第三章 改变自己

wangchongxinzhongshichongmankuijiude。

muqindefanyingwangchongshikanzaiyanlide,jinjinzhishirengecuo,daogeqian,duanduanzhengzhengzuozaicanzhuobian,jiunengrangmuqingaoxingchengzheiyangzi,kejianqianshidezijishiduomedehunzhang。

qianyishideziji,bushoukongzhideconglingyigeshijiechuanyueguolai,duiyiqiedoujujuejieshou。suirantamenyizhibazijidangchengqinshengerzi,danneixinshenchu,wangchongzongrenweizheibushizijideqinshengfumu。

suoyi,neixinzhongwangchonghetamenzongyoushenshendeshuyuangan。

zheiyeshiqianyishiwangchongbupazhangda,bupazefa,butingjiaohuideyuanyin。wangchongzongrenweizheibushizijideshijie,zijizhishizheilideguoke。

suoyouderen,suoyoudeshi……,doushizijirenshengzhongcongcongyanyunpaomo。danshishizhengmingzijidacuotecuo。

zhiyoushiquderen,caizhidaozhenxi;zhiyouyiwusuoyouderen,caizhidaoyiqieyouduomedekegui!

qianyishideziji,jinglineiyichangjubian,jiadaozhongluozhihou,benlaiyiweizijiyiwangdebiaoxian,huirangfuqin、muqinheqinrenhuifangqiziji。

danshiqiaqiashitamen,zaizuijiankudeshihou,zuikunnan,yourufupingbanpiaoboderiziliduizijibulibuqi,shizhongzhaogururi。

zhiyaohaiyouyikoufanchi,zijizongshineigezuixianchidaode。

xiangxiangmuqinwushisuibudaoderen,jiumantoudebaifa,xianggeliuqishisuidelaoren,wangchongxinzhongjiuchongmanlefuzuigan。

zuihoudeyike,muqinshisizaizijihuailide。dangneiweiweideshentidaoxiadeyike,wangchongcaijingjuedaotadeshentishirucideshouruo。

王冲的心在淌血。

yeshizaineiyike,wangchongdexinsuile,bengkuile,chedidesile。cihoudesanshinian,neigehuozhedewangchongzhishiyigequqiaoa。

niangqina!niweishenmeyaoduiwozheimehaoa?

neiyike,wangchongxinzhonghuqi,zaibangbodedayuzhongfachubeihao。neishitazaizheigeshijiediyicitongku。neiyike,zhenggeshijiedoubengtale!

wangchongfanranxingwu,keshiyiqiedoutaiwan,taiwanle!

huoxushimingmingzhongdeshangcangtingdaolezijidexinsheng,youzhongxinjilezijiyicicongtoukaishidejihui。kanzhecancanpangdemuqin,wangchongxinzhongsuansuan。

niangqin,nifangxin。zheiyishi,wojueduibuhuizairangnishangxin,yejuebuhuirangrenherenzaishanghaini。renheren!

wangchongzaizhuozidixianiezhequantou,xinzhongananfashi。

“lai,chicai,chicai!doudongkuaizichi,youshenmeshi,yihouzaishuo。”

wangfurenzhaoshuhuaxinqingdahao,naqikuaizi,jiwangchongdediezilijialeyidakuaisuruan、jiaocuideshaoji。

“niangqin,niyechiba!”

wangchongnaqikuaizi,yewangmuqinzhaoshuhuawanlijialeyidakuai。

wangfurenxinhuaidawei,jiubanzhelian,duiwangchonghenbumandewangfuyeliansexiaojielexuduo。sangangwuchang,xiaozidiyi,zheixiaozijuranzhidaojitamuqinjiacai,zheishihendadejinbu。

xiangbizheicinaochuzheimedadeshiqing,tazhendexingwule。xiangdaozheili,wangyanxinzhongneigeniantougengjiazhenqiele。

“die,niang,chenzhezheicijihui,youjianshiqingwoxianggennimenshuoyixia,xiwangnimennengdaying。”

zaisuoyourenzhunbeikaidongshihou,wangchongquefangxialekuaizhu,tademuguangyingdong,sicunzheshuochulingyifanhualai。

“niyouxiangzuoshenme?”

wangchongbushuohaishuo,yishuo,wangfulijilianseyichen,muguangbinglengwubi。zheichusheng,ganchuzheiyangdeshiqing,haiyiweitazhendebianhaole,quebuxianghaishijiangshanyigai,bingxingnanyi。

zhiqianshuoleneimeduohua,biaoxianneimeguai,yuanlaidoushiweilexianzaigenzijitantiaojian。tadaoyaokankanzheinizidaodihaixiangganshenme。

“chonger,nixiangshuoshenme?”

wangfurendaomeiyouxiangwangfuneiyang,fanerdaganxingqu,yinyinyouxieqidaidao。dadizuixiangxinzijihaizideyongyuanshizuomuqinde,congzheiyidian,wangfurendaomeixiangwangfuneiyangxiangneimeduo。

“die,niang,woxianglehenjiu……”

wangchongdizhetou,yiliansikaozhuang,nengbunengzhongxinyingdefumudexinren,jiukanzheijianshile。wangchongxinzhijiexialaishuochulaidehua,jianghuiduizijifeichangzhongyao。

“woxiangqucanjun!”

王冲道。

huashengyiluo,datangzhendong,yishanei,datanglisuoyourendoujingdaile。wangchongqianmianshuodehuaquanbujiaqilai,douburuzheijulaidezhenhan。

wangfurenzuichunrudong,zhengzhengdekanzhezijideerzi,xiangshuoshenmequeyouwanquanshuobuchulai。zheigexiaoxichongjixingtaidale,taxuyaoshijianxiaohuaxiaohua。

jiulianpangbianyizhiduiwangchonglengyanlise,lianzhengyandoumeiqiaojiyandewangfu,zheigeshihougangyidelianpangshangyeluchulejingchadaolejidiandeshense。

tashizhanchangshangtangtanglingbingdajiang,jiusuantaishanbengyuyanqianyebuhuizhayixiameitou。danwangchongshuodezheijianshiqing,duitalaishuozhenjingshizaitaidale。

zijizheigeerzitaiguowanliele,zhengtianyoushouhaoxian,haowushangjinzhixin,jingjiejiaoyiqunbusanbusidehupenggouyou,zheicigengganchuleqiangqiangminnvdeshiqing,rangzhenggewangjialianmianwucun,lunweixiaobing。

taxinzhongtongdingsitong,zhongyujuedingbawangchongtiqiansongrujunyingzhizhong。junyingzhizhongzuinengduanlianren,huoxuzhiyoujunyinggaibiandelezijizheigewunizhizi。

zheijianshiqing,jibianwangchongbuti,tabenlaiyeshizhunbeizaifanzhuoshangtichulaide。neixinzhongzaojiuxianghaole,buguanwangmutongbutongyi,wangchongyuanbuyuanyi,zheijianshiqingdoushibanshangdingding,buronggenggai。

meixiangdao,wangchongjuranzhudongtichulaile。

zhengshiyinweizhidaozijiazheigenizipingchangshishenmeyangderen,suoyiwangfucaishenshenweizhidongrong,yegengjiazhidaozheifanjuexin,zaiwangchongshenshangshiduomedeburongyi。

canjunbushiqingkechifan,qizhongdeweixianwuyongzhuiyan。ruguoshuozhiqiandebiaoxian,haijinjinzhishiyixiexiaoxinji,neicanjunzheijianshiqingkejiubushikaiwanxiaole。

langzihuitoujinbuhuan,nandaoshuojinglileneimeduodeshiqing,zijizheigenizizhendexixingeming,fanranxingwule?

zheiyichanei,wangfuxinzhongxinxibuyi。takaishiyoudianxiangxin,zijidehaizishizhendebianle。

wangchongchayanguanse,zhidaozijidefahua,fahuilexiaoguo。

liangshiweiren,wangchongshenshendezhidao,zheicidejiatingcanzhuoshang,jibianzijibuti,fuqinyeshijijianghuitichurangzijicanjundeshiqingyizuoweichengfa。

qianshideshihou,zijihaifankangdehenjiu。danwanquanmeiyouyong,fuqinjuexinyiding,buronggenggai。zheiyishi,jiranzhidaolezheijianshiqingburonggenggai,haiburuzhudongtichulai。

zheiyangyenenggoubangzhuzijigaibianzaifuqinxinmuzhongdeyinxiang,zhongxinyinghuifuqindexinren!

erqie,zixihuixiang,qishizheijianshiyebushihuaishi。zhishidaodiyaozenmezuo,jiuhenzhidesiliangle。

“chonger,nidenianjicanjunhaixiaoleyidian。buguo,zheiyebushishenmedabuledeshi。nixianghaoleyaocanjianagedifangma?wohuitiqianxiangtamendagezhaohu。”

王父道。

tayiqianjiaowangchongdoushinizinizide,danzheicijuranzhudongjiaochule“chonger”,kejianwangchongdejuedingqueshirangtafeichanggaoxing。

“fuqin,woxianghaole,woxiangxiancongxunlianyingkaishi。datiehaiyaozishenying,woxianxiangqucanjiakunwuxunlianying,zishendegongfuxianmolianhaole,ranhouzaiqucanjiazhengguijun。”

wangchongshuochulezijisikaoyijiudehua。

“kunwuxunlianying?”

wangfuzhendejingya。tagangcongchaotinglidedaoxiaoxi,bixiazuoxiajueding,zhunbeishelikunwu、shenwei、longweisandayingdi,tichaotingxunlianshaonianjun。

zheicaiganggangmeiduojiudeshi,zheimeyinmi,zheinizizenmezhidao?

danzhuannianyixiang,zheiniziyiqianjingjiejiaoyixiebusanbusidehupenggouyou,tahuoxubiededifangtinglaideyeweikezhi。

“weishenmehuixuanzekunwuxunlianying?”

wangfuhenkuaizhendingxialai,chenshengdao:

“qitahaiyoushenwei、longweiliangdaxunlianying。kunwuzhishizhenduineixieputongjianglingzidide。ershenwei、longweidejibiebikunwuhaiyaogao,shizhuanmenzhenduijingchengdewanghou、quanguizidide。xiangxin,neilidexunlianyinggaibikunwuwanshan、gaojixuduo。”

“neilidehua,yihouhuoxuhuiduinideqiantuyoubangzhu。niruguoxianghaoledehua,wokeyixiangbangzhuliyongniyeyedeyingxiang,rangnijiarushenwei、longweiliangdayingdi。”

wangfuzhishilingbingzaiwaidebianchuijiangling,jiangbushishenmewanghou,congzheiyidianlaishuo,wangchongyezhinengsuanshiputongdejiangxiangzidi。

danshiwangchongdeyeyequebutong,benchaoyiqiannaishiconglongdegongchen,fuchibenchaobixiashunlidengji,houlaigengshishengrenzuoxiangyixian,menshenggujiubianbuchaoye。

xianzaisuirantuixialaile,danshiyingxianghaizai。

wangfushuoliyongwangchongyenideyingxiangli,rangwangchongjiarushenwei、longweiliangdaxunlianyingdineishiyidianwentidoumeiyoude。

wangchongchenmobuyu。fuqindaoshiyipianhaoxin,buguowangchongxinzhiduming,yuwangfushuodexiangfan,sandayingdilimiankunwucaishizuihaodexuanze。

dangjinshengshangyingmingshenwu,shangyishideshihouyeshizheigeshihou,weilecongjingchengdejiangxiangwanghou,yijisuoyouquanguizidizhongxuanxianrenneng,tiaoxuanchuheshidejingchengzidizuchengshaonianjun,caishelilekunwu、shenwei、longweisandaxunlianyingdi。

xianzaisandayingdicaochuang,yiqiehaibuminglang。renrendouhairenweishenwei、longweidejibiechaochukunwu,shizuihaodexuanze。

zhihoudehenzhangyiduanshijianli,douhuiyoudaliangderenxiangponaojian,jiponaodai,xiangyaocanjiazheiliangdayingdi。buguo,wangchongzhidaorihoushijianhuizhengming,kunwucaishizuihaodexuanze。

zaiwanghouderizili,dangneichangtaotiandedadongluanlailin,laoyibeidejiangxiangfenfenyunluo,zhenggedatangdiguohouqidezuijingruidejiangxingjihujiuchengyishangdouchuzizheigekunwuxunlianying。

buguozheixiexianzaiqueshibuhaoxiangfuqinmingshuode。

“fuqin,woxianghaole,haishikunwushihewoyixie。zaijingchengzheimexienian,shangjingchengdewanggongzidiwojibendourenshi。fuqinxiangsongwoqushenwei、longwei,qitarenkendingyeshizheimexiangde。ruguozaijinqushenwei、longweiliangdaxunyinglian,qibushiyouhuiqidaomazhoutamen?”

wangchongzhinenglingwaibianxiejiekoulaitangsai。

wangfubenlaishifanduide,danhoulaixiangxiang,wangchongheneixiehupenggouyoudeshiqingcaiganggangshifameiduojiu。haoburongyiwangchongxixingeming,caiganggangyouxiezhangjin,ruguozaihemazhouneixierenhunzaiyiqi,yaoshigutaimengfaqibushizhuihuimoji,shiqulezijisongtaquxunlianyingdebenyile。

“jirannixianghaole,neijiuanzhaonishuodequbanba。”

王父皱着眉头道。

suiranbushihenzantongwangchongdejueding,danwangchongshuodeyebingbuwudaoli,suanshimianqiangjieshoulewangchongdezheigejieshi。

“nimenfuziyoushenmezhengshiyaoshuo,dengdaofanhouzaishuo。chonger,bielinifuqin,lai,kuaichicai,chicai!”

yipang,wangfurentingdezhenzhenqieqie,gewaidegaoxing。

gangkaishitingshuowangchongyaocanjun,tazhenshiheleyitiao,xinliyeshichourongmanmian。houlaitingdaozhishiquxunlianyingcaisonglekouqi。

wangjiashijiangxiangzhimen,wangchongjinnianzhiyoushiwusui,xianqucanjiaxunlianying,ranhouzaiqucanjun,duiwangfurenlaishuoyebushibukeyijieshou。

zaishangjingchengdejiangxiangzhimenjihudoushiruci。zuoweijiangxiangzidi,suoyoudehaizimenchizaodoubixudengshangzhanchang。

zheishishangjingchengdefurenmenyikaishijiubixuyoudejuewude。

wangchongbuzaiduoshuo,shiqiwankuai,kaidongqilai。

“buzhidao,yihuier,fuqinhuibuhuibawodehuatingqiqu。”

wangchongxinzhongyouxietantedao。

suiranchenggongdegaibianlefumuduizijiyiwangguyoudeyinxiang,danwangchongxinzhiduming,zheijinjinshidiyibu,jiexialaicaishizuizhongyaode!