neijuhuaxiangyiketourupingjinghumiandeshizi，jiqidelianyiwushengquejijuliliang。womeiyoutigaoyinliang，yemeiyourenhezhizedeyiwei，zhishizaichenshuyigebinglengerkeguandeshishi。kezhengshizheizhongpingjing，caizuilingrenwulifanbo。
mengwandelianseyouhongzhuanbai，youyoubaizhuanqing，zuizhong，neixuanzaiyankuanglideleishuihaishidiaolexialai。tazuichunxidongzhe，xiangshuoshenme，queyigeziyetubuchulai，zhinengyongyizhongjiqitongkuhekuijiudeyanshenkanzhewo。
“sunian！”suchengyidichendeshengyindapolejiangju，daizheyisiyanlidejinggao，“zenmegennimamashuohuade？”
wotaiqiyan，yingshangtaruilidemuguang，bubeibukang：“woshuocuolema？suxiansheng。”
yisheng“suxiansheng”，shunjianlakailewomenzhijiandejuli。wozaitixingta，yetixingwoziji，womenzhijianchuleneiyizhangjiandingbaogao，meiyourenheqingganjichukeyan。tameiyouzigeyongfuqindekouwenlaijiaoxunwo。
suchengyidemeitoujinjindizhouleqilai，taxianranmeiliaodaowojingganrucizhijiedidingzhuangta。tashenshangneizhongjiujushangweideyapoganshunjianshifangchulai，zhenggecantingdeqiyadoufangfodilejifen。
jiuzaizheijianbanuzhangdeshike，suyaozaiciqiadaohaochudikailekou。
“baba，ninbieshengqi。”tazhanqishen，zoudaomengwanshenbian，qingqingdipaizhetadebeianfu，tongshiyongyizhongdaizheqianyideyanshenkanzhewo，“meimeiyebushiguyide，tazhishi……zhishiganghuilai，xinlihaiyouxieweiquhebushiying。womenyinggaiduotiliangta。”
tayouyicibanyanqileheshilaodejiaose，sanyanliangyujiujiangwodefanjidingxingwei“xiaohaizinaoqingxu”，tongshihaichentuochutadekuanrongdadu。
“shia，chengyi，nibieguaihaizi。”mengwanyehuiguoshenlai，yongshoupacazheyanlei，shengyingengyan，“niannianshuodedui，shiwozheigezuomamadeshizhi，wobupeidedaotadeyuanliang……”
tayiku，suchengyideliansedunshihuanhelexialai。tatanlekouqi，kanxiangwodeyanshenfuzalejifen，youbuyue，dangengduodeshiyizhongwunai。
“chifanba。”tahuilehuishou，shiyizheijianshijiucijieguo。
zhangmashoujiaomalidijiangneipanhuangjinxiaqiuchelexiaqu，cantinglideqifenquezaiyehuibudaozuichudehexie。zheidunfan，zaiyizhongguiyidechenmozhongcaocaojieshu。
fanhou，suchengyibawojiaojinleshufang。
shufanghenda，yizhengmianqiangdoushidingtianlididehongmushujia，shangmianbaimanlegezhongjingzhuangshuji，kongqizhongmimanzheyigudandandemoxianghexueqiedeweidao。
tazuozaikuandadebangongzhuohou，shiyiwozuozaiduimiandeyizishang。
“sunian，”tashizhijiaocha，fangzaizhuoshang，muguangchenjingdikanzhewo，“wozhidaonixinliyouyuanqi，zheihenzhengchang。sujiakuiqianlenishibanian，zheiyidian，womenchengren，yehuijinquanlibuchangni。”
“danshi，”tahuafengyizhuan，yuqibiandeyansuqilai，“buchang，budaibiaozongrong。zaizheigejiali，youzheigejiadeguiju。mengwan……nimamata，shentibuhao，qingxubunengyoutai**dong。woxiwangniyihou，nengzhuyizijideyanxing。”
wojingjingditingzhe，meiyoushuohua。
yuanlai，tajiaowojinlai，bushiweilefunvtanxin，ershiweilejinggaowo，buyaoshanghaitaxinaideqizi。zaitaxinli，mengwandeqingxu，biwoshibaniandeweiqugengzhongyao。
“zhiyuyaoyao，”tajixushuodao，“wozhidaonimenzhijiankenenghuiyouxie……bieniu。danyaoyaoshigeshanliangdongshidehaizi，taduiniyebingwueyi。tazaizheigejialishenghuoleshibanian，shiwomendenver，zheiyidian，wulunguoquhaishijianglai，doubuhuigaibian。woxiwangnimennengxiangqinjiemeiyiyanghemuxiangchu。”
“qinjiemei？”wozhongyurenbuzhu，qingxiaoleyisheng，xiaoshenglidaizheyisichaofeng，“suxiansheng，ninjuedekenengma？yigejiuzhanquechao，yigewuguiyuanzhu，womentianshengjiushidiren。”
wodezhibairangsuchengyideliansechedichenlexialai。
“sunian！zhuyinidecuoci！”tajiazhongleyuqi，“shenmejiuzhanquechao？dangniandeshi，yaoyaoshiwugude！tashenzhishenmedoubuzhidao！”
“tashiwugude，nandaowojiuyouzuima？”wohaobuweijudihuishizheta，“wobeidongdichengshoulebengaishuyutaderensheng，chileshibaniandeku，xianzaiwohuilaile，ninqueyaoqiuwoqutiliangta，hetazuoqinjiemei？ninbujuede，zheiduiwotaibugongpinglema？”
“gongping？”suchengyideyanshenbiandeyufashensui，takaozaiyibeishang，lenglengdikanzhewo，“zheigeshijie，conglaijiumeiyoujueduidegongping。sunian，niyijingbushineigezaixiaoxiangzilizhangdadejiangnianle。zuoweisujiadenver，nishouxianyaoxuehuide，jiushishenshidushi，guquandaju。”
“什么叫大局？”
“dajujiushi，sujiabunengyouchouwen。nishizhenqianjin，yaoyaoshiyangnv，zheijianshichuanchuqu，duisujiademingyu，duiyaoyaodeweilai，douhuizaochengbukeguliangdeyingxiang。”tayiziyijudishuo，“suoyi，duiwai，nimenjiushiyiduiganqingshenhoudeqinjiemei。yaoyaoshinicongxiaozoushi，zuijincaizhaohuilaidejiejie。erni，shisujiacongxiaoyangdadeer**。zheigeshuofa，wohuiranggongguanbuquchuli，nizhixuyaopeihe。”
我愣住了。
woyiwei，tamenjiewohuilai，shixiangboluanfanzheng。
quemeixiangdao，tamenzhishixiangbawonaruyigeyijingxiehaodejubenli，banyanyigewuzuqingzhongdejiaose。
weilesujiademingyu，weiletasuchengyidemianzi，weiletaneigewanmeideyangnvsuyao，wozheige“zhen”qianjin，faneryaobiancheng“jia”de，chengweineigebeizhaohuilaide“jiejie”。
真是天大的讽刺。
“ruguowobupeiheni？”wolenglengdiwen。
“nimeiyouxuanze。”suchengyideyuqiburongzhihui，“sujianengjinizuihaodejiaoyu，zuiyouwodeshenghuo，zuiguangkuodeweilai。zheiyiqie，doushiniguoqulianxiangdoubuganxiangde。zuoweijiaohuan，nixuyaofuchude，jinjinshiyidianweibuzudaodepeihe。zheibijiaoyi，henhuasuan。”
交易。
tayongle“jiaoyi”zheigeci。
yuanlai，zaiwozheiweiqinshengfuqinyanli，qinqing，buguoshiyichangmingmabiaojiadejiaoyi。
wokanzhetaneizhanglengyingde、budaisihaoganqingdelian，xindizuihouyidianduiqinqingdehuanxiang，yechedipomiele。
“womingbaile。”wozhanqishen，pingjingdishuo，“wohuipeiheninde。suxiansheng。”
shuowan，womeiyouzaikantayiyan，zhuanshenlikaileshufang。
huidaoneigefensede、moshengdefangjian，wofansuoshangmen，jiangzijizhongzhongdishuaizairouruandedachuangshang。womeiyouku，zhishizhengzheyanjing，yidongbudongdikanzhetianhuabanshangxujiadetiankong。
大脑在飞速地运转。
suchengyidehua，rangwochedirenqinglewozaizheigejialidechujing。wobushitamenshierfudedebaobei，gengxiangshiyigexuyaobeituoshanchulide“mafan”。tamenduiwodekuijiushiyouxiande，zheizhongkuijiu，yuanbuzuyihandongsuyaoshibanianlaizaizheigejialijianlidediwei。
woxiangyaozaizheigejializhanwenjiaogen，xiangyaonahuishuyuwodeyiqie，jiubunengyikaotamenlianjiadeshishehekuijiu。
我只能靠自己。
suchengyishuodedui，sujianengjiwozuihaodeziyuan。erwo，yaozuodejiushiliyongzheixieziyuan，rangzijibiandezugouqiangda。qiangdadao，tamenwufazaihushiwo，wufazaiqingyidibaibuwo。
suyaodeyoushizaiyu，tayoushibaniandeshijianlaijingyingziji，tayouya、deti、duocaiduoyi，shisuoyourenyanzhongdewanmeimingyuan。
erwodeyoushi，shitamenduiwodebulejie，yiji……woguzilineiguzaidicengshenghuozhongmolichulaide、burenshudehenjing。
congmingtianqi，bu，congxianzaiqi，jiangnianyijingsile。
huoxialaide，shisunian。yigedongdeliyongguize，yeganyudapoguizedesunian。
diertianyizao，woqidehenzao。
womeiyouchuanzhangmajiwozhunbeideneixiexinyifu，ershiyijiuchuanshanglewozijideneishenxidefabaidexiaofu。dangwocongloushangzouxialaishi，sujiayijiasankouzhengzuozaicanzhuoqian，xiangyongzhefengshengdezaocan。
suyaochuanzheyizhongbitingdexiaofu，chenshandelingkoudazhejingzhidehudiejie，zhenggerenkanqilaiqingshuangyouganlian。kandaowoshenshangdeyifu，tayanzhongshanguoyisibiyi，danhenkuaijiubeidanyousuoqudai。
“meimei，nizenmehaichuanzheishenyifuya？bababushirangrenjinizhunbeilexinxiaofuma？”taguanqiediwen。
“woxiguanle。”wodandandihuida，jingzhizoudaocanzhuoqianzuoxia。
“zheizenmexing？”mengwanlikezhouqilemeitou，“jintianshinidiyitianquyizhong，chuanchengzheiyang，huibeitongxuexiaohuade。”
“xiaohuashenme？”wonaqiyipiantusi，mantiaosilidimoshanghuangyou，“xiaohuawoqiongma？kewoxianzaishisujiadenver，bushima？ruguosujiadenver，lianchuanzijijiuyifudeziyoudoumeiyou，neizheigeshenfen，buyaoyeba。”
wodehuarangmengwanhesuyaodouyezhule。
suchengyitaiqitou，shenshendikanlewoyiyan，quemeiyoushuohua，suanshimoxulewodexingwei。
wozhidao，wobixucongzheixiexiaoshishangkaishi，yidiandianjisuitamenshituqiangjiazaiwoshenshangde“mingyuan”jiasuo，jianlishuyuwozijideguizehebianjie。
quxuexiaodecheshang，zhiyouwohesuyaolianggeren。
sijikaizheyiliangheisedebinli，pingwendixingshizailushang。
“meimei，wozhidaonixinlikenengduiwomenyouxiewujie。”suyaolvxiandapolechenmo，tadeyuqiyirujiwangdiwenrou，“danwomenzhendeshibanidangchengyijiaren。babamamadouhenaini，woyehenxianghenizuoyiduihaojiemei。”
“shima？”wokanzhechuangwai，meiyouhuitou，“baqinshengmuqinzuinashoudecai，duanjiyigehaixianguominderen，jiushinibiaodajiemeiqingshendefangshi？”
suyaodehuxiyizhi，cheneidekongqishunjianlenglexialai。
guolejimiao，tacaizhongxinkaikou，shengyinlidaishangleyisiweiqu：“wo……wozhendebushiguyide。wozhishitaixiangrangnichangchangmamadeshouyile，yishixinji，jiuwangleneijianshi。ruguoniyinweizheigeshengwodeqi，woxiangnidaoqian。”
tadedaoqianhaowuchengyi，danwoyebuxiangzaigentajiuchanyuci。
“nidedaoqianwoshoudaole。”wozhuanguotou，kanzheta，zuijiaogouqiyimoruoyouruowudexiaoyi，“buguo，suyao，womenzhijianjiububizaiyanxile。nibuxiangwohuilaifenzounidechongaihejiachan，woyebuxianghenizuoshenmejiaxingxingdejiemei。womengepingbenshi，kansheinengzaizheigejiali，xiaodaozuihou。”
zheishiwodiyici，xiangtarucizhibaidixuanzhan。
suyaolianshangdewanmeimianjuzhongyuliekaileyidaofeng，tapiaoliangdeyanjinglishanguoyisizhenjinghenaonu。
“苏念，你……”
“woshuodebuduima？”wodaduanta，shentiweiweiqianqing，coujinleta，yongzhiyouwomenlianggerennengtingdaodeshengyinshuo，“nixiangshoulebengaishuyuwodeyiqie，xianzai，wohuilaile，ninandaobuyinggaigandaohaipama？”
wodeyanshenbinglengerruili，xiangyibacuiledudebishou，zhizhidicixiangtaneixinzuishenchudekongju。
suyaodelianseshunjianbiandecanbai，taxiayishidixianghousuolesuo，jinjindizuanzhulezijidequnbai。
womanyidikandaoletadefanying，zhongxinkaohuiyibei，huifuleneifuyundanfengqingdeyangzi。
wozhidao，congzheiyikeqi，womenzhijianxuweideheping，beichedisisuile。
战争，正式打响。
chezihenkuaijiudaoleyizhongmenkou。
yizhongbukuishiquanshizuihaodesiligaozhong，xiaomenqipaifeifan，jinchudexueshengyedouchuanzhedetidexiaofu，shenshangdaizheyiguzixincongrongdeqizhi。
binlichezaiyizhonghaochezhongbingbusuantebiezhayan，dandangwohesuyaoyiqicongcheshangxialaishi，haishilikexiyinlesuoyourendemuguang。
“neibushisuyaoma？tapangbianneigenvshengshisheia？chuandehaotu……”
“meijianguoa，zhuanxiaoshengma？zenmegensuyaoyiqilaide？”
“nikantamenzhangdehaiyoudianxiangni，buhuishitajiashenmeqinqiba？”
yilunshengxiangchaoshuiyiyangyonglai，wonengganjuedaowushudaotanjiu、biyi、haoqideshixianluozaiwoshenshang。
suyaoxianranhenxiangshouzheizhongwanzhongzhumudeganjue，tatingzhilebeiji，lianshangguazhewanmeideweixiao，xiangyigejiaoaodegongzhu。taqinrediwanzhuwodegebo，duizhezhouweidetongxueroushengjieshidao：“jidajiajieshaoyixia，zheishiwomeimei，sunian。tayiqianshentibuhao，yizhizaiguowaixiuyang，zuijincaihuiguozhuandaowomenxuexiaolai。”
taanzhaosuchengyidejuben，qingeryijudiweiwoanpaileyige“heli”deshenfen。
womeiyouchuochuanta，zhishirenyoutawanzhe，lianshangguazhedandandeweixiao。
wozhidao，taxiangyongzheizhongfangshilaizhangxiantadezhudaodiwei，rangsuoyourendouzhidao，woshiyifuyutaercunzaide。
jiuzaizheishi，yigegaodashuaiqidenanshengchuanguorenqun，xiangwomenzoulai。tachuanzhehewomenyiyangdexiaofu，chenshandekouzisuiyidijiekailiangke，zuijiaoqinzheyimowanshibugongdexiao，zhenggerensanfazheyizhongyangguangyoulvedaipiqidemeili。
tayichuxian，zhouweidenvshenglikefachuyizhenxiaoxiaodesaodong。
“是陆学长！”
“陆学长好帅啊！”
wokandaosuyaodeyanjingshunjianliangle，lianjiashangyefeiqiyimokeyidehongyun。tasongkaiwodeshou，tizhequnbai，yingleshangqu。
“azhe，nijintianzenmezheimezaojiulaile？”tadeshengyinjiaoqiaodenengqiachushuilai。
neigejiao“azhe”denansheng，muguangqueyueguoleta，luozailewodeshenshang。tadeyanshenlidaizheyisiwanweidetanjiu，congtoudaojiaodijiangwodaliangleyibian。
“yaoyao，bujieshaoyixiama？”tatiaoletiaomei，zuijiaoxiaoyigengshen，“nishenmeshihouduolegezheime……posudemeimei？”