第1章 自尽

bieshudeanshilihunanbingleng。

anshilimeiyoudeng,chuangzibeitietiaohansi,tiemenyeshanglesandaodasuo。shenzhentangzaibinglengdechuangshang,beisuozhe,kaoshangdetielianyanshenchuqugudingzaiqiangshang。

taquansuozhebaojinziji,queruheyequsanbuleshenshanghexintoudehanleng。

yongrenmendouyiweitashijingshenbinghuanzhe,caihuibeizheiyangguanzaizheili,neigenanrenshenzhinachuleweizaodeyiliaojiandingshu。

kebushide……bushide!

tazhishiyigeweilesuoweideaiqing,paoqiyiqie,wunifumu,quebeishenaidenanrensuofu,guanzaizheilizhengzhengsanniandeshanvren。

tameiyoufeng,zhishitaishale。shaderangzijidoujuedekexiao。

mensuoxiangle,shenzhenxiayishizuoqishenzi,naohailiqueshanxianchucongqiandelingruhetongku。tamanmandi、manmandituidaoqiangjiao。

shangzhuochaogaodadeshenyingchuxianzaitadeshiyeli,tayanleikongzhibuzhudiluoxia,nannandao:“fangwochuqu……”

shangzhuochaoqingmiedipieletayiyan,zhongzhongshuaishangmen,yishenglengheng,bianbatashuaidaolechuangshang。

tadezhengzhafanergengjiqinanrendeliqi,nanrendechaofengzaierpanxiangqi:“zenyang,goukaixinme?shenxiaojiepinlemingyeyaojiajiwo,rujinduiwokesuanmanyi?”

“weishenmezheimeduiwo……fangguowo,qiunile,fangguowo!”

沈真哽咽着哀求。

“dangchukeshishenxiaojiebuguyiqiedexiantieshanglai,zenme,houhuile?”

shangzhuochaodemouziqingmiedidingzheta,shenzhencuranzhengzhu,xintouyizhenjiaotong。

后悔么?

shigaihouhuia,kexiaodeshizijizheisannianjingmeiyounapayishunjianhouhuiguo!

shangzhuochaojiangtaenzaiqiangshang:“houhui?shenxiaojiezheiyangderennandaoyehuihouhui?nizhishibeiguanzaizheilisannian,erqiaomanhenkenenghuibeikunzaiwuyishideheianliyibeizi,erwoyeyongyuanshiqulewodehaizi!shenzhen,niyoushenmezigeshuohouhui?”

shenzhendeyanleisusuluoxia:“duibuqi,wocuole……wo,wobushiyouyide……”

tameixiangdao,tahezijideguimiqiaomanyoulechuangzizhihuan!tagengmeixiangdaoneiciyouwanhuichuleshigu,chehuorangqiaomanhunmiguoquchenglezhiwuren,gengshiqulecaiyigeyuedetaier,ketaquehuolexialai,haofaweisun。

“suibiandongdongzui,shuojijuhua,jiuxiwangworaoshuni?”

shangzhuochaolengxiao,“shenzhen,nizuomeng。ruguoqiaomanxingbuguolai,nijiudengzhezaizheilidaiyibeiziba。”

尚卓超走了。

shenzhenqueyijiuxiangshuaipoledebuou,ruantataditangzaineili,shensekongmangjuewang,xinzhongyinyinyouguodeyisixiwang,rujinquandouposuidiaole。

dagaiyiqiecongkaishideshihoujiushicuode。tayiweideqingmeizhumawanmeiaiqing,yuanlaidoushijiade;tapeibanleshangzhuochaoshijinian,quedibuguotakanqiaomandeququjiyan。

只是独角戏。

takusedixiaolexiao,shenchushouqu,goudaolezijizangqilaibenzhunbeitaochuquyongdeyikuaisuicipian。

cipiangeposhouwan,xianxuepenyongerchu。shengmingjianjianxiaoshideshunjian,shenzhenyanqianfangfochuxianleshangzhuochaodelian……

wangdiaoba,wangdiaozijiaiguota。

siwangkeyixiaochuyiqie。tabuxiangzailiuzaizheimecankudeshijielile,zheigeduibierencanku,duizijiyecankudeshijieli……

zaijianle,shangzhuochao,duibuqi。

xiwangwodesi,nengpingxinidefenmen……