewushuluojixianjingheshujusixunhuande“migong”。
tatourudejingliyueduo，jiuhuixiandeyueshen，zuizhongbeineixiekansiwujiedenanti，haojinsuoyoudecaihuahezixin。
womeitiandouhuiqugongsi，xiangyigepangguanzhe，
kanzhexuhaodetuanduiweilegongkeyigegewoshexiade“nanti”ertongxiaodadan。
woshenzhihui“haoxin”diquzhidiantamen，jitamenyixiekansizhengquede“fangxiang”，
ranhoukanzhetamenxinggaocailiedi，yitouzhajinwowahaodelingyigegengshendekengli。woxiangshouzheizhongganjue。
zheibushi“fuchoude**”。**，shiyizhongqiangliedeqingxufankui。erwomeiyouqingxu。
zheishiyizhong……leisiyuchengxuyuankanzhezijibianxiededaima，jingzhunwuwudiyunxingshisuohuodede“zhixugan”。
linshudejingshenzhengzaibeiwoyidiandiandi“diaoshi”daobengkuidebianyuan。xuhaodeshiye，
zhengzaibeiwoyibubudi“youhua”chengyigesiju。tamenjiuxiangliangzhibeiguanzaitouminghezilidexiaobaishu，
jinghuangshicuodibenpao，quebuzhidao，hezidegouzao，qiangbidedianjianniu，yijizuizhongjuedingtamenshengsidekaiguan，
douzhangwozaiwodeshouzhong。zheitianwanshang，linshuyouyicicongemengzhongjingxing。taquansuozaichuangjiao，hunshenfadou，
kanzhewodeyanshenli，chongmanleaiqiu。“chenye，womentantan，haobuhao？”tazhongyubengkuile，
“nidaodixiangzenmeyang？nizhijiegaosuwo，nishibushidouzhidaole？”wokanzheta，
lianshangluchuyigeqiadaohaochude、kunhuodebiaoqing。“zhidaoshenme？xiaoshu，nizuijinshibushiyalitaidale？
yaobuyaowopeiniquzuogexinlizixun？”wode“guanxin”，chengleyakuatadezuihouyigendaocao。
taxiesidilidijianjiaoqilai：“nishigemogui！nijiushigemogui！”tazhuaqichuangtoudetaideng，
chaowohenhendizaleguolai。womeiyouduo。taidengdelengjiao，jingzhundizazailewodeetoushang。wenredeyeti，
shunzhewodelianjialiulexialai。woshenchushou，yongzhijianzhanleyidian，fangzaiyanqian。hongse。xue。
shenglifanying：zuzhipolie，maoxixueguanchuxue。wokanzhejingzilietouliuxuedeziji，
hechuangshangneigeyinweikongjuheshikongerjuliechuanxidenvren，neixinyijiupingjingrushui。danwozhidao，
gaijinxingxiayibule。wonachushouji，botonglebaojingdianhua。“wei，woyaobaojing。
wo……wobeiwoqizijiabaole。”wodeshengyinli，daizheyisiqiadaohaochude、zhandoude“kongju”。
4“jiabao”shijian，chenglewomenhunyinguanxizhongdediyige“qidian”。jingchalaile，kanzhewoetoushangdeshangkou，
helinshuneifushihunluopodemoyang，qingyidijiucaixinlewodeshuoci。bijing，zaitamenderenzhimoxingli，
yigeshiyeyoucheng、wenweneryadenanren，tongchangshijiatingchongtuzhongde“shouhaizhe”。womeiyouzhuijiu，
zhishizaizuobilushi，yongyizhong“beishang”er“wunai”deyuqi，toululelinshuzuijin“qingxujibuwending，
shenzhiyoubaoliqingxiang”deshishi。zheijianshi，henkuaijiuzaiwomengongtongdepengyouquanlichuankaile。yulun，
shiyijianfeichangyouqudewuqi。tabuxuyaoshishi，zhixuyaoyigezugouyoushuofulide“gushi”。erwo，
weitamentigongleyigewanmeidegushibanben：yigeshenaiqizi、momorenshoude“haonanren”，
heyigebuzhiweihexingqingdabian、shenzhiduizhangfudongshoude“fengnvren”。wokaishidaizhelinshu，
pinfandichuxianzaigezhongshejiaochanghe。zaibierenmianqian，woyijiuduitatitieruwei，zhaogudewuweibuzhi。erlinshu，
zaijudadejingshenyalihewaijiedezhizhidiandianxia，biandeyuelaiyuechenmo、minganheshenjingzhi。youyici，
zaiyigepengyoudejuhuishang，yigebuzhiqingdenvbankaiwanxiaodiduiwoshuo：“chenye，niduinilaopoyetaihaoleba，
jianzhishiershisixiaohaolaogong。”linshudangchangjiubaofale。tamengdizhanqilai，
zhizheneigenvbanjianjiao：“nimendongshenme！nimenshenmedoubuzhidao！tabushihaoren，tashigemogui！
”quanchangsiji。suoyourendouyongyizhongkanfengzideyanshenkanzheta。woshishidizoushangqian，qingqingdibaozhuta，
lianshangluchu“tongxin”he“baorong”deshenqing，duidajiashuo：“duibuqi，tazuijin……shentibutaihao，
woxiandaitahuiqule。”zaizhongrentongqingdemuguangzhong，wodaizhetalikaile。huijiadelushang，linshuzaicheli，
congxiesidilidedaku，bianchenglejuewangdewuyan。“weishenme……weishenmeyaozheiyangduiwo？”tanannanziyu。
womeiyouhuida。yinweidaanhenjiandan：zheishiyigekongzhishiyan。wozaiceshi，
tongguocaozongwaibuhuanjingheshejiaoyali，keyizaiduodachengdushang，cuihuiyigerendeshehuirentongheziworenzhi。
shiyanjieguo，feichanglixiang。linshuzhengzaibeiwo，yibubudi，congyigeguangxianlianglideshejiaomingyuan，
“youhua”chengyigeguliwuyuan、beisuoyourendangchengjingshenbingde“guaiwu”。tasuozhenshidepengyouquan，tademingsheng，
talaiyiweishengdeneifenxurong，douzaibeiwojingzhundi、yicengyicengdiboli。worangtaqinshentihui，
shenmejiao“shehuixingsiwang”。erzheichang“youhua”xingdong，yexuyaoyigecuihuaji，laijiasutadejincheng。
woliyonggongsideziyuan，ruqinlelinshuchangqudeneigeshechipin**deweixinqun。ranhou，yongyigenimingxiaohao，
zaiqunlifabuleyitiao“neibuxiaoxi”：linshuzuijinyinweijingshenwenti，kaishiyoutouqiexingwei，
qinggeweimingyuanbaoguanhaozijidecaiwu。tongshi，
wohaifushangleyizhangjingguochulide、linshuzaishangchanglishenqinghuanghudezhaopian。zheikexiaoxiaode“xinxibingdu”，
shunjianzaineigeyoujiduhepanbigouchengdequanzili，yinfalebaozhashidechuanbo。henkuai，linshujiufaxian，
tabeisuoyoutarenshide“mingyuan”laheile。tachangqudejingpindian，
dianyuankantadeyanshenyebiandechongmanlejingtihebiyi。youyici，tashenzhizaiyijiacantingdexishoujianli，
tingdaolianggecengjingde“guimi”zaibeihouyilunta，shuotashige“youfengyoujiandexiaotou”。
tasuogoujiandeneigehualierxurongdeshijie，chedibengtale。neitianwanshang，tahuidaojia，xiangyijuxingshizourou。
tameiyouku，yemeiyounao，zhishizuozaishafashang，daidaidikanzhewo。“shinizuode，duibudui？”tadeshengyin，
pingjingdekepa。wokanzheta，diyici，congtayanzhong，kandaoleyizhonghewoxiangsidedongxi。neibushihen，
ershiyizhong……chedide，binglengde，juewang。womeiyouchengren，yemeiyoufouren。wozhishizoudaotamianqian，
dunxiashen，xiangguoquyiyang，qingqingbangtalilelisanluandetoufa。“xiaoshu，”woshuo，shengyinyijiu“wenrou”，
“nihaiyouwo。”zheijuhua，zaizheiyike，chengleshijieshangzuiedudezuzhou。5xuhaoneibiandejinzhan，
yeruwosuoliao。tahetadailingdejingyingtuandui，zaineigeai“migong”li，yijinghaofeilezhengzhenglianggeyue。
tamenmeitianjiabandaolingchen，bangongshiliduimanlewaimaihezihekafeibei，meigerendouyanwoshenxian，jingshenweimi。
tamenchangshilesuoyoukenengdesuanfa，youhualewushucimoxing，danxiangmujiuxiangyigewudidong，
wuluntamentouruduoshao，doukanbudaoyisishuguang。neigehexinde“luojiqidian”，xiangyidaowufayuyuedetianqian，
zudangzaitamenmianqian。xuhaodezixin，zhengzaibeiyidiandiandimodiao。takaishihuaiyizijidenengli，huaiyirensheng。
yigecengjingbeiyuwei“aitiancai”denianqingren，diyicichangdaole“wunengweili”deziwei。zheitian，
woyi“shichajindu”demingyi，zoujinletadebangongshi。bangongshili，yanwuliaorao。xuhaozuozaidiannaoqian，
manlianhucha，shuangyanbumanxuesi，sisididingzhepingmushangneiduanyongyuanzaibaocuodedaima。“zenmeyangle？
”womingzhiguwen。tataiqitou，kandaoshiwo，yanshenlishanguoyisiquruhebugan。“……haishibuxing。
zheigemoxingdedicengluoji，kenengyouwenti。”“shima？”wozoudaotashenhou，kanzhepingmushangdedaima，
lianshangluchuyige“guli”dexiaorong，“woxiangxinnidenengli。zheigexiangmu，duigongsiweilaideguzhizhiguanzhongyao。
nixingde。”wode“xinren”，xiangyikuaijushi，yadetachuanbuguoqilai。wozhizhepingmushangdeyiduandaima，
neishiwoguyiliuxiadeyigezuiyinbide“weijie”。“huoxu，nimenkeyishishicongzheigefangxiangtupo。
gaibianyixiatadequanzhongsuanfa。”xuhaodeyanjingshunjianliangle。neishiwojitade“xiwang”，
yijinengrangtajixuzaizheitiaosilushangkuangbende“dupin”。“womingbaile！xiexieshixiong！
”taxiangshizhuazhulejiumingdaocao，likezhaojituandui，kaishilexinyilundetongxiaofenzhan。wozhuanshenlikai，
neixinhaowubolan。wojitadeneige“fangxiang”，queshinengrangmoxingzaiduanqinei，paochuyixiekansibucuodeshuju。
danzheihuiyixishengmoxingdezhangqiwendingxinghefanhuanengliweidaijia，bingqiehuizaishujukudediceng，
maixiayigegengjiazhimingde、rutongaizhengyiyangde“shujuwuran”yuan。dangzheige“wuran”jileidaoyidingchengdu，
zhenggemoxing，naizhizhenggegongsidehexinshujuku，douhuizaishunjian，cheditanhuan。wojitade，bushijiejuefangan。
wojitade，shiyibayonglaiwancheng“xueshuzisha”de、baozhuangjingmeide“liwu”。wohuidaozijidebangongshi，
wodenvzhushouzhoumo，jiwosonglaileyibeikafei。zhoumoshigehencongmingdenvhai，gangbiyebujiu，
duikeyanchongmanlereqing。tayeshigongsili，chulewozhiwai，
weiyiyigenengkandongneigeaixiangmudicengjiagouderen。tabakafeifangxia，youyuleyixia，haishikaikoule。
“chenzong，”tayouxiedanyoudishuo，“wokanlexuzongtamenzuijindejinzhanbaogao。
tamencaiyongdeneigexinsuanfa……suiranduanqixiaoguohenhao，danshizhangqilaikan，fengxiantaidale。
zheiyoudianxiang……yinzhenzhike。”wotaiqitou，kanzheta。tadeyanjinghenliang，henganjing，
chongmanleduikexuedejingweiheduiwodechongbai。zaiguoqu，wohuihenxinshangzheiyangdenianqingren。danxianzai，
tade“congming”，chengleyigebuqueding“bianliang”。yigexuyaobeixiuzhengde“bianliang”。“shima？
”wopingjingdiheleyikoukafei，“yexunishiduide。danshi，yeyaojinianqingrenshicuodejihui，bushima？
”wodeyuqihenwenhe，danzhoumoquecongzhonggandaoleyisimomingdehanyi。tazhanglezhangzui，haixiangshuoshenme，
danzuizhonghaishibahuayanlehuiqu。tabuzhidao，tadezheici“tixing”，yijingweitaziji，
qidongleyigeweixiandedaojishi。zaiwode“youhua”jihuali，buyunxuyourenhebukekongdeyinsucunzai。napa，
tashiwugude。66linshudechedibengkui，biwoyuxiangdeyaozao。daohuosuo，shitadexinyongkazhangdan。
wotingdiaoletasuoyoudefuka，dongjielewomenlianmingzhanghulidedabufenzijin。
duiyuyigexiguanlehuihuowududenvrenlaishuo，zheiwuyiyuqieduanletadeshengmingxian。dangtazaiyijiashechipindian，
yinweikashuabuchulai，erbeidianyuanhezhouweidekerentouyibiyidemuguangshi，tazuihoude、yeshizuicuiruodezizun，
beichedijisuile。neitianwanshang，tahuidaojia，meiyouxiesideli，yemeiyouzhiwenwo。
tazhishimomodishoushilezijidedongxi，zhuyaoshineixietakandebiminghaizhongdemingpaibaoheyifu。
“woyaogennilihun。”tazhanzaiketingzhongyang，xiangyizunjijiangfenghuadediaoxiang，duiwoshuodao。“keyi。
”wohuidadegancuililuo，shenzhiyouxie“yukuai”，“caichanfangmian，womenhunqianyouguoxieyi。zheitaofangzi，
guiwo。gongsigufen，shiwodehunqiancaichan。zhiyucunkuan，womenlianmingzhanghulideyue，keyipingfen。
”woqingchudizhidao，neidianyue，shenzhibugoutazhifuxiageyueneixiebaodebaoyangfeiyong。
linshudeshentihuangleyixia，tabuganxiangxin，zheigecengjingba“wodeyiqiedoushinide”guazaizuibiandenanren，
huibianderucilengku、rucijingyusuanji。“chenye，”tataiqitou，diyici，
yongyizhongshenshide、moshengdemuguangkanzhewo，“nidaodishishei？”“woshinidezhangfu，chenye。”wohuida，
chenshuzheyigefalvyiyishangde“shishi”。“bu，”tayaoleyaotou，canranyixiao，“nibushi。wodezhangfu，
zaisangeyueqianneigewanshang，jiuyijingsile。xianzaideni，zhishiyige……zhanjuletashentideguaiwu。
”zheishiyigefeichangjingzhundemiaoshu。wokanzhetatuozhejigejudadexinglixiang，juejuedizouchulezheigejia。
womeiyouwanliu。yinweiwozhidao，tawuchukequ。tadejiaren，zaoyibeitadexurongshangtoulexin。
tade“pengyou”，zaoyijiangtapaoqi。taweiyideyikao，zhishengxianeigetongyangbeiwobirujuejingdexuhao。
yigebeizhanduanjingjilaiyuande“jinsique”，heyigejijiangshenbaimingliede“tiancai”。
tamenhuixiangliangzhinishuideren，jinjindibaozaiyiqi，ranhou，yiqichenrugengshendehaidi。erwo，
zhixuyaozaianshang，jingjingdixinshang。guanshangmen，fangzilishunjianbiandekongkuangeranjing。wozoudaowoshi，
kanzheneigecengjingshuyuwomenlianggerendekongjian。kongqili，linshudeqixihaimeiyouwanquansanqu。wodakaishouji，
bofangleyiduanluyin。neishineiwan，zaiwoshimenkou，woyongshoujiluxiade，linshuhexuhaodechuanxiheduihua。
【“……hao，womenzheiyang……yaoshibeishixiongfaxianlezenmeban？”】【“pashenme，
tajiushigezhidongyanjiudeshudaizi……xiaoshu，dengwonadaotaneigeaidehexinjishu，
womenjiuzaiyebuyongkantaliansele……”】【“keshi……wohaishijuededuibuqita。”】【“duibuqi？
shitaduibuqini！tajinide，zhishiqian！wojinide，caishiai！dengwomenchenggongle，
wojinimaibizheigengdadefangzi，gengduodebao！daoneishihou，nijiuhuizhidao，
sheicaishizhenzhengnengmanzunidenanren……”】zheiduanluyin，womeitiandouhuitingyibian。
bushiweiletixingzijiyouduohen。ershiweilexiaozhunwode“youhua”mubiao。tamendebeipan，bujinjinshi**。
xuhao，congyikaishi，jiujiyuwodehexinjishu。erlinshu，tabeipande，bushiwo，
ershitazijineifenyongyuanwufabeimanzude，mingwei“xurong”deyuanzui。wolengjingdijiangluyinwenjian，jiami，
fasongdaoleyigeyouxiang。zheigeyouxiangdeshoujianren，shizhoumo。youjiandezhengwen，
wozhixieleyijuhua：【youxiezhenxiang，xuyaobeikanjian。】zhoumo，woneikecongmingde“bianliang”。shishihou，
rangnifahuinizhenzhengdezuoyongle。7zhoumozaishoudaoyoujianhoudefanying，wanquanzaiwodeyuliaozhizhong。zhenjing，fennu，
ranhoushishenshendeshiwanghe……kongju。tashiyigeyouzhengyigande、danchundenvhai。
tawufajieshouzijijingyangdeshixiongxuhao，huishizheiyangyigebeilie**dexiaoren。gengrangtagandaokongjude，shiwo。
tazhongyumingbai，wojiaojixuhaodeneigexiangmu，genbenbushishenmejihui，
ershiyigeweitaliangshendingzuode、hualidefenmu。erwo，zheigekansiwenheruyadeceo，
caishibeihouneigezuikepade、caokongyiqiede“lieren”。diertian，talaizhaowo，dishanglecizhixin。“chenzong，
duibuqi，woxiangwobutaishihezheili。”tadeliansecangbai，yanshenlichongmanlefuzadeqingxu。
womeiyoukancizhixin，zhishipingjingdikanzheta。“shiyinweineifenluyin？”tamengditaiqitou，
zuichunzhandouzhe：“nin……ninweishenmeyaozheimezuo？jiusuanxuzongta……tazuocuoleshi，
ninyebuyinggaiyongzheizhongfangshi……zheishifanzui！”“fanzui？”woxiaole，
neishiyigebudairenhewendude、chuncuiyoujirouqiandongerchengdexiaorong，“zhoumo，zaizheigeshijieshang，
zuigaoxiaodefaze，conglaidoubushixiezaifadianlideneixie。ershi‘yinguo’。tazhongxiale‘yin’，
wojiuyaorangtadedao‘guo’。zheibujiaofanzui，zheijiao‘pingheng’。”wodehua，chedidabailetaderenzhi。
takanzhewo，xiangzaikanyigelaiziyishijiedeshengwu。“wobuneng……wobunengbangninzuozheizhongshi。
”tahoutuileyibu，yaozhetou，“woyaobazheijianshi……gaosuxuzong。”“nikeyishishi。”woyijiupingjing，
“buguowojianyinixiankankanzheige。”wojiangyigepingbandiannaotuidaotamianqian。pingmushang，
shiyifenwanzhengdediaochabaogao。guanyuzhoumodejiatingbeijing，tadefumu，taneigehuanyouxiantianxingxinzangbingdedidi，