第二章为自己活
woshibeizhouweicaozadeshengyinchaoxingde，yizhengyanbianfaxianzijizhengtangzaiyiyuanguodaodebingchuangshang。
shijimingyihurenyuancongwoshenbianchuanguo，haohaodangdangdejinleduimianvipbingfangnei。
guodaolijujibushaokanrenaoderenqun。
“ai，youqianzhenhaoa，nikanneinande，duojinzhangtalaopo。”
“woqiaozhebuxianglaopo，nimeitingneiguniangjiaoneinandexiaogegema。”
“bieluanshuo，wanyishirenjiaqinxiongmeini....”
“nijianguolianggeyixingdeqinxiongmei？wogangcaiketingjianle，hushijiaoneiguniangguan**，jiaoneinandeguzong....”
guzong...xiaogege...
womianseweibai，zhijianbuzijuekoujin。
“**，ninzenmeyezaiyiyuan？”
tingdaoshuxideshengyin，woxunshengkanqu，shibabacengjingdezhulichenshu。
tashoulilinzheliangdaitaojidedianxin，shiwoaichideneijia，paiduiyaolianggexiaoshi。
danxianran，zheidianxinbushijiwozhunbeide。
chenshujianwozuozaizoudaodebingchuangshang，meixincuqi，“**，womashangjininanpaiyijianbingfang。”
budengwojujue，chenshuyijingqulehushizhanxieshang。
youlechenshuchumian，henkuaiwodechuangweijiubeihuandaolebingfangnei，suiranbushivipbingfang，danwozhidaochenshuyijingjinlile。
xianzaishixiatian，yiyuandebinghuanhenduonengyouyizhangchuangweiyijinghenburongyile。
wobenxiangjianchidaoguawanshui，zhishihushiyoulaijialeyipingshui，naodaiyemenmendeteng，suoxingjiubujujuele，bingfangzongshibizoudaoanjingxie。
“**，ninyoushijiuzhaowo，wo...”
huayinweiluo，chenshudeshouji**jicudixiangqi。
“chenshu，niyoushijiuqumangba，jintianmafannile。”
chenshumiandaiqianyi，nachuyihedianxinfangzaibingchuangbiandexiaozhuozishang。
bianjiedianhuabianchaobingfangmenkouzouqu，“guzong，duibuqi，womashang....”
chenshujianwotizhediaopingchulai，shangqianyibuxiangyaobangwo。
“**，yishengshuoninyinggaiduoxiuxi，zenmeqilaile。”
xiayimiao，nanrenlengchendesangyinxiangqi。
“zheimeguanxinta，burunimingtianqujiangjiabaodao？”
chenshushijiangshidelaorenle，zheimeduoniangongzuocongmeichuguocuo，jiuyinweibanglewojiubeikeyizhendui。
“guxiao，buguaichenshu，dianxinwohaimeipengguo。”
wojiangshoulidedaizididaoguxiaomianqian，shoubeichudexueyekaishihuiliu。
guxiaomeixinweicu，muguangluozaiwolengbaideshoubeichu，xindixianqiyisifanzao，“songchuqudedongxi，womeiyoushouhuilaidexiguan。”
guanxinerjianzhuangguyidao，“laochen，nizenmebuzaoshuo。qianqianyoubushiwairen，buguoshiyifendianxin，wohexiaogegeyechibuleneimeduode。”
tashangqianwozhuwodeshoubei，yifuzhixinjiejiedemoyang。
“qianqian，wotingshuonizuijinzaijianfei，shibushijieshisuoyicaiyundaode？nvhaizikebunengsuibianjianfei，buranduishentibuhao，zheidianxinnijiunazhechiba。”
“jintiandeshiwobuguainile，niqianwanbiezize。”
我手背上还扎着针。
guanxinerquexiangshimeikanjian，jinjinwozhewodeshou，meiduoyifenli，zhentoubianyuewangrouliduoqianyifen。
wotengdedaoxiyikouqi，xiayishishuaikaileguanxinerdeshou。
“啊......”
guanxinerjinghuyisheng，chaoyipangdaoqu，cangbaidelianshangmanshiwugu。
guxiaomianseweibian，jihushibennengfanying，tazhangbeiyilanjiubaguanxinerhuzailehuaili。
“jiangqian！ninengbunengjiangdianli？xineryouxinzangbing，shibushiyaonaochurenmingnicaiganxin！”
meiyoujiworenhejieshidejihui，guxiaobaoqiguanxinerjiuchaovipbingfangzouqu。
keshiguxiao，woyebingle，niweishenmekanbudao？
kanzhetalikaidebeiying，xinkouhaishimimimamadetongleqilai。
chenshuyebugandanwu，zhishichaowoweiweihanshoubianyegenleshangqu。
woditoukanzheshoubeishangdeneipianqingzi，shixianbeileishuimohu。
woxilexibizi，shoushangzhentouyijingwaile，zhinengzhaohushizhongxinzhayizhen。
yuanbenyishengquanwoyongliuzhizhende，danwoyouyule。
bijingliuzhizhentaimingxian，wohaimeixianghaoyaozenmegaosumama。
babaqushihoumamajiuyijingshoulejidadedaji，wobugandu。
daolejia，yijingshiwanshangshidian，wogangjinmenwomabangeshentidoutandaolemenwai。
“ma，biekanle，guxiaomeihuilai。”
wohuanletuoxiewanglizou，zhitingjiantagenzaiwoshenhouxuxutaotaode。
“zenmeyoumeihuilai？wobushirangnizhudongdiandema？”
guxiaoyijingbanchuquyigeyuele，womatiantiandoupanzhetazhuhuilai，fangfozheiyangjiunengrangwomenhehaoruchule。
womajidekuaishanghuole，lanzailoutikou。
“nanrendoushichiruanbuchiyingde，nimenxianzaihaimeilingzheng，wanshidouhuishengbian，genghekuangguxiaoneimeyouxiuwanyibeibiedenvrengoulequ，daoshihounibabadegongsiyaozenmeban？nizheigeweihunqiduoshaoshangdianxin！”
jianwobushuohua，womayifuhentiebuchenggangdeyangzi。
“nidaodiyoumeiyouzaitingwoshuo？mingtianworangwangmaduozuodianzaocan，nijiguxiaosongqu，buyaozhengtianlengzhegelian，meiyounanrenxihuanzheiyangde，yaobushinibabazaozaojinidingxiazheimenhunshi，yebuzhidaohuiyousheihuiquni。”
jibianzheixiehuawotinglebuzhiyibian，cikewoxinlihaishirenbuzhusuanchu。
wodingzheqingzideshoubei，congjinmendaoxianzai，womameiyouguanxinguowoyiju，shuodedoushiguanyujiehundeshi。
tayiqianbushizheiyangde，babahaizaideshihou，woshijialidexiaogongzhu。
shibasuishengrineitian，wohaijidewomashuo，“wocaishebudeqianqianjiaren，mamaningkeyangniyibeizi。”
neishi，guxiaoduiwoyeshibucuode。
wohuranjiujuedetingmeiyiside，fangxiashuibei，sangyinyouxiegengyan，“ma，wobuxiangjiehunle。”
cengjingjiajiguxiaoshiwodemengxiang，kexianzaiwoyijingmeiyouweilaile。
顾萧不爱我。
zaishengxiadeshengmingli，wozhixiangweizijihuo。
shuochuxinzhongdehua，wohuranjuedexintouyikuaidashibeinuokaile。
“tuihun？nishiyaobisiwoma？”
wotaitoudeshunjian，womahurannaqiyipangdeshuiguodaodizaibozishang。
tamanlianjuewangdekanzhewo。
“qianqian，nibabadegongsishimamaweiyidenianxiangle，ruguogongsimeile，wo....woyejiubuhuole！”
womeixiangdaowomahuiyisixiangbi。
“妈！”
kandaotamanshoushixuedeyangzi，wohedewuzhulezui。
“qianqian，jiujiunibabadegongsi，jiujiu...”
womayundaodeshunjian，woconglaimeiyouzheimewucuoguo，wobaozhemamadeshenti，shouzhizhandouzhebochuleqiujiudianhua。
lingchen，womadeshangkouzongsuanbeichulihao。
yishengshuodaozizaibijinyicun，jiugedaodongmaile，yundaozeshiguojixingweiyinqideziwobaohu。
wosonglekouqi，haozaimamameishi。
mimihuhuzhongwoshuileguoqu。
zheiwanwomengdaolexiaoshihou，bababaguxiaolinghuijia，gaosuwoyihouyougegebaohule。
jianjianditamenliwoyuelaiyueyuan，heianzhongzhishengwoyigeren。