第4章
quqingmengjingranmianbugaisedetaiqitui，yixunleibujiyanerzhishijilequhuaixinyijiao，judadeshengxiangcemianchentuozhetadeliduzhida。
“啊！”
quhuaixincubujifangdebeichuaidaozaidihou，xianshiweiweidemengleyishun，jiezhebianrenbuzhutonghuchusheng，yanshenzhongmanmandequanshinanyizhixin。
她被打了？
tabeiquqingmengzheigefeiwudale？
到底是怎么回事！
zheigefeiwushizenmegandea！
nuhuozaiquhuaixindexiongzhongbutingdefanteng，yachidoubeitayaodegegezuoxiang，kejiuzaijijiangbaofadeshihou，taqueyingshengshengderenzhule。
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bunengfahuo，bunengfahuo！
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【shenmeqingkuang？zenmeturanchuairena？youmeiyouwangfalea？】
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“buhaoyisi，woxiangnikenenggaocuoleshenme......woduisizhifada、tounaojiandan，yanguangjichahaishigelianainaodenanrengengmeixingqu！
“你——”
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【yanguangcha？？quqingmengshiduiyanguangchayoushenmewujiema？ruguoxihuanhuaixinmeimeihaijiaoyanguangchadehua，neishenmejiaoyanguanghaoa？xihuannima？】
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