gongsishangshiqianyizhou，hexindaimakubeiqingkong。jiankongluxiangli，qiziluxuedeshenyingqingxiwubi。
wotitadingzuiruyu，zhiyintaguizheshuochulianhuiyincishenbaiminglie。sannianlaoyu，
huanlaidequeshitayuchulianxieshoushangshi、fengguangwuxiandecaijingtoutiao。chuyudangtian，wonimingshouchubeifendaima，
tamendegujiashunjianbengpan。jizhefabuhuishang，wohuanhuanzouru：“luzong，yongwodaimadeganjueruhe？
”kanzhetacanbaidelian，woqingxiao：“wangleshuo，zhenzhengdehoumen，zainigangcaidianxiadequerenjianli。
”diyizhanghuposedebeipandengguangshibinglengdehupose，pozailingluandezongcaibangongshili，
xiangmouzhongninggudejuewang。diannaopingmushang，
ciyandehongsejinggaokuangbuduanshanshuo：“hexindaimakulianjieshibai——wufatongbu——yanzhongcuowu！
”riqixianshi：2021nian10yue26ri，wanshang11dian37fen。
juli“xingyao”kejiyuandingzainasidakeqiaozhong，zhishengbudaoqitian。wodeshouzhibingliang，yibianbianqiaojijianpan，
shituraoguofanghuoqiang，jieruweiyuchengshilingyiduan、yousanzhongjiamixieyibaohudezhongyangfuwuqi。
hanshuicongejiaohuaxia，dizaiangguidehongmuzhuomianshang，yinkaiyigexiaoxiaodeshenseyuandian。meiyongde。
suoyouzhilingdoushichendahai。bushiwangluobodong，bushiyingjianguzhang，
neigecunchuzhe“xingyao”xinzang——rengongzhinengshenduxuexiyinqingquanbuyuandaimadebaoku，beirencongneibu，
ganjingliluodi……bankongle。shenhou，gongsishouxijishuguanzhouming，yeshiwochuangyezhijinzuihaodexiongdi，
tanzuozaiyidalidingzhidezhenpishafali，liansehuibai，zuichunbuzhudiduosuo，
funiantaozhe：“wanle……quanwanle……shangshi……duiduxieyi……wugeyidepeichangjin……”womengdizhuanshen，
yiquanzazaizhuomianshang，gujieshengteng，queyabuzhuxindineigufengkuangzizhangdehanyi。“jiankong！anbaoxitong！
rizhijilu！jiwodiao！jiusuanshiguigande，yedebatajiuchulai！”anbaozhuguanliangundaipadicaozuozhekongzhitai，
judadetouyingpingshangkaishikuaisuhuifangfuwuqijifangwaidejiankongluxiang。shijianchuofeisudaotui，
huamianzaishenyedejijingyubairidefanmangjianqiehuan。wodexintiaorutongleigu，zhuangjizhexiongqiang，
mouzhongbuxiangdeyuganxiangtengmanyiyangchanraoshanglai。“ting！”zhoumingsiyadihanleyisheng。huamiandingge。
lingchen2dian15fen。yigechuanzhemibaisefengyi、shenxingyaotiaoshuxiderangwoxinzangzhoutingdenvren，
shuakailexuyaozuigaoquanxiandejifangdamen。tadongzuoliuchang，meiyouyisiyouyu，jingzhizouxiangzhukongzhongduan。
gaoqingshexiangtouqingxidibuzhuodaotaceliandeneiyike，wohunshendexueyefangfoshunjiandongjie。luxue。wodeqizi，
luxue。pingmushang，tashuliandishuruzhiling，jieruyidongyingpan。jindutiaozaijifenzhongneiduman，ranhou，
tabaxiashebei，qiaoranliqu，xiangwanchengyicixunchangdeyejiantanban。zhenggeguochengbudaoshifenzhong，
quezuyijiangwohe“xingyao”tuixiangwanjiebufudeshenyuan。bangongshilisiyibandejijing。suoyougaoguandemuguang，
huojinghai，huotongqing，huonanyizhixin，doujujiaozaiwoshenshang。woganjuezijixiangbeiboguangleyifu，
rengzaibingtianxuedizhizhong，meiyicunpifudoubaoluzaicankudezhenxiangxia。
“lin……linzong……”zhoumingdeshengyindaizhekuqiang，“shi……shisaozi？ta……taweishenme？”weishenme？
woyexiangzhidaoweishenme！womenshidaxuexiaoyuanlirenrenyanxiandejintongyunv，
shichuangyelushangxianghufuchideqinmibanlv。gongsimingzi“xingyao”，
quziwomenmingzidexieyin——“linyao”de“yao”，“luxue”de“xue”（xieyin“xing”dejinsiyin）。
suoyourendoushuo，womenshitianzuozhihe。jiuzaishangzhou，tahaiyiweizaiwohuaili，xiaozheguihuashangshihoudehuanqiulvxing，
shuoyaobushangqianlehenjiudemiyue。wochonghuijia，neigewomenjingxinbuzhi、chongmanhuiyidebieshu。
luxuezhengzuozaiketingdeshafashang，nuanhuangdeluodidengyingzhetatianjingdecelian，tasihuzaidengwo，
shoubianfangzheyibeiheleyibandehongjiu。kandaowoshabaideliansehebumanxuesideyanjing，tafangxiajiubei，zhanqishen，
lianshangdaizheyisiqiadaohaochudedanyou：“yao，zenmele？gongsichushenmeshile？
”woyibajiangdayinchulaidejiankongjietushuaizaichajishang，bolimianfachucierdeshengxiang。“jieshi。
”wodeshengyinsiyadebuxiangziji。luxuedemuguangluozaizhaopianshang，shentijibukechadihuangleyixia，
lianseshunjiantundeganganjingjing。tameiyoufouren，meiyoubianjie，zhishitaiqitou，kanzhewo，
yanleihaowuyuzhaodiyonglechulai，dakedakediwangxiadiao。
“yao……duibuqi……wo……woshibeipode……”tachongguolai，sisizhuazhuwodeshoubei，
zhijiajihuqianjinwoderouli，“shichenhao……shichenhaobiwode！”chenhao。tadechuliannanyou。
neigezaitaxinlipanjuleduonian，jishizaiwomenhunhouyeouerhuizaitashishenshibeitijidemingzi。
yige……jinianqianyinshangyeqizhachadianruyu，houlaijushuozaiguowaihunjidenanren。
……tapailewoyixiebuhaodezhaopian……henduonianqiandeshile……tashuoruguowobuba‘xingyao’dedaimajita，
tajiubazheixiezhaopiangongzhiyuzhong，rangtashenbaiminglie，yerangwomeilianjianren！”luxuekudehunshenfadou，
yuwulunci，“yao，wobuneng……wobunengyanzhengzhengkanzhetajiuzheimehuile！
tayiqianbushizheiyangde……tazhishizoutouwulule……”tamengdiguidaozaidi，baozhuwodetui，
yangqidelianshangmanshileihen，chongmanlejuewangdeqiqiu：“yao，qiuqiuni，bangbangwo……zhiyouninengbangwole！
gongsishinide，ruguonichengrenshinicaozuoshiwu，huozhe……huozheshuoshiniweilebiedemudezhuanyiledaima，
dingduojiushishangyejiufen……buhuizuohenjiulaode……danruguoshichenhao，tazheishishangyejiandiezui，huizhongpande！
tazheibeizijiuzhendewanle！”woditoukanzhezheigewoaileshinian、quhuijiadenvren。taguizaidishang，
weilelingyigenanren，qiuwoqudingxiazheizuyihuidiaowoyishengdezuize。huangmiuganxianghaixiaoyiyangyanmeilewo，
rangwojihuzhanlibuwen。“yao，
jiukanzaiwomenzheimeduonianfuqiqingfenshang……kanzaiwoweinifuchuneimeduodefenshang……jiubangwozheiyici，
haobuhao？jiuyici！”tadekushengjianruicier，“nijinquhou，wohuidadianhaoyiqie，
jinkuairangnichulai……gongsimeilewomenkeyizaichuangye，danrenbunenghuilea……”wodedanaoyipiankongbai。
fennu、beipan、xintong、nanyizhixin……zhongzhongqingxufengkuangsichezhewo。woxiangtuikaita，xiangzhiwentapingshenme，
xianggaosutazheiyouduokexiao。dankanzhetakudejihuyunjuedeyangzi，kanzhezheizhangcengjingrangwowubijuanliandelian，
neixiehenhuakazaihoulongli，yigeziyetubuchulai。shinian。congqingsedaochengshu，congyiwusuoyoudaoshenjiayiwan。
neixieyiqikenpaomiangaifangandeyewan，neixieyinweinadaotouzixiangyongerqideshunjian，
neixietazaiwoerbianqingshengshuo“linyao，
woxiangxinniyidingnengchenggong”deguli……xiangdianyinghuamianyiyangzaiyanqianshanguo。zuizhong，
neidiankebeide、cancundeaiyihexiguanxingdebaohuyu，jingranyaguolelizhi。
wotingjianzijiyongyizhongmoshengerpibeideshengyinshuo：“hao。”luxuemengditaiqitou，
yanzhongshanguoyisinanyizhixinde、jinhukuangxideguangmang，suijiyoubeigengxiongyongdeleishuifugai。
“yao……xiexieni……xiexieni……”neiyike，woqingchudikandao，neikuangxizhixia，
yinzangzheyisirushizhongfudesuanji。danwoxuanzelehulve。woxianggechetoucheweideshagua，
qinshouweizijidaishanglejiasuo。dierzhangrenzuishuyutunsedehunjiejiexialaidejitian，rutongzaidiyulixingzou。
zailvshizhenjinghequanzudemuguangzhong，
woqianshuleyifenloudongbaichu、danzuyijiangzhuyaozuizelandaozijishenshangde“qingkuangshuoming”。
woshengchengshiyouyuduiduxieyiyaliguoda，qitusixiazhuanyidaimayixunqiu“genglinghuo”derongzifangshi，
yincaozuobudangdaozhishujuxielu。xiaoxiyichu，yulunhuaran。
meitiyongjinzuiedudecihui：“xingyaoceolinyaodejingtianpianju”、“jishutiancaihaishishangyexiaochou？
”“shangshiqianxidefengkuang，yichangjingxincehuadetaowang？”。dongshihuifenbenglixi，touzirenfenfenqisu，
yuangongzuoniaoshousan。cengjingmentingruoshide“xingyao”zongbu，shunjianbiandemenkeluoque，
zhishengxiamandilangjiedefeizhiheposuidemengxiang。kaitingneitian，tianqiyinchen。wochuanzhezhoubabadexizhuang，
zhanzaibeigaoxishang，muguangsaoguopangtingxi。luxuezuozaidiyipai，chuanzheheisedetaozhuang，liansecangbai，yanjinghongzhong，
yifushangxinyujuedeweiwangrenmoyang。taoueryuwoduishi，yanshenfuza，youkuijiu，youaiqiu，
haiyouyisi……buyichajuedecuicu。dangwoanzhaoyueding，
yonggansedeshengyinchenshuwanneifenhuangtangde“renzuishu”shi，faguandelianshangdouluchulenanyizhixindebiaoqing。
wodebianhulvshi，yiweiyejiezhimingdelaozhe，tongxinjishoudidihou：“linyao！nizhibuzhidaonizaishuoshenme！
”wozhidao。wodangranzhidao。wozaiqinshoumaizangzijideweilai，quchengquanyigehuangyan，
qubaohuyigeweilechulianguixialaiqiuwodenvren。zuizhong，panjuexialai：yinzaochengzhongdajingjisunshi，
gouchengshangyeqizhazui，panchuyouqituxingsannian。fachuiluoxiadeshengyin，qingcuierbingleng，
xiangshiworenshenglezhangdeyigexiuzhifu。wobeifajingdailifating。jingguoluxueshenbianshi，taturanchongguolai，
zhuazhuwodegebo，leiruyuxia：“yao，duibuqi……wohuidengnichulaide……yiding！”tadeshouzhibingliang，
shengyingengyan，biaoyandetianyiwufeng。danwoqingxidikandao，zaitanongmidejiemaoxia，
neimeiwoqiuhunshisongjitadezuanjie，yijingbujianlezongying。wumingzhishang，zhiliuxiayiquandandandejiehen。wodexin，
zaineiyike，chedichenrulebinghai。lianzuihouyisiziqiqirendehuanxiang，yechedifensui。
disanzhangtiechuangxiadecaijingtoutiaojianyudeshenghuo，shishiquyansedemanjingtou。gaoqiang，dianwang，dandiaodezuoxi，
culideshiwu，haiyouxingxing**、daizhegezhonggushidefanren。wocongyigeyiqifengfadekejixingui，
bianchenglebianhao“7342”deqiufan。zuichudejigeyue，shilianyu。judadexinliluocha，
beifuyuanqudefenmen，yijiduiluxuefuzananyandeqingxu，jihujiangwobifeng。woyebunengmei，
kaozhehuiyiguoqumeiyigexijie，shituzhaochuluxuebeipandezhusimaji，laizhemoziji，baochiqingxing。
zhouminglaikanguowoyici。tashoulehenduo，yanshenlichongmanlekuijiuhebujie。“yaoge，**shibushifengle！
weishenmeyaotitadingzui！neijiankongmingmingjiushita！womendoukandaole！”woyaoyaotou，shenmeyemeishuo。
shiyizhici，duoshuowuyi。nandaoyaogaosuxiongdi，wobeisuoweideaiqingchonghunletounao，
xiangge**yiyangziyuantiaojinlehuokeng？“gongsi……chedimeile。zichanqingsuan，paizidoumaile。
”zhouminghongzheyanjing，“yaoge，woduibuqini，meishouzhu……”“buguaini。”woyashengshuo，
“shiwoxianfangqileta。”tanshishijiankuaidaodeshihou，zhoumingyouyuleyixia，yadishengyinshuo：“yaoge，
youjianshi……wobuzhidaogaibugaishuo。nijinquhoumeiduojiu，luxue……tajiuhechenhaozoudehenjin。
xianzai……chenhaoshi‘haoxuekeji’deceo，luxueshizongcai。
tamen……tamenyongyitaohe‘xingyao’hexinhenxiangdejishu，nadaolejuetouzi，
fengtouhenjing……”haoxuekeji。chenhao。luxue。zheigemingzixiangyibacuidudebishou，henhenzhajinwodexinzang。
yuanlairuci。shenmechulianbeiweixie，shenmeshenbaiminglie，quandoushigoupi！zheigenbenjiushiyichangjingxincehuadeyinmou！
tamenzaojiugoudazaiyiqi，mubiaojiushi“xingyao”dehexindaima！wosisizuanjinquantou，zhijiashenxianjinzhangxin，
tengtongrangwobaochizheyisilizhi。“zhouming，bangwogemang。”wodingzheta，yiziyidundishuo，
“woshufangdejiudiannao，yingpanzuidiceng，youyigejiamiwenjianjia，jiao‘nuoyafangzhou’。
mimashiniwodaxueshidiyicishibaideneigechuangyexiangmusuoxie。xiangbanfa，balimiandedongxi，nongchuqu。
baohuhaota。dengwochulai。”zhouminglengleyixia，suijizhongzhongdiantou：“nifangxin！yaoge，
zhiyaowoyouyikouqizai，yidingbandao！”zhoumingzouhou，woduguolezaijianyulizuijiannandeyiduanshiguang。
danqiguaideshi，dangzhenxiangyizuichouloudefangshijiekaihou，wofanerpingjinglexialai。henyi，
chenglezhichengwohuoxiaqudeweiyiranliao。wokaishiliyongyiqiekenengdejihuixuexi，
kanzhoumingxiangbanfasongjinlaideshangye、falv、jishushuji。woduanlianshenti，baochiqingxingdetounao。
woyaohuozhechuqu，wanhaowusundichuqu。waimiandeneiduigounannv，bupeiyongyouwoyongxuerouhezhihuihuanlaidechengguo，
tamenbixufuchudaijia。shijianhuanmanliushi。ouer，nengcongjianyutushuguanfeiqidebaozhijiaoluo，
huozheguanjiaoxianliaodezhiyanpianyuzhong，tingdaoguanyu“haoxuekeji”dexiaoxi。tamenfazhanxunmeng，chengweiyejieheima，
chenhaoheluxuebeiyuwei“kejijiedeshendiaoxialv”，pinfanchuxianzaigezhongcaijingbanmianheshangyeluntanshang。
meiyicitingdaotamendemingzi，douxiangshizaiworanshaodehenyishangjiaoxiayitongyou。
woxiangxiangzhetamenfengguangwuxiandeyangzi，xiangxiangzheluxueruhezaimeitimianqianbanyanchenggongnvxingdejiaose，
neixinlengxiaobuzhi。sannian，zhengzhengyiqianduogeriye。dangwozhongyunadaoneizhangbobodeshifangzhengming，
zouchujianyuchenzhongdedatiemenshi，waimiandeyangguangcidewoyanjingshengteng。kongqishiziyoude，quedaizhetiexiudeweidao。
wochuanzhesannianqianjinqushideneishenyifu，rujinxiandekongdangerchenjiu。shenwufenwen，zhiyouyigejiandandexinglidai，
limianzhuangzhezheijiniandebijihejijianjiuwu。menkou，zhiyouzhoumingyigerenzaidengwo。
takaizheyiliangbanjiudeershouche，kandaowo，kuaibuyingshanglai，yonglibaozhuwo，shengyingengyan：“yaoge，xinkule。
”wopaipaitadebei，meiyoushuohua。muguangyueguotadejianbang，kandaojiejiaobaokantingzuixianyandeweizhi，
baifangzhezuixindecaijingzazhi。fengmianrenwu，zhengshichenhaoheluxue。liangrenbingjianerli，xiaorongzixineryaoyan。
judadebiaotixiezhe：“haoxuekejiqidongipo，aixinguijijiangdenglukechuangban！”shijianqiadezhenzhun。
wochuyu，tamenshangshi。zuojincheli，zhoumingdijiwoyigezhanxindeshoujiheyizhangyinxingka。“yaoge，
xianandunxialai。‘nuoyafangzhou’，wobaocundehenhao。”wojieguoshouji，kaiji，
diyitiaotuisongxinwenjiushi：“haoxuekejiluyanhuobao，guzhihuochaobaiyi！
”kanzhepingmushangluxueneizhangjingguomeiguangdengxiushi、wanmeiwuxiadelian，wohuanhuangouqizuijiao，
luchuyimobinglengchegudexiaorong。youxi，caiganggangkaishi。luxue，chenhao，nimencongwozheilitouzoude，
wohuilianbendaili，qinshounahuilai。yongnimenzuiyixiangbudaodefangshi。
disizhang“nuoyafangzhou”qihangzhoumingbawoanzhizaijiaoquyidongbuqiyandejiugongyuli。difangsuixiao，
danganjingpijing，zhongyaodeshi，buhuibeineiduifengtouzhengjingde“shenxianjuanlv”zhuyidao。
womeiyoushijianchenjinzaiguoqudequruzhong，fuchoudejiqibixulikeqidong。zuodediyijianshi，
jiushidakaineitaizhoumingjingxinbaoguanxialaidejiubijibendiannao，jieruyidongyingpan，shurumima。
“nuoyafangzhou”wenjianjiashunlidakai。limiantangzhede，
bushi“xingyao”hexindaimadewanzhengfuben——neiyangtairongyibeizhuizonghezhiyi——ershidaimade“gujia”，
zuijinghuadesuanfaluoji、goujiashejihejichuzhiguanzhongyaode、yinzangjishendejiamihoumenmiyao。
zheishiwochuangyechuqi，zaiwushugebumianzhiyeli，chuyujishurenyuandepianzhihemouzhongweiyuchoumoudezhijue，
qiaoqiaoliuxiade“huozhong”。taduliyugongsidezhukaifaliucheng，
shenzhilianzuiqinmidexiongdizhoumingdoubuzhidaotadewanzhengxingtai。tajiuxiangyibaweiyinengdakaibaokudeyaochi，
erbaokudedamen，rujinbeiluxuehechenhaotangerhuangzhidizhanjuzhe。wozixijianchalezheixiedaimahemiyao，
querentamenzai“haoxuekeji”muqiangongkaiyanshidexitongzhong，yiranyouxiao。kanlai，
chenhaozhaolaidejishutuanduisuiranbucuo，danhaibuzuyifaxianwoliuxiadezheixie“caidan”。zheihenhao。jiexialai，
xuyaozhaoyigeheshide“maijia”。zheigemaijiabixuyouzugoudeshiliheweikoutunxia“haoxuekeji”，
bingqiechushouyaokuai、yaohen，bunengjitamenrenhefanyingshijian。tongshi，jiaoyibixujueduinimingheanquan。
woliyongzaiyuzhongzixuedeyixieteshujineng，tongguocengcengjiamidewangluojiedian，
lianxishangleyigeguojizhimingdenimingqiankezuzhi。zheizhongzuzhizhuanmenweigezhongjianbudeguangdejuejiaoyiqianxiandaqiao，
xinyuqujueyuyongjindegaodi。wotigongle“nuoyafangzhou”bufenfeihexinsuanfazuowei“yangpin”，
zhengmingleqijiazhi。henkuai，qiankefankui，youmaijiabiaoxianchunonghouxingqu，
bingqiekaichuleyigegaodelipudetianjia——gaodaozuyimaixiahaojigedianfengshiqide“xingyao”。
maijiadeshenfenbeiyangebaomi，danqiankeanshi，shimougeyizhidui“haoxuekeji”hushidandandexingyejutou。
zhenghewoyi。jiaoyifangshishedingweijiamihuobizhifu，tongguowufazhuizongdehunbiqichuli，
zuizhonghuiruwozaihaiwainimingkaishededuogezhanghu。erdaimadejiaofu，
zeshedingleyigechufatiaojian：zai“haoxuekeji”shangshijiaoyi、gupiaokeyiziyouliutongdeneiyike，
zidongfasongdaomaijiazhidingdefuwuqi。zheishiyichanghaodu。wobafuchoudebanji，
jiaojileshijianhezibenshichangdebuquedingxing。danwozhidao，duiyuneigejutoulaishuo，
zaiduishouzuizhideyimandeshikejiyuzhimingyiji，suonenghuodedeliyihezhenshe，yuanbiwokaichudejiamagenggao。
tamenbuhuijujue。yiqiedouzaianwangzhongqiaowushengxidituijin。woxiangyitouqianfuzaiyinyingzhongdelang，
naixindengdaizheliewutaruxianjing。zheiduanshijian，wokeyiguanzhuzhe“haoxuekeji”deyiqiedongxiang。
tamendeshangshijinchengyilulvdeng，meitiputiangaididexuanchuan，jiangchenhaoheluxuepengshangleshentan。luyanshipinli，
chenhaokankanertan，jiangwodejishuchengguobaozhuangchengtade“dabaixingchuangxin”；luxuezeyouyadizhanzaitashenbian，
ouerbuchongjiju，muguangzhongchongmanleduishenbiannanrendechongbaiheyilai。haoyiduizhulianbihedebiren！
tamenshenzhijieshouleyijiazhimingcaijingdianshitaidezhuanfang。zhuchirenxiaozhewenjitamendelianaishi，
chenhaoshenqingdikanleyiyanluxue，shuo：“wohexiaoxueshidaxuetongxue，bicishichulian。