第5章

sheizhi,wogangzouguoguaijiaoqueturanyanqianyihei,yitouzaidaoxiaqu。

再醒来,是在医院。

yishengzhanzaiwobingchuangqian:“zhangqiguoliangfuyongbiyunyaoweihaijida,nizheicishixingyun,zaishangchangyundao,beirenjishisonglaiyiyuan,fouzehouguobukanshexiang。”

“避孕药?”

womanyanmimang:“woconglaimeichiguobiyunyao,wohewolaogongdoupanzhehuaishangxiaobaobao——”

haimeishuowan,quebeiyishengdaduan:“womendechouxuejianceshujubuhuichucuo,congbaogaojieguokan,niyinggaimeitiandouchi。”

woyaotou,kexiayimiaoquemengrandunzhu。

wozhanzheshou,congbaolifanchuyigebaisedeyaoping:“yisheng,wochehuohoushuangtuiliuxiahouyizheng,meitiandouchizhitongyao,nikankanzheigeshizhitongyaoma?”

yishengdaochuyaopianyikanshangmiandebcpyinzi,meitouyizhou:“zheijiushibiyunyao,sheigennishuotanengzhitong?”

我如坠冰窟。

谁说的?

zheiyaoshilibeichenqinshoujiaojiwode,nengzhitongde“texiaoyao”!

脑中一片嗡鸣。

wobuzhidaozijishizenmehuidaolanwanbieshu。

家里一个人都没有。

heianli,wojingjingzuozaichuangbian,yizhishouxiayishifumoxiaofu,lingyizhishoujinwochengquan。

zheilicengjingyunyuguowohelibeichendehaizi。

kexineigehaizimeiyouhuoxialai,yiwailiuchanshi,baobaoyijingzhangchuleshoujiao。

neishi,wodeqingxujijinbengkui,libeichenjiuguizaiwochuangbian,hongzheyanyibianyouyibianzhandoukenqiu:“chuchu,niyidingyaojianqiang,wobunengmeiyouni,haiziwomenyihouhuiyou……”

以后会有吗?

没有以后了。

“dinglingling——dinglingling——”

cierdelingshengyouxiangqilai,dapochenjing。

wokanzheshangmiantiaoyuezhe“libeichen”sangezi,meiyoudong,zhidaoshoujizidongguanji。

kexiayishun,fangmenpengdebeirentuikai。

mantoudahan,canbaileliandelibeichenhuangkongchongguolai,jinjinbaozhuwo。

yudiaoshizhibuzhudehoupa:“chuchu,nizenmebujiedianhua,wozaishangchangdaochudouzhaobudaoni,nizhidaowoyouduohaipama?”

tashuozhehaipa,kewoquebuzhidaotajiujingzaipashenme。

怕我消失?

怕我出现意外?

还是怕我受到伤害?

wenzhenanrenhanshiweilijiazadenvrenweihuaxiang,woqingqingtuikaita,xindizhishengfengci。

ganghelingyigenvrenniwaiwan,zhuantouyoulaiwomianqianbiaoyantadeai。

libeichen,dangzhenshihaoyanji。

zaitaitou,woyishuangyanmouzaiwubandianbolan,zhiningzhetawen:“nihaixiangrangwojinishenghaizima?”

libeichenlianseyibian,banguizaidishang,jinjinzhuazhuwodeshou,yuqizhengzhong:“chuchu,nishibushiyouxiangqineigeliudiaodebaobaole?”

“wobuzaihuhaizi,wozhiyaonijianjiankangkangdiliuzaiwoshenbian。shengyufengxiantaida,woshebudenishouku。”

shishebudewoshouku,haishigenbenjiubuxiangyaowodehaizi?

woyijingfenbuqingzheinanrenyanzhongshizhenxinhaishijiayi,zhifukaitadeshou:“woleile,xiangzijidaiyihuier。”

libeichenmeitouzhouqi,youyuliangjiucaidaying:“hao,neiwoxianchuqu。”

shuowan,taqishenzoudaomenkou,yourenbuzhuhuitou:“woyijingrangxiaomahuilaozhaile,tabijingshizhangbei,zhuzaizheiliduoyoububian。”